Finally, I returned to that home.
It’s not for anything else, it’s simply because if you don’t let me live a happy life, I won’t let you live a happy life either.
Yi Tian said that life is a gamble, and it is better to choke others to death than to suffocate yourself.
I tore up all the photos with Lin Chujian, and finally there was only one fairy left in my world.
After a few days of reluctantly getting along with each other, I am sure that this Li Qiuyang is definitely not the same person as the cold, cool and handsome Li Qiuyang described by Yi Tian.
"Do you have a twin brother or a younger brother or something?" I turned around and asked him who was dragging the box for me.
Li Qiuyang looked puzzled: "Ah?"
I quickly shook my head, fearing that if I paid attention to him, he would take advantage of the situation and mistakenly think that my attitude towards him had changed.
Today is the first day of school. I packed my luggage and was cheering for the fact that I could escape from home with a clear conscience, when I heard Li Qiuyang arguing with my dad in the living room because he didn't want to go to school.
Seeing my dad so angry that he was fuming, I felt very happy. There is always someone stronger than you, it’s just that the time for retribution has not come yet!
I dragged my suitcase downstairs, taking brisk steps, almost humming a little tune. Just as I was about to retreat, Li Qiuyang rushed in front of me and insisted on going with me, under the pretext of escorting me.
The beginning of the senior year is no longer filled with the same sense of novelty and anticipation as the freshman year. Walking on the campus, I can easily tell which students are freshmen and which are about to graduate.
Of course, there was also the accident of Li Qiuyang.
He was looking around all the way. After getting off the taxi, it took him more than ten minutes to walk a distance that should have taken a few minutes. Fortunately, it wasn't hot today, otherwise I might have beaten him up and run away.
When we got to the school gate, in order to avoid causing misunderstanding, I turned around and said to him, "Okay, okay, I've sent you off, you can go now!"
After saying that, I prepared to go over and get the box.
"No, I'll send you off to the west."
"You are the one who is going to the West!" I have always despised people who have an underdeveloped vocabulary but try hard to come up with some flowery words.
"I want to see the environment you live in, your friends and so on. You are my sister, and I want to get to know you better." Li Qiuyang said very honestly.
You know what, I was actually a little touched when he said that. However, it was only for a few seconds, and thinking of his mother who laughed so hard that her cramps cramped every day, I was not going to be nice to him : "Stop, stop, don't keep saying the word sister, I don't have a brother like you."
Li Qiuyang looked a little lost, he lowered his head like a scolded child.
Where's the cool persona you promised me? How come the persona of the indifferent lead singer of a band all collapsed when it came to me?
I felt sorry for the difference, so I dragged the box from his hand and softened my tone: "Okay, okay, I'll show you later. It's just the beginning of school today, so it's quite a mess."
"Okay, it's settled!" After being coaxed by me, Li Qiuyang immediately smiled.
What a heartless child, he takes everything seriously...
I was dragging my suitcase, thinking about slipping away quickly, when I saw a figure rushing between us.
"Hey, how did you two meet each other?" Yi Tian asked, dragging a large box with one hand and holding Li Qiuyang with the other.
Li Qiuyang and I were both a little embarrassed and didn't know how to answer.
For a moment, I thought Yi Tian would suspect that Li Qiuyang and I had some shameful relationship, and was thinking about how to explain it. Fortunately, she didn't delve into it, but turned to ask Li Qiuyang: "Hey, where have you been recently? You always don't answer my calls."
Li Qiuyang glanced at me, put away his previous cheerful look, and changed into the cold, arrogant and handsome look that Yi Tian described. He answered evasively, "Something happened at home recently."
I stood aside and watched his transformation. I couldn't help but admire him in my heart. With such acting skills, he can develop in the film and television industry.
"So are you here to see me today?" Yi Tian asked.
Li Qiuyang was stunned, and looked at me again. After I glared at him, he answered Yi Tian helplessly: "Yes, I thought that it was just the beginning of the school year to see if you needed any help."
"Oh, that's great, then you can help me drag the box!" Yi Tian was so happy that she stuffed the box handle into Li Qiuyang's hand.
But unexpectedly, Li Qiuyang retracted his hand, the handle of the box fell empty, and the whole box fell heavily to the ground.
That sound struck the three of us in the heart.
I don’t know how to explain all this. I only know that now I don’t want anyone to know the relationship between Li Qiuyang and me, especially Yi Tian.
