Chapter 21 Chapter 21 Arriving at the single-family villa, the housekeeper…

Arriving at the single-family villa, the housekeeper opened the door and answered, and took the bags of the two people.

Qiao Yihua waved her hand to let the service staff leave, and she realized what she was going to do

after she shut the door heavily. He pinched her waist with both hands and refused to let go, looking completely determined.

Xiaozhen was pinched so hard that the thermos cup of flower tea in her hand fell to the ground, and the kiss came to her face.

She used up a lot of effort to leak a little space and said, "You are drunk, you are drunk."

Qiao Yihua did not force the kiss again, but picked her up and threw her on the bed. It seemed that he had no patience to coax her into foreplay today.

Xiaozhen couldn't push away at all. She was rubbed by him and felt pain. She was still saying, "Why do you always lie to me, you always lie to me."

They agreed to break up and return to a normal relationship some time ago. How long has it been since they did it again?

However, such an obstruction still angered her. He slapped her on the waist, not lightly or heavily, and casually took out a belt to tie her hands.

Xiaozhen didn't know what this was. She only remembered that her hands were tied behind her back, her heart was beating violently, her body kept struggling, she cried loudly, and then the pillowcase was stuffed into her mouth, her thighs were grabbed or rubbed with great force, and they were all bruised.

This kind of sexual behavior had no dignity and experience, as if a knife was inserted into every part of her body. Every word she said was covered tightly with her hands.

From her neck to her chest, every part was rubbed and bitten, and her hair was grabbed from behind and penetrated very deeply.

She seemed to have never known this person. The behavior was just a small fight like before. At this moment, every action and behavior seemed to indicate that humiliating a person was his source of pleasure, and he didn't care about her reaction at all.

Qiao Yihua pressed her head to suck that part. Xiaozhen's crying this time was not the pleading before, but fear and fear, or humiliation, and she kept shaking her head.

At this moment, she knew what an endless abyss was. The man's hand was very strong, and he could pinch people with one hand to make them hurt.

Few people are used to this kind of game, and few people like it.

Even people who are engaged in this profession can't stand such torture and humiliation, and there is no respect.

She didn't know when she fell asleep, maybe it was almost dawn. She

woke up after a short sleep.

She never thought that her nightmare was a combination of physical violation and the forest where she was chased when she fled her hometown as a teenager.

In an instant, he became the deepest fear in her heart.

When Xiaozhen opened her eyes, Qiao Yihua was swimming outside.

It was warm and there was a big swimming pool outside.

She only saw a very blurry figure, and every part of her body was in pain. She was clearly open-eyed, but there were all kinds of distorted buildings and pictures in front of her.

Qiao Yihua finished his shower and the housekeeper brought breakfast.

He came over in pajamas, walked to the bedside and lifted up Xiaozhen's hair covering her face, "Do you want breakfast?"

She pretended to be asleep, and her eyelashes were trembling.

He pinched her eyelashes with his hand, and Xiaozhen broke free from him and covered her head with the quilt.

Qiao Yihua's alcohol smell had dissipated, and he knew very well that she was not feeling well and was uncomfortable, so he reached in and kept rubbing her back.

Xiaozhen lifted the quilt and stood up naked, with many marks on her body, which was particularly glaring.

She quietly walked to the shower and took a shower. She didn't know how long she took, but it seemed like more than an hour.

When she came out, Qiao Yihua was smoking on the sofa. Seeing that she was expressionless and naked, he walked over to her, put a bath towel on her, and hugged her in his arms.

Then they kissed and continued to do it on the bed .

Until the evening, her voice was so hoarse that she couldn't hear clearly, "When are you leaving?"

Qiao Yihua said, "A week."

She closed her eyes silently again.

Until the third day, she was awakened by a dream again, and her tears had almost run out.

She called the hotel housekeeper to send some food, ate cakes and watched TV. The people on TV were distorted into horror movies, and the sound was like a tape recorder playing a tape without power.

Xiaozhen got up and hugged Qiao Yihua who came back. The people in the entire resort hotel were either rich or noble. Every day they talked about the latest news and information. He would occasionally go to make some friends during the break.

She really rarely took the initiative to throw herself into his arms, especially these days, Qiao Yihua hugged her very tightly.

Xiaozhen cried, laughed, called him "Grandma", called him "Jia Jia" and sometimes "Second Dad".

Most of the time, she would eat like a normal person and learn to swim with him, but she would stay in the water for a long time and Qiao Yihua would grab her swimsuit and continue swimming.

She would also take the initiative to kiss him, and occasionally cried out that it was uncomfortable when they went to bed, but she would soon endure it.

A week passed quickly, and the school notified that she could go home if she came to school before the winter vacation. When Xiaozhen answered the call from the counselor, she said, "Okay, I'll go there in the evening." She

was schizophrenic and didn't know what she was saying or doing. She kept mumbling and writing papers. She wrote seven or eight pages of ancient poems a day, and recited "Preface to the Pavilion of Prince Teng" and "Dream of Tianmu" from memory.

