With the end of final exams, winter is gradually coming to an end, and with it comes the New Year that everyone is looking forward to.
Because of the tight schedule, we didn't have many days off. Almost as soon as we had a break, Chen Meihua took me to buy New Year's goods. The school finally decided to give scholarships to the top three to encourage students to study hard. Although the bonus is not much, it is also a considerable amount for me.
I did not choose to save the money, but planned to use it to buy some New Year gifts. After a few days of planning, I finally bought three gifts during the discount period in the mall: a pair of women's leather gloves, a wool cardigan, and a men's sweater.
The men's sweater and leather gloves were for Lu Mingyu and her mother, and the cardigan was chosen by me for Chen Meihua. I had never given Chen Meihua a gift before, and this was the first time I chose a gift for her. I had not considered her at first, but when I saw the discounted cardigan, I could not help but think of her. After hesitating for a long time in the mall, I finally made up my mind, added the little pocket money I had saved, and bought the dress for her.
It’s orange-pink, and her skin is fairly fair, so it should look very beautiful on her.
That night, I stroked the three gifts over and over again and put them away carefully. I was so happy from the bottom of my heart that I couldn't sleep well the whole night.
Early the next morning, I stopped Chen Meihua who was about to go out, and handed her the bag containing the woolen cardigan somewhat awkwardly.
"Here, a New Year's gift." I became very shy.
"What is this?" She was about to smoke a cigarette, her eyebrows raised in disbelief. Then she took the bag and took a quick look: "Oh, clothes."
"Aren't you going to try?"
"Come back and try again." She casually placed the bag on the cabinet in the entrance hall, then quickly put on her shoes and hurried out the door.
The security door made an unexpected "bang" sound, and I seemed to be awakened and stood there stupidly.
It turns out that the feeling of being self-indulgent is just like this.
I began to regret spending all that money on her. I should have expected her to react like this. With a mother like her, no matter what touching things I did, she would just give me a cold glance.
But it's all spent, and it's not worth it to make myself unhappy because of this. With this in mind, I reorganized my mood, picked up the remaining two gifts, and went out.
But it seemed as if God was against me. When I arrived at Lu Mingyu's house, I found that they were gone again.
They probably went back home to celebrate the New Year, the security guard at the gatehouse told me. Perhaps seeing that I looked too disappointed, he offered to give me the contact information of Lu Mingyu's mother.
I went home holding the small piece of paper with a string of numbers written on it.
It felt like there were countless little people in my heart. They were more anxious than I was. They kept chattering and urging me to call quickly, call quickly.
But after a whole afternoon of hesitation, I still didn't make the call. I paced back and forth in my house anxiously, thinking about how to say that I wanted to give a gift on my own initiative.
And Chen Meihua returned home at this time.
She didn't notice anything unusual about me, but as usual, she threw her backpack and coat on the sofa, then lit a cigarette and shouted that she was hungry.
I stood there, glanced at her unhappily, but in the end said nothing and obediently ran to the kitchen to cook for her.
But I know that the sadness in my heart is always coming out in different ways to torture me. She really doesn't care about the gift I bought for her with all the money I saved.
After putting the prepared meal in front of her, I really couldn't control my emotions. She asked me why I didn't eat, but I didn't say a word.
Only then did she remember the clothes she had left at the entrance. She gave me a knowing look and said nonchalantly, "Hey, I remember, I remember."
I sat there, staring at her. She finally pulled out the cardigan and touched it very casually.
"Oh, it's still valuable stuff. Where did you get the money?" As she said this, she was about to put on her clothes, but the hot cigarette ash in her mouth fell out at this moment and landed on the front of the cardigan.
I stood up immediately, clenched my fists and looked at the place where a hole of moderate size had been burned.
"What are you doing?" I couldn't help it and finally shouted out. All the unhappy emotions that had accumulated since morning seemed to be out of control, making me like a mad rabbit.
"I didn't mean to do that!" She didn't show any remorse at all, and looked at me with her hands spread out. "The material of this dress is too easy to be damaged! It's just a little cigarette ash!"
I didn't bother to listen to her, so I turned around and strode back to my room, slamming the door shut.
I have no right to control what she does, and I don't want to control it. Anyway, if I, Pei Jixing, do such stupid things again, I will not be a human being!
But I still cried uncontrollably, and I kept my voice very low, not wanting her to hear it at all.
