Just like Yu Xia said, with Xu Shihan by my side at the radio station, my life was pretty good. She was responsible for writing the manuscripts, and I was responsible for reading them. We soon became the best partners at the station and received several compliments from the station director.
If it weren't for that incident, I might still be happily being praised on the radio with Xu Shihan, and things with Yu Xia wouldn't have turned out like this.
That day was no different from any other day. I was reading the manuscript that Xu Shihan gave me. The content of the manuscript was very light-hearted and I found it particularly enjoyable to read.
There are three urgent things in life, and no one knows when they will come.
When I finished reading the first manuscript, I felt a little uncomfortable in my stomach. I looked around and saw that there was no one to take over. Xu Shihan was called out to get some documents, so I was the only one in the entire studio.
After much hesitation, I said to the microphone, "We are about to start the second story. Are you as excited as I am? Let's listen to a cheerful song first. After the song, I will continue to tell you the second story of the day."
It was just a trip to the bathroom for a few minutes.
I never thought things would turn out like this.
When I heard the originally cheerful music in the toilet suddenly turn into an unbearable sound, I was so scared that I ran to the studio.
When I returned to the studio, panting, it was in chaos. Several radio station administrators were standing there sweating profusely, staring at me, and everyone had anger in their eyes.
Only Xu Shihan stood beside me after I entered the door and called my name timidly: "Su Bei..."
I really wanted to smile at her and comfort her, but I couldn't.
"Su Bei, I think you should give me an explanation." The director glared at me and said.
"I... really don't know what's going on." I also need an explanation. Why did the song I was playing turn into unbearable music halfway through when it was clearly a cheerful song? "Director, if possible, can we check the surveillance?"
"Surveillance? The surveillance broke down a few days ago and hasn't been repaired yet. You'd better find out who did this, otherwise... none of us can protect you." The director left with a group of people.
I stood there woodenly. Before I had time to think through the whole thing, a classmate told me to go to the counselor's office.
"Su Bei! What on earth is going on? Do you know how much of an impact this will have on the school? You didn't stay in the studio during the radio broadcast time, but had to go out. What do you think will happen if something like this happens?"
Faced with the teacher's anger, I didn't know what to say for a moment, and just silently endured the bombardment of anger from the teacher.
"Don't speak? Do you think you can solve the problem by not speaking?"
"Teacher, I'm sorry. Although I didn't play that music, it was caused by my leaving my post without permission, so it's all my fault." Seeing that silence was met with even greater rage from the teacher, I had no choice but to lower my head and admit my mistake in front of the counselor, and in the end all I got in return was a long sigh from him.
He said: "Su Bei, the whole school has heard about it, and it can't be covered up. If the school decides to punish you, then I can't help."
"Thank you, teacher. I understand."
I walked out of the office dejected. I was punished less than two months after the start of the school year. Should I admire myself?
Xu Shihan stood at the door of the studio with red eyes waiting for me. When she saw me come back, tears fell and she said self-reproachfully: "I should have stayed with you, so nothing would have happened. Su Bei, I'm sorry, I'm sorry."
"It's none of your business. I was careless." I began to recall the people I saw outside the studio today. "Besides the people from the radio station, did you see anyone else today?"
"I... I seem... to have seen Yan Anyan." Xu Shihan said in a low voice.
"Yes! It must be her!" I also remembered that Yan Anyan had appeared nearby in the morning. When she saw me, she rolled her eyes at me and was about to come up to me to have a fight.
It must be her!
"Su Bei! Su Bei, what are you going to do?"
Ignoring Xu Shihan's shouting behind me, I was certain that Yan Anyan was the one who did it, and I rushed out in a fit of rage, completely disregarding whether I would regret it later.
When I found Yan Anyan, she was dancing with a group of cheerleaders on the basketball court. When she heard me calling her name, she was stunned at first, then clapped her hands to dismiss everyone, and stood there waiting for me to come over and find her.
I have heard too many rumors about her, and they can be summed up in two words: proud and strong. She is always so proud and unwilling to lower herself; she is also always so strong and does not allow anyone to disobey her.
