What kind of mood is this?
Like fireflies missing the midsummer, like white clouds missing the blue sky, like hibiscus missing the rainy season.
Just like I missed the lonely you.

The library was unusually quiet at this time, so quiet that I could hear my own breathing and heartbeat.
"Bang, boom, boom!" So loud and so fast.
My throat is so dry, it feels like it's burning.
Strange, why is this happening?
Am I saying I'm nervous?
I subconsciously tightened my grip on the book's spine. Are you kidding me? Do I really care about meeting him again?
I made up my mind and took out all the books at once, having already taken out one-third of them.
"Haining, you are here!" A girl appeared from nowhere on the opposite side of the bookshelf. She walked to Shu Haining and patted Shu Haining on the shoulder the moment I took out the book.
Shu Haining, who had been looking at me, turned around and looked at the girl standing next to him.
I suddenly breathed a sigh of relief, turned sideways, and leaned my back against the bookshelf. Only then did I realize that my palms were sweaty.
That girl seemed to be the one walking next to Shu Haining yesterday!
However, now that I see her so close, I always feel that she looks somewhat familiar.
who is she?
It should be someone I know.
I tried to recall, and the outline of a little girl immediately appeared in my mind.
At this time, Shu Haining also called out the girl's name.
"Hua Yuemian, where did you come from?" Shu Haining asked a question that I also wanted to know.
"I just came in to look for review materials and saw you, so I came to say hello to you. By the way, the head teacher didn't find you in the classroom just now, so he asked us to tell you when we saw you. It seems to be quite urgent, so you'd better come over." Hua Yuemian said with a sweet smile.
"Okay, I'll be there right away." Shu Haining put down the book in his hand and walked out the door.
I turned my head and saw Hua Yuemian walking out with him.
Shu Haining walked forward a few steps, then suddenly stopped and slowly turned his head. At that moment, for some reason, I quickly covered my face with the book.
"What's wrong?" I heard Hua Yuemian ask in confusion.
Shu Haining replied slowly: "Nothing, let's go."
It wasn't until I heard footsteps again that I slowly moved the book away from my eyes.
At this time, Shu Haining and Hua Yuemian had already walked to the door of the library, but I stood there without moving, watching them leave.
In my vague memory, Hua Yuemian and Shu Haining never seemed to speak to each other when they were children.
Did anything special happen in the ten years I was away?
Otherwise, why would two people who never even spoke to each other in the past become good friends now?
They all look grown up, though.
I held the book, and the corners of my mouth inadvertently curled up slightly.
I always feel a little lonely!
After coming out of the library, the campus was still quiet.
There is a small square in front of the library, and in front of the square is the school auditorium. There is a row of benches on the edge of the square, and I found a clean place to sit down, planning to rest for a while before going home.
However, at this moment, something caught my attention.
There is a row of bulletin boards behind the bench. On the largest bulletin board is a red list, and the first name on the list is "Shu Haining".
This seems to be the ranking of the mock exam. Is it true that Shu Haining is also good at studying?
When I left, Shu Haining and I were only eight years old, and I don't seem to have any impression that he was very good at studying.
Looking down from Shu Haining's name, after more than ten names, I saw Hua Yuemian's name.
The kids at the beach are really amazing!
Looking at this list, I couldn't help but have this thought.
When I walked out of the school gate, it was almost noon and I felt a little hungry.
I took the bus back, and when I got off, I happened to meet Tang Ruize who had just returned after completing the school admission procedures.
"Haha, it seems that I was right. This school uniform really suits you." Tang Ruize walked up to me, looked me up and down, and said with appreciation.
"That's all!" I lowered my head and looked at my clothes.
Tang Ruize smiled and asked, "Did you go to school?"
"Yeah, I was a bit bored in the morning, so I went to feel the school atmosphere." I replied.
"How is it? Is it interesting?" Tang Ruize asked with interest.