Chen Meihua didn't bother me, she just called me twice at the door. When I didn't respond, she went on with her business.
That’s good, it’ll give me peace of mind.
I don’t know how long it took, but when I finally got rid of all the bad emotions, I saw the crumpled note on the table.
Maybe it was because I cried that I became braver. I jumped out of bed, took out my broken cell phone from my pocket, and dialed the number on the note. I hesitated and deleted it, my heart pounding. After repeating this several times, I finally gritted my teeth, closed my eyes, and pressed the dial button.
I don’t know how long it took, but the call was finally connected.
However, what I never expected was that the voice coming from the other side was Lu Mingyu’s.
The moment I heard his familiar voice, I was completely at a loss.
"Hello, my mother is not available to answer the phone right now. May I ask who you are——"
"Lu Mingyu..." I said softly into the microphone.
There was silence on the other end, and then he asked in an incredible tone: "Little Star?"
"It's me." I moved the phone to the other side. "How have you been these days?"
"Oh, I'm fine." His tone immediately relaxed and he said with a smile, "Why did you call me suddenly? What happened?"
"Oh... nothing, I just bought some small gifts for you and Auntie as New Year's gifts." I glanced at the shopping bag on the bed. The sweatshirts in it were selected according to Lu Mingyu's preferences, and even the brand was the one he liked to wear. "However, since you are not here, I will give it to you after school starts."
"Gift? What gift are you buying?" he shouted in surprise, "Just keep the money for yourself!"
"I'm not the kind of person who eats other people's food for free." My tone became serious, "Besides, the money has been spent, and the items cannot be returned."
"Okay..." His voice was full of helplessness, "I will definitely cherish your gift."
"Yeah." I responded softly, my heart was like honey melting. Fortunately, my efforts were not in vain, these gifts were still cherished by someone.
There was silence on the other end of the phone for a while, and then he suddenly called me, "Little Star."
"Um?"
"Happy New Year!" he said word by word.
These four words hit my heart like a bullet.
At the same time, in the dark night outside the window, countless beautiful flames appeared in the sky, and the crackling sound of fireworks blooming rang in my ears.
I subconsciously covered my ears and shouted loudly to him on the other end of the phone: "You too, Lu Mingyu, Happy New Year!"
At this moment, all the sadness that had accumulated in my heart because of Chen Meihua was swept away.
He has such magical power that even just the shortest words can make me happy for a long time.
That night, I didn't sit silently beside Chen Meihua and watch the Spring Festival Gala as I did in previous years, just to have a little more warmth between mother and daughter, even if it was just fake and formal. I got into bed early, hugged the clothes I bought for Lu Mingyu, and fell asleep.
If I were to say what my New Year's dream is, it would probably be to see Lu Mingyu wearing this dress with my own eyes.
I don’t know if it’s because I’m looking forward to meeting Lu Mingyu too much, but the vacation that seems ridiculously short to others feels like a year to me.
Fortunately, I finally made it through.
New Year, new atmosphere. On the first day of school, I put on the red wool coat and a new sweater that Chen Meihua bought me to make up for it, and went to school in a good mood.
The weather turned completely warmer and the snow on the roadside began to melt. I didn't feel cold even though I was carrying the bag with my bare hands.
However, just as I was crossing the road, a hand suddenly reached out from the side, grabbed my wrist, and at the moment the red light turned green, pulled me forward with the crowd.
My heart started beating uncontrollably again, and my legs, which were much shorter than his, kept changing pace. After we safely reached the other side of the road, Lu Mingyu let me go, rubbed my hair vigorously, and then took off his baseball cap and put it on my head backwards.
He cut his hair and looked more handsome.
"Happy New Year!" I said cheerfully and handed the bag over.
"Wow! A surprise so early in the morning." He rubbed his hands, took it happily, and his eyes smiled like crescent moons.
I walked side by side with him, explaining to him like an old lady how to care for the pair of leather gloves.
Unexpectedly, he didn't listen at all and took out the clothes directly. After seeing the trademark on it, he jumped up.
"Why did you buy clothes of this brand? Are you stupid ?" He said this in a hurry, then felt something was wrong and immediately softened his tone, "I mean, why did you buy clothes of this brand? They are very expensive!"
I pursed my lips and said nothing.
Although I was timid after seeing the price of this dress, it was on sale at the time, so it only cost half the price. Moreover, I felt inexplicably happy whenever I thought of him wearing it. So I gritted my teeth and bought it.
