I pretend to forget you, but I can always easily see your shadow in others.

From June to September, every day was a torture.
Lin Qianliu spent nearly three months proving that time cannot heal the wounds in the heart, and forced forgetting will only make the wounds bleed more.
So, Lin Qianliu gave up and pretended to forget Luo Qubai.
She once thought that she would meet Luo Qubai at the gate of the university he loved, would rush into his arms like the wind, and would hear him say, "I finally waited for you."
She once thought that every day in college would be related to Luo Qubai - he would wait for her downstairs of the girls' dormitory to attend class together, or she would wait for him to take her on a date downstairs of the boys' dormitory, or after class, they would hold hands and walk through the tree-lined avenue from the teaching building to the cafeteria and then to the dormitory.
She once thought she would have a perfect love that even she would be jealous of.
But she went to C University, which was a million miles away from his favorite university, and Luo Qubai never thought about spending every day with her hand in hand.
The funniest thing is that the whole world knows that her two-year love is nothing but a joke.
Generally speaking, the more unwilling you are and the more you want to forget, the more you will sink into despair.
Although Lin Qianliu repeatedly emphasized that she had forgotten Luo Qubai, Lin's father knew very well that he would only emphasize it repeatedly if he could not forget . Because he was worried, Lin's father accompanied Lin Qianliu to school and stayed near C University for a while. As expected, Luo Qubai's departure seemed to take Lin Qianliu's heart away with him. After entering university, Lin Qianliu became more and more quiet, like a wounded hedgehog. He did not take the initiative to make friends, nor did he show kindness to anyone who came close to him. He always curled up alone in the corner.
Although University C is not as good as the university that Luo Qubai likes, it is also a very good undergraduate university.
However, Lin Qianliu didn’t care at all whether the school was good or not. The only thing she cared about from beginning to end was Luo Qubai.
The place she wanted to go was where Luo Qubai was. As long as there was Luo Qubai, she would rush there regardless of her own safety, even if it was a deserted desert. But now, staying in a place without Luo Qubai, she felt that even the summer was like a cold winter, with no life anywhere.
Looking at Lin Qianliu like this, Lin's father felt very distressed.
In order to cheer up Lin Qianliu, Lin's father thought that letting Lin Qianliu learn vocal music could divert his attention from thinking about Luo Qubai all day long. On the other hand, he knew very well that Lin Qianliu's voice was very suitable for learning vocal music. In fact, as early as high school, a teacher recommended Lin Qianliu to study music as an art student to take the college entrance examination. The teacher also said that with Lin Qianliu's grades, his art exam scores would definitely not be low. But because he wanted to be with Luo Qubai, Lin Qianliu refused. Lin's father didn't say anything. In his heart, he respected Lin Qianliu's choice.
After many twists and turns, Lin's father finally contacted Qi Ansheng, a vocal teacher at C University, and recommended Lin Qianliu to the teacher.
Qi Ansheng, who is in her thirties, is the son of a famous teacher. She is obsessed with vocal music and appreciates talented students. Regardless of whether they are professional students or not, as long as she thinks they have potential, she will focus on their training.
When she went to see Qi Ansheng, Lin Qianliu completely followed her father's arrangements. She had no interest in anything, but she chose to obey. Since Luo Qubai left, she had lost her self and accepted everything.
Fortunately, Lin Qianliu eventually caught Qi Ansheng's eye and formally became his apprentice.
Although Lin Qianliu was too quiet, Qi Ansheng still loved her as much as ever, and even recommended her to be the host at the next freshman entrance ceremony.
According to the convention of C University, after the freshmen register, the first week is the adaptation period, and the second week officially enters the military training lasting half a month. Before the military training begins, the school will also hold a freshman entrance ceremony. As in previous years, the host of this freshman entrance ceremony is a sophomore student. But two days before the ceremony, the originally scheduled host suddenly caught a bad cold and was unable to host the freshman entrance ceremony.
