I can't remember how I was sent to the hospital, nor how I watched Ren Xiaoqi being pushed into the emergency room.
I sat at the door of the emergency room like a lifeless puppet, not even knowing where to put my hands.
Time passes by minute by minute, and I don’t want to think about what will happen next.
The sky gradually darkened and the lights in the hospital lit up one by one. I closed my eyes gently, and my eyelids were so dry that they felt a little painful.
"Doctor, how is my friend?" The lights in the emergency room were finally turned off. Without thinking, I walked up to the doctor, grabbed his arm and asked, my voice hoarse.
"The knife was inserted very close to her chest. If it was a little off, she wouldn't be saved. You kids..." The doctor sighed and shook his head gently. "She will be sent to the ward soon. Don't wait here. Go and pay the fee first!"
"Okay, okay, I'll go right away." Without thinking, I took out the card that Cun Jiyuan gave me and ran to pay the bill. A large amount of money was spent on a series of expenses including surgery, ward, and medicine, and I didn't even frown.
I will find ways to repay the money I owe to others, but what I owe to Ren Xiaoqi cannot be repaid no matter how much money I get.
"Miss Cun, since your friend is fine, please cooperate with us to take a statement!" A policeman holding a notebook walked forward. He was wearing a police uniform and his voice was a little childish, as if he had just graduated.
Seeing that I was stunned for a moment, he scratched his head and handed me a glass of water: "I didn't disturb you just now because I saw that you were in pain. Have a glass of water first!"
"Thank you." I took the cup of water. The heat of the water was transmitted to every corner of my body through my fingertips, dispelling a little bit of chill in the hot weather.
The questions the police ask are nothing more than when did you go to this place, why did you go to this place, what exactly happened in this place, what the people who attacked you look like, what is your relationship with them, and what is your relationship with the victim.
I avoided the issue of Ren Xiaoqi instigating my kidnapping and told the police everything else. During the process, there were some things that were not logically clear, and I explained them clearly while trying my best not to deceive.
When all was over, I received a text message from Ji Suting. I briefly told him about the situation here and went to the ward.
I thought Ji Suting would come to see me, but instead of him, Cun Jiyuan came.
When I saw Cun Jiyuan anxiously grabbing the hand of the nurse on duty and asking if there was a girl named Cun Zhiwei in the hospital, I was holding a bottle of water and preparing to get some hot water for Ren Xiaoqi so that she could drink something when she woke up.
Seeing him like that, I didn't want to pay attention to him, but I couldn't help but walked up to him and asked in a cold voice: "Why are you here?"
"I received a message on my phone saying that you spent a large sum of money in the hospital." He grabbed my arm and looked at me several times. "Are you sick? What's wrong? Is it serious? Do you need dad to transfer you to a larger hospital?"
To be honest, my heart was warm at this moment.
"I'm fine." I broke away from him. "My friend was hospitalized. She couldn't afford the hospital bills, so I paid for her. Remember the money. I will try my best to pay you back."
"Weiwei, you know that's not what I meant. The money was originally given to you, and you don't have to pay it back." Hearing that I was fine, he breathed a sigh of relief, "I'm glad you're okay. How about your friend, is he okay?"
"She's fine. The doctor said she should wake up soon." I wanted to keep myself cooler, but I still felt warm.
"I'm glad you're okay. You should also take care of your rest. I have to go back to the meeting. If you have anything, call me and I'll come right over." He patted my shoulder and forced a card into my hand. "Hospitalization is a huge expense. Take it first and return it to me when you don't need it. Don't give it to me now."
He knew I would definitely not accept it, so he blocked me with this reason.
I put the card away and nodded slightly. I wanted to turn around and leave, but I couldn't help but say, "Be careful on the road."
He was ecstatic and left with a smile on his face.
When I returned to the ward with the thermos, Ren Xiaoqi had already woken up. She was half lying on the bed, looking out the window at the dimly lit street light, thinking about something with a calm face.
When she is quiet, she looks like a girl who has experienced many vicissitudes of life and has a sad face.
Hearing the door open, she looked up at me and smiled: "It's great that you're still here."
"I won't leave." I poured out a glass of water, afraid that it would be too hot for her to drink, so I turned the two cups back and forth to lower the temperature.
"Zhiwei, we haven't been together so quietly for a long time. It's like we're back in high school," she said.
"Nonsense, when were we ever quiet in high school? Weren't we always noisy, afraid that others wouldn't notice us?" I replied with a smile .
It felt so good to see her wake up. When she was in a coma, I really thought I would never see her open her eyes again in this lifetime. I was scared to death.
Fortunately, she woke up.
What are those so-called grudges and hatreds in the face of death and loss?
