I noticed that Xu Minyou was a little strange when Song Yan came to the infirmary to find me.
That day, Guo Jiani pushed me, and I was also absent-minded, so I fell really hard.
Song Yan was going to take me to the infirmary. I was sighing, "I took Guo Jiani in the morning and I took her in the afternoon. How could I know that Xu Minyou showed up halfway?" He cleaned my wound and applied medicine. Later, Song Yan found Dr. Jiang, who checked me carefully and said that I didn't have any broken bones. I should stay out of the water and take good care of myself for a few days.
Thanks to this wound, I did not participate in the subsequent military training.
That day, Song Yan was talking to Xu Minyou. I don't know if it was because he was too cold or what, but he ignored Song Yan from beginning to end. Finally, I couldn't help but say a few words. It's strange, as long as I asked him, he would answer me. Later, Song Yan joked about treating me to a meal. I thought I really needed to treat Xu Minyou to a meal, otherwise I would feel a little guilty about asking a stranger to help me.
When I asked him for his phone number, I was a little nervous. I always felt that it would be inappropriate for a girl to ask a boy for his number. Besides, a boy as handsome as him must have a lot of girls who like him and pursue him. If I asked him for his number, people would probably misunderstand that I had feelings for him.
Sure enough, he rejected me with a cold expression, but unexpectedly, he asked for my number. I think he probably didn't want to embarrass me.
I had given up hope, but at night, I received a call from him. He didn't just ignore me, he really called me, which touched me a little. I thought someone like him must be the cold type who would keep people at a distance.
After hanging up the phone, I was about to get some hot water to wipe my body when Guo Jiani suddenly appeared beside me and asked, "Who's calling?"
I was so shocked that I almost dropped my phone. “It was the boy who sent me to the infirmary.”
"It's not Song Yan." She said, her voice a little strange, she looked me up and down, her eyes were incomprehensible to me, "I didn't expect you to be so amazing, you actually know so many handsome guys."
"Uh, I don't know him." I felt a little uncomfortable. Being stared at by her like this, I felt like sitting on pins and needles. "Maybe he was just passing by and was trying to help out."
"Haha, there are so many Lei Fengs these days." Guo Jiani obviously didn't believe it. "You still don't recognize me like that? Don't worry, no one will compete with you for it."
My heart suddenly sank and I subconsciously looked at her. The look in her eyes when she looked at Song Yan could not deceive my eyes.
She pulled a stool and sat next to me. There was no one else in the dormitory at that time. Wang Sisi had not returned from the library yet, and Lu Feifei had just gone out and was not here either, so there were only Guo Jiani and I in the dormitory.
I didn't know what she was going to do. After she sat down next to me, she didn't do anything. She just looked at the gauze on my knee and then the wound on my palm. She said, "I didn't push you on purpose before. You didn't tell anyone, did you?"
I shook my head and said, "It was my own carelessness. It has nothing to do with you."
"Hmph." She stood up, poured hot water, wrung out the towel and handed it to me, "Wipe your face. I'm not that bad. It's my responsibility that you fell. Let me help you before your hands can touch the water."
"Thank you." I originally wanted to say no, but Guo Jiani was obviously not the kind of person who could be easily rejected.
I wiped my face and handed the towel to her silently. She wrung it out for me and took it. Since I couldn't take a shower, I could only wipe my body with the towel. I felt a little embarrassed to take off my clothes in front of someone I just met, so I went into the bathroom. Guo Jiani didn't say anything, but just wrung out the towel and handed it in. I wiped my body awkwardly.
She brought a basin of hot water and placed it in front of me: "Just soak your feet in it."
I looked at Guo Jiani, who had fair skin and waist-length hair under the light, and suddenly felt that Guo Jiani was not bad. Even if she also liked Song Yan, Song Yan was not mine alone. I just had a crush on him. I was just his high school classmate. Apart from that, we had no relationship.
Why am I the only one who likes him and others can't?
"Thank you," I said sincerely, feeling that I was even worse by comparison.
"Lu Nanxi, tell me about Song Yan. Aren't you high school classmates? You must know him very well, and... you should have a very good relationship." She suddenly changed the subject.
I didn't react for a moment, and she continued, "Lu Nanxi, are you...?"