I was afraid that she would be put in a dilemma because of my stance.
But how do you explain all this?
Who would have thought that it was Yi Tian who broke the awkward situation first. She picked up the handle of the suitcase by herself and said to Li Qiuyang in a pretended angry tone, "Hey, how come you can't even hold a suitcase? Forget it, I'll do it myself. There's a lot to do at the beginning of school today, so you go back first!"
Li Qiuyang hesitated for a while, and I pushed him as if I had been granted amnesty, and urged him, "Yes, yes, hurry up and leave!"
Seeing me like this, Li Qiuyang had no choice but to say angrily: "Okay, then I'm leaving. Feel free to find me if you have any questions."
Looking at that boy waving to Yi Tian and looking at me, I cursed him a thousand times in my heart.
It wasn't until Li Qiuyang walked away that I heaved a sigh of relief, turned sideways to look at Yi Tian beside me, and said with a smile: "Let's go!"
Yi Tian pulled the corners of her mouth and revealed a forced smile.
I don’t know if it was my illusion, but I saw sadness and gloom in Yi Tian’s eyes…
But the next second, she returned to her usual bright and cheerful self and said to me: "Oh, I forgot to tell you, the senior student I lived with before has graduated, and there will be new people moving into our dormitory. Plus, the school has a shortage of beds, so we can only live together. How about someone move in and it would be great for just the two of us to live here!"
After Yi Tian finished speaking, she looked so miserable that it made people want to laugh.
I felt much calmer. It's just changing two roommates. What's the big deal?
"As long as we are together, we are not afraid of anything." I turned around and pulled her.
She smiled at me sweetly: "Of course, we are not afraid of anything when we are together."
The sadness I saw in her eyes just now might really be my illusion!
It was a long time later that I realized that I was too naive at that time. In fact, Yi Tian had a knot in her heart at that time, but she didn't express her doubts because she cared about me.
For a long time, I didn't notice the subtle contributions she made for me and the subtle tolerance she showed.
Many friendships become thinner and thinner with repeated suspicions. Fortunately, Yi Tian and I are not like that.
When I saw the dormitory assignment list downstairs of the dormitory building, I, who had been extremely calm before, instantly exploded.
"Is God trying to play a trick on me? Isn't playing with me for a whole summer enough? Can't he play with someone else, or play in a different way? He thinks he's having a blast focusing all the trouble on me, right?"
"Enemies often meet on a narrow road, but it's not so narrow that we can be put together, right? Is there any justice or common sense?"
"What do you mean by destined fate? Let me tell you, in this world, the people with the strongest affinity are not lovers, but enemies. Really."
My facial expression was twisted into a knot, and I felt disgusted by this damn fate.
Yi Tian smiled gloatingly at the side. After I finished venting, she patted my shoulder symbolically to comfort me and said, "Okay, Li Ge, why are you reacting so strongly? Are you afraid of her? It's good to share a dormitory! We will make her a bloody mess."
Come to think of it, I, Li Ge, have never been afraid of anyone. Among those who share a dormitory with me, the one who should be angry and nervous should be Xu Yaxin!
With a fearless attitude and a determination to fight to the death, Yi Tian and I dragged two large boxes to the dormitory door.
Before I opened the door, I heard a chaotic noise inside, like someone was arguing.
"This is my bed, what are you doing?"
"Didn't I just tell you? I'm afraid of heights. I want to sleep on the lower bunk. I can't sleep well on the upper bunk. If I fall down and something happens, you won't be able to take responsibility."
This voice is Xu Yaxin's.
Yi Tian and I looked at each other, exchanged vomiting expressions, and pushed open the door. In the dormitory filled with all kinds of luggage, Xu Yaxin was holding up her noble chin, looking at a girl with simple clothes and pretty appearance with disdain.
The girl was hesitant and explained as if she had done something wrong: "But, but, this is the bed assigned by the school, I have the right not to change! I...I don't like the upper bunk either!"
"Rights? Don't you know that poor people have no rights? Little girl, this world is so realistic!" Xu Yaxin sneered, which was disgusting.
"Hey, Miss Xu, are you spreading your money-giving theory again? Since you are so rich, don't live in the dormitory. I remember that our school allows students to rent houses outside, right? Oh, no, how could a rich lady like you rent a house? You must buy ten or eight houses to match your status !" I said coldly.
