This love that ended in "disease"
His departure marked the end of it.
I don’t know if I will be loved again in this life.
But I know that I will never be loved so desperately by a boy again.

The final exam and the temperature of nearly 40 degrees came to us together. Because Shi Shuxia and Ji Suting were by my side, I was able to adjust my condition quite well, performed exceptionally well in the exam, and my grades improved.
There is more good news. Because Hua Siyu left, the school plans to let me continue to prepare for the design competition with Ji Suting. Something that originally belonged to me is back in my hands again. I don’t know what words to use to describe the joy I feel.
When I was packing my things to leave school, Xu Menger stopped me. I thought she wanted to talk about changing dormitories for the next semester, after all, she had mentioned it several times before. Unexpectedly, she said to me, "I'm leaving."
Because of my matter, Shi Shuxia was also very cold to her, and replied expressionlessly: "We all have to leave, do you still think we are blocking your way?"
"I mean I'm leaving here and never coming back." Xu Meng'er ignored Shi Shuxia's ridicule and said calmly. She looked at me, with infinite sorrow under her delicate eye makeup. "You don't have to see me anymore, and you don't have to be unhappy because of me."
"Where are you going?" I asked.
"Going abroad, but I haven't decided where yet," she replied.
"Why?" I asked again.
This time she didn't answer me directly, but just said that she just wanted to live in a different environment, and then she left with her luggage. When she came to me, she said in a voice that only the two of us could hear: "Be careful next time, not everyone can be your friend."
I didn't quite understand what she meant, and when I wanted to ask her, she had already left.
Does everyone leave a curse for me when they leave? This is true for Hua Siyu and Xu Meng'er.
In such a short period of time, I have experienced two separations. What will happen next time? Who will it be next time?
I thought the next farewell would be at graduation, but I didn't expect it to come so soon.
After the police station incident, Yan Wenbo took a long leave of absence and even did not take the final exam. The next time I saw him was at the coffee shop. He stood at the door waiting for me to get off work. When I left, he stood in the shade of the tree, sweating profusely, and his white T-shirt was soaked with sweat.
"Long time no see," I said.
He nodded, walked over to me and asked cautiously, "Can we sit together?"
We found a small dessert shop nearby. We used to come here often when we worked together. The clerk knew me. When he saw us together, he greeted us with a smile and asked, "Do you still want to order a couple's set?"
"No, I just want a cup of lemon black tea." I said lightly.
"Same." Yan Wenbo said.
The waiter was a little confused and thought we were a quarreling couple. When the drinks were served, he also brought a plate of pink heart pudding and winked at me.
I smiled back at him and never touched the pudding.
Yan Wenbo lowered his head, holding a straw in his hand and randomly poking the lemon slices in the cup, over and over again.
"If you want me to sit down just to be silent like this, then I'll leave first," I said.
"I'm sorry." Yan Wenbo finally raised his head. In just one month, his eyes had dimmed a lot. The blazing light of the past was gone. Before I could say anything, he continued, "Actually, I know that an apology can't make up for anything, but other than an apology, I don't know what to say to you."
"It's all in the past. I did hit you. There's no need for you to say sorry to me." The once close lovers are now sitting face to face, but their hearts have drifted further and further apart.
He pulled out a bank card from his pocket and pushed it in front of me: "This is the money my mom asked your dad for last time. I didn't let her spend it. It has been in the card all this time. I'm returning it to you now."
I was stunned for a moment. I didn't expect him to ask for the money back. After thinking about it, I pushed it back: "This is the money agreed upon by your father and mother. I have no reason to ask for it back. Even if you want to return it, please go to Cun Jiyuan, not me."
"Zhiwei, I'm leaving." Yan Wenbo didn't take the card back, but said with a wry smile, "I don't know when I'll be back after I leave this time. Maybe you don't want to see me anymore, but I still want to shamelessly come to see you."
“Where are we going?” I took a sip of my drink. It tasted so sour that tears were about to come out.
"Let's go to the United States. My parents have already contacted the school there. I haven't been to school recently because of this matter." He lowered his head and refused to look up at my eyes. "I have lived in the shadow of Ji Suting since I was a child. I have been trying to get out of the shadow, but the harder I try, the more inferior I feel. When I knew that he also had a crush on you, I was really disappointed. I have never surpassed him or succeeded in front of him. But every time I think of your face, I can't give up on you. Even when I knew that you had a crush on him, I still hoped to try hard, hoping that a miracle would happen to me. Later, a miracle really happened to me. Do you know? I howled in the dormitory building for a long time that night, and the administrator came to my door and gave me a lecture before I stopped. My heart is filled with too many surprises, and I don't know how to vent them. I think I am the happiest person in the world."
