Chapter 2 Memories are filled with cold feelings 02
There has never been a person who left such a deep impression on Shen Chuxue's memory. The more she wants to forget him, the more vivid he becomes; the more vague he becomes, the more terrifying he becomes.
Shen Chuxue recognized Lin Jianluo at the first sight, so she turned around in a hurry, planning to pass by him as strangers.
However, things did not go as planned. Lin Jianluo grabbed Shen Chuxue's wrist and pulled it so tightly, as if he was afraid that she would slip away.
"Shen Chuxue." This was the first time that Lin Jianluo called out Shen Chuxue's full name.
In fact, Shen Chuxue really didn't know how Lin Jianluo recognized her. She felt that she didn't look much like when she was still in the Lin family. Li Qiuhe always said "girls change a lot when they grow up". The older An Cenxi and Shen Chuxue got, the more generous and beautiful they became, and Shen Chuxue was the most obvious one.
Shen Chuxue tilted her head, her long hair covering her eyes, feeling a little uncomfortable.
"Lin Jianluo, you're hurting me, let go."
When An Yannan came to find Shen Chuxue, she had finished class, but she was in a daze in the classroom. She didn't know what she was looking at, but she just kept her chin propped up without blinking. An Yannan stood there for a long time, and when he saw that she hadn't come back to her senses, he walked over and put the teaching materials on Shen Chuxue's desk.
"What are you thinking about?" An Yannan asked.
After entering university, An Yannan successfully joined the student union, but Shen Chuxue was not that interested. She just went to class and stayed in the library every day when she had nothing to do. She didn't want to go anywhere. Sometimes she waited for An Cenxi to finish school, and sometimes she waited for An Yannan to finish class.
She didn't know why she had to wait...
After hearing An Yannan's voice, Shen Chuxue's eyes finally came into focus. She looked at An Yannan, who seemed to have suddenly appeared in front of her, in a daze. She opened her mouth but said nothing. However, the breath she exhaled moistened her lips and relieved their dryness.
Her lip was cracked and painful.
"Why are you here so early?" she asked as she rolled up her sleeves, picked up the book and walked out with An Yannan.
An Yannan noticed that Shen Chuxue's walking posture was a little awkward. He frowned and squatted down to take a look at Shen Chuxue's ankle. He found that it was red and swollen, and it seemed that she had sprained her ankle.
"Why didn't you go to the school doctor if you sprained your ankle?"
Shen Chuxue smiled, pulled An Yannan up, and said, "It's okay, it's just carelessness. Just spray some medicine when you go back tonight. Let's go quickly, uncle will be angry soon."
Whenever An Wei came home late, he would always get angry, which basically meant that the whole family had to wait for Shen Chuxue to come back for dinner. Shen Chuxue wanted to say that you guys can eat by yourselves, and it would be better for her to go home and eat alone.
But she didn't say it, just to save trouble.
"Was it Xixi who did it?" An Yannan asked.
I don't know whether An Cenxi did it intentionally or unintentionally, but he always got in the way of Shen Chuxue, and the little wounds on her body always appeared because of An Cenxi. Shen Chuxue didn't want to care about it, and she was too lazy to calculate those little thoughts with An Cenxi, so she simply ignored it, but it made her more blatant.
Today, An Cenxi almost caused Shen Chuxue to fall down the stairs. If it weren't for her classmates helping her, Shen Chuxue would probably be in the hospital now.
Whenever Shen Chuxue thought of An Cenxi's smiling face, she would always frown.
She met Lin Jianluo today. She didn’t tell anyone about this. To be exact, no one could tell it.
Shen Chuxue has always kept her heart closed and doesn't let anyone get close to her, so naturally she has no friends.
No one knew what she had done in the Lin family in previous years, and An Cenxi and An Yannan certainly wouldn't ask.
After taking a shower, Shen Chuxue sat on the carpet in the room, hugging her legs. This was the posture that made her feel most secure. No matter spring, summer, autumn or winter, she would sit like this whenever she was confused, as if looking for comfort.
Why did she want to run today?
Seeing Lin Jianluo smiling at her and hearing him calling her name, Shen Chuxue really ran away. She broke free from Lin Jianluo's hand, turned around and ran, not giving Lin Jianluo time to catch up.
Shen Chuxue had a terrible headache and had to rub her eyebrows.
There was a knock on the door.
Shen Chuxue didn't look up, and said in a slightly out-of-tune voice: "Come in."
As soon as Li Qiuhe came in, she saw Shen Chuxue sitting on the carpet. She exclaimed "Oh!" and quickly put the milk on the table, then pulled Shen Chuxue up.
Shen Chuxue was a little unhappy that her thoughts were interrupted, but she couldn't get angry in front of Li Qiuhuo, so she had to stand up silently and follow Li Qiuhuo.
"It's so cold, why are you sitting on the ground?"
Shen Chuxue couldn't help but said, "In the past, I sat on the ground in the winter in my ancestral house. I am in good health and will not get sick."
After a moment of silence, Li Qiuhe still smiled. Facing Shen Chuxue's face that looked more and more like her own, her guilt always increased: it was because she left cruelly that her daughter's current personality was formed.
"Drink some milk and sleep well."
"Okay, you should go to bed early too."
Li Qiuhe finally left, and Shen Chuxue was about to sit down on the floor when An Yannan opened the door and came in. Shen Chuxue's unhappiness was written on her face when someone interrupted her train of thought again and again. She looked at An Yannan with a bad expression and a dull voice, "What's the matter?"
An Yannan threw a bottle of Yunnan Baiyao spray into Shen Chuxue's arms. She was stunned for a moment.
"Otherwise it will hurt more tomorrow." After saying that, An Yannan turned and left.
The bottle of Yunnan Baiyao in her arms was icy cold, giving Shen Chuxue goose bumps on her exposed skin. She rubbed her arms and shouted, "Hey, thanks. Why are you still angry?" After saying that, she laughed.
Shen Chuxue knew that she treated everyone so coldly because she was afraid that one day someone would get close to her and she would start to absorb the warmth and become inseparable from that person, just like a seriously ill person who always needs an oxygen tank...
She was unwilling to let anyone become her straw, and was unwilling to get any piece of duckweed.
Even if you drown...