I think he will wear it more often this way.
"Take it back. I can't have this dress." He took out the gloves and handed the bag back.
This action was totally unexpected to me. Passersby's eyes shuttled back and forth between us. I stared at him blankly, and my whole body was hot. I wanted to explain to him that this was indeed a discounted item, and I knew he thought it was too expensive and didn't want to accept it, but I was still embarrassed and angry.
In this weird atmosphere, my vision gradually became blurred and my nose felt a little sour. Like a person being manipulated, I took the bag, then walked to the trash can and threw it in.
I told myself not to cry, but my tears still fell like beads from a broken string. I ignored Lu Mingyu behind me and strode towards the school gate.
Lu Mingyu was late, obviously because of me.
Since he angered the teacher last semester, the teacher no longer indulged him, but was extremely strict with him. So before he could even catch his breath, he was kicked out of the classroom, holding the bag I had thrown into the trash can.
He turned around and looked at me deeply. That look made me feel extremely guilty for my willfulness.
I was absent-minded throughout the entire class, and when the bell rang, I rushed to the corridor to look for him, but there was no sign of him.
Just as I was hesitating, a clear whistle sounded beside me. I looked in the direction of the sound and saw a boy wearing a black sweatshirt with exaggerated letters leaning against the corner of the corridor. He was hopelessly handsome.
I walked towards him.
He put his hands in his pockets and looked down at me.
"Does it look good?" He suddenly opened his arms as if he wanted to hug me.
Yes, he was wearing the sweatshirt I picked for him. He didn't seem angry, but I felt even more guilty. I wanted to say something, but he unscrewed a bottle of orange soda and stuffed it into my hand.
"Don't buy me clothes next time, you hear me!"
"It's on sale, less than half the price." I knew he was still bothered by it, so I muttered to myself as I walked side by side with him to the classroom. "Besides, the delicious food your mother made for me is also very expensive."
"Stop talking about useless things. Discounted goods won't work in the future." He looked like he wanted to teach me a lesson.
"Oh." I replied.
"Also, if you're angry, just say it. Don't just turn around and walk away and throw things. Did you know that the trash can was super dirty? I was stinking all over and had to put on new clothes."
He spoke and gestured in an exaggerated way, which made me laugh uncontrollably.
"But why does this dress smell so good?" He raised his arm and sniffed it, then suddenly came close to me and sniffed it. My face suddenly became hot.
"As fragrant as you." His eyes smiled like a crescent moon.
I looked at the other girls around me who were looking at us strangely, glared at him unhappily, and quickly walked into the classroom.
What I didn't expect was that the news of sending clothes to Lu Mingyu spread like wildfire within two days. Rumors spread everywhere, and even the teacher looked at me strangely.
When I learned from Meng Tian that it was Lu Mingyu who "accidentally" said it, the grievance that had been suppressed in my heart became as powerless as a fist hitting cotton.
These rumors were not good rumors. They portrayed me as a scheming girl who liked to act pitiful, saying that this was why Lu Mingyu treated me differently.
After hearing these words, my chest felt tight and even breathing became a little difficult.
I finally couldn't help it and went to find Lu Mingyu alone during physical education class, but I didn't know that Lu Mingyu was also looking for me.
Seeing me just walking onto the basketball court, Lu Mingyu immediately stopped dribbling the ball, left his teammates behind, and ran straight towards me.
Behind him was the sound of a group of boys cheering. I clenched my cold hands and my heart was beating extremely fast.
"I was just looking for you." He said excitedly, wiping the sweat from his forehead.
"Me too."
As soon as he finished speaking, he grabbed my wrist and strode to the corridor outside the basketball court. To my disappointment, he did n't notice the obvious emotion on my face.
"Little Star, I want to ask you for help with something. I know you will help me, right?" He subconsciously grabbed my arm, and a warm feeling came over me.
I pulled my hand out awkwardly: "Go ahead."
"I wanted to tell you later, but I heard from the teacher this afternoon that the monthly exam has been moved up a week, so I can only tell you right away." He scratched his head a little embarrassedly, "Can you help me with this exam? I've recently set my eyes on a new mountain bike, but my dad said he won't buy it for me unless I pass three subjects in this exam."
"Oh, sure." I agreed without thinking. After all, no matter how big the rumors were, they would not destroy the friendship between him and me.