"We are just classmates." I interrupted what she was about to say. In fact, when Guo Jiani asked this, she must have already discovered the secret in my heart. I interrupted her like this, but I was just trying to cover up my mistake. I thought that if I didn't say it out loud, she wouldn't know.
"We were indeed high school classmates, but no matter how you look at it, Song Yan and I wouldn't be very familiar with each other. Most of his friends are the same as him." I said, with a trace of inconsolable melancholy in my heart, "So a person like that and I can only be classmates."
Guo Jiani was stunned for a moment, as if she had not expected me to answer like this. She was silent for a long time before she stood up and took the basin where I soaked my feet to help pour out the water. She stood in front of me and finally said, "So, you just have a one-sided crush on him?"
My heart felt like a huge rock had fallen, and my chest felt heavy. I felt like vomiting and my stomach was crawling up. I said, "Yes, you can rest assured now. I just had a one-sided crush on him. I was just a coward who would hide in a corner and look at him occasionally, and would never dare to tell him about it."
Guo Jiani looked at me steadily, as if she wanted to know if what I said was true. She said, "Is that so? Then Lu Nanxi, let's compete fairly. You can see that I fell in love with Song Yan at first sight, and you have an advantage over me. After all, you are high school classmates."
When she said the words "high school classmates", there was a hint of sarcasm in her tone. I knew what she wanted to express. She was just saying that I was a complete loser. Even if we were high school classmates, so what? My relationship with Song Yan was nothing more than my one-sided crush on him.
"We agreed on fair competition." She said, and walked into the bathroom with her meal card. Soon, the sound of water splashing could be heard, and even her humming. She must be in a good mood taking a shower.
I suddenly wanted to go out for a walk. I felt uncomfortable staying in the dormitory.
I found a large shirt to put on, changed my shoes, grabbed my phone and walked out.
I just wanted to take a walk, but I accidentally ran into Lu Feifei and Wang Sisi.
I subconsciously took a step back and shrank into the shadow of the camphor tree, because the atmosphere between the two people was a little strange. From the light of the campus street lamp, Lu Feifei was facing me, her eyes were red, as if she had cried. Wang Sisi's high ponytail showed the owner's flamboyant and direct personality.
I always felt that the relationship between these two people was weird. It was weird from the first day they arrived in the dormitory.
"It's always been like this, as if everyone is bullying you." Wang Sisi suddenly said, "When will you change a little? Do you know that you are really annoying? I hate people like you the most. Why don't you say what you want? Why don't you say what you feel in your heart? You just silently play the role of a good person. Who wants you to be a good person?"
I was shocked. Why did Wang Sisi say that?
I remember she said something similar to me that day . She said, I hate people like you the most.
Am I disliked because I’m not frank or brave enough?
"I'm going back." Lu Feifei said, carrying a bag of instant noodles and about to walk forward.
Wang Sisi grabbed Lu Feifei's arm and shouted, "Don't leave!"
I knew it was wrong to stand in the corner and peek, but I was just too curious. Did Lu Feifei and Wang Sisi know each other before? But on the first day of school, they didn't act like they knew each other before. Could it be that something happened between them that made the two of them like this?
"You've always been like this since you were little." Wang Sisi grabbed Lu Feifei's hand and said, "At that time, I thought you were so good, but now, you're like this and I don't know what to do."
From small to large?
I was stunned. Did Wang Sisi and Lu Feifei grow up together? I suddenly remembered what Wang Sisi said loudly in the dormitory on the day of freshman registration.
She said, "Why put it here? What if it falls?"
She didn't mention anyone by name, and it never occurred to me that another reason was that she knew whose bag it belonged to.
She didn't ask Lu Feifei's name, didn't invite her to eat together, and seemed to be bullying her all the time. I never thought that these two people had such a relationship.
Today I think about it, it is raining and snowing.
How come I have never associated these two sentences from the Book of Songs with the names of these two people?
It seems that they must have had a very good relationship when they were young. What happened that caused two people who were once close to become like this?
"I just want to stay like this." Lu Feifei finally raised her head. She seemed a little helpless. Facing the aggressive Wang Sisi, she was like a child, not knowing what to do. "Is it not good to stay like this? Sisi, I know that I am really annoying like this, because even I hate myself like this."
"Will I die if I say 'bad'?" Wang Sisi couldn't help but yell, "Every time I see you like this, I feel terrible about myself. It's all your fault!"