Because of his preference for Lin Qianliu, Qi Ansheng recommended Lin Qianliu, whose voice was very advantageous, to replace the original host.
Lin Qianliu never thought that her standing out would make her a shining star in the eyes of another person. What caught her off guard the most was that this person she met in the dark seemed to remind her every moment how much effort she had put into liking Luo Qubai in the past two years.
This person was none other than Qin Shu, the freshman representative at the freshman orientation ceremony.
Before the ceremony ended, the freshmen representatives expressed their aspirations for the future. After Lin Qianliu said, "Now, please invite our freshmen representative, Qin Shu, to the stage," Qin Shu walked up to the stage like a gentleman. He walked to the center of the stage and bowed deeply to the teachers and students in the audience.
"Hello, teachers and students, I am Qin Shu..."
His voice was warm and clear, like a cool autumn breeze, so comfortable that it easily blew into the hearts of every girl in the audience.
There were suppressed screams from the audience, and then they quickly stopped.
Qin Shu smiled and looked around the audience, then continued his speech. He was like the sun, shining into everyone's heart, except Lin Qianliu.
Lin Qianliu, who didn't care about anyone or anything, didn't notice how dazzling Qin Shu was on the stage. She didn't even look at Qin Shu. After leaving the stage, she stood aside, her eyes casually falling on the paper with small words written on it in her hand.
She didn't know that as soon as she stood on the stage and said "Hello everyone", Qin Shu's eyes had been fixed on her.
Her voice was clear and gentle, yet with a barely perceptible coldness. The corners of her mouth were slightly raised, but there was no light in her eyes.
Qin Shu's gaze lasted for a long time until she called him to the stage.
When her name came out, he mistakenly thought it contained a lot of affection. He was confused for a moment, and after a few seconds, he hid his throbbing and pretended to be calm as he went on stage. However, he dared not look at her again when he stood on the stage.
After a long time, when the ceremony was declared over and the crowd dispersed, Qin Shu walked straight to Lin Qianliu.
"Hello, classmate. I'm Qin Shu, the freshman representative who just gave a speech on stage." He smiled and extended his hand to Lin Qianliu, praising him, "Your voice is very nice and unique, and you are very suitable to be a host. Are you studying music?"
Lin Qianliu remained silent and did not speak.
She lowered her head slightly, her eyes fixed on the ground, and the boy standing in front of her couldn't see her expression at all.
His hand was left hanging in the air, so Qin Shu thought she didn't hear his praise. After a while, he coughed twice and called her: "Classmate..."
"Thank you." Lin Qianliu said softly.
"You're welcome." It turned out that he had heard it. Qin Shu frowned slightly, but the corners of his mouth were still raised. He asked: "Can you leave me your mobile number? I also like hosting. Can we exchange hosting skills if we have a chance?"
"Sorry." This time, Lin Qianliu raised his head, and his tone of refusal sounded very kind.
She just pulled the corner of her mouth up quickly, and without waiting for Qin Shu to react, she hurried away.
There were students cleaning up the scene, and some girls were staring at Qin Shu silently. No one knew that he was standing there stupidly and had just been ignored by Lin Qianliu.
However, he just stood there stupidly and raised the corner of his mouth.
interesting.
As he thought about it, he moved his hand that was suspended in the air to the side, grabbed a boy who was passing by with a small box, and said, "Excuse me, what major is Lin Qianliu a student of?"
For Qin Shu, fate probably favors him.
He had just found out the day before that Lin Qianliu was a freshman in the Department of Journalism. On the second day of military training, he discovered that the military training bases for the broadcasting and hosting major and the journalism major were both in the third playground of the school, but one was in the south and the other in the north. The third playground of the school was half the size of the first and second playgrounds, just enough to accommodate students from both majors for military training together. What was even more fateful was that if students from both majors were practicing marching in step and each walked to the middle, Qin Shu would be able to see Lin Qianliu ten meters away.
At that time, the sun was shining and the breeze was cool.
As soon as Qin Shu raised his head, Lin Qianliu's serious expression caught his eye.