Hearing the voice, Xu Yaxin turned around and saw us. She was a little surprised at first, and then said indifferently: "I'm teaching someone a lesson. When is it your turn to interfere?"
"Li Ge, this is not called meddling. I am just kindly giving a suggestion . How come you don't know the difference between good and bad words?" Yi Tian tilted her head and looked at me and asked, "Li Ge, I remember there is a word to describe this kind of person. What is it?... Oh, I remember now. It's called not knowing what is good for you."
As the main force of the debate team, Yi Tian and I are invincible.
"Oh, who is this? She has no sense of public morality. She leaves the boxes everywhere. If she accidentally hits me, can she afford it?" Yi Tian imitated Xu Yaxin's tone and said pretentiously.
She kicked the box and used her own box to create a path.
"Hey, Yi Tian, ​​do you have eyes? Do you know that this suitcase of mine is a new model of Burberry this year? You will have to pay for it if it is damaged!" Xu Yaxin looked at her suitcase as if it were a treasure.
"Yitian, I remember your suitcase is from Hermès. Come and check if it's damaged. If it is, Miss Xu is so rich, she will definitely compensate you." I squatted down and gently patted Yitian's suitcase, and blew on it carefully. "My dear, look, Miss Xu's face has turned pale. Fortunately, you are not damaged."
"You guys..." Xu Yaxin was so angry at the two of us that she couldn't speak.
I pushed the box to the side of my bed, looked at the girl who was blushing after being scolded by Xu Yaxin, and sighed: "Aren't you going to make the bed? Don't worry, the bed is so high that you won't die if you fall down. Don't pay attention to her."
When the girl heard what I said, she looked at me with some gratitude and said, "Thank you. My name is Zhou Yao, and I'm from the Journalism Department."
"My name is Yi Tian, ​​Yi means easy, Tian means sweet." Yi Tian had already climbed onto the upper bunk and spoke with half of his head sticking out.
"I'm Li Ge." I spread out the box and prepared to start packing.
"Zhou Yao, I tell you, I have to reserve this bed. If you don't want to give it up, then you can go to another dormitory by yourself!" Xu Yaxin threw her luggage on Zhou Yao's bed and sat on it, determined not to give in.
Seeing her domineering look, I was so angry that I threw her luggage off Zhou Yao's bed.
"Li Ge!" Xu Yaxin screamed out of control.
We ignored her and just packed our luggage. Seeing that we ignored her, Xu Yaxin became even more angry and kicked my suitcase hard.
Looking at the box that had been kicked over, the anger in my chest suddenly burned up.
This box was bought for me by my mother before she went abroad!
Zhou Yao was at a loss as to what to do. She looked at us who were frightened and didn't dare to say anything. She just bit her lower lip timidly and squatted down to help me pick up the items scattered out of the box.
"Xu Yaxin, are you crazy? Do you think Li Ge and I are as easy to bully as plasticine?" Yi Tian jumped down from the upper bunk and started scolding Xu Yaxin.
Seeing Yi Tian yelling, Xu Yaxin sneered, "Yi Tian, ​​what kind of sisterly love are you pretending to have here! You treat Li Ge as a sister, but have you ever asked her if she treats you as a real sister?"
Yi Tian got even angrier. She put her hands on her hips and stood in front of me like an angry little lion. "Xu Yaxin, shut your dog mouth! You are so smelly and dirty that even breathing makes me feel like you are harming the environment. You are such a heartless person who has never had any close friends since childhood. Don't criticize other people's friendship here. You are dirtying my ears!"
"Yitian, let me tell you, I have been fed up with you for a long time. You follow Li Ge like a little tail all day long. Do you think Li Ge really considers you a friend? Let me tell you, she is the most hypocritical person."
Before Xu Yaxin finished speaking, Yi Tian rushed over and grabbed her hair: "I won't allow anyone to insult Li Ge!"
Xu Yaxin was naturally no pushover either. Her sparkling crystal nails became her most powerful weapon at this moment. She raised her hand and was ready to swing it towards Yi Tian's face.
I grabbed her hand, and Yi Tian managed to break free and left the battlefield panting.
"Xu Yaxin, I tell you, if you dare to touch Yi Tian, ​​I will never let you off!" I said.
"Don't do this... Let me switch, I want to switch with you, stop fighting..." Seeing that the situation was getting out of control, Zhou Yao was anxious and about to cry. She quickly stood up and held Xu Yaxin and me to persuade us.