It was not until she walked into the kitchen that the kitchen knife soaked her wrist with blood, and she bled a lot. After so many days, she suddenly woke up. She

burst into tears.

To this day, Xiaozhen still remembers the first famous saying he taught her, which was "The most precious thing for a person is life. Life is only once for us. A person's life should be spent like this: when he looks back on the past, he will not regret wasting his years, nor will he be ashamed of doing nothing." She recited it silently in her mouth, and cried.

After everything came to her senses, there was only endless pain, and this pain would obviously not end.

For the first time, her hatred for him exceeded her gratitude and respect.

She cried and wiped the blood on the chopping board with a rag, and the paper towel pressed the blood, which was instantly soaked.

If this was the humiliation he brought, then the greater shame was that his wife came to find him in person.

There was no need to take out Zhou Yun's photo as evidence, and she slapped him. Any normal person would be ashamed if caught cheating. Xiaozhen's mind was buzzing and she couldn't hear what Zhou Yun said.

She turned back on the way to go back to school. She

put away the kitchen knives again and again.

The four words "love life" were once the main source of her survival and the mantra she pursued throughout her life, so she forgave him and reconciled with him after repeated pleadings.

She has survived for so many years, whether it was a good life or a bad life, she has tried hard to survive and never thought about ending it.

In fact, I don't remember many things he said in bed that week, but this one is very clear, "Who in this world cares what you do with whom? No one cares about your moral etiquette except me."

Morality and etiquette are self-restraint. If you read more books, you will feel shame and self-humiliation. If you don't go to school from the beginning and know a few words, then will you feel less now?

You won't wake up from dreams every night, and feel suffocated by being violated and bound in dreams, and cry alone in the middle of the night.

The business card in her coat pocket was rotten in her hand. I only remember that someone supported Zhou Yun after she left, and told her to call her if she felt uncomfortable.

The will to survive eventually made Xiaozhen call her, a psychologist.

She went to the address and found her office in a very quiet building. Xiaozhen looked out the window with a dull expression.

Dr. Xie was a female doctor with a nice voice. She was not in a hurry, waiting for Xiaozhen to speak, and was also very good at guiding her to speak.

The two of them asked one question after another, and sometimes took a half-hour break to continue the conversation.

Seeing that she relaxed her guard, Dr. Xie asked, "What is your name, and what is his name?"

"Gu, Gu Yuezhen." She said, "His name is Zheng Nan."

Dr. Xie did not judge whether it was true or not, and continued to ask: "Do you expect a normal relationship?"

Xiaozhen shook her head, "No, I don't expect it. He won't let me go."

"What kind of animal is he in your eyes?"

Xiaozhen did not answer, perhaps she couldn't describe it.

Dr. Xie gave an example: "Is it a cow, a sheep, a leopard, a lion, a tiger, or a dinosaur? You can think about it."

"I don't know, I don't know, maybe it's a python. I don't know."

"Are you scared?" Dr. Xie put down the pen.

Xiaozhen nodded, "I was always scared, I was so scared, my mother left me alone, how she died, maybe she hanged herself, I don't know."

She was in a very bad mental state, and seemed to be confused again.

Doctor Xie said, "Has he had sex with other women in front of you? Or, did he act very close and have an unusual relationship?"

Xiaozhen shook her head, "I don't know, I don't know, he loves his wife very much, why would he look for me if he loves her, I don't know."

Doctor Xie wrote it down by hand, and finally realized that it was a story about a mistress.

"If he is a little sheep now, and there is a handful of grass, half a butcher knife, a razor, and a torch next to him, which one would you take?"

"Sheep, a handful of grass."

Doctor Xie: "If he died suddenly now, would you be sad?"

Xiaozhen looked up at the doctor, "Will he die? Is he going to die? I...I, I don't know, I don't know, I...I didn't think he would die."

Doctor Xie lowered his head and wrote it down.

"Miss Gu, take a rest. There are light music and masseurs over there. Go lie down and rest for an hour."

Xiaozhen fell asleep for the first time under the hypnosis of the masseur and music. It was also the only time in so many days that she did not dream.

A psychologist is like a fortune teller. He thinks that all the burdens and humiliations on her are other people's fault. She is not wrong and has no sin.

Xiaozhen is in a bad state. She rejects Qiao Yihua in her heart, cries, and still reserves a lot when talking about many things. She will defend him and thank him for his efforts.

She can hate at will when she is in unconsciousness. The more sober she is, the more difficult it is for her to overcome the emotions that have accumulated little by little. It is difficult for her to forget in this life that he gave her so much care and love when she was in junior high school and high school, when her worldview and values ​​were formed. This is an indelible emotion, the most missed and beautiful thing imprinted in her heart.

Dr. Xie knows that she is reluctant to say many things. Her sadness and hatred are nothing compared to the torture she has suffered.

The conversation lasted more than ten hours every day, and she talked about some insignificant things and her inner confusion.