Thus, all the fatigue of the morning disappeared in that instant. Qin Shu felt as if all the sunshine in the world fell on Lin Qianliu. She was the only light in his eyes. Apart from her, he could not see anything else, even though her eyes had never stayed on him from beginning to end.
If he hadn't been in military training, he thought he would have stepped forward and said to Lin Qianliu, "What a coincidence, we meet again."
However, a few seconds later, the instructor's words "turn around" forced him to end this quick meeting.
In the following days, he was looking forward to the next "parade in step". Sometimes, anticipation is like waiting, long and tormenting, and time seems to be stretched dozens of times longer under this torment. After a long time, until the instructor announced "disbandment", the second "parade in step" still did not come.
It was already half past eleven, and the liberated freshmen rushed to the cafeteria together.
In the crowd, only Qin Shu went against the flow and firmly stopped Lin Qianliu who was walking alone. Then, when she raised her head and looked at him in confusion, Qin Shu smiled brightly and said, "What a coincidence, classmate Lin Qianliu, we meet again."
The smile on his face is brighter than the sunshine on his body.
But Lin Qianliu didn't know that the boy in front of him had his heart beating so fast and was so nervous that even his breathing became rapid.
She just stared at him, her eyes full of strangeness and confusion: "You are..."
"I'm Qin Shu." Her reaction made Qin Shu feel a little disappointed, but he didn't show it at all. He even reminded her considerately, "I'm the freshman representative who gave a speech on stage yesterday afternoon."
"Oh." Lin Qianliu responded indifferently, his expression still unfamiliar.
Qin Shu could tell that the "oh" was just a meaningless interjection, and she had no impression of him from yesterday.
Thinking of this, Qin Shu felt more and more lost.
"Is there something wrong?" In a trance, Lin Qianliu's indifferent voice broke through the noise and reached his ears.
"Yes!" Qin Shu nodded without hesitation, " However, it's lunch time now. In order not to delay your rest time later, let's talk while we eat."
Lin Qianliu didn't answer, but glanced at his watch and followed him to the cafeteria tacitly.
The cafeteria was crowded with people. Lin Qianliu and Qin Shu stood casually at the end of the line.
There were girls talking in low voices nearby. They were talking about Qin Shu's excellence and speculations about his emotional world. Their eyes on Qin Shu's face were unconsciously filled with joy. Suddenly, Qin Shu turned his head to look. An inadvertent eye contact, coupled with the gentle smile Qin Shu gave her, the girl couldn't help but scream, but soon suppressed her voice with restraint.
Qin Shu pretended to glance at Lin Qianliu casually, then frowned slightly - she still looked calm and composed standing in front of him.
He didn't know whether Lin Qianliu was indifferent to everything about him or indifferent to everything.
After a while, the two bought food and sat in the empty seats in the corner.
Until the end of lunch, Lin Qianliu did not ask him what he wanted to say.
Her quiet and indifferent behavior made Qin Shu feel that they were just two strangers who happened to come to the canteen on the same road, happened to stand in the same line to buy food, and happened to sit in two empty seats opposite each other to eat. This perfect fate made Qin Shu a little embarrassed.
So, after swallowing the last bite of rice, Qin Shu finally spoke. He said, "Actually, I want to ask, are you interested in joining the school radio station?"
Lin Qianliu was wiping his mouth. Hearing this, he paused and then looked up at Qin Shu. His tone was still kind and indifferent: "No."
"That's a pity." Qin Shu showed a regretful expression. In fact, joining the radio station was just an excuse he made up.
"There's nothing to be regretful about." After saying that, Lin Qianliu stood up and was about to leave.
This was the longest sentence she had ever said to him. Qin Shu was stunned for a moment, and quickly took over the topic: "I think you are very suitable to be a host. If you apply to join the radio station, you will definitely be selected. I have confidence in you. To be honest, I really want to work with you. I feel that you will be a good partner."