"Really..." He patted his chest, looking relieved, "I knew you were the most loyal. But I guess you won't cheat. I'll study the countermeasures in a couple of days and tell you later."
"Cheating?" I raised my eyebrows in surprise, "Why would I cheat?"
He was stunned, not understanding why: "Of course I have to cheat, otherwise how can I pass the exam?"
Hearing this, I looked at him in disbelief, and suddenly felt a little disappointed in him.
"When I say help you, I mean help you review before the test, not cheating as you said!"
"But my foundation is so poor, there's no way I can do it!" He frowned, held my shoulders, and begged, "Xiao Xingxing, just help me this time, okay?"
"If you want a mountain bike so badly, you should have fought for it yourself. Don't you feel guilty about using something you got by cheating?" Perhaps affected by the emotions brought about by the previous rumors, my voice sounded different than before, even a little fierce.
Lu Mingyu had never seen me like this before, and he froze in surprise. He just stared at me for a while, and his hand slid down from my shoulder.
At this moment, I finally realized how badly I managed my facial expressions, because I seemed to have hurt him.
"Okay, let me ask you one question, will you help me or not?" he asked coldly.
"Of course I will help you, but not in this way. Lu Mingyu, we are in the third year of high school and we are going to college..."
I wanted to continue speaking, but he interrupted me: "I know what you mean." He turned his head and looked at me angrily, then, without caring about my impending collapse, he turned and left.
That resolute figure was deeply imprinted in my mind. Even many years later, I could still remember it clearly in my dreams at midnight.
As expected, Lu Mingyu didn't speak to me for many days.
I was also holding my breath, and was unwilling to lose face and ask him to pay attention to me.
What did I do wrong again?
I just hope that he can follow the rules like other people and not go astray in front of the gate of the college entrance examination. But he didn't even give me the time to listen to my unspeakable deep meaning.
Just when the atmosphere between him and I suddenly dropped to freezing point, those messy rumors about me started flying around again.
I pretended to know nothing and put all my energy into studying. Everyone thought I didn't care, but I was the only one who knew that I often suffered from insomnia during that period. In the dark night, I tossed and turned and began to doubt myself, wondering if I was really too arbitrary. Then I doubted Lu Mingyu, what did he think of me, if he thought of me as a friend, why did he not consider my feelings?
But no matter how I thought about it, there was no reasonable answer.
In this respect, I am very similar to Chen Meihua.
Like her, I am sensitive enough to get stuck on trivial matters, but I can never bring myself to be the one to take the initiative to make peace.
The monthly exam finally arrived as scheduled.
I arrived at the examination room early, but I saw Lu Mingyu had already gathered with his friends to chat. When I passed by, he didn't even look at me.
I can't describe how I felt at that time. I just felt that every step I took past him was as heavy as if it was filled with lead.
After I sat down, the exam bell rang, and I couldn't hold back my tears. With the resentment accumulated over the past few days, I couldn't stop myself from crying. They fell on the test paper, blurring the words. I tried to stop my stupid self, but I couldn't seem to do it. So I put down my pen and chose to let myself empty my mind for a while.
A ball of paper suddenly hit me at this moment. I subconsciously followed it and it rolled to the ground. When I looked up again, the invigilator had already walked in front of me.
Before that, Lu Mingyu was looking at me with a panicked look.
A bad premonition slowly came over the invigilator. He picked up the crumb of paper on the ground, opened it, and his expression became increasingly ugly.
At this moment, the air began to condense.
The invigilator who looked like an old scholar stared at me sinisterly through his glasses, then picked up my test paper and looked at my name.
"You are Pei Jixing? You ranked second in the school last year?" His tone was full of contempt. "Is that how you got your grades?"
"I didn't cheat." The rebuttal came out of my mouth , and I stared at him with red eyes.
He glanced at me sarcastically, then put my paper away and said, "Okay, then who gave you this paper ball?"
This sentence was like a hard fishbone stuck in my throat, preventing me from uttering a single word.
Of course I know who threw it. My mind tells me that I should get rid of this burden and sit down to answer the questions. But my emotions tell me that I must not do this, never.
If that's the case, then everything between Lu Mingyu and me is really over.
"I don't know." I answered sullenly.
The teacher sneered, obviously not believing it.
"I'll give you one more chance. If you tell me who threw it, I'll return the test paper to you. Otherwise, don't take the test now and come with me to my office."
