Thursday, July 5th, sunny
Best friends bring each other cherished unforgettable memories,
Fly to the other side of the earth.
Although there are too many reluctances in my heart,
Say goodbye with a smile too.
Watching the plane she was on disappear into the blue sky,
I suddenly realized,
From now on,
Learn to live bravely alone.

There was a deep blue sky outside the window, and the dazzling sunlight refracted colorful light through the huge glass walls of the airport.
Looking out from the glass wall of the airport, the summer is so beautiful, but I just can't feel happy. Even standing in the air-conditioned room, I always have an indescribable feeling of heat in my heart.
I leaned against the window, staring blankly at the planes outside the window as they slowly glided, then became smaller, and finally rushed into the vast sky and disappeared.
"Xia." I turned around and saw Chinatsu jogging towards me with a smile on her face, carrying a bag on her back.
I waved at Qianxia: "Have you checked in your luggage? Did you forget anything? And remember to cover yourself with a blanket on the plane, and..."
"Okay, don't worry, everything is ready." Qianxia smiled and scratched my nose, "Really, when did Xiao Mihu become so meticulous?"
Chinatsu's crystal eyes twinkled, but I couldn't laugh at all. My throat felt like it was stuck.
"What's wrong?" Qianxia frowned slightly, "Xia, you promised not to cry!"
"No way, I'm not crying! Whoever cries is a puppy." I muttered back, but my heart felt like it was soaked by a heavy rain. I was so sad that I didn't know what to do.
Chinatsu blinked and looked at me: "Okay, after I leave, you must learn to protect yourself and don't always let others bully you. Also - don't be so stupid in the future, standing there stupidly waiting for someone when it rains."
Chinatsu's voice became a little choked up: "Xia, you must remember me. Although I only stayed in Yifeng for one semester, I am so happy to meet such a lovely you and to be friends with such a silly you. After I leave, you are not allowed to go out for drinking again. No matter what happens in the future, whether it is happy or sad, you must be the first to tell me. You are not allowed to like new friends more than you like me, I must be your best friend..."
Before Chinatsu had finished her words, my tears were already falling like a summer rainstorm.
"Chinatsu."
"Shia."
Chinatsu and I simultaneously reached out our hands to wipe away the tears from each other's faces. We looked at each other's red eyes for a few seconds, and then burst out laughing.
"Really? Didn't we agree not to cry?" Chinatsu smiled and punched me lightly in the chest while crying.
"Okay, I'm leaving now." Chinatsu took a deep breath and hugged me tightly. "Be brave next time. Don't embarrass me. Do you hear me?"
I had promised not to cry, but tears kept falling. Listening to Chixia's instructions, I couldn't say a word, I just nodded.
"Then I'm leaving." When Chinatsu walked to the security check, she turned around and gave me a big smile.
"Chiharu...Chiharu..." I whispered as I watched Chiharu disappear at the security checkpoint, "You have to take good care of yourself too..."
When I thought that I would never have the chance to see Chinatsu again, I felt extremely sad.
From now on, no one can share my worries, and no one will scold me for being useless and teach the bully fearlessly when I am bullied. No matter how sad I am in the future, no one will take me out for a beer.
I sat blankly in the airport lobby, listening to the news of flights taking off and landing. Chinatsu's plane had taken off on time, but I hadn't left.
It wasn't until the phone in my pocket suddenly rang that I came back to my senses from Chinatsu's departure.
It was Weiwei calling.
"Xia, the game is about to start, why haven't you arrived yet?"
Weiwei's voice was like a bucket of ice water poured over my head.
Oh no!
It’s only ten o’clock just now, how come it’s already past eleven o’clock!
"Weiwei, I'll be there right away. Let's not talk about it now." After hanging up the phone, I ran towards the taxi waiting area of ​​the airport like an arrow.
The strong sunlight shone on my face through the taxi window. I looked at the time. Oh my god, it was already half past eleven. The game was about to start! I hope I can make it in time!
But just when the taxi drove a few hundred meters away, a long queue of people formed on the road.
Ignoring the driver's objection, I opened the door, got out of the car and ran forward.
The midday sun is so dazzling that it causes stinging pain on my body.
"Are you looking for death? Why are you running on the road?" People kept sticking their heads out and scolding me loudly.
The soles of my shoes had become very soft when I stepped on the ground. I kept wiping the sweat off my cheeks with my hands while running.
The hot air flow surrounded them, and the concrete road surface was like an oven under high temperature.
The clothes, already soaked through, stuck tightly to my body.
"Huff-huff-huff" I heard my own rapid breathing while running.
Gradually, I felt a little dizzy, and it seemed that there were many stars twinkling in front of my eyes.
What time is it? I don’t know which game FLY will play. I dazedly took out my phone and prepared to call Weiwei, but the strong sunlight made it difficult for me to see the words on the screen.
After dialing the number, I found that the name displayed on the screen was Che Ye...
I was just about to hang up the phone and call Weiwei again when the flickering light in front of my eyes suddenly turned black.
With a thud, I fell to the ground and completely lost consciousness...
Oh, my head hurts.
I gritted my teeth and slowly opened my eyes. White walls, white sheets, and the air was filled with the smell of disinfectant.
I turned my head gently.