I thought about it and answered, "Not very interesting, but not too boring either."
"What happened?" Tang Ruize asked sensitively, as if he smelled something.
I can only say that he really knows me. Whenever I think something is not too boring, it must be because that thing is very special, so special that it arouses my interest.
I said frankly: "I met Shu Haining again, in the library. At that time, the distance between him and me was only 50 centimeters, separated by a row of bookshelves ."
"So, we didn't meet in the end?" Tang Ruize looked at me and asked with a slight smile in his voice.
"I can't hide it from you." I was a little discouraged. I didn't say anything, but this guy saw through everything I wanted to say.
"Why?" He and I walked side by side, the sun shining on our bodies, golden, "Why didn't we meet? We were only 50 centimeters apart."
“I don’t know.” This is also something I can’t figure out.
I was ready to meet him, but he didn't see me when I took out the book. When he turned around and looked at Hua Yuemian, all my courage fell apart.
I was even relieved by this and felt it was better that he didn't see me in this situation.
Why do such emotions arise?
I was thinking about it while I was in the car just now, but I just couldn't figure it out.
"Yuque, don't you want to meet Shu Haining ten years later?" Tang Ruize asked softly, "No, right? In fact, you care about that boy a lot, right? Because you care about him a lot, you are afraid to meet him, is that right?"
"Ah, are you scared?" I was slightly startled and stopped.
I opened my eyes wide and looked at Tang Ruize. An incredible feeling surged in my heart, as if the originally chaotic world became extremely clear in an instant.
If my mood is a problem that I cannot solve, then what Tang Ruize just said is the answer to the problem.
I suddenly realized and said, "So that's how it is! So, I care about him a lot? It turns out that I feel this way because I care about that guy a lot, so I'm afraid to meet him!"
Tang Ruize looked back at me, with a hint of helplessness in his eyes: "High IQ but low EQ, it must be people like you who are talking about this."
I smiled at him and said, "With such high IQ and EQ, it must be someone like you, brother."
So why do I care about him so much?
Why do I care so much about Shu Haining?
What kind of existence is Shu Haining to me?
At night, I sat on a bamboo chair in the yard, looking at the starry sky and thinking about these two questions.
Unfortunately, I thought about it for a long time but couldn’t figure it out.
To me, Shu Haining and Hua Yuemian are people I knew . Thinking more deeply, Shu Haining was my only playmate at that time, and he was the only one who was willing to let me stay by his side.
But even if that's the case, it doesn't mean I care about him so much.
Is it because I picked up Shu Haining, so I naturally think that he must recognize me at the first time? Even I think this idea is a bit willful.
"Yuque, did you meet Haining and Yuemian at school?"
Grandma sat down next to me and brought a plate of sliced ​​watermelon and placed it on the round stone table in front of me.
I took a piece of watermelon and said while eating it, "I guess I saw them, but they didn't see me."
"Didn't you go talk to them?" Grandma's voice was very peaceful, a calm and gentle one that had been precipitated by the baptism of time. "No matter what unpleasant things happened when you were young, after so many years, you can smile and say 'long time no see'. This is what adults do."
“If being an adult means being so hypocritical, then I don’t want to be an adult.” I put the watermelon rind into the plate, stood up and walked back to the room.
Maybe I can say "long time no see" to Shu Haining with a smile, but I definitely can't do that to Hua Yuemian.
If possible, I don’t want to talk to Hua Yuemian.
I took a shower and lay in bed, but still couldn't fall asleep.
It was the same last night. I tossed and turned all night and hardly got any sleep.
Is it because the jet lag hasn't returned yet?
I turned over again and looked out the window. It was a quiet night with many stars. The sea in the distance was quietly dormant, like a docile monster.
The college entrance examination is just a few days away, and I will definitely not go to school before then.
This is exactly what I thought before I fell asleep last night.
But now, I was standing at the school gate. It was really annoying. Why did I, who had never been interested in anything, change my decision again and again?