But I know that this is how she behaves in front of outsiders. I have seen her being so humble with tears in her eyes in front of Yu Xia too many times.
This is not a situation where I feel sorry for her, and no one feels sorry for me at this moment.
"Hey, you look like you're here to fight me to the death?" Yan Anyan said with a sneer.
"Why did you frame me?" I asked bluntly.
"Frame-up? What are you talking about? Su Bei, although we have a grudge between us, it doesn't mean that you can slander me without any evidence. I have no reason to stand here and listen to your nonsensical accusations. I'm going back to the dormitory to take a shower." Yan Anyan glared at me and said.
"Framed? Do you dare to say that you haven't been near the radio station today?"
"I've been there, so what?"
"Then you also heard those unbearable sounds played on the radio today, right?"
"Did you hear that? So what? You're not trying to tell me that I deliberately put those things out to frame you?" She always had a sneer on her face, "Su Bei, I'm not as low-class as you think."
"You don't admit it?"
"I don't have to admit it if it wasn't me."
"I clearly saw you there this morning! Who else could it be if not you?"
"Maybe there are too many people who dislike you like me."
"Do you think I will believe you? Yan Anyan, if you admit it, I will admire your courage. The current you only makes me feel disgusted."
"Disgusting? Su Bei! What qualifications do you have to call me disgusting? You stand by Yu Xia's side as a good friend every day, but you are hostile to any girl who likes Yu Xia. Am I disgusting or are you disgusted?" She shouted, "I, Yan Anyan, am not like you. I dare not say anything. There is no need for me to admit to something I didn't do."
"Really? Do you think I will believe you if you act so righteously?"
Looking at me who was extremely angry, Yan Anyan suddenly laughed and said, "Su Bei, I think I need to find a witness who can convince you to testify for me."
"No matter who it is, I won't believe it."
Yan Anyan took out his cell phone and made a brief call. Not long after, I saw Yu Xia walking towards me against the light.
It turns out that the person she was talking about who was convincing enough to convince me was him.
"Su Bei." Yu Xia called my name.
"Are you here to see if I'm okay? Or are you here to help her testify?" I clearly heard the trembling in my own words. I was afraid that he would give me an answer that I didn't want to hear.
He didn't answer me, but just walked towards me quietly.
There was a rumbling train running in my head. I knew the answer. I wanted to escape and not listen, but my feet seemed to be nailed down and I couldn't move. I could only watch him get closer and closer to me... closer and closer...
He said: "Su Bei, let's go back!"
This simple sentence was like a dagger piercing my heart. I stood there in a daze without any response.
"Su Bei." Yu Xia grabbed my wrist and called my name again.
I finally came to my senses, shook off his hand and asked, "Are you here to help her?"
He didn't answer, just looked at me again and called my name.
"Su Bei."
I have never hated Yu Xia calling my name so much, and I have never hated his silence and unwillingness to explain so much.
I knew clearly that Yan Anyan was watching the show with her arms folded across her chest, but I just couldn't muster the nerve to pretend that nothing was wrong in front of her.
"Yu Xia!" I yelled, tears streaming down my face. "You're not here to seek justice for me, but because you think I'm wrong and want to take me away, right?"
"Su Bei, it really wasn't her. She was within my sight when the incident happened." He finally said a fairly long sentence. This sentence was not for helping me, but for Yan Anyan.
"You believe it this time, right? I was with Yu Xia at that time! Of course, I won't tell you what happened between us." Yan Anyan's smug look made me want to tear her face apart.
But I didn't.
Now I am buried in sadness. I hope that the boy in front of me can stand by me at all times and protect me from wind and rain, instead of helping others and pulling me away like he is now.
Even if I was wrong in this matter, I hope that he can help me the moment he appears, just for a moment.
But he didn't.
I said the most childish words in my life to him, the boy I liked.
I said, "Yu Xia, I will never talk to you again."
"Su Bei——"
As I ran, my whole body trembled uncontrollably, and my forehead and palms were covered with sweat.