"Xia, are you awake?" Cheye, who was lying on the bed, rubbed his eyes and stood up. "Do you feel better now?"
I didn't have time to answer Cheye's question, so I blurted out, "What time is it now?"
"Huh?" Cheye was stunned for a moment, then looked down at his watch, "It's already past eleven o'clock in the evening!"
"What!" I couldn't help but let out a low cry, then lowered my head under Cheye's puzzled gaze.
I still missed it... I still missed Xu Yi's game...
I don't know if FLY won the championship...
"What's wrong?" Cheye's voice was unusually gentle.
"No, it's okay." I raised my head and smiled weakly at Cheye, "Why am I here?"
All I remember is the long queue of cars and the strong sunlight...
"Idiot!" Cheye deliberately made a sullen face, but the concern in his eyes betrayed his true emotions, "Why are you running on the airport road on such a hot day?"
Airport…The scene of Chinatsu leaving suddenly appeared in my mind, and sadness flooded my mind again.
"Chinatsu... go back to America, I'll see her off." After saying that, I bit my lips tightly, afraid that tears would fall again.
"Don't be sad, idiot." Cheye's expression became so gentle, he gently rubbed my hair, "I will always be by your side and take good care of you!"
I looked at him quietly: "Cheye, thank you!"
"Idiot, take back your thanks." Cheye looked at me seriously, "No matter what happens in the future, I will always be by your side."
"Cheye..." I called out his name softly, but I didn't know what to say next. Although I felt warm in my heart because of his words, I always felt like something very important was missing.
There was endless darkness outside the window, without a single star, and only the faint light of the street lamps.
Xu Yi should be asleep by now, right?

Friday, July 6th, sunny
Are you really leaving?
It seems like there are fewer and fewer people around me.
Suddenly I feel so lonely and sad.
It's like I'm the only one on the planet.
Sadness flooded my heart.
I didn't even dare to breathe hard.
I'm afraid if I breathe hard,
Tears will flow uncontrollably...

I sat on the bed, watching the sky outside gradually change from dark to pale, and all things began to wake up gradually.
When the first ray of sunlight fell into the room through the window, I couldn't wait to pick up my phone and call Xu Yi.
The phone was connected after just two rings, and Xu Yi's light voice came from the phone: "Xia Ya."
I tossed and turned all night, and after hearing his light voice, my heart became wet, salty and bitter.
"Xu Yi, um... yesterday... what was the result of the game?" I lowered my eyes and looked at the sunlight falling on the bed.
"Well, we won first place." Xu Yi's voice was still light, without any fluctuation in his tone, "So, we got a contract from a well-known Asian record company."
"Really? That's great!" I couldn't help but laugh and cheer. After I calmed down, I bit my lip and continued, "Yesterday, I got heatstroke on the way back from sending Chinatsu, so I couldn't come to watch the game..."
"Oh." After a short syllable, there was only silence.
Tiny dust particles float in the sunlight, which turns from warm to scorching hot on the skin.
I obviously have a lot to say, but I seem to have aphasia and can't say anything. The words I want to say to him keep growing in my stomach, fermenting and becoming bitter.
I couldn't say anything, but I couldn't bear to hang up the phone, as if "on the phone" meant that we were still connected.
"Oh, FLY will celebrate at GOGO KTV at 3 o'clock this afternoon. You..." After an unknown amount of time, Xu Yi's voice came from the phone again, "If you don't have time..."
"I have! I..." Xu Yi was interrupted abruptly before he could finish his words, but after saying these words, I didn't know what to say.
"Oh, see you this afternoon. I'll hang up first." Xu Yi said lightly, and there was only a busy tone on the other end of the phone.
After hanging up the phone, for some reason, tears silently flowed out and dripped onto the quilt.
It’s great that Xu Yi and his team won first place; it’s great that Xu Yi and his team got a contract from a record company; it’s great that Xu Yi and his team are going abroad for training…
Xu Yi is about to realize his dream... It's... great...
My heart is filled with bitterness...
2:30 in the afternoon.
Just as I was about to go out, I received a text message from Cheye -

Fool:
I have something going on at home over the weekend, so I can't come to see you. You should have a good rest at home and don't run around!

After replying to Cheye's text message, I left home with a well-adjusted mood. Ye Xiya, no matter how reluctant you are, you can't affect everyone's mood. This is their celebration party.
As we were walking on the street, it suddenly occurred to me that since it was a celebration party, Miori might be there too.
The intimate moments between Xu Yi and Meizhi kept appearing in his mind. The bitterness in his heart seemed to have been magnified a hundred times by a magnifying glass, so bitter that his heart almost tightened.
I am so scared to see Xu Yi and Mei Zhi together. I am so scared to see the boy I like being intimate with another girl.
But... I really want to see Xu Yi, and my desire to see Xu Yi is growing stronger and stronger.
Ye Xiya, don't be so useless! You are going to see Xu Yi, don't think so much! If you don't go, the chance of seeing Xu Yi in the future will be very small!
Yes, Xu Yi is going abroad for training, so I guess I won't see him anymore...
The desire to see Xu Yi instantly took over my mind, and I quickened my pace towards the KTV.
Soon we arrived at the entrance of GOGO KTV. I took a deep breath, then tried to smile as I walked inside.