I reached out and grabbed Liu Haier, stood at the school gate and hesitated for a while, but finally walked into the campus.
The dense tree canopy blocks the scorching sun, turning the school’s main road into a shady boulevard.
“Just think of it as feeling the campus atmosphere again!”
I said this to myself.
This time, I didn’t go to the library again. Instead, I walked into the teaching building where the senior grades were located and casually walked into a classroom. In an instant, everyone’s eyes fell on me.
“Are there any vacancies?”
I asked while standing at the door of the classroom.
The teacher was at a loss for a moment, and the whole class was stunned.
"The principal said I can go to any class I want."
I explained.
The teacher suddenly showed an expression of sudden enlightenment and said, "So you are the transfer student."
Maybe the principal and the teachers had already said hello, so she said that.
The teacher pointed to an empty seat by the window in the last row and said, "That's empty. You can sit there."
"Thanks."
I walked over, took out a tissue from my pocket, wiped the table and chairs, then put my schoolbag down and sat down.
After a brief interlude, the teacher continued the class and had someone pass me a test paper from front to back. It was the test paper she was explaining.
I glanced at it and threw it aside because those questions had no appeal to me. Things with answers are simple, and things without answers are the most difficult to understand.
I propped my chin up and looked out the window. A sparrow flew past the window, leaving behind a string of chirping sounds.
When the bell rang for the end of get out of class, I had already woken up from a nap. I was very sleepy because I had slept very late last night.
I lay on the table, and the classroom was noisy, with many people talking about me. They were probably curious about what kind of person this person who transferred to our school just before the college entrance examination was.
Many people were walking back and forth in the corridor. Shu Haining, wearing a white school uniform, was walking slowly towards this side from the other end of the corridor.
I stood up and leaned against the window to look at him. Would he notice me this time? My eyes followed his figure, watching him move from far to near, and then from near to far. His eyes seemed to fall on my face, but he quickly moved away, as if he was looking at a stranger, just a faint glance.
I sat back and continued to sleep on the table. Yesterday in the library, I was only 50 centimeters away from him, but unfortunately there was a row of bookshelves between us. Today in this classroom, when we were closest, we were still only 50 centimeters apart, and this time there was nothing between us, and even his eyes fell on me.
However, it was no different from the time we passed each other on campus the day before yesterday, and he still didn't recognize me.
Three times is the number of times I passed him by.
Every time we seem to meet, but never do. Maybe if I call him, we can meet again in the simplest and most direct way.
But something inside me stopped me from doing that.
It was as if I was mad at someone, and I just didn't want to call out his name.
Before the day's classes were over, I walked out of the classroom with my schoolbag.
After returning home, I locked myself in the study. I didn't know why I had no interest in reading those books that I usually found very interesting.
Ever since I saw Shu Haining ten years later in the corridor that day, something had gone off the track of daily life. I could vaguely sense it, but I didn't know how to correct it.
Tang Ruize had not come back yet. Grandma was shelling edamame outside. A seabird flew through the skylight above her head and dropped a feather on the glass window.
On this summer afternoon, I was alone in my study, and a feeling of loneliness rose from the bottom of my heart.
I didn't go to school for the next few days. On the day of the college entrance examination, I went directly to the examination room.
The two-day examination made me feel an unprecedented tense atmosphere. Is this what they call a huge army crossing a single-plank bridge?
This exam can influence the lives of many people. Those who pass the exam can go to college and have one more choice in life; while those who fail the exam can either choose to study for another year or start working.
If you think about it this way, it’s only natural that there would be such an atmosphere!
After the exam, I originally planned to go back by myself, but when the principal called me to get on the school bus, I followed the principal without thinking .
The people in the car were all teachers who were sending their children to take the exam, and I was the only student.
"How is it, classmate Yunque, do you think our school is interesting?" the principal asked me kindly.
Is this interesting?