He didn't chase me, and I could only find a corner where no one was and cry silently, feeling even more sad. It was like being stuck in a quagmire, the more I struggled, the deeper I sank, and the more I couldn't breathe.
When Sheng Yinuo found me, my eyes were red from crying, and my throat felt like it was filled with a ball of cotton, so I couldn't speak.
He squatted carefully beside me, took off his coat and put it on me, and said in a somewhat reproachful way: "Next time, don't run out alone like this and not answer the phone. I'm worried."
I wanted to ask him, is Yu Xia worried about me too? Has he come to see me too? I thought about it for a long time but still didn't ask.
"Let me take you home!" Sheng Yinuo said.
"Aren't you going to ask me what happened?" I finally said this, my throat a little sore.
"You can tell me when you want to . I don't need to ask." Sheng Yinuo helped me up. "Su Bei, I just want you to remember that no matter what happens, I will always be by your side."
He still knows everything!
But he is still willing to stand firmly by my side.
Thank you, Sheng Yinuo.
After the incident with Yan Anyan, Yu Xia and I started a cold war. Sheng Yinuo always tried to ease the relationship between us, but we were always stubborn and refused to accept their kindness.
I always thought, Yu Xia, as long as you give in to me, or even call my name, I will forgive you and never quarrel with you again. But he didn't do that. Instead, he followed me silently every day when I went to and from school.
On the fifth day that Yu Xia followed me, Sheng Yinuo was left behind for training because of a basketball game, so we went home together. Normally, with Sheng Yinuo to liven up the atmosphere, I wouldn't feel that time was too hard to endure. But today, without him, I could always feel Yu Xia's gaze on me. No one likes such a person to follow them like a ghost all the time!
"Yu Xia, what do you want?"
If I hadn't sprained my foot, I probably wouldn't have asked this question to break the ice because of the pain and irritability.
“This is also the way I go home!”
"Really?" I glared at him angrily and stepped aside to make way for him. "Okay, then you go first. I definitely won't block you."
"Su Bei." Yu Xia looked me up and down, walked to my side, sighed softly, half squatted down, and said in a gentle but unyielding voice, "Come up."
Seeing his attitude, my head buzzed and I was stunned. My heart had already fallen, but I still refused to give in: "What are you doing? I don't need your help."
"Stop messing around and get up." Yu Xia didn't say anything else. He just pulled me over and carried me on his back.
Leaning on Yu Xia's slightly thin but warm and broad back, I didn't dare to move. I put my hands on his shoulders awkwardly, not daring to get too close to him.
We grew up together, and it's not like we haven't had such intimate contact before. But the older I get, the clearer I become about my feelings for him, and every close contact makes my heart beat faster.
As if sensing my nervousness, Yu Xia half-jokingly said, "Relax, Su Bei, you will be very heavy!"
"Hey! I'm not heavy, okay?" When I heard Yu Xia's words, I forgot about my nervousness and punched him on the back angrily.
The atmosphere eased instantly.
Actually, Yu Xia, I am so afraid that you will ignore me again because of what I said.
On the way back with me on his back, Yu Xia said to me, "Su Bei, it's not that I won't help you, I just don't want you to hurt innocent people because of your anger. If you do that, how sad will you be after knowing the truth?"
"Then why were you... with Yan Anyan that day?"
"Their cheerleading team was training there, and I happened to pass by. She brought a group of girls around me and asked me to watch them dance. I managed to escape with great difficulty."
Therefore, he did not have any private contact with Yan Anyan...
So, they are not together...
Thinking of this, my mood, which had been gloomy for several days, finally brightened up.
After Yu Xia sent me downstairs to my house, I insisted that he not send me home. A sprained ankle was a minor matter, but if he carried me home with great fanfare, my mother would be scared.
My mother has really given so much for me and this family. I don’t want to make her worry because of this minor injury.
Seeing my firm attitude, Yu Xia did not insist and just looked at me for a long time. I couldn't stand him looking at me like that, so I urged him to go back quickly: "Yu Xia, please don't look at me like that all the time, okay? It makes me feel so pitiful. It's just a slight sprain of the ankle. It's okay. Go back quickly! Thank you for sending me home."