Ye Xiya, don’t think about anything else, just celebrate for FLY!
When I walked into the box, I found that it was carefully decorated. The walls were hung with balloons of various colors and glittering ribbons, and there were big words "FLY Celebration Party" posted on them.
In the box, Ajie was holding Weiwei's hand and singing a song with a fast rhythm. The atmosphere was very cheerful due to Ajie, and the other members were sitting on the sofa drinking and chatting.
The next second, my eyes fell on Xu Yi. As expected, Mizhi was sitting next to him, and the two were whispering something.
I stood at the door of the box, my shoes seemed to be stuck to the ground, and I couldn't take a step forward.
"Xia!" A crisp voice came, and it was Miori who greeted me with a smile and motioned for me to sit over.
I suppressed the bitterness in my heart, walked over with a smile, and sat next to Miori.
The corner of her eye passed over Meizhi in the middle and quietly fell on Xu Yi's handsome profile. Her heart seemed like a piece of driftwood thrown on the sea, floating up and down with the water.
Mizhi stood up and poured a glass of wine, then looked at Xu Yi sincerely: "Xu Yi, thank you!"
After saying that, Miori drank the glass of wine in one gulp.
Xu Yi smiled and said, "Don't be so polite. As long as the problem is solved, it's fine."
You're welcome? Problem solved? I was totally confused by their conversation.
"You..." I looked at the two of them puzzled, but didn't know how to ask this question.
Xu Yi didn't say anything, but just looked at me deeply, with many emotions flashing in his eyes that I couldn't understand, and then he turned his head to look at the screen in front of him.
"Haha, some misunderstandings can finally be explained now." Miori sat down with a smile, "Because my family forced me to get engaged to someone I hate, I asked Xu Yi to act with me. Now that the matter has been resolved satisfactorily, the truth should also come to light."
"So..." I listened to Miori's words blankly, muttering, "So there really is a reason..."
The words of Chixia instantly echoed in my mind...
"Xia, do you believe Xu Yi and Meizhi are together?"
“I always felt like there was something wrong with this.”
"Xia, maybe there really is something we don't know."
Chinatsu was right. It turns out there really is a truth that we don't know about...
The thick dark cloud that had been gathering in my heart finally dissipated slowly, and I couldn't help but smile. It turned out that Xu Yi and Meizhi were not together! It turned out that Xu Yi didn't like Meizhi!
Huh——a gust of wind suddenly blew in my heart, blowing back a lot of the dark clouds that were about to dissipate——Xu Yi was about to leave, and I didn’t know when he would come back...
"Xu Yi, let's not go home until we are drunk. Next time we won't..." Ajie came over with a bottle of beer. He suddenly stopped talking and drank most of the bottle of beer in one breath.
"Vivi, what happened to Ajie?" I looked at Vivi who was standing next to Ajie with confusion.
"No, it's okay. He's happy!" Weiwei had a strange expression on her face. "He must have won first place, so he was so happy that he was silly!"
"Haha, so that's it!" I looked at Ajie and smiled.
"Hey! Why don't you guys drink?" Weiwei shouted.
The other band members immediately came over and each picked up a bottle of beer.
"Come on! Xu Yi, drink!"
"Ajie, come here!"
"Let's do it, everyone!"
They all held a bottle of beer in their hands, and there were already many empty bottles on the ground. I sat on the sofa and looked at them, their faces flushed from drinking, and I felt something was wrong, but I couldn't put my finger on it.
The way they drank didn't look happy at all, but rather like they were just getting drunk...
What happened?
"Xia, do you want to drink?" Weiwei came over and handed me a bottle of wine.
I took the wine and took a sip. "Weiwei, what's wrong with them? Everyone is acting so weird! Are they here to celebrate or to drink like crazy?"
"Uh..." Weiwei's eyes flickered after hearing what I said, "I'm just happy!"
"Really?" I still felt very strange. In the dim light, I couldn't see their expressions clearly.
"certainly!"
Weiwei nodded at me, then turned around and said to them loudly, "Are you done yet? What are a few grown men doing drinking so hard? Xia even thought you were here to get drunk."
Ajie put down his beer, walked over and took Weiwei's hand: "Weiwei, let's pick a song and sing together!"
After Weiwei and Ajie finished their duet, Weiwei suddenly hugged Ajie and started crying: "Ajie, will you miss me when you go abroad for training?"
"Yes, of course!" Ajie handed the microphone to the other members of the band apologetically, and then coaxed Weiwei to sit on the sofa.
"Will you miss me very much?" Weiwei raised her tearful face and looked at Ajie.
"I will miss you so much!"
…
Listening to their conversation, I quietly looked at Xu Yi and asked quietly in my heart -
"Xu Yi, will you miss me when you go abroad?"
"Will you miss it very much?"
"Will you remember me in the future?"
…
I tried my best to hold back the tears welling up in my eyes, then lowered my head and quietly wiped away the tears. I must not cry today, I must not!
During the entire celebration party, I really didn't shed a single tear, and I kept forcing myself to smile.
When I walked out of the box, I realized it was already dark. The dark sky was filled with jewel-like stars. Under the street lights, our shadows were stretched out long.
"Xu Yi, why are Ajie and the others singing "Friendship Forever" today?" I asked curiously, looking at Xu Yi's handsome profile.
