Ye Lanluo looked at me quietly. His dark eyes lost their usual charming luster and became dim, like glass beads covered with dust, which made people feel sad and pity.
Then, he turned around and left with a blank expression. His steps were very steady, and there was nothing wrong with his back view.
I was speechless, but suddenly I felt that this back view made me feel suffocated . Only then did I realize how excessive the words I had just said were.
My head was buzzing and hurting badly...
"night……"
I wanted to call him and apologize for what I had said, but as soon as I said one word, my helpless self-esteem made me swallow back what I was about to say next.
I clenched my fists and quietly watched Ye Lanluo's lonely figure leave this place alone, feeling my heart aching.
I stood there regretfully, looking in the direction where he disappeared, and my mind gradually became clear.
I shouldn't have said that about Ye Lanluo...
He must be injured, right?
After all, what I just said was so excessive.
I stood there alone, thinking over and over again what I had just said. I bit my fingers in annoyance, wishing I could go back in time and take back all my words.
I stood there blankly, feeling a little overwhelmed.
Xiaole ran over anxiously, looked at my dazed look, grabbed my shoulders and asked, "I saw you being dragged away by Ye Lanluo just now, that...you guys..."
The painful figure of Ye Lanluo lingered in my mind, but I didn’t know how to explain Xiaole’s question. I could only smile at her weakly and said softly, “Have you finished looking at all the paintings? Xiaole, I’m a little tired. I’ll leave first. See you tomorrow.”
After saying that, I raised my hand and patted her shoulder. Without waiting for her to answer, I slowly walked out of the exhibition hall alone.
Walking alone on the way home, I felt the warm sunshine, hoping that such warmth could bring some comfort to my depressed mood caused by what had just happened .
I stretched out my hand and stared at the sunlight on my palm in a trance.
The color of gold...
I suddenly remembered the oil painting by Ye Lanluo that I had seen at an art exhibition before. The beautiful sunflowers, like the sunshine at this moment, had extremely warm colors.
I pursed my lips and walked towards home with a feeling of loss and regret.
Perhaps because a lot of things happened just now, my hands and feet became extremely cold. Even if they were bathed in large swathes of sunshine, they could not return to normal temperature.
Does Gu Yichen really have a girl he likes?
If I had not been stopped by Ye Lanluo just now and really confessed to Gu Yichen, would Gu Yichen really treat me cruelly?
Suddenly, a memory emerged in my mind of that day when I accidentally encountered a girl confessing her love to Gu Yichen, the expression and words of Gu Yichen's response, and how he ruthlessly hurt the girl whose cheeks were flushed and who didn't even dare to raise her head.
Suddenly, I shivered.
The sun was shining on my body, but I felt surprisingly cold.
Gu Yichen has really changed now.
Although Gu Yichen used to be very cold, he was very kind in his heart, so he would comfort me when I cried, and he would play with me when I was hurt.
Because I was thinking about these things, I didn't notice that there were two people standing at the corner in front of me. When I was only a few steps away from them, I slowly noticed their shadows cast on the ground.
I carefully stuck my head out to look around the corner, but immediately gasped and pulled my head back in as quickly as possible.
It’s Gu Yichen and Su Xiyu!
I opened my eyes wide and dared not utter a word.
I could clearly hear what they were saying even though I was only a few steps away. It was as if the surroundings had become a small closed space with only the three of us.
They didn't notice my presence and seemed to be arguing fiercely about something. Gu Yichen's tone was different from usual excitement, but Su Xiyu's tone was always indifferent, without much emotional fluctuation.
What is the reason?
Every time I saw Su Xiyu beside Gu Yichen, she always had a charming smile on her face. Why was she speaking to Gu Yichen in such a tone now?
Suddenly, Gu Yichen's voice became a few pitches higher than before, and even had a distinct hoarseness: "You clearly know that I like you!"
"boom!"
At that moment, it was as if something suddenly exploded in my mind, stimulating my nerves crazily.