With this result, Xu Yaxin smiled victoriously.
Yi Tian and I said to Zhou Yao in unison: "No change!"
Zhou Yao looked at us, neither of us giving in to the other. She felt helpless being stuck in the middle, as bewildered as a frightened deer.
Xu Yaxin was not so excited at this moment. Instead, she looked at Yi Tian with pretending to be kind and said, "Yi Tian, ​​I really sympathize with you. You know, I went to the supermarket with Lin Chujian that day, but I saw your good sister..."
"Pa!" I slapped Xu Yaxin on the face, stopping her from saying anything else.
"You dare to hit me?"
I thought Xu Yaxin would rush up to me and fight me after I slapped her, but unexpectedly she took out her phone and called Lin Chujian over.
On the first day of school, many male students helped their girlfriends move their luggage, and the dormitory auntie generally did not stop the boys from going upstairs. Lin Chujian and his good friend Lu Yan appeared in our dormitory smoothly.
Lin Chujian, my boyfriend Lin Chujian.
At this time, he was standing next to Xu Yaxin, listening to her crying and exaggerating what had just happened. In her story, Yi Tian and I became the vicious stepmother who bullied Snow White. Of course, she was the weak and powerless little princess.
Yet, he believed it all.
"Li Ge, you shouldn't do anything no matter what." Lin Chujian looked up at me with an expressionless face.
All the sweet words we said when we were in love have now turned into the most poisonous poison, poisoning me so much that I am speechless.
"Chu Jian, you can't say that. You still have to hit him if he deserves it." Lu Yan, who was standing next to Lin Chu Jian, interjected, turned sideways and gave me a thumbs up, jokingly saying, "Li Ge, you're really fierce! That slap, wow, your hand was really strong!"
"Lu Yan, shut up!" Lin Chujian coldly stopped Lu Yan's joking words, and then said to me very seriously, "Li Ge, you should apologize."
"Go to hell Lin Chujian, who should apologize? Whose boyfriend are you?" Yi Tian became a little anxious when she heard this.
I held back Yi Tian, ​​who was about to go up and fight Lin Chujian, and shook my head gently.
It's also ridiculous. My heart doesn't hurt at all right now. I'm even a little bit looking forward to how things will develop next.
It’s been a long time since the last bloody incident, hasn’t it?
"Don't quarrel, this is all my fault. It's just a change of bed position. I'm not afraid of heights and I won't fall when I sleep. I'll put my things on the bed right now, you guys...really don't quarrel." Zhou Yao hurriedly put her things on the bed, constantly blaming herself. Her petite body and the grievance on her face made anyone feel distressed.
"This matter has nothing to do with you. The resentment between them is deep, and it will explode sooner or later." Lu Yan walked over to Zhou Yao as if he was watching a good show, with an unconscious look of heartache in his eyes. He frowned and said, "You are much more delicate than Miss Xu who is afraid of heights even when sleeping on the upper bunk."
"Lu Yan, go away if you want to flirt with girls!" Yi Tian glared at him and growled.
Lu Yan shrugged, pretending to be someone he couldn't afford to offend. He pulled Zhou Yao, who was putting things away, aside and whispered, "Let's just watch the show and not disturb their world war."
"Chu Jian, my face hurts so much!" Xu Yaxin pouted and leaned towards Lin Chu Jian aggrievedly, "Am I going to be disfigured?"
"No, it will be fine once the swelling goes away." Lin Chujian comforted her.
"But it really hurts me, no, I must give it back!" Xu Yaxin turned her head and looked at me, with a knife in her eyes.
Hearing Xu Yaxin say this, Lin Chujian frowned. I don't know if I can still imagine his embarrassment as his love for me.
We all remained silent, waiting for Lin Chujian's choice.
After a long time, Lin Chujian finally spoke, and said softly to Xu Yaxin: "We have known each other for such a long time, let's each take a step back! Let's go, let's go eat."
Xu Ya looked at me with hatred, her eyes showing reluctance. But she couldn't change Lin Chujian's gentle but firm attitude.
Haha, does this mean that Lin Chujian still can't bear to see me get beaten? We haven't even broken up yet, and he's acting like this in front of me. Lin Chujian, what do you mean?
Everything was fine before we met in the supermarket last time, how come it changed so suddenly?
I laughed, and it was a particularly sarcastic laugh.
Today, does he really think that I bullied Xu Yaxin?