"Huh?" Xu Yi's steps suddenly became chaotic, but he quickly returned to normal, "It's nothing, let's just sing for fun."
"Oh, I see." I nodded, but I still felt something was wrong.
"Xia, after signing the contract, we will go abroad for training. You must take good care of yourself in the future!" Xu Yi's voice came from above my head.
I stood there stupidly, forgetting to take a step forward.
Yes, Xu Yi is leaving, leaving, leaving...
I may never see Xu Yi again, or I may only see him on TV. For a moment, I felt as if my heart had been thrown into the sea, soaked in the salty and bitter water.
"Well, okay." I resisted the urge to cry and looked at Xu Yi with a smile, "Xu Yi, can we meet at the window seat at the back of the library at ten o'clock tomorrow? I...I..." I want to have one last date with you.
But the words kept turning around in my throat and I just couldn't say them. In the end, I had no choice but to give up and wait quietly for Xu Yi's answer.
Xu Yi did not answer immediately, countless rays of light flowed in his black eyes.
After dozens of seconds, he gently opened his mouth: "Okay."
Just then, a car with its headlights on suddenly sped towards us in the distance.
My hand was grabbed suddenly...
I turned my head to look at Xu Yi beside me, and saw that he was holding me tightly, like a blind person, standing there motionless with empty eyes.
"Xu Yi, Xu Yi, are you okay?" I suddenly had a bad feeling.
"Haha, it's okay!" Xu Yi forced a smile at me, "Just now, sand got into my eyes, and when the light shone on them, I suddenly couldn't see the road."
"I'm glad you're okay." After hearing Xu Yi's explanation, I felt relieved.
After Xu Yi sent me home, I leaned against the bedside blankly, my eyes unfocused, looking into the distance. The light flickered, blinding my eyes, I blinked, and tears fell violently on the bed.
The emotion of reluctance filled my heart. With a slight touch, reluctance overflowed from my heart and then turned into wet liquid flowing down from my eye sockets...

Saturday, July 7, sunny
Those unspeakable likes,
Just let me treasure it quietly.
No matter where Xu Yi goes,
I will always love him silently.
With this love in my heart, I wait for the day when he comes back.
I sincerely hope that
In the future,
He is always happy!

“Ding Ling Ling——”
At six o'clock, the alarm clock broke the silence in the room, and the sharp sound woke me up from my sleep.
Before I opened my eyes, I could feel the sunlight falling on my eyelids, bright and warm. The corners of my mouth slowly rose because of this warm sunlight.
I opened my eyes, and my heart started beating rapidly as I thought of my upcoming date with Xu Yi.
Ever since Xu Yi came back, it seems like we have never had a date alone. After I found out yesterday that he and Mizhi were just pretending to be a couple, I felt a lot more relaxed.
This should be our last date.
I want to keep the last bit of beauty in my heart, so that after Xu Yi leaves, I can take it out and savor it from time to time.
After washing up, I stood in front of the mirror for half an hour.
The bed was littered with clothes.
"Will you look ordinary wearing a short-sleeved shirt and jeans? You should change into a skirt!"
There was another set of clothes on the bed.
"This black dress isn't bright enough!"
Change it to another one.
"A white dress, isn't it too plain and inappropriate?"
Change again!
…
When I finally stood in front of the mirror with satisfaction, it was already an hour later...
In the mirror, my fluffy chestnut hair is tied into a bun, my eyes are dark and bright under my thick eyelashes, the pink lip gloss makes my lips look pink and crystal clear, and the bright yellow dress is as dazzling as the sun.
This should be OK, right?
Although I am satisfied with myself in the mirror, I wonder if Xu Yi will also think I am pretty...
I still feel a little unconfident , and my heart is in a state of ups and downs...
It was only nine o'clock when I arrived at the library, and there was still an hour before our agreed time.
Because it was summer vacation, there were not many people in the library. I walked to the seat we agreed on and sat down, put the book in my hand on the table, and gently stroked the cover of the book with my fingers.
This is a music book, which contains several music scores that I hand-copied for Xu Yi. I want to give this to Xu Yi as a gift.
I hope his dream will come true soon, and I also hope that he will think of me when he sees the music score...
I put the sheet music on the table and went to the other side of the bookshelf. I quietly hid behind the bookshelf and waited for Xu Yi.
Time seemed to be particularly long while I was waiting, and the ticking sound of the clock on the wall was unusually clear. I looked at the seat we had agreed to sit at from the gap between the bookshelves.
The sunlight shone in from the window, and on the black music book, a large golden note shone brightly, as if it was a divine music book with blessings.
Five minutes, ten minutes, thirty minutes...
"Boom, boom, boom..."
When the clock hands pointed to nine forty-five, a familiar sound of footsteps was heard.
My breathing stopped for a few seconds, my heartbeat accelerated involuntarily, my hands clenched into fists, and my palms began to sweat...
Through the gap in the bookshelf, a boy walked towards the seat where the sheet music was placed...
The black hair looks soft, and glows like black jade. The black eyes are like the most beautiful obsidian, surging with light. There is a warm smile on the handsome face...
Xu Yi, you are here...
His breathing and heartbeat slowly returned to normal, his palms were wet, and in the tiny gaps, he could see the figure of the person in front of him.