I was stunned for a moment. After we got together, the days without quarrels and cold wars were so short. I didn't expect that he liked me so much.
"Maybe it's my inferiority complex that's causing all this trouble. When I see you and Ji Suting standing together, I become inexplicably irritable and can't help but lose my temper with you. I know there's nothing wrong between you two, but I can't control myself." He smiled bitterly, "Am I childish for doing this? Because of this childishness, I lost the happiness that I worked so hard to get, and I can never get it back."
"Maybe we are too young and haven't reached the maturity to face love yet," I said.
"Maybe... I'm sorry about what happened in the alley that day. I didn't have the courage to stand up when my mother humiliated you. I'm really sorry. I also know that from that moment on, I completely lost the qualification to love you." Yan Wenbo's eyes were covered with a layer of mist, filled with infinite sadness. "Weiwei, this is the last time I call you like this. I hope you can be happy and always be happy."
"Thank you." I lowered my head and my tears created ripples in the cup.
After saying this, Yan Wenbo looked at the time and said he was leaving. Before he left, he tried to refuse again and again, but he couldn't resist me and took back the 50,000 yuan card .
I know that even if Cun Jiyuan is here, he will not accept this card.
As we were about to say goodbye, Yan Wenbo suddenly seemed to remember something and said to me, "What happened in the shabby house last time was actually arranged by Ren Xiaoqi. She came to me and asked me to cooperate, and I wanted to reconcile with you so much that I agreed. At first, she just asked me to be a hero and save the beauty, and she would take care of the rest. It was only after I arrived that I knew what the so-called hero saving the beauty was like. I rushed in immediately after I heard the sound. Fortunately... you are okay, otherwise I would really feel guilty for the rest of my life."
"Thank you." His words made me glad that he didn't keep listening outside the door and wait for the right moment to go in as I thought. I was glad that I didn't like the wrong person.
"Ren Xiaoqi is very persistent about you. I think she will do even crazier things in the future. If possible..." He paused, "If possible, let Ji Suting accompany you when you go out in the future, otherwise..."
"Yeah." It seems that he already knows about what happened between Ji Suting and me.
"Goodbye," he said.
"Goodbye," I replied.
For the first time, I realized how heavy these two words were. He stood there in a daze and watched me turn around. I didn’t know when he left, maybe when my figure disappeared around the corner!
This love that ended in "disease" came to an end with his departure. I don't know if I will be loved again in this life, but I know that I will never be loved so desperately by a boy again.
He always lived in his own caution, afraid of the emergence of the shadow of Ji Suting. He never asked me at that time whether I loved him more than Ji Suting.
Perhaps he firmly believed from the beginning that he could not compare with Ji Suting. This is his sorrow, and also mine.
I learned the news that Xu Meng'er went to the United States from a call from Li Chongyang. I received his call at the beginning of the new semester.
He choked up and told me that Xu Meng'er was going to America after Yan Wenbo, and his last glimmer of hope was gone.
I don't know how to comfort her. I can only say that every relationship has a time limit, some are for a moment, some are for a lifetime. Xu Meng'er is your moment, and you have to continue looking for your lifetime.
He repeated to me what happened and said sorry.
I said, it's all in the past and I forgot about it.
As people around me leave one by one, I realize the importance of cherishing those around me.
Whether it is Li Chongyang or Ji Suting, they are people I want to cherish and don’t want to experience separation again.
Thinking of this, I called Ji Suting, and before he could speak, I asked anxiously, "Where are you now?"
"In the activity room, what happened?" He was a little confused.
"Just you?" I asked.
"Yes," he replied.
"Then wait for me there, I'll come to you right away." After hanging up the phone, I hurriedly got dressed and went out.
When I was leaving, Shi Shuxia asked me where I was going. I replied that I was going to catch someone important and left. I didn’t hear clearly what she said next, probably asking who I was!
I was running all the way, wishing I could see Ji Suting immediately and tell him that I liked him and hoped to be with him forever. I didn't want to miss it again.
When I ran to the activity room building, Ji Suting was standing under a tree waiting for me. The afterglow of the setting sun shone through the dense camphor leaves and fell on his body. The light golden light outlined his smiling profile, clean and soft.
"Why are you sweating so much?" He pulled me under a tree, took out a tissue from his pocket and gently wiped the sweat from my forehead. When his fingertips touched my face, I could clearly feel the heat from his fingers making my face heat up and my ears burn even more. My mind went blank and I completely forgot why I came here.
Seeing that I didn't answer, he chuckled and said "Hmm?" I lowered my head a little embarrassedly and said, "That's it...that's it..."
The passion I had when running disappeared instantly after I saw him. I stammered and couldn't say anything. Especially when he smiled at me, my brain capacity shrank rapidly, and in the end, it was filled with only three big words: "Ji Suting".