I don’t know what is interesting. It’s the same everywhere and there is no difference anywhere.
When we got off the bus at school, the quiet campus suddenly became as noisy as boiling water, with many parents waiting to pick up their children.
I walked around the campus bored.
Why am I here?
Is there something I am still expecting in my heart?
I stopped and looked up at the blue sky.
Am I expecting Shu Haining to recognize me at a glance among the endless stream of people on a summer evening when cicadas are chirping?
Just like I was able to recognize him ten years later by instinct even though I was so far away from him in the corridor.
That's only fair.
If I call his name first, wouldn't that mean I lose?
Walking alone in the empty teaching building, it was very quiet all around. The echo of footsteps fell into my ears, and a deep feeling of loneliness and loss rose in my heart.
I pushed open the door of the classroom and walked in slowly. This is the classroom of Shu Haining's class. There is no special reason to come here, just to see what kind of scenery he usually sees when he sits here.
I reached out and gently touched the table. During the years when I was not with him, he was here, wearing a white shirt, writing and studying.
I sat down in his seat, and at this moment, the sunset glow shone through the window, enveloping .
I never realized how special he was to me.
At first I thought he was my only friend in my childhood, so I cared about him a little. But in the few days after I came back, I did a lot of things that I would never have done before - going to the library, going to the classroom to attend classes, and running here and sitting in the seat where Shu Haining once sat.
All this was because I wanted him to see me and recognize me, so I deliberately went to the library and chose to attend classes in the classroom next to his. How could there be so many coincidences that I could always meet him in such a big campus?
"This is what so-called friends are!" I lay on the table, resting my head on my arms, gently closing my eyes, and talking to myself.
I was so immersed in my own thoughts that I didn't notice someone walking into the classroom until a confused and hesitant voice came into my ears. "Who are you?"
My body trembled violently and I opened my eyes quickly. The afterglow of the setting sun shone into my eyes through the window, which was a little dazzling.
"Why are you sitting in my seat?" The voice was getting closer and closer to me, and the footsteps finally stopped beside me.
"I feel a little uncomfortable. Let me borrow your seat and lie down to rest for a while." I said this in a low voice, and at the same time I buried my head in my arms to prevent him from seeing my face.
Not here, not under these circumstances, to meet him.
Because it would make me feel embarrassed.
"Do I need you to go to the infirmary?" His voice was warm and caring, giving people the feeling of the warm sunshine in March.
I was a little surprised. When I saw his eyes that day, I thought he had grown into a cold person.
I breathed a sigh of relief for no reason. It was good that he didn't become a completely unfamiliar person.
"No, I'll just lie down for a while," I said.
He didn't insist, but just said, "I'll get something, it will be done soon."
I turned slightly to the side, still shielding my face with my arms. I lowered my head and saw his slender, clean hands take out a notebook from the drawer.
"Okay, thank you." His voice was very close, and this time the distance between me and him was only ten centimeters.
I heard his footsteps gradually fade away and finally disappear at the end of the corridor.
I stood up from my seat and took a deep breath out the window.
More than ten meters, two meters, fifty centimeters, ten centimeters...
How close do you have to be for you to recognize me, Shu Haining?
Although this may be what friends are like, even so, I cannot deny that I still have expectations for you.
I closed the doors and windows of the classroom, turned and walked towards the long corridor.
Just then, a burst of hurried footsteps came from the other end of the corridor, and I raised my head and looked in the direction where the sound came from.
A man was running towards me against the light. He was wearing a white shirt and had short black hair that was a little naturally curly. He was an eighteen-year-old boy with a slender figure that had not yet fully grown. He stopped five meters away from me.
His eyes were wide open, and there was shock and disbelief in them.
On the last day of my high school life, which was a time of both noise and quiet, in the empty corridor, Shu Haining and I finally met face to face, and our eyes met.
"Are you Skylark?"
After a long while, he asked as if he wanted to confirm something.