He sat down in his seat, picked up the music book curiously, looked around, and then gently opened the music book.
The sun shines on him, and a warm feeling spreads to my heart. My heart becomes so soft in his smile...
I think, even if ten, fifty, or a hundred years have passed, I will never forget this scene in front of me. I will never forget that in the sunshine, a handsome boy with black hair opened a sheet music book and smiled with the corners of his lips raised...
I don't even want to go out. I just want to stay in this corner and watch Xu Yi quietly until the end of the world...
From now on, I will always remember this seat...
After Xu Yi left, if I missed him, I would come here to look for his scent...
"Xu Yi!" Ten minutes later, I walked out and looked at him with a smile.
"You?" Xu Yi was startled by my sudden appearance. "Where did you come from?"
"It fell from the sky!" I smiled mischievously at Xu Yi, then sat down next to him.
"Is this yours?" Xu Yi pointed to the music book in front of him.
I smiled and nodded: "This is a gift for you. I copied the music score by hand. I wish you can realize your dream soon!"
The sunlight was extremely bright at this moment, falling on Xu Yi's profile, outlining a clear outline.
I don’t know if it was because of the sunlight, but at this moment, I seemed to see warmth and doting on his face.
I close my eyes, and no matter whether what I see is an illusion or reality, I will remember the feeling of this moment forever.
Xu Yi listened to me and remained silent for a long time. He just gently touched the music book with his hand and whispered, "Thank you."
The sun is pouring down, and warmth is everywhere...
Time slips silently through our fingers.
The clouds in the sky have been painted with a thin layer of warm orange, and the bright lights in the library have been turned on.
Xu Yi and I spent the whole day in the library.
In the past, if I spent a whole day in the library, I would definitely feel bored. But today, I feel more satisfied than ever before and I wish time would pass more slowly.
Coming out of the library, the lily-shaped street lamps were all lit up, and the orange light looked very warm.
The dark night sky is dotted with stars and the moon is bright.
I quietly followed Xu Yi towards home, but my heart felt like there was a drum beating non-stop, and my palms were wet with sweat again.
I really want to tell Xu Yi that I love you from the bottom of my heart, but I can't say it out loud.
"Boom boom--boom boom--" My heartbeats are like beating a drum...
My whole body became stiff due to tension...
Just as we were about to cross the tracks and walk to the other side of the road, the yellow safety barrier made a "ding ding" sound, and Xu Yi and I stopped and stood side by side.
The breeze blew quietly, and I saw the hem of my skirt swaying gently. Xu Yi's profile looked even more beautiful under the light.
"call--"
At this moment, a train came speeding...
“Bang, bang, bang—”
The train made a loud noise.
I closed my eyes quietly and shouted with all my courage -
"Xu Yi, I like you! I really like you very much!"
The sound of the train completely covered up my voice, but at that moment, I felt so happy because I finally confessed to Xu Yi!
Xu Yi, after going through so much, I finally confessed to you!
The whizzing train turned into a black shadow in my sight.
"Xia, were you talking to me just now?" Xu Yi looked at me puzzledly, "But the noise of the train was too loud just now, I didn't hear what you said."
"Nothing... nothing..." I stuttered twice, clasping my hands tightly together, "Hehe, I was just talking to myself. Let's go!"
"good!"
Xu Yi didn't ask any more questions and continued walking forward with me.
The warm light falls around us, but it still cannot illuminate our future path. It is still pitch black ahead, but because of the people around me, I am not afraid of anything.
"Xia, look, that's the amusement park over there!" Xu Yi pointed to a place opposite, and his voice became cheerful.
I looked in the direction Xu Yi pointed, and sure enough, it was an amusement park, but now it was completely shrouded in darkness.
For some reason, Xu Yi looked at the amusement park with excitement flashing in his eyes and the corners of his mouth rose involuntarily.
I looked at Xu Yi's face greedily, as if I would gain something if I looked at him one more time.
Because I don’t know if I’ll have the chance to see him again in the future…
“Bang—bang—”
Suddenly there was a loud explosion in the air...
Countless fireworks bloomed in the sky, colorful and dazzling, but they were gone in the blink of an eye...
The fireworks bloomed and then disappeared, disappeared and bloomed again, and the surrounding scenery became bright and then dim, dim and then bright again.
Xu Yi tilted his head back, staring at the fireworks in the sky. In the light of the fireworks, he looked so handsome that he looked like a boy in a cartoon, making people unable to take their eyes off him.
The fireworks were blooming enthusiastically in the sky, and in my eyes, there was only the boy who was looking up at the fireworks.
It was nearly half an hour before the fireworks ended.
The prosperity fades, but the night sky remains bright.
I looked at the amusement park in the distance and smiled sweetly at Xu Yi: "The amusement park must be very beautiful at night!"
It would be nice if I could be with Xu Yi forever.
I don't know why, but as I was thinking about this, my eyes suddenly became moist...
"Xia." Xu Yi looked at me, his eyes shining, "I will leave the day after tomorrow morning. Let's meet at the entrance of the amusement park opposite at 8 o'clock tomorrow night!"
What? Xu Yi...he's leaving the day after tomorrow?
So... maybe I will never see him again?