"What are you daydreaming about?" He flicked my forehead lightly with his index finger. Seeing me frown, he asked nervously, "Did it hurt you?"
"Does what you said before still count?" I asked without thinking.
"Hmm?" He seemed not to understand and thought for a moment. Then the smile on his face gradually grew wider, revealing eight standard teeth. He called my name, "Cun Zhiwei."
"Hmm?" I was lost in his smile.
I first fell in love with this boy because of his smile, and now I am obsessed with him because of his smile.
Maybe I will never be able to escape from this "cage" woven by his smile. This is also good, full of happiness.
"I like you."
This sentence is like a gorgeous firework that breaks through the sky after the whistle, and with a "bang" it blooms into colorful fireworks, brightening the sky and brightening my heart.
These four simple words filled my chest, and my eyes were filled with pink love bubbles. If this were an anime, I think my eyes would have turned into heart shapes.
He held my shoulders with both hands, bent his body slightly, and looked at me at eye level. He stared into my eyes with clear eyes and said, "We missed each other for too long, and I will never let you go this time. What I said to you must count. Now I just want to ask you one thing, Cun Zhiwei, I like you, do you like me?"
The happiest thing in the world is that the person you love also loves you.
"Yeah, I like you." Since I want to grasp the happiness around me, I know that what I least need now is pretentiousness and reserve, so I boldly say that I like you.
At that moment, fireworks bloomed in his eyes. He laughed and hugged me in his arms, saying excitedly: "We are finally together, finally together."
Yes, we have been through so many twists and turns and finally we are together. It is hard not to feel deeply emotional when I say this.
Tears quietly slid down his white T-shirt, and I wondered if he would think it was sweat.
Ji Suting took my hand and walked around the campus as if he wanted to announce it to the whole world. He also took me to the cafeteria for a rare meal. He had always disliked the food in the cafeteria and seldom ate there.
I can’t remember how many times I have been stared at in University A, but this is the time when I held my head high. No matter what others think or say, I know that the boy next to me will give me a real harbor, and he is someone I can rely on.
While eating, Ji Suting told me a story from the past that I didn’t know.
"Do you remember the time I went to the coffee shop to see you?" he asked.
I nodded. I had been depressed since Hua Siyu beat me. Ji Suting came to the coffee shop to find me, and seemed to want to explain something. I interrupted him before he finished listening, said that we didn't want to meet again, and then left.
I still remember that time when he said he wanted to send me back but I refused. I hid in a corner and cried alone, my sadness was uncontrollable.
"In fact, I followed you the whole day. At first, I was worried about you walking alone at night. When I saw you crying in the corner, I pinched my many times before I stopped trying to comfort you. At that time, I told myself that I would never let this girl cry for me again in this life. I must protect her well." After saying that, he smiled bitterly, "But I still hurt you later. When the school asked you to withdraw from the design competition, I hurt you because I owed Siyu. I know that this kind of hurt may never be erased in a lifetime."
"I'm back now, right? That's all in the past." I took the initiative to hold his hand, and my heart skipped a beat when I felt his body temperature. "The past is in the past. Now I just want to hold on to the happiness in front of me. I just hope that you can be happy by my side forever."
At that time, I was still too naive and didn’t know that happiness was the most luxurious pursuit in the world.
He twitched the corner of his mouth slightly and raised his hand to touch my hair. I pouted and avoided him: "Your hands are covered in oil, so I won't let you touch them."
"It's only the first day and you're already disliking me?" He laughed at me.
"I don't dislike you, I dislike the oil . It's the oil!" I explained.
"Then go back and wash your hair!" He reached out and touched my hair when I wasn't paying attention, and when he saw me pouting, he smiled with a triumphant look on his face.
I like Ji Suting like this. He has more of a down-to-earth feel when he smiles gently, making him easier to approach, rather than giving people a feeling of superiority.
As expected, the news that Ji Suting and I were walking hand in hand in public soon became a hot topic on the forum. They did a poll, asking me how long Ji Suting and I had been together. On the first day of voting, the result with the highest number of votes was that we broke up after one month. On the second day, the number rose slightly to three months, but it was still the highest at one month.
I told Ji Suting all this, and he held my hand, interlocked our fingers and said, "We don't care what others say, as long as we can move forward firmly."
All the sweet words are not as good as a firm determination to keep going.
Maybe my mentality has changed. After officially being together with Ji Suting, I always feel that my derailed life has returned to normal. Fortunately, Shi Shuxia has always been by my side, and Li Chongyang, who had been devastated by Xu Meng'er's departure, has gradually recovered. Everything is developing in a good direction.
I thought my life would continue to be worry-free until I discovered that incident and entered another round of upheaval.
Maybe God doesn't want to see me happy!