But before I could answer, he said with great certainty, "You are Skylark!"
He walked towards me slowly, and stopped only when he was in front of me. He lowered his head and looked into my eyes. After a while, the corners of his mouth curled up, revealing a happy smile: "You are indeed a skylark."
"Long time no see." I said with a smile, "You are so slow, Shu Haining. I was wondering when you will notice me."
Shu Haining opened his arms towards me, his eyes bright and startling: "Wouldn't you like a reunion hug?"
"Huh?" I was stunned. Is this young man in front of me really the Shu Haining I know?
Although a child's personality may not be exactly the same as when he grows up, but no matter how I look at it, Shu Haining in front of me seems to be too sunny!
Is there something wrong with my feelings?
Obviously, I thought he was too cold before, and even felt a little sad about it.
"Long time no see, little skylark." He took a step towards me and opened his arms to hug me.
My chin rested on his shoulder, he hugged me when I was distracted, and let go when my mind went blank.
"you……"
I looked at him, speechless for a long time.
"Hmm?" He smiled at me, pursing his lips. "Is it because of such a huge change that you feel at a loss? If so, I'm really sorry!"
"Well……"
It seems that without talking or communicating, it is impossible to understand a person through just a few passing encounters. The Shu Haining in front of me is a far cry from the Shu Haining I imagined ten years ago.
"You don't think I'm still the same as I was when I was a kid, do you? Judging from your expression, I'm right!" He continued, "But that's true. When you were a kid, you were only familiar with me, so it's natural that you would think I'm still the same as I was ten years ago!"
"What do you want to say?" He looked strange and what he said gave me a bad feeling. I looked into his eyes and asked softly.
The smile on his face slowly disappeared. "I want to say that I don't talk to you alone anymore like when we were kids. Now I have many friends, and all the kids on the beach have become my friends. So even if you come back, there's no place for you around me anymore."
My heart trembled and I stood there in a daze.
I wondered if I had heard it wrong, or if he was joking, but Shu Haining was standing less than a meter away from me. The expression on his face was serious, and there was a cold light in his turquoise eyes.
"Although I'm sorry, let's just forget about those childhood events! I don't plan to recall them." He slowly turned his back to me, "Because things are different now, for you and me. I'm going back, Hua Yuemian is still waiting for me to go home together, I can't let her wait any longer."
He looked back at me and whispered, "Goodbye, little skylark!"
The corridor was empty and I was the only one there.
I stood there, unable to move, unable to take even a single step forward.
I lowered my head and saw something falling to the ground. The world in front of me became blurry. I reached out and wiped my face, and then I realized that I had been crying without knowing when.
I quickly wiped my tears with a tissue, but I couldn't wipe them away. The more I wiped away, the more tears flowed out.
Why are you crying?
Is it because of the huge sense of loss?
Shouldn't I really expect that?
There will be no hurt if there is no expectation. Just like when I was a child, I naively had expectations for some things, but in the end I was hurt all over.
I really am not making any progress!
It was like this when I was eight years old, and it is still like this now that I am eighteen.
In order to see 18-year-old Shu Haining, I did a lot of strange things. Although school was not fun at all, I came to school again and again, and passed by him again and again.
I thought of many scenarios of meeting him again, but in the end, none of them became a reality.
He wanted me to forget the fact that we were each other's only playmates when we were children. He said, "Skylark, even if you come back, there is no place for you by my side."
What a fool!
I tilted my head back and placed the back of my hands over my eyes. The slight feeling of pressure calmed me down a little.
The sky gradually darkened. I walked out of the school gate and looked back at the school once more before getting on the bus home.
I really hate school!
I got on the bus angrily and sat in the last row. The bus drove towards the street lights that lit up one by one. I stared out the window, watching the scenery quickly recede and finally disappear in the world of light and shadow.
Shu Haining, I haven’t seen you for ten years. What kind of person have you become?