"We were all lonely children, always trying to attract the attention of people around us, as if that was the only way to live," she said in a soft voice, as if she was telling a story about a past I didn't know. "I knew my parents were great when I was very young. They could make a lot of money in business, let me wear the most beautiful princess dress, and use the most functional pencil case, but they were never by my side. When I was in elementary school, I beat up several female classmates in the class, and the teacher called the parents. The parents of the female classmates were all in the office, and they accused me one after another, and the teacher couldn't persuade them, but I Where are my parents? They were out of town, and when they received the call from the teacher, they just asked, how much ? At that time, I knew that no one loved me, even though I had endless money. I kept bullying others to find a sense of existence. Even if they scolded me, even if the teacher scolded me, at least I was in their eyes, at least they could see me, unlike my parents, who always hurried past me to rush to meetings and negotiations again and again. They never cared whether I was happy or not, let alone whether I got into trouble. Anyway, they had money, and there was no problem in the world that money couldn't solve. "
"If all the problems in this world could be solved with money, perhaps we wouldn't be standing here in such pain," I said.
She smiled bitterly, "But they didn't understand. Later, my parents divorced, and my dad was even less at home. I thought I would be alone all my life until I met you, the one who asked me my name with a smile. Everyone's attitude towards me has always been 'That's Ren Xiaoqi, stay away from her'. No one has ever been friendly to me, and no one has ever asked me my name like you did."
I always thought that our friendship started with that fight, but I didn't expect that it had already sprouted in her heart.
"You said to me, hello, from today on we are desk mates. At that time, I really wanted to hold your hand and tell you, I am very happy that we can be desk mates. But I was afraid of scaring you, so I held back." She looked at me and smiled faintly, with only me in her eyes.
You never know when your smile can bring happiness to someone, nor do you know whether your warmth can save someone who is in deep distress.
"Zhiwei, do you know how happy I was the moment I saw you in the coffee shop? I saw you wearing your work clothes, and you dyed your hair black and grew it long, like a good girl. At that moment, I stood in front of you and felt inferior. But I didn't want to let go, I didn't want to lose you, and my stubbornness also hurt you." She said with her head down.
"Isn't it the same for you? I still remember how you looked in a white dress, so pure and beautiful." I recalled.
"Really? Actually, I had a big fight with my dad that day. It was my birthday, and he bought me a beautiful dress. I thought he finally remembered my birthday, but he told me to go on a blind date, and then get married if I think I'm pretty good!"
"I was only nineteen years old, and he asked me to get married, to the son of a rich man whom I didn't love at all, who was five years older than me. I said that I was not yet of legal marriageable age, but he asked me to live with him first. You always say that your father didn't love you and abandoned you, but as for me, I would rather be abandoned than have such a father. But I have to admit that the moment he took out the clothes, I was happy and ecstatic." Her bitter smile became more and more intense. She coughed lightly twice, and her face became .
I helped her put down the bed and adjusted the pillows: "You must be tired after talking so much, you should have a good rest. I'm going to go out and buy some toiletries. I'll stay with you in the hospital tonight and won't go back."
When she lay down, I saw the letters tattooed on her chest through the collar of her hospital gown - angel.
As I turned to leave, I clearly heard her say, "Thank you, my angel."
That is the position closest to the heart, and that is where I am.
I burst into tears. How could I be worthy of being her angel? I had once stepped on her heart so decisively.
The questions I want to ask can no longer be spoken out loud. I can only keep them in my heart and wait for time to slowly give me an answer.
I closed the door of the ward gently. I don’t know if Ren Xiaoqi saw the tears on my face. Maybe she saw them but didn’t say it out loud.
After this experience, we all grew a lot and understood a lot of things.
I took out my cell phone and couldn't help but send a text message to Cun Jiyuan, saying "thank you".
He replied, you are my daughter.
I gently locked the screen and stopped looking at it, afraid that I would burst into tears again, and also afraid that I would reply with words that I would regret.
Compared to Ren Xiaoqi, I am still happy. At least my father has come back. He cherishes me now and wants to give me a better life.
And his father was still forcing her for money. I didn't dare to ask how the matter was handled later, because I was afraid that the answer I got would be even more difficult for me to digest.
Thinking about these things, when I almost missed a step and fell down, someone grabbed me. It was a familiar smell, and I knew who was behind me without even looking back.
I fell into an embrace, an embrace that was familiar and made me nostalgic.
"Why are you here?" I asked softly.
"After thinking about it, I'm still a little worried about you, so I came here." His voice was very soft, like a feather falling into the heart and gently scratching it, making it itchy and warm.
The tension of the whole day was completely relaxed when Ji Suting hugged me. I turned around, put my arms around his waist, leaned my head on his shoulder, and sighed softly: "It's a good thing you came."
"Did you miss me a lot?" he asked, with a teasing tone in his voice.
"I really do. I really do."
I pulled Ji Suting to sit on the bench outside the hospital. We looked up at the starless night sky and suddenly remembered the time when we looked at the sky together not long after we met. The light twinkling in his eyes was brighter than the stars.
