Chapter 2 If I had never seen the sun Lu Shuang 03
The car stopped quickly, and less than 10 centimeters away from Lu Lan and me, the door opened and a man got out of the car.
At that time, I didn't know that I should pretend to be knocked down and lie down. I just stood there in a daze, thinking that my plan had failed and that I might be greeted with a vicious scolding.
But no, the man walked up to me, holding an umbrella in his hand to block the rain.
Under the light, the man's brows were gently relaxed, and his voice was indescribably peaceful: "Why are you not going home in the rain? What are you doing here?"
I looked up at him, bit my lip and said nothing, then shook Lu Lan's hand again. Actually, what I was thinking at the time was that if I couldn't get the money from him, I would go find the next target with Lu Lan.
But Lu Lan had been crying non-stop since she was almost hit by a car just now, and she couldn't stop. Her little face turned pale from crying: "Sister, I'm hungry... Sister... I'm so scared..."
"Alan, stop crying!"
I was afraid that his crying would attract other people's attention, and then it would be difficult to find the next target.
After I said this, the man looked at me, frowned, and looked thoughtful: "Are you hungry? Do you want me to take you to eat?"
I still looked at him with caution. Maybe Shen Yuxi didn't expect that an 11-year-old child could look at him in that way.
Shen Yuxi looked at me for a while, then turned his gaze to Lu Lan. He squatted down, took out a piece of chocolate from his pocket and handed it to Lu Lan, his eyes as gentle as a piece of soft candy: "Are you hungry? Brother has candy here."
It was probably the three years of suffering that made me hostile to everyone in this world. I couldn't even trust my parents, let alone a stranger like Shen Yuxi.
I was afraid that there was something wrong with the chocolate Shen Yuxi gave me, and that his kindness would bring danger to me and Lu Lan, so I slapped the chocolate out of Lu Lan's hand, and then glared at Shen Yuxi fiercely: "We don't want food, if you want to give us money, just give us money, we can use the money to buy food."
It can be seen that Shen Yuxi was obviously a little surprised when he heard what I said. He probably didn't expect that an 11-year-old child could say such a thing.
"How about this, tell me where your home is and I'll take you back first."
"I do not want to go home."
"Then I'll take you to see the police?"
"We're not going anywhere, we just want money."
At that time, we no longer trusted anything but money. Only when we had money and were sure that we would not starve to death did we feel a little bit of security in our hearts.
I don’t know if it was my stubbornness that moved Shen Yuxi, or some other reason, but he was silent for a moment, then he took out his wallet, took out a few hundred-dollar bills and handed them to me, and also handed me the umbrella in his hand: “Buy some food for your brother, and come home when you’ve had enough fun outside.”
I think he probably thought we were kids who had run away from home, and he also estimated that with my character, there would be no danger of me being kidnapped, so he just gave me the money as I asked.
I snatched the money he handed over, but didn't take the umbrella. I even forgot to say "thank you" and ran away quickly with my brother.
I remember that day I dragged Lu Lan and ran in the rain for a long time. Lu Lan cried until her voice became hoarse: "Sister, I can't run anymore, I really can't run anymore..."
Only then did I come to my senses and took him to eat a bowl of beef noodles on the roadside.
I started crying when I took the first bite of noodles.
Why did I have to endure hunger and live a life of uncertainty when other kids my age were still in school? Why did I reach a point where I couldn't even say "thank you" to someone who helped me?
I pray for help, but I am afraid of help. I know that help is only temporary, and that momentary warmth will sometimes make the subsequent darkness and coldness even more terrifying.
I don't want to use my suffering to satisfy others' desire to do good, the little self-esteem in my heart is playing tricks on me. I really hate this kind of mood, which makes me prefer to become bad rather than accept others' kindness.
However, I always remembered the few hundred-dollar bills that Shen Yuxi gave me that year. They kept me, Lu Lan, and even Su Xin alive. Since then, Su Xin has become more restrained and started to do some simple work to barely make ends meet.
I always thought that things would get better slowly.
Until a year ago, I found that Su Xin started to bring things home again, and they were all those expensive brand names. At that time, I used my spare time to do tutoring to supplement my family income and had some savings. When I found those bags, I went to look for my passbook, but found that it was gone.
Everything started back again. Su Xin even came to the place where I was tutoring to borrow money from students' parents. The same situation happened when I worked in a restaurant.
I want to leave her, but I can't let go of Lu Lan. Lu Lan is still too young, I don't want him to become like me, he is still , I don't want him to experience the same darkness as me.
I started looking for various ways to make money. I had to pay my tuition and Lu Lan's tuition, so 6 years later I met Shen Yuxi again in such an embarrassing situation.
Actually, I don’t want to. I hope that one day I can become a good person, and then meet the person who gave me an umbrella and allowed me to eat a bowl of beef noodles to survive. Then I can say “ thank you .
But things don't always go as planned. I didn't become a very good person, and maybe I will never be able to become a very good person.