He stared at me, as if trying to find clues from my eyes.
But to his disappointment, I didn't see anyone except him from beginning to end.
In this moment when every second seemed like an eternity, countless voices were shouting in my head. It's not that I didn't hesitate. After all, the consequences of cheating in the exam are very serious. I don't know how to face Chen Meihua when I go back. Although she doesn't care about me normally, if I do anything that will damage her reputation, I will definitely not just be scolded...
But if I tell this to others, how can I face Lu Mingyu? I simply cannot betray him.
"Pei Jixing, you have to think about it carefully..." Seeing that I was indifferent, the teacher began to persuade me patiently.
But I already have the answer in my heart.
"The paper ball was thrown to me, but I don't know who threw it." I stood up and looked at him firmly, "You take the paper, I'll go to the office by myself."
I don't know where I got the courage to say this so calmly.
All I knew was that every step I took away from my seat felt like I was in a dream, and I had no idea how much trouble I had caused.
This is more serious than I thought.
Because I didn't know that the invigilator was a key member of the school and the former director of the teaching department. My behavior undoubtedly did not leave him any face and successfully angered him.
As a result, not only did I fail the exam for this subject, I was also unable to take the rest of the exams. I was trapped in the office the entire morning. At first I was waiting for the class teacher to come back and deal with the matter, but I ended up waiting for Chen Meihua and the principal.
Chen Meihua was extremely angry. She rushed in and threw her pirated LV bag at my head. My forehead was scratched by the sharp object on her bag, leaving a bloody streak. I didn't scream, but lowered my head in embarrassment, watching the cosmetics in her bag fall out in pieces.
The head teacher and the teacher nearby, who had never seen Chen Meihua lose her temper, were obviously frightened and quickly stopped Chen Meihua who was about to come up and hit me.
And in this noisy and quarrelsome process, as the person involved, I always maintained that posture, but tears fell down in big drops.
For a moment, I thought I was dreaming, a terrible dream.
But Chen Meihua used her stunning acting skills to tell me that all this is true.
She even pretended to cry and explained to the teacher and the principal how hard I studied every day and how good my grades were. She cried and scolded me fiercely, and from time to time she broke through the teacher's blockade to beat me, as if the harder she beat me, the easier it would be to solve the problem.
Seeing her like this, the teacher quickly pleaded with the principal.
The principal looked at me and didn't have much to say. He just leaned over and asked in a low voice, "You really don't know who this paper ball belongs to?"
I said nothing and shook my head.
He patted my shoulder and said, "It's okay. I know it's not your fault this time. Just go back and write a self-review, and the matter will be over."
Hearing this reply, Chen Meihua paused subconsciously, then glared at me fiercely and cried even more sadly.
Yes, it has always been like this. Chen Meihua's way of solving problems is to either act pitiful and miserable, or to punish me twice as much, so that I become a pitiful little thing in the eyes of everyone.
After coming out of the office, Chen Meihua changed her humble look, raised her hand and pushed me hard: "Don't you remember? Didn't I tell you, I don't care what you do outside, just don't bother me! Do you know how hard it is for me to make money? Now I run away and my wages are deducted. Are you deliberately trying to kill me?"
As she spoke, she poked my head unscrupulously with her manicured fingers.
And I was like an unconscious puppet, allowing her to trample on my self-esteem.
"I can tell at a glance that you are shielding someone else. Do you think you are so great? If you are so great, why don't you save me, your mother? Ah? Pei Jixing, I tell you, you are a money-loser! You were sold out and you are still counting money for others!"
When I heard the words "money-losing goods", I couldn't bear it anymore. I covered my ears and tears flowed like tap water.
Chen Meihua looked at me angrily, but she didn't continue to scold me. She lit a cigarette and smoked it while watching me cry.
Maybe she had seen enough, so she said, "I don't have time to care about you anymore, I'm leaving."
Then, there was the sound of high heels stepping on the floor and leaving.
I squatted down, buried my head in my arms, and sobbed uncontrollably.
In my short life of more than a decade, this was the first time that I felt the shame of being stripped naked in public.
I think I will never forget this feeling.
Just then, a voice called out my name.
I subconsciously raised my tear-stained face. In my blurred vision, a tall and slender figure in a clean uniform appeared. He put down the thick book in his hand, squatted down and asked softly: "Pei Jixing, what's wrong with you? Are you okay?"