Everything in front of me became blurry, the sunlight, the dust, the willow branches flying in the breeze... I seemed to be unable to see anything. I stared blankly in one direction, and Gu Yichen's words echoed in my ears for a long time.
the person I like……
Gu Yichen already has someone he likes...
I clutched the straps of my backpack, vaguely recalling what Ye Lanluo had said to me before.
That person turned out to be Su Xiyu?
Yes, how could I be so stupid? They often appear together, and Gu Yichen is only the most gentle when facing Su Xiyu.
I smiled helplessly.
Gu Yichen and Su Xiyu should be together, right?
Su Xiyu should agree to Gu Yichen, right?
However, something unexpected happened.
I clearly heard Su Xiyu's voice. Without any emotion or leeway, she replied coldly, "I won't date you."
Then came the sound of Gu Yichen's heavy breathing. Facing Su Xiyu's answer, he did not get angry, nor did he question her. He just remained silent, as if he had lost the ability to speak.
why is that?
I carefully recalled that every time I saw Su Xiyu, she was always by Gu Yichen's side with a smile that made me envious, but did she really have no feelings for Gu Yichen at all?
The entrance of the alley was empty, with no passers-by passing by.
The two of them remained silent, and no one said anything.
I stood there awkwardly, not knowing whether to go forward or backward.
Even at a short distance, I seemed to be able to feel Gu Yichen's sadness slowly drowning me like the sea.
He must be in a terrible , right?
I don’t know how much time had passed, my legs were already numb, but I couldn’t bear to leave. I just imagined Gu Yichen’s expression at that moment.
However, the shadows that were originally standing very close in front of him suddenly separated.
Su Xiyu's voice rang out: "Gu Yichen, the person you like is not me at all."
After saying that, she ran away, leaving Gu Yichen standing there in a daze.
Seeing Su Xiyu running towards me, I staggered back two steps and wanted to turn around and dodge, but it was too late.
Su Xiyu looked at me with a little surprise and sized me up.
Then she raised her eyebrows slightly and looked at me with complicated eyes.
"Hello... hello..." My cheeks were burning and I could only stammer out these few words.
Eavesdropping on other people's conversations is a very impolite behavior, and... you were discovered by the other party.
I lowered my eyes and saw Su Xiyu's pink skirt fluttering in the wind like a butterfly, so attractive.
I gave a wry smile.
It's normal to like such a beautiful girl. If I really confess my feelings to her, I will definitely be rejected by Gu Yichen.
Time passes slowly.
Su Xiyu in front of him didn't say anything, nor did he leave.
Is she looking at me?
My heart was pounding.
Finally, I mustered up the courage to look up and meet her gaze.
She was indeed looking at me, with an expression that I could not understand or get over, her beautiful eyes fixed on my face.
I grabbed the strap of my backpack and wanted to say something to break the awkward atmosphere, but I found that my throat was dry and I couldn't utter a word.
I actually saw deep hatred in her eyes.
She looked at me like this for a long time, still saying nothing. Finally, she walked past me quickly and left.
I was breathing softly.
Why does Su Xiyu always look at me like this?
And why did Su Xiyu say that the person Gu Yichen likes is not her?
Gu Yichen, who was originally standing at the corner, appeared in front of me at some point. With a sad expression on his face that he tried hard to hide, he quietly looked at me standing in front of him.
"Why are you here again?" His voice was extremely hoarse, which made people feel distressed. "You heard everything just now, didn't you?"
I hesitated, not knowing what to do.
At this time, he must need someone who can comfort him, right?
If I can……
If I……
With this thought in mind, I gave up the idea of ​​leaving, but I didn't know what to say. I could only stand there and try to make my eyes as gentle as possible.
Gu Yichen's eyes were haggard. He stared at me fiercely and asked loudly, "You think it's ridiculous, don't you? Are you here to watch the joke ?"
He roared dejectedly, like a child who had lost his favorite toy.
"No." My voice was small but clear enough, "This is not a joke."