For a moment, I felt as if my heart was thrown into the sea, soaked in the salty and bitter water.
"Okay!" I suppressed my sadness and tried to make my voice sound natural. "Why are we going to the amusement park?"
"Haha." Xu Yi smiled gently, "It's a secret! You'll know when you come tomorrow!"
Looking at the smile on Xu Yi's face, I couldn't help but lose my mind.
As long as I can see Xu Yi's brilliant smile, I would be willing to go through fire and water!
I am willing to give everything for his happiness and joy!

Sunday, July 8 Cloudy to rainy
When the lights in the playground are turned on,
I felt like I had come to a dreamy fairy tale kingdom.
So is Xu Yi a prince or a knight in the kingdom?
Finally I knew,
Whether Xu Yi is a prince or a knight has nothing to do with me.
Because I'm not a princess.
So I am destined not to have him.

The hour hand quietly pointed to seven o'clock.
At this moment, I was sitting in front of the window in a daze. The sky was gradually darkening, and a few stars were scattered lonely in the night sky.
Because Xu Yi was leaving, I was sad for the whole day, until my eyes fell on the wall clock, I immediately came to my senses.
Ah! It's already seven o'clock and I haven't prepared anything yet. I don't want my last date with Xu Yi to turn out so badly!
Forty-five minutes later, I stood in front of the mirror and looked carefully at the person inside.
The fluffy chestnut hair exudes a soft glow, the eyes are extremely bright, the eyelashes are long and curly, the delicate lips exude pink light, and the pink dress on her body makes her look playful and cute.
Is that okay?
I looked at myself in the mirror and nodded.
Okay, let’s go out!
From a distance, I saw Xu Yi standing at the entrance of the amusement park—a familiar figure, a familiar smile...
The moment I saw Xu Yi's smile, my tears almost fell again. It had been a long time since I saw Xu Yi smile so dotingly at me.
"Xu Yi!" I called him softly, afraid that his doting smile would disappear.
"Xia." Xu Yi's mouth corners were still slightly raised, "Xia is very beautiful today!"
Xu Yi actually praised me!
"Haha, really?" I couldn't help but smile happily, my face slightly hot, "Xu Yi, the amusement park is not open at night, should we crawl in?"
"Of course not!" Xu Yi smiled as he walked to the door and pushed it open...
"squeak--"
The iron gate was slowly pushed open, and the amusement park was revealed to me without reservation.
The playground was very quiet in the night, all the equipment stood quietly, and unknown little insects were singing softly.
"Then let's..." I looked at Xu Yi's back and was about to ask him what he wanted to play, when the scene in front of me suddenly shocked me!
“Shua——”
All the lights in the amusement park lit up at once, and the sleeping amusement park suddenly woke up, as if a fairy had lit up the entire amusement park with her magic wand.
The colorful lights all emit bright light, and the Ferris wheel standing tall not far away looks like a huge colorful circle.
The carousel on the other side is filled with warm light...
I felt like I had fallen into a dreamy fairytale kingdom, and even the air was filled with the sweet smell of cotton candy...
“Crash——”
A huge stream of water suddenly surged up from the ground and rose straight into the sky. Because of the lights on the ground, the water splashes became colorful.
Pleasant music came to my ears, and the sound of music and splashing water intertwined together, forming a happy melody that slowly passed through my ears and penetrated into the deepest part of my heart.
"Xia, do you like it?" Xu Yi turned his head, with a gentle light flowing in his black eyes.
"Yeah!" I nodded heavily, "I like it, I like it very much!"
I looked at Xu Yi's profile from the corner of my eye, and my heart was filled with a feeling a hundred times greater than the fountain in front of me. Thank you for everything you have done for me, thank you, thank you...
"Then, let's start our date at the amusement park!" Xu Yi said as he took my hand and ran towards the amusement park...
The wind gently blew through my hair, and I felt the warmth coming from Xu Yi's palm. It seemed as if countless flowers were blooming in my heart, and countless cotton candies were floating...
At this moment, I feel that happiness is so close, right beside me, just one step away.
"Xu Yi, I don't want to ride the roller coaster. I'm scared."
"Hehe, if you're scared, just hold me."
"Ah! But it still looks scary!"
"It's okay. With me by your side, Xia doesn't have to be afraid of anything."
…
We played one project after another in the playground. Even though some of the projects looked so scary, as long as Xu Yi was by my side, I was really not afraid at all...
I sat on the pirate ship and quietly looked at Xu Yi's profile, the wind whistling past my ears.
Xu Yi has such a straight nose and such long eyelashes. He really looks like a prince in a fairy tale.
My eyes felt inexplicably sore and then gradually became moist.
Whenever I thought about Xu Yi leaving, whenever I thought about my future life without Xu Yi, my heart seemed to be tightly grasped by someone, and an inexplicable pain quietly spread...
Why, why am I so sad?
A tear fell from my eye socket, landed on my hand, and then slowly faded away...
"Xia, what's wrong? Why do you look unhappy?" The pirate ship finally stopped and Xu Yi turned to look at me.
"No, no." I tried to smile so as not to let Xu Yi see that I was unhappy.
"Then I'll take Xia to see the stars."
Xu Yi took my hand and walked towards the huge Ferris wheel.