It’s Chen Jialing, the arrogant top student.
No one must have told him that when a person is extremely sad, he should never ask "Are you okay?" Because the answer he gets is always crying, which makes things worse.
I'm not okay, I'm not okay at all.
He was frightened by my silent crying and quickly took out a tissue from his pocket to wipe my tears.
My self-esteem inexplicably flared up again at this moment. I pushed him away without any appreciation and stood up to leave.
But he stopped me loudly: "You are bleeding. It is better to go to the infirmary."
His voice was still as cold as ever. He was clearly saying caring words, but there was no trace of concern in his voice.
When I walked out of the teaching building, the school was almost empty.
I looked at the time and it was already lunchtime. Everyone was busy eating, resting, and preparing for the next exam.
Unlike everyone else, I didn’t even know where to eat.
Walking lightly in the school corridor, I just want to find a place to have a cup of hot water.
Suddenly, a voice sounded from behind me, calling my name loudly.
I turned around and saw Lu Mingyu running towards me. His expression was so sad that he looked like he was about to cry. I looked away and walked forward without stopping.
I didn't want him to see the ugly wound on my forehead.
But how could I, a short man with short legs, compete with Lu Mingyu, the main player of the basketball team? He caught up with me in just two or three steps and grabbed me.
"How are you? Does it hurt?" He panted, and without thinking, he reached out his hand to lift the loose hair on my forehead.
This action gave me an electric shock, and I took a step back, looking at him defensively and aggrieved. His eyes turned red without any defense, and he took out the still steaming hamburger and porridge, and was in a stalemate. It was not right to hand it over, and it was not right to take it back.
"I was eating in the cafeteria just now and heard about your story." His voice became very hoarse, "Xiao Xingxing, I'm sorry. I went too far."
"The paper ball was supposed to be thrown to the person behind you. I didn't expect it to be thrown to you."
"I should have come forward and admitted it, but I was confused at the time—"
He swallowed hard, looking regretful, and suddenly grabbed my hand: "Come on, let's find the teacher now and explain this matter clearly."
He pulled me hard as if he was possessed and walked towards the teaching building.
I know he wants to turn himself in, but to me, things have come to this point, what's the point of him going now?
I'm not blaming him, nor am I angry. I just don't want to step into that office with such a cold air again, and I don't want to think about every moment that happened before.
"That's enough!" I stopped and shook his hand off. I covered the painful wound on my forehead, looked at him tiredly, and said lightly, "I want to go home."
"little stars……"
"I don't blame you." I looked at him straight, "It's just that I'm really tired now."
"Okay, I'll take you home." He took my schoolbag, put the porridge and hamburger in it, and then carried it on his back.
We walked side by side in the corridor, the sunlight stretched our shadows very long. After a long silence, he spoke again.
"Why are you helping me like this? You rejected me from the beginning. In fact, you should have exposed me on the spot today."
"I went too far before. I ignored you on purpose because I wanted to save face." He pursed his lips like a child who had done something wrong, looking at me from time to time, "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I won't do this again."
In fact, many times, people are stubborn, sad, or resentful because they can't get a "sorry". At this moment, when I heard this sentence, my previous resentment was solved in an instant, just like a difficult problem. All the unhappiness that was stagnant in my heart like cumulonimbus clouds disappeared completely.
I think he is probably the only person in this world who has this kind of magic for me.
After all, I am not some amiable, kind and tolerant little cutie.
I couldn't help but smile and patted his shoulder: "Because we are friends, so if you apologize to me, this matter will be over."
Hearing this, he suddenly stopped, turned around, and looked at me with red eyes: "What did you say? Say it again?"
"I said, this matter is over."
"No, the previous sentence."
"Oh," I cleared my throat pretentiously, "because we are friends."
The moment the words fell, the boy standing in front of me, with red eyes and as melancholy as a tree, hugged me without any warning.
Although there was a schoolbag between him and me, at this moment, I seemed to be able to hear his heartbeat.
My body was stiff and I held my head high, thinking I had had an incredible dream.
In the dream, he said to me with great determination, Pei Jixing, you are my lifelong good friend, I swear, I will treat you well all my life.
How long is a lifetime?
I have no idea.
All I know is that this sentence is like a magical medicine that easily heals all my wounds from the inside out.
A slight cold breeze blew by, and I hid in the arms of this young man, listening to the flowers blooming in my heart and the scabs forming on the wounds.