His words not only showed his confidence in entering the radio station, but also expressed his admiration for Lin Qianliu.
Lin Qianliu didn't respond. He just pulled the corner of his mouth, as if smiling, and said, "Sorry, I have to go back to the dormitory."
"Wait a minute!" Qin Shu immediately stood up, picked up the food tray and chased after him. "Can you please leave your contact information? Mobile phone number, QQ number or WeChat number will do. I want to make friends with you, and I really hope to learn hosting skills from you."
"Sorry, I don't think it's necessary." After saying that, Lin Qianliu left him alone again and left.
Being ignored again, the feeling of frustration in Qin Shu's heart became even stronger.
At first, he only noticed Lin Qianliu's voice, but he didn't expect that once he looked up, he couldn't take his eyes off her.
It's not just girls in their teens who believe in love at first sight, Qin Shu also believes it firmly.
At that first glance, he was sure that he fell in love with Lin Qianliu at first sight, but Lin Qianliu, who spoke in a friendly manner, always seemed to keep people at a distance.
Qin Shu thought about it, rubbing his forehead in distress and sighing.
In a trance, someone patted his shoulder, forcibly diverting his gaze away from Lin Qianliu's back.
"What are you looking at?" Qin Shu turned around and saw his roommate looking at him with a playful smile, "Lend me two dollars to buy a bottle of water, I forgot to bring my wallet."
Qin Shu rolled his eyes helplessly. When he was taking out the money, his roommate asked with a gossipy look, "Are you looking at that guy?"
The "that someone" he was talking about was obviously Lin Qianliu, because since the freshman orientation ceremony, Qin Shu had mentioned her in the dormitory intentionally or unintentionally.
After hearing his roommate's words, Qin Shu quickly took back the money he had handed over.
"Do me a favor." He shook his wallet. "If you can do it, I'll buy you ten bottles of water."
"Why should I drink so much water?" The roommate looked at Qin Shu with an expression that said "I'm not stupid", but couldn't help but be curious, "What do you want me to do?"
"Help me get Lin Qianliu 's contact information." Qin Shu said bluntly.
"You really like her and want to pursue her?" The roommate looked at Qin Shu with interest, then put his arm around his neck and put it on his shoulder, "Brother, as a brother, I want to advise you that goddesses can only be admired from afar, let alone Lin Qianliu."
Qin Shu opened his hand, with a slightly unhappy look on his face: "What's wrong with Lin Qianliu?"
The roommate pretended to look at Qin Shu with pity and sighed, "Alas, your goddess already has someone in her heart!"
Later, Qin Shu found out that there was a classmate in his class who was Lin Qianliu's high school classmate. He happened to have dinner at the same table with his roommate. When they were talking about Lin Qianliu, the other party revealed that Lin Qianliu used to have a very lively personality. She was a lively young girl. She was always full of energy and had a very likable personality. She was also very popular in the whole school.
However, the reason why she was so popular in the school was not because of her looks, but because of a boy named Luo Qubai. Lin Qianliu liked Luo Qubai very much and never concealed it. She made her feelings clear from the beginning and even became famous in the school for pursuing Luo Qubai. However, the ending of this story was not happy. Later, the boy left her and went abroad. That relationship was ultimately just a wishful dream for her.
It was that boy who took away all of Lin Qianliu's energy.
The once unforgettable love eventually became a first love that ended in failure.
It turns out that she was not born to be aloof and cold. Qin Shu suddenly realized that it was completely understandable that Lin Qianliu was indifferent to anyone and anything around her.
Qin Shu couldn't help but feel distressed as he imagined her innocent and smiling face in the past.
If the previous love at first sight could be regarded as just a liking, and getting close to her was just a desire to understand her, then, from this moment on, Qin Shu was sure that his feelings for Lin Qianliu were no longer just a liking. He wanted to protect her and fill the gap in her heart.
The desire to get closer to her is not just out of curiosity, not just wanting to know everything about her, but a real desire to make up for the love that boy owes her.
In the name of Qin Shu.