My throat was blocked and my heart was empty, as if a sub-zero wind was running through my empty heart.
"Lin Chujian, do you mean that you trust Xu Yaxin and not Li Ge?" Yi Tian asked loudly.
He didn't say anything, and it was unclear whether he was agreeing or denying it.
I pulled Yi Tian and shook my head gently.
Now that things have come to this, why should you embarrass yourself?
Li Ge, you must not cry, even if you die, hold it in!
Lin Chujian and Xu Yaxin left. Looking at their backs as they left, I finally held back my tears.
"Li Ge, Yi Tian, ​​thank you. It's all my fault. I've caused you trouble." Zhou Yao, who had been standing there at a loss, saw Xu Yaxin leave, and hurried forward to thank Yi Tian and me.
I gave her a comforting smile: "It's okay, even if what happened today didn't happen, there would be trouble between her and me! But you, don't be so easy to bully in the future, understand?"
"Yes, if anyone wants to bully you in the future, just tell me." Lu Yan patted his chest, followed my words and assured Zhou Yao, "I, Lu Yan, will protect you! No one will bully you!"
Seeing that Lu Yan was still here, I rolled my eyes at her and took out my anger on him: "Why are you still here? Why don't you get out with your best friend!"
"Hey, Li Ge, don't take your anger out on me! I have always been on your side!" Lu Yan smiled ingratiatingly, and then his hands were not idle, and he helped Zhou Yao to pack the luggage on the bed in a familiar manner.
There were many private things on the bed, but Lu Yan was so careless that he just packed them up. Zhou Yao's face flushed red, and she nervously and embarrassedly snatched the luggage from Lu Yan's hand, saying, "I can do it myself, you don't need to... I don't need your help, thank you!"
Yi Tian and I couldn't stand it , so we went forward and dragged Lu Yan out of the dormitory. Just as we were about to close the door, Lu Yan stopped us, put his hands together, and begged me and Yi Tian with a stern face: "Two ladies, I just peeked at the student ID of the beauty inside. Her name is Zhou Yao, right? I'm interested in her, you two have to help me! Especially Li Ge, for the sake of my close relationship with Lin Chujian, you have to help me too, right?"
I was planning to tease him, but he would bring up something out of the ordinary. As soon as I heard Lin Chujian's name, I decisively closed the dormitory door.
Then he reminded Zhou Yao, who looked innocent, that she should be more careful when dealing with such a careless young master from a wealthy family and not fall for him easily.
Zhou Yao, who had been like a frightened bird, was amused by my words and finally relaxed. She looked at me and Yi Tian with gratitude and said softly, "Thank you so much today. If it weren't for you, I really don't know what I would do."
"Don't be polite. It's fate that we are assigned to the same dormitory. What's more, we have a common 'enemy'. The enemy of my enemy is my friend, right?" Yi Tian smiled brightly at Zhou Yao.
Xu Yaxin did not come back that night. We chatted with Zhou Yao for a long time. We talked about things happening around us and our families. I avoided talking about my parents' divorce, but Zhou Yao told us everything about her life.
She was a left-behind child and grew up in the countryside with her grandparents. She didn't go to the city to study until she was in middle school, but because of her household registration, she had to pay a lot of tuition fees every year.
But she was very determined and was admitted to her current school through her own efforts, studying broadcasting and hosting. However, her father was killed in an accident at a construction site last year, and the boss of the construction site ran away, leaving her and her mother to depend on each other, which was very pitiful. Because of this, she had no money to continue studying art, so she transferred to our radio and television news department.
After hearing such life experience, Yi Tian, ​​who insisted on sharing a bed with me, almost shed tears. I think she thought the same as I did. We both felt sorry for this girl and wanted to give her the best we had.
A lot of things happened that day, so much so that even after they both fell asleep, I couldn't fall asleep for a long time. I think the pain of my family may accompany me for the rest of my life. In this process, I don't know how long I can stay strong.
Sometimes I would rather be like Zhou Yao, who knew about the unhappiness of her family since childhood and got used to this unhappiness. In this way, there would be no hope, and without hope, there would naturally be no despair.
Or maybe I am too pessimistic. After all, I once had happiness that everyone envied. Even if I was betrayed by my family and lover, I still have the friendship of Yi Tian.
It even seemed as if God had sent Zhou Yao to be my friend to compensate me and fill my lack of sense of security.