It was like a ball of fire and also like a piece of ice, two completely different feelings, and I felt them both on the same person.
He used to be a very gentle and quiet little boy, why has he become so unpredictable now?
I thought you were a cold sea, but in fact you were not. The moment you walked towards me, I did see the shock and disbelief in your eyes.
But why did you say those words to me? Why did you use that expression to say such hurtful words to me who finally met you?
Why do you say you have a lot of friends, but for a moment I feel like you're actually a little lonely?
The bus slowly stopped at the bus stop by the sea. I got off and walked down the ramp.
The sea breeze, carrying the humid smell of sea water, hit my face, and the hair by my ears was blown into a mess. I reached out and tucked my hair behind my ears.
When I passed by a tung tree, I stopped subconsciously.
I remember when I was six years old , I climbed up a tree to observe birds hatching eggs. I missed a step and fell down from the tree. Shu Haining, who was also six years old at that time, was standing under the tree. When he saw me fall, he ran over to catch me.
How naive! How could a six-year-old child possibly catch me?
So we both fell and had bruises on our faces. We were both in great pain and looked like we were about to cry. But when we saw each other's faces, we couldn't help but burst into laughter.
I lowered my head and saw a tung flower falling at my feet. Why should I think about such things?
These are past events that should be crushed by time and turned into a grain of floating sand in the long river of years. If only one person still remembers them, it would be a very sad thing!
Time flies, and the things I thought would never change have been completely changed by the years.
"Skylark, what are you doing here?" Tang Ruize's voice came from not far away.
When I came to my senses, I saw him standing under a street lamp in front of me, looking at me with some confusion.
"Grandma asked me to come out to see why you hadn't come home yet. When I came out, I saw you standing there in a daze. What happened?"
"Nothing." I shook my head and walked towards him. "Let's go home."
Tang Ruize looked at me quietly. His amber eyes seemed to glow under the streetlight. It was a look that could see through people's hearts. "What's wrong? Skylark, did anything happen today?"
"Nothing happened." I smiled wryly at him and asked, "Can you please not ask anything?"
"Yuque, this is not like you! Aren't you always very frank? Is there anything you can't tell your brother?" Tang Ruize said while looking at me worriedly.
Yes, I used to be so frank and said whatever I wanted to say, but why is it that every time I touch on Shu Haining’s affairs , I can’t honestly say what I think?
"Please, don't ask me about things that I don't want to recall for the time being, okay?" I looked into Tang Ruize's eyes and pleaded.
Because whenever I think about those things, I feel so sad.
It was as if someone had used the heart as a container and pickled a jar full of green plums in it. It was sour, astringent, and slightly bloated.
"Sorry, if Yun Que doesn't want to talk about it, I won't ask anymore." He took my hand and took me home.
Grandma had already prepared a table full of dishes, all of my favorites. When she saw me come back, she urged me to wash my hands.
"We Skylark just had an important exam today, so we have to celebrate properly." Grandma said as she helped me get the dishes and chopsticks.
I went into the bathroom and saw my red eyes reflected in the mirror. I quickly turned on the tap and washed my face with cold water. So Tang Ruize would ask me what happened. It would be strange if nothing happened to me!
After drying my face with a towel, I looked in the mirror and saw nothing wrong with myself, then I walked out of the bathroom.
After dinner, I walked out of the house alone while Tang Ruize was helping my grandma wash the dishes.
I'm in a bad mood right now. I need to go out for a walk and sort myself out.
The sea breeze at night is no longer as hot as it was during the day. It is cool and very comfortable blowing on the body.
The waves rolled up with pure white foam and hit the beach again and again. I rolled up my trouser legs and stepped into the sea. It turned out to be the most comfortable way.
I walked in the sea water for a while, until my mood finally improved, and then I walked to the beach where the sea water could not reach me.
I found a dry place to sit down. If I continued walking forward, I would reach the beach that has been developed for tourists.