The difference is that now this boy is my boyfriend, he is mine.
Although this hospital is not big, it is a German-style building. It is said that it was built a long time ago during the German occupation and has a very European flavor.
I selectively ignored the people coming and going and the occasional red crosses, and just thought we were on a date in a very romantic place.
I need to relax and have a good rest, and I can get complete relief by being with him.
"Ji Suting, I'm sorry." I leaned my head on his shoulder and said guiltily.
" Huh?" He tilted his head and looked at me, as if he was not quite sure why I was apologizing.
"What you said is right. I should have sat down and had a good talk with Ren Xiaoqi. I should have listened to you and taken her to see a psychologist. If it weren't for what happened today, I wouldn't have known that I was not just an obsession to her, but also the only one who was irreplaceable." Thinking about what happened during the day, I felt scared again. I grabbed Ji Suting's hand to ease the fear in my heart. "I'm not just afraid of her. She is also a very special existence in my heart. During those three years in high school, we almost depended on each other. Without her, I might not be able to smile and love you today."
"I need to thank her." Ji Suting said. He raised his hand and touched my hair, then lowered his head and kissed my forehead. "Can you tell me what happened today? I think you might feel better if I tell you."
"Yeah." I replied.
From the time I was kidnapped to the time I pretended to be nice to Ren Xiaoqi in order to escape, to the time she drew knife against me and Pangshou, to the time she was injured and hospitalized...Except for the part about Cun Jiyuan, I told him everything, including the last conversation between Ren Xiaoqi and me.
When I told him, I kept paying attention to his expression, seeing his frown because of what happened to me, and feeling him nervously holding my hand because I was caught. That warmth is irreplaceable by anything.
I really want to hug him and tell him how lucky I am to be with him and that I hope we will never leave each other.
"Zhiwei, I'm sorry. I didn't expect you to go through so much. I really hate myself for not sending you to work and not protecting you. I always said that I would protect you from the wind and rain, but I let you suffer such grievances." He looked at me and hugged me tightly in his arms.
I didn't want to make him sad, so I tried to speak in a relaxed tone, "You have your own things to do. I haven't been in good shape recently because of Xiaoqi's matter. The design must have overwhelmed you, so you don't have time to take care of other things. I understand."
His body shook slightly and stiffened for a moment.
Was I wrong? Wasn't he busy with design work in the afternoon? I remember I sent him a text message when I was out, and he said he might be busy all afternoon.
If he is not busy with design, then he...
I dispelled the uneasiness in my mind. He was already by my side, how could he be hiding something from me? It was impossible.
Before the uneasiness had dissipated, Xiaoqi sent me a text message asking me where I was.
Ji Suting also saw it. He took my hand and said to me, "Let me go meet your good friend too!"
We walked into the ward together. Ren Xiaoqi was lying on the bed, looking at her phone. When she saw us come in, she smiled and greeted Ji Suting: "Hello."
"Hello, my name is Ji Suting." Ji Suting's signature smile can easily win the favor of others.
Ren Xiaoqi turned to look at me and said, "His smile reminds me of the way you looked when I first met you. You two are really a perfect match."
Ji Suting sat on the edge of the bed and chatted with Ren Xiaoqi in a few words. She looked at us with a smile on her face. Due to her health reasons, she rarely spoke. The occasional words she spoke were all about my embarrassing moments in the past, which made him laugh at me and my face turned red.
The more I did this, the more proud these two people became, as if they had stood on a united front to face the outside world.
After chatting for about half an hour, Ji Suting stood up and left. As considerate as he was, he naturally knew that Ren Xiaoqi needed more rest. I walked him to the door and whispered a few words to him. Just as I was about to close the door, Ren Xiaoqi suddenly asked him, "Ji Suting, if Zhiwei was really bullied today, would you still love her without hesitation?"
Ji Suting was stunned.
He was silent for a long time, his brows furrowed, as if he was thinking.
It was as if a clock appeared next to my ears, ticking away the time.
"I need to rest, Zhiwei, can you come and stay with me?" Ren Xiaoqi urged Ji Suting to leave without waiting for his answer. I knew she didn't want me to feel too bad.
In the end, I didn't get an answer to this question, and Ji Suting left.
I sat back next to Ren Xiaoqi, and she whispered to me, "I'm sorry, I just want to know if he really loves you."
"Have you read a lot of romance novels this year? Even the questions you ask are like those in novels." I joked, but I couldn't laugh.
I understand that such a question may be too heavy for a 20-year-old boy. He has never experienced it and does not know how to deal with or answer such a thing.
But even though they understand, when encountering such things, what girls want is a firm "yes".
After all, we were too young, and our pursuit of love was too pure, so pure that we could not accept each other's hesitation and indecision.
Later, Ji Suting sent me a text message and said, "I will."
I understood that he wanted to tell me that even if I was really bullied today, he would still be with me.
But this answer came a little late after all.