"Yes, it's all my fault." Lu Feifei reached out and pushed her bangs aside. This was the first time I saw her with her bangs aside. I was surprised to find that Lu Feifei was actually very pretty. Why did she hide her face under her hair?
Wang Sisi's face suddenly turned pale. She looked a little embarrassed. She pushed Lu Feifei away and quickly ran into the darkness.
Lu Feifei stood for a while, then suddenly squatted down and hugged her arms tightly with both hands. From her trembling shoulders, it could be seen that she was crying.
Why did they become like this? What happened?
I walked over, squatted down and wanted to pat her shoulder, but in the end I didn't. I just stood up and continued walking.
Everyone has secrets that they want to protect. It is cruel to dig into other people's secrets without permission.
I took a walk for a while and returned to the dormitory. Wang Sisi and Lu Feifei had both gone home. Guo Jiani was sitting on the bed playing on the computer, Wang Sisi was sitting downstairs reading a book, and Lu Feifei was washing clothes. It seemed as if nothing had happened between them .
Lu Feifei turned her head and asked me, "Um...your clothes, do you want me to help you wash them?"
Wang Sisi looked back at me, as if expecting how I would answer her.
"No need, I can handle it myself." I was embarrassed to ask Lu Feifei to help me, especially after seeing her like that just now.
Wang Sisi turned her head and continued reading. Lu Feifei said "Oh" and did not insist. She just washed her clothes silently, then cleaned the dormitory and went to bed.
In the middle of the night, my knee accidentally hit the wall and I woke up in pain. I heard someone crying in the bathroom. I was startled and got out of bed quietly, walked to the door, and gently opened it. Under the dim light, Lu Feifei was wearing pajamas and squatting on the ground crying.
She was also startled when she saw someone opening the door, and looked up at me. Seeing that it was me who opened the door, she seemed relieved. She smiled at me apologetically and asked in a low voice: "I'm sorry if I scared you."
I shook my head. I had had a good sleep in the afternoon, and now I heard her crying again and I couldn't sleep at all.
I closed the door, walked over to her, and asked softly, "What's wrong with you? Are you feeling unwell?"
She smiled. At this time, Lu Feifei even took off her glasses and put her hair behind her ears. Looking at her from such a close distance, I felt that she was very beautiful. I asked curiously, "Are you okay?"
She was crying here in the middle of the night. Could it be because of the quarrel she had with Wang Sisi before?
"You...actually saw it, right?" She asked me in a low voice, "At that time, I saw you."
My heart skipped a beat and I lowered my head embarrassedly. She was facing me at that time and I thought she didn't see me, but I didn't expect that she actually saw me.
"Don't worry, I won't say anything." I said quickly.
She smiled without any concern, and this smile actually looked even prettier than Guo Jiani's. Why would such a beautiful girl hide herself and become a transparent person like me with almost zero sense of existence?
She didn't say anything, and I didn't say anything either. I just squatted with her quietly for a while.
She said, "Go back to sleep, thank you, I am much better now."
"Okay." I stood up, opened the bathroom door and walked out, climbed into bed but couldn't fall asleep anymore.
I don’t know whether Lu Feifei slept well that night, or whether she was like me, staying awake all night and waiting for dawn with eyes open?
In the next few days, Guo Jiani would take the initiative to help me wring the towel and prepare hot water. Lu Feifei still had her glasses on her nose and her bangs covering most of her face. Wang Sisi had her ponytail combed high and looked full of energy.
Nothing seems to have changed, only time is passing by little by little.
The military training ended quickly and my wounds were almost healed. When Song Yan called me, I was cleaning up the dirty clothes that had accumulated over the past few days. His hearty voice came through the receiver, and I could also feel the hot air outside.
"How are you, Lu Nanxi? I ​​haven't seen you for a few days. Have you healed your injury?" he asked.
I tilted my head, shrugged my shoulders, held the phone between my legs, and said, "I'm basically fine. Thank you for your concern."
"What are you thanking me for? Why are you so polite?" Song Yan said with a smile, "We are old classmates. Isn't it normal for us to care about each other? Besides, we depend on each other. By the way, when are you going to treat Xu Minyou to a meal? Do you want to treat me as well?"
"I'm planning to treat him to a meal tomorrow. If you're free, come along," I said.
"Sure, sure." Song Yan said with a smile, and told me to call him to come together, then hung up the phone.