Sitting here , you can vaguely hear the noise in the distance, and even a faint light shining here.
I sat there for a while, and suddenly I heard footsteps coming from the beach. I subconsciously looked up and saw a person walking slowly towards me.
And further away, a lot of people came at some point. They built a bonfire and no one knew what they were going to do.
I shifted my gaze back to the man walking towards me, and when he got closer, close enough that both of us could recognize who the other person was, we were both stunned.
No one spoke, no one moved, we just looked at each other. I couldn't see his face in the dark, and he probably couldn't see my expression either.
But no one spoke first.
What broke the situation was a call from a distance: "Haining, where have you been? Come back soon, we are all ready. Today is to celebrate the successful completion of the college entrance examination for you and Hua Yuemian. It is too unreasonable for you, the main person, to disappear!"
As if waking up from a dream, he turned around quickly and walked forward with big strides. After walking a dozen steps, his steps hesitated for a moment. I thought he was going to look back at me, but he didn't. Instead, he ran towards the bonfire at a faster speed.
I hugged my knees and buried my face in my arms.
He wasn't lying, he already had a lot of friends around him.
At that time, I actually felt that he was a little lonely.
I am really being sentimental.
No one will stay where they are and never change, everyone will slowly become stronger. I thought I was strong enough that I would not be hurt again, but I really overestimated myself.
Nothing has changed between me at the age of eighteen and me at the age of eight. I am still a weak guy, still ignorant of things that have no answers, and still have unwarranted expectations of people.
The laughter in the distance sounded so harsh.
I remember that time, there were a group of people laughing and making noises, and I was the only one left in the shadows. The difference was that Shu Haining was with me at that time. No matter how lively it was in the distance, he would not go, but just quietly stayed with me in the dark.
And now, he no longer does that kind of thing.
He chose to go to a more lively place. He did nothing wrong. Everyone yearns for sunshine, no one is an exception.
I stood up from the beach, brushed off the sand on my clothes, took a deep breath, and then exhaled slowly, as if I could exhale the unhappiness in my heart along with that breath.
I turned and walked towards home. I would not do anything that would make me unhappy if I just stood there and watched other people having fun.
Pushing open the wrought iron gate, I walked into the yard.
"You're back?" Tang Ruize, who was sitting on the rocking chair, stood up, walked slowly to me, and looked at me with a smile. "Although you just came back from a walk , I still want you to accompany me for a walk again."
"Okay." I was a little helpless. Facing Tang Ruize's request, I couldn't find a reason to refuse.
Pushing open the iron gate again, Tang Ruize did not walk towards the beach, but walked in a road completely opposite to the beach.
There were many tung trees planted on both sides of the road, and the ground was covered with a layer of tung flowers, with white petals and deep yellow stamens. They felt soft when you stepped on them.
"You told me not to ask anything, but I just thought about it and I realized I can't just leave you alone." Tang Ruize said calmly, "You are a guy with low emotional intelligence. Once you get stuck in a dead end, even ten cows can't pull you back."
"I met him today." I stopped and stared at my toes and whispered, "I was so happy and looking forward to it."
"Well, what next?" Tang Ruize asked softly.
"It's completely different. It's different from what I remember and what I thought." I put my hands behind my back and looked up at Tang Ruize. "He said that even if I came back, there would be no place for me by his side. He has forgotten that he and I were each other's only friends when we were children. Well, it's been ten years, and it's only natural that we will grow up and change."
"So what?" Tang Ruize looked at me quietly, his eyebrows and eyes looked very handsome under the street lights.
"So I lost my only friend," I said.
Tang Ruize took a step toward me, looked me in the eye, and said, "So you are depressed alone? This is normal, especially since there is a ten-year gap between you two."
Yes, frustrated, very frustrated.
"But Yun Que, don't you think this is not bad?" He smiled slightly, "Meeting a completely different friend. Although we are strangers to each other, we were able to become friends before. This means that as long as we understand the current Shu Haining, we can become friends again, right?"