The Ferris wheel rose slowly, and I sat next to Xu Yi, quietly looking at the stars in the sky.
My mood became like the summer sky, sometimes sunny, sometimes cloudy. I was so happy one moment, and inexplicably sad the next.
When the Ferris wheel rose to its highest point, I closed my eyes and quietly made a wish -
I hope Xu Yi can realize his dream soon, and I hope the FLY band can become popular all over Asia soon.
Watching the Ferris wheel begin to descend little by little, I felt depressed again. Will my date with Xu Yi end when the Ferris wheel reaches the ground? Just like Cinderella at twelve o'clock, will everything return to the way it was before?
Just when I was thinking about what excuse I should make to get Xu Yi to stay with me for a while longer, Xu Yi's gentle voice rang in my ears: "Xia, how about we sit here and watch the stars and wait for tomorrow's sunrise?"
"Ah? Okay!" I answered Xu Yi happily. Now I just want to stay with Xu Yi and don't want anything else.
There are so many stars tonight, stars like gems, densely filling the boundless night sky.
In the small space, only the sounds of Xu Yi and I breathing rose and fell. As long as I was with him, even if we didn't say anything, I felt that the whole space was filled with happiness.
Feeling the warmth emanating from Xu Yi, listening to Xu Yi's voice, and looking at Xu Yi's smile, I raised the corners of my mouth, slowly closed my eyes, and then slowly fell asleep...
"Xu Yi...Xu Yi you..."
I reached out to pull Xu Yi, but after groping for a long time, I couldn't touch anything. I reluctantly opened my eyes and looked at everything in front of me, and consciousness gradually returned...
Still at the amusement park, still inside the Ferris wheel, rain kept falling from the sky outside the window.
Xu Yi! Where is Xu Yi?
I quickly turned around, but there was no one around me, no sign of Xu Yi. On the place where Xu Yi sat yesterday, there was a letter and a beautifully wrapped box.
I suppressed the huge sadness in my heart and opened the box. Inside was actually the limited edition cherry pendant - "Heart of Venus"!
Xu Yi actually gave me the real "Heart of Venus"!
I bit my lips tightly, tears kept falling, and my hands began to tremble unconsciously. I slowly opened the letter next to me, and Xu Yi's familiar handwriting immediately appeared in front of me -

Sia:
When you wake up, I should be on the plane. I'm sorry I left without saying goodbye to you. I will work hard to realize my dream and won't let Xia down! Xia must take good care of herself in the future and must live a happy life!

Tears poured out and fell on the letter paper, soon wetting a large area of ​​it.
The sob that was choking in the throat suddenly burst out.
Xu Yi is gone...
Xu Yi is really gone! Xu Yi is really gone! Xu Yi is really gone!
“Wuwuwu…” The sadness that had been suppressed for so long burst out, and I couldn’t utter a word. I just kept crying loudly…
The empty space in my heart can never be filled again.
The rain outside was getting heavier and heavier, hitting the glass heavily, and the world was completely swallowed up by the rain.
What about sunrise?
Where is our sunrise?
Why is there no sun today?
Why can't I see the sunrise today?
Why is Xu Yi not around today?
I rushed out of the Ferris wheel holding the gift and the letter. The rain hit my skin fiercely, causing a sharp pain. But I didn't feel it at all. I ran forward aimlessly, tears still flowing.
My clothes were quickly soaked by the rain, and my shoes were also filled with rain water. My whole body was wet, but all I did was hold tightly onto the things Xu Yi left for me to prevent them from getting wet by the rain.
At this moment, I was overwhelmed by great sadness. I couldn’t see or hear anything. Only my heart kept repeating:
Why is there no sunrise, why is there no Xu Yi!
Why!

Monday, July 9th Cloudy
People are always obsessed with many things in their lives.
For example, liking someone obsessively.
I love Xu Yi persistently.
But Cheye still likes me persistently.
I have no regrets about my persistence.
But Cheye’s persistence made me feel full of guilt.
I pray to God sincerely,
I hope Yuan Cheye will be happier than me in the future.

“So thirsty!”
“It’s so hot!”
I slowly opened my eyes and was about to get up from the bed, but my hands suddenly dropped down uncontrollably and my whole body felt heavy, like a sponge soaked in water.
Yesterday's scene reappeared in my mind. Yesterday I was like Cinderella, but when the time came, I was immediately turned back to my original form...
“Bang, bang, bang—”
"Who is it?" I asked, looking at the door, my throat feeling as if it was burned by fire.
“Bang, bang, bang—”
The knocks on the door continued, and became more urgent.
I forced myself to get out of bed slowly, despite my exhausted body, and walked to the door.
I opened the door and a dazzling golden color appeared in my sight: "Are you a snail?"
"Cheye, I'm sorry, I...kakaka..."
When Cheye heard my violent cough, his voice instantly became softer: "Xia, what's wrong with you?"
"It's okay, just feeling a little uncomfortable." I smiled weakly at Cheye.
"Uncomfortable?" Cheye quickly put his hand on my forehead, "What's going on? It's so hot!"
I looked up, but before I could say anything, a strong dizziness made my eyes go black...
I don’t know if it was because this time the illness spread from the heart to the body, but when I woke up in the hospital it was already two days later.