After sending Yu Xia back, I tried to bear the pain and pushed open the door as if nothing had happened.
I just walked to the sofa in the living room and sat down when Sheng Yinuo called me. It was very noisy on the other end. He shouted loudly: "Su Bei, Yu Xia said that you sprained your foot. Do you want me to pick you up tomorrow morning? "
"Keep your voice down, keep your voice down, my ears are going deaf." Sheng Yinuo's voice came from the phone, which scared me. I was relieved when I saw that my mother was not in the living room. "Let's talk about tomorrow's matter tomorrow. I want to eat. Hang up!"
"Who called you just now?" Mom asked casually as she came out of the kitchen carrying dishes.
"Sheng Yinuo, he seemed to have just finished training and was about to go home. He asked me if I had arrived home." I responded casually.
"Beibei..." Mom called my name, "Forget it, come over here and eat first!"
I don’t know what my mother is going to say, I think it’s about Sheng Yinuo!
I don’t want to ask more questions, because I’m afraid that if I ask, I won’t know how to answer…
The next morning, there was only one thing on my mind: should I take a direct bus to school or take the bus and then the subway?
Before I could finish my thought, I saw two familiar figures pushing two brand new bicycles stopped in front of me.
Sheng Yinuo was wearing a blue denim jacket and a white T-shirt with an exaggerated cartoon pattern. He had a backpack slung crookedly on his left side. He looked with a somewhat bored expression at Yu Xia, who was wearing a thin black sweater, with his left hand in his pocket and his backpack hanging on the handlebars of a bicycle, with an indifferent expression.
When the two saw me coming out of the building, they gave me the same look.
There was only the same sentence in his eyes - take my car!
Seeing that the two of them actually bought a new bicycle for me overnight, I was so moved that my nose was a little sore and I didn’t know what to do for a moment.
"Su Bei, why are you standing there? Get in the car quickly and let this handsome guy be your rider!" Sheng Yinuo shouted at me with a smile and patted his back seat.
I looked at him and then at Yu Xia. Yu Xia didn't say anything, but just looked at me quietly.
"Why are you still standing there? Do you want to be late? You will be deducted points if you are late for class today. Be careful not to fail the course at the end of the semester." Sheng Yinuo urged again.
I was struggling with what choice to make, and I couldn't help but keep my eyes on Yu Xia, only to see him turn his head away, as if he didn't want to meet my gaze.
I was a little annoyed, thinking, Yu Xia, are you dumb? Can't you just say something? That way I'll have a good reason to sit behind you!
I stood there motionless.
Sheng Yinuo was even more anxious, "Su Bei, are you planning to be late or skip class? Why are you so slow?"
I glared at him angrily: "Yeah, I am always slow. If you think I am slow, then I'd better not take your car..."
After saying that, I walked straight to Yu Xia's car: "I'd better take Yu Xia's car. I'm afraid you will throw me down in order to overtake." I finally found a suitable reason to sit behind Yu Xia, and I felt relieved.
Sheng Yinuo curled his lips, unable to hide the disappointment in his eyes, but he did not refute me, he just rode his bike and led the way.
Sitting behind Yu Xia, I could clearly smell the fresh scent of his shower gel, and could also clearly feel the warmth coming from him. I have known Yu Xia for many years, but I have never had such an intimate contact with him that made my heart beat so violently.
Suddenly I remembered a song sung by the lead actor in a popular idol drama many years ago, and I couldn't help but humming it.

The sky is blue
Wind blowing white shirt
Happiness is like a sail full of wind
Holding you
It feels so natural
You're welcome
You can always rely on
Falling in love with someone is not an exchange
I am willing to protect you like this
You don't have to pay it back
The most special existence
You are worth my wait
A heart like this
Being filled up bit by bit by you
The word love
I won't change it if I say so.
No one can replace
The most special existence
You keep me from leaving
Happiness takes time
It is only natural
Like this
Lean on me
Whether you understand or not
I have determined the answer
…

Just like the song says, Yu Xia is the most special person in my heart, and no one can replace her.
But I don’t know how long we have to wait for our happiness.