Be friends again?
I was stunned: "Is this possible?"
Tang Ruize raised his hand and tapped me on the forehead: "Of course, this is also a challenge, isn't it?"
"Isn't it interesting? We become friends again, as complete strangers." He chuckled and said, "You are not planning to never talk to Shu Haining again, are you?"
"Kacha." I couldn't help but feel embarrassed when someone touched on my secret. I really planned to never talk to Shu Haining again, because he said he didn't plan to recall the past and didn't want to acknowledge me as his friend.
"So, how could I really just leave a guy like you with low emotional intelligence behind?" Tang Ruize said helplessly, "Let's go, go back, otherwise grandma will be worried if you stay out for too long."
"Okay! Brother, thank you! You are simply the beacon of light in my life, a lighthouse, and a weather vane!"
My mood suddenly improved. Just like Tang Ruize said, it was fun to become friends with Shu Haining again.
Tang Ruize ruffled my hair and scolded me with a smile, "You are the only one who knows how to flatter. You don't care at all."
After returning home, I took a shower and went to bed. This time I didn’t have insomnia and fell asleep almost as soon as my head touched the pillow.
I think it’s probably because the time difference has finally been reversed.
The day after the college entrance examination, I got up very early because I couldn’t fall asleep once it got light.
When I thought about trying to become friends with Shu Haining again, I felt so light-hearted that I couldn't calm down at all.
I finally made it until around eight o'clock, said goodbye to my grandma and left the house.
Shu Haining's home is no longer in its original location. Its location has been included in the scope of the community renovation. However, I asked my grandmother before I went out, so it is not difficult to find Shu Haining's home.
Standing at Shu Haining's door, I took a deep breath and rang the doorbell.
Soon someone came to open the door. It was Shu Haining's adoptive mother, Aunt Xu. Ten years had left two shallow wrinkles on her face.
When she saw it was me, she was stunned for a moment and looked me up and down, as if she didn't remember who I was.
"Aunt Xu." I called her with a smile, "I'm Skylark!"
"Skylark?" Her eyes lit up and she suddenly remembered, "Oh, our Skylark has grown into a beautiful young lady. I didn't recognize her at first. Come in and sit down."
Aunt Xu pulled me into the house, made me a cup of tea and placed it in front of me, then sat down on the sofa opposite me. I could tell that she was really happy to see me.
"It's been ten years since Yun Que left us, right? When did he come back? He won't leave this time, right?"
"She's been back for a week. She came back to take the college entrance exam. If nothing unexpected happens, she won't leave again. Qinglu has changed a lot. She's become so beautiful." I said with emotion, then looked around and asked, "Auntie, where's Haining?"
"Haining is upstairs. I'll go call him."
Aunt Xu said this and went upstairs.
While I was sitting on the sofa waiting for Shu Haining, I took a look at his living room.
It’s completely different from that time. Yes, how can I keep the old things when I move to a new house?
Shu Haining came down from the stairs quickly. He was wearing a white T-shirt and black shorts, with half of his calves exposed.
"Come with me." He grabbed my wrist and pulled me out.
"Hey!" I struggled a bit but couldn't get free. The eight-year-old boy had grown into a big boy who was a head taller than me and very strong.
He grabbed my wrist, walked away for a long way without saying a word, and finally let go of my hand under a big tung tree.
He frowned and said to me: "I remember I said..."
"I remember." I interrupted him. I don't know why, but I don't want to hear that kind of words from him again. "But, Shu Haining, I'm here to tell you something today."
"What?" He seemed a little impatient.
I smiled and said, "You are right. Those things that happened ten years ago are indeed meaningless. Let's get to know each other again! I have decided to be friends with you again."
He was stunned, with a look in his eyes that I couldn't understand.
I looked at his face and I was ready. Even if he immediately denied my idea, I would not give up.
"Whatever you want." That's what he said.