I slowly opened my eyes and saw Cheye sleeping quietly beside my bed. He looked very tired, and even in his sleep he had a frown on his face, as if he was worried about something.
I lowered my head and gently stroked the cherry pendant hanging on my chest.
Xu Yi, what are you doing now? Are you sleeping or practicing very hard?
Although you have left, I always feel that you might appear in the next second, with a bright smile, and gently call "Xia".
I took a deep breath and held back the tears that were about to burst out of my eyes.
"You finally woke up?" The nurse came in from outside the door. "Hehe, is this your boyfriend?"
I tried to put on a smile and shook my head.
"Isn't he your boyfriend?" The nurse asked in surprise, "He has been guarding your bed for two whole days without leaving!"
Huh? You didn't leave for two whole days?
No wonder he looked so tired.
At this moment, Cheye woke up.
Seeing that I woke up, his frown immediately relaxed, and then he looked at me with a smile: "Xia, Xia, are you awake? Are you hungry? What do you want to eat? I'll buy you some porridge and chestnut cake, okay?"
"Cheye...you..." I really wanted to say something, but in the end I didn't say it.
Looking at Cheye running around for me, I felt so warm in my heart, as if a warm current was slowly flowing through my whole body.
During the time I was in the hospital, Cheye stayed with me every day and bought me a lot of delicious and fun things.
Every morning when I open my eyes, the first person I see is Cheye; every night before I close my eyes, the last person I see is also Cheye. His unique gentleness has gradually integrated into my entire life.
It seemed as if everything was back on track, and every day was peaceful and happy.
But only I know that there is a hole in my heart that can never be filled.
Every time I am alone, Xu Yi's face always appears in my mind, and then my heart starts to ache inexplicably...
It took me a full week in the hospital to fully recover.
Today is the day I am discharged from the hospital.
Early in the morning, I lay in bed, looking at the sunlight coming in from the window, and countless memories suddenly flooded into my heart.
The first time I met Cheye was in the hospital...
It was in the hospital that I accompanied Xu Yi through the most difficult days...
It seems like I will never be able to break away from the hospital.
"Idiot, what are you thinking about?" Che Ye's voice suddenly came from the door.
I turned around and saw Che Ye walking into the house against the sunshine. His golden hair shone brightly in the sun, the smile on his face was as bright as the sunshine, and he was holding a beautiful bag in his hand.
"I'm not thinking about anything." I curled my lips and looked at Cheye who walked in front of me. "What is this? Haha, is there something delicious again?"
"Stupid Ye Xiya, what else can you do besides eating?" Cheye ruffled my hair, "Can't you be a little creative?"
Well?
The corners of my mouth twitched, and then I pouted in dissatisfaction: "Is it wrong to like eating?"
While Cheye wasn't paying attention, I snatched the bag from him: "Haha, let me see what's in it."
This, what is this?
The corners of my mouth twitched unconsciously again.
There was actually a colorful caterpillar doll in the bag...
What! This guy Cheye must be trying to mock me as an ugly caterpillar again.
"Is this your gift?" I looked at Cheye, and his smiling face looked really annoying in my eyes.
"Idiot, didn't you see there was a box inside?" Cheye took the opportunity to knock on my head.
After Cheye said that, I realized there was actually a small box in the bag.
I opened the box, and saw a butterfly hairpin lying quietly on the black velvet. The butterfly's wings were inlaid with many beautiful crystals, which emitted bright light in the sun, as if it was about to fly up at the next moment.
Suddenly, a picture flashed through my mind for no reason...
"Ye Xiya! Have you scolded enough?"
"Ah? Cheye? Why, why is it you?"
"What? It can't be me?"
"I...didn't..."
"Ye Xiya, is it your hobby to say bad things about people behind their backs?"
"Ye Xiya, do you know how many times a caterpillar has to endure others' ridicule and disgust before it turns into a butterfly? But when the caterpillar turns into a butterfly, everyone will love it!"
"Che Ye..."
"If you cry over such trivial matters, I will look down on you!"
“Pah—”
A tear fell on the delicate butterfly hairpin. So this was the meaning of Cheye's gift...
"Stupid, why are you crying?" Cheye gently wiped away the tears on my face, and the warmth of his fingertips spread to my heart, "Look, the caterpillar has turned into a butterfly. Ye Xiya, the caterpillar, has also become as beautiful as this butterfly!"
"Che Ye..."
I opened my mouth to reveal the brightest smile, and at the same time, tears flowed down my face.
"Okay, don't cry, you should be discharged from the hospital happily!" Che Ye reached out and patted my back gently, his voice so gentle that it seemed to melt me.
In Cheye’s tenderness, my tears slowly stopped and my heart calmed down.
Thank God for sending Cheye to me. I am really glad to know Cheye.
But for his efforts, I can only say sorry.
Even though Xu Yi is gone, my love for him will always exist and I will never give it up.
I believe that one day Cheye will meet a girl who likes him and whom he also likes, and then they will live a very happy life.
"Cheye, thank you." I lowered my head, not daring to look into his tender eyes, and thanked him in a low voice.
A breeze blew by, the scent of roses filled the air, and the butterfly's wings emitted a bright light.
The breeze, carrying the scent of flowers, blew a sentence into my ears——
"Xia, I said I would definitely stay by your side and protect you..."