Gu Yichen looked at me in disbelief, as if he didn't expect me to say that, and didn't understand why I said that.
Maybe he needs someone who can give him comfort, a shoulder to lean on.
Thinking of this, I smiled and dispelled the feeling of helplessness.
"In my opinion, expressing your feelings to someone you like is a very brave thing to do." I said with a smile, without any hypocrisy at all .
The corner of Gu Yichen's mouth twitched, as if he wanted to say something, but he hesitated, not knowing whether he should say it.
"Gu Yichen—" I stretched out my voice, "I think you are a brave person. No matter what the consequences are, at least you let the person you like know your feelings..."
I gradually lowered my voice for the last few words.
Gu Yichen looked at me silently, and finally revealed a pale and fragile smile.
"Thank you." His voice was still hoarse, but much softer than before.
I said goodbye to him with a smile, and looked at his lonely back as he walked away, as if something was hitting my heart hard.
"Gu Yichen!"
After hesitating for a long time, I couldn't help but call him, because I wanted an answer for myself, even though I knew the answer was no.
Gu Yichen's thin body trembled slightly. He slowly turned his head and looked at me strangely.
I looked at Gu Yichen quietly, clenching my fists, my nails digging deep into the flesh: "You... do you like Su Xiyu very much?"
My voice was not loud, but it took all my strength.
Gu Yichen showed a bitter smile: "She is my only target..."
The only goal...
I see.
I don’t know why, but apart from the slight pain in my heart, I actually felt a sense of relief.
“Wuwuwu…”
In the corner, a thin girl curled up tightly and sobbed... This was the first scene that caught my eye after I separated from Gu Yichen.
When I saw clearly the pink dress she was wearing, I couldn't help but be a little surprised.
Isn’t that Su Xiyu?
It wasn't until I walked in front of the girl that she slowly raised her head...
It was Su Xiyu indeed!
Su Xiyu cried so hard that her eyes were red, her messy hair was scattered randomly beside her cheeks, and the tears on her eyelashes looked even more crystal clear ... At this moment, she was so beautiful that people could cherish her...
But why is she crying?
After seeing that it was me, Su Xiyu immediately stood up from the ground, and the whole person became fierce: "Xia Zimu! Are you happy to see me crying?"
I don’t know why, but every time Su Xiyu faces me, she stands up all her thorns like a hedgehog.
I thought about it for a moment and asked the question in my heart.
"Su Xiyu, you like Gu Yichen, right? Then you..."
Because of this question, Su Xiyu's expression became a little unnatural, or shy, but she quickly returned to her usual arrogance and sharpness.
She snorted coldly and walked towards me step by step.
Her eyes were fixed on me, filled with grievance, helplessness, sadness, and disgust towards me...
Just when I felt powerless to resist Su Xiyu's gaze, she said word by word: "Xia Zimu, I hate you."
hate me?
I clearly have no connection with her, so where does her inexplicable hostility come from since the first time we met?
Is it because of Gu Yichen?
"Is it because of Gu Yichen?" I asked Su Xiyu tentatively.
Su Xiyu lowered her head and said nothing more.
Her silence made me feel that my guess was right.
Thinking of Gu Yichen's sad look, I couldn't help but feel a little angry: "Su Xiyu, since you like Gu Yichen, why did you reject him? Do you know that he is very sad?"
Su Xiyu became very excited because of what I said. She looked at me angrily and her voice became extremely sharp.
"Xia Zimu! What right do you have to blame me? Do you know that this is all because of you? "
because I?
What does this have to do with me?
In the moment I was stunned, Su Xiyu had already turned around and ran away.
Looking at Su Xiyu's back, I suddenly felt that this scene was very familiar ...
Su Xiyu suddenly turned around and looked at me expressionlessly.
In her eyes, which showed no emotion, I seemed to see her stubbornness, sadness and helplessness.
"Xia Zimu, I never said I like Gu Yichen, don't be so self-righteous."