Actually, I lied to him. If it weren't for his call, I almost forgot about inviting Xu Minyou to dinner.
I wiped my hands and dialed Xu Minyou's number. The call was picked up quickly, as if he was playing with his phone and the call came in by chance.
I made an appointment with Xu Minyou to have dinner together, and I asked him what he liked to eat. I didn’t expect that he actually liked sweet and sour pork with pineapple. It was a surprise to me that such a cold-looking boy had the same taste as mine.
I had already agreed with Xu Minyou, but I was in a dilemma again. I invited Xu Minyou, but Song Yan said he must be invited to join us, so… should I invite Guo Jiani?
On those days when I couldn't touch water with my hands, Guo Jiani helped me wring the towel. Although she was the reason for my fall, I still felt embarrassed.
Guo Jiani came in from outside. I hesitated for a moment, but decided to call her along. I don’t like owing favors to others, and by calling her, we’ll be even.
Besides, if I invite Xu Minyou and Song Yan alone, it will always feel weird.
"Um... Guo Jiani, I plan to invite Xu Minyou to dinner tomorrow, and Song Yan will also be there. Do you want to come with us? Just consider it as my way of thanking you for your help these days." I finally plucked up the courage to say it.
Guo Jiani was a little surprised. She didn't seem to expect that I would treat her to a meal, and with Song Yan. However, she certainly wanted such an opportunity, so she agreed without hesitation: "Okay, I just want to treat Song Yan to a meal. Last time he carried me to the infirmary, and I haven't thanked him properly yet. I'll take advantage of your kindness to thank him properly."
Time passed quickly and soon the agreed day arrived.
Guo Jiani and I met up with Song Yan who was waiting for us at the school gate, and went to look for Xu Minyou. When we arrived at the restaurant, Xu Minyou was already there. There was a cup of tea in front of him, and it looked like he had been there for a while. I was a little surprised, and I couldn't imagine that such a boy would wait for a girl.
He was a little surprised to see Guo Jiani and Song Yan coming with us. I quickly explained to them, and then they sat down and ordered food.
Guo Jiani kept talking to Song Yan, and I couldn't get a word in at all, nor did I want to, because I didn't know what to say. I didn't understand Song Yan's world at all, and I didn't know what to say so that I could have a common topic to chat with him.
Sometimes I really envy girls like Guo Jiani, who can talk to boys so freely, while I can only hide in the corner and watch silently.
Xu Minyou didn't say anything either. No matter what Song Yan and Guo Jiani said, he seemed to be unable to hear anything. It was unknown whether it was due to his personality or something else, but his silence was somewhat abnormal.
It seemed like I was the only one left out, and I couldn't possibly feel better. At this moment, Xu Minyou suddenly put some food in my bowl, and Guo Jiani and Song Yan stopped talking at the same time, both a little surprised. This move seemed to be a turning point, and Song Yan stopped chatting with Guo Jiani , but instead pulled me to talk about high school.
Guo Jiani was not angry and tried to chat with Xu Minyou, but the strange thing was that no matter what she said or asked, he did not answer. It was as if he lived in his own world and everything in the outside world was nothingness.
I listened to Song Yan talking about his high school life with a bit of absent-mindedness. I also wanted to chat with him, but I still couldn't relate to what he said. You see, even though he was talking about the high school life that I was familiar with, his world was still so far away from me.
"I want to go back." At this time, Xu Minyou suddenly interrupted everyone.
I suddenly felt relieved. It seemed that I was still not suitable to face Song Yan directly. This atmosphere made me feel suffocated.
On the way back, Guo Jiani said to me: "What's wrong with Xu Minyou? He just ignored me when I talked to him."
"Uh... maybe I'm not used to talking to strangers." I couldn't think of any reason to explain.
"Who are you kidding, a stranger? Didn't you say you didn't know him? He was also a stranger. Why would a stranger send you to the infirmary and pick up food for you? This is too weird." Guo Jiani said coldly, "Or is it that the relationship between you two is unusual?"
"Don't talk nonsense." I was a little angry when I heard her say that. "Xu Minyou and I don't have any unusual relationship. I just want to thank him for helping me."
"Okay, just treat it as something I said," she said, "but that Xu Minyou is definitely not normal."
In fact, I could feel that something was wrong with him without her saying anything.
I always feel that he seems indifferent to the outside world, but why is it that he always answers me no matter what I say?