Chapter 106: Understanding Your Heart (3)
Han Ji seemed to know very well what Zhou Yan was thinking. His hesitation made her happy, but that didn't mean she would be happy if he nodded after hesitation, because for her, nothing was more unbearable than making Zhou Yan embarrassed. After she fell in love with Zhou Yan, this became her only concern.
Suddenly, Han Ji stood up, looking at a loss. First, she didn't want to upset Zhou Yan because of this matter, and second, she was really embarrassed and didn't know how to choose. But she still had to choose, so Han Ji adjusted her mood as quickly as possible and said with a forced smile: "I know what to do, so your Majesty doesn't need to worry about this matter. Because I have to deal with this matter, please allow me to leave first."
Having said that, Han Ji turned and left. It was not difficult to tell Han Ji's mood change just from the change in address and the movement after the words fell. Han Ji, who was usually generous and decent, would definitely not do such a rude behavior.
Han Ji, who had just stepped out of the pavilion, burst into tears silently. Her steps were so rapid that she almost ran. Her tears blurred her vision. She raised her hand to wipe them away, but she couldn't stop them. It was just like her mood at the moment. Han Ji didn't blame Zhou Yan for anything. She just couldn't adjust quickly because of the sudden change. She hated her father, but in a sense, she was also grateful to her father, because that's why she fell in love with Zhou Yan, even if it was an unrequited love...
The tears kept flowing, and Han Ji no longer knew what she was thinking. No matter how she wiped them away , the tears still did not stop.
As she was running, Han Ji's hand was grabbed from behind. When she turned back, she was greeted by that familiar face...
Once again, this time when he came back, he saw the tears of two people, the tears of the two people he least wanted to see, which brought him an unprecedented shock, even as cold-blooded as he was, he could not help being moved; the moment Zhou Yan saw Han Ji's tears, he was completely stunned, because Han Ji's tears shocked him more than Zhou Xinxin's, even Zhou Yan himself didn't know that Han Ji, whom he always thought was strong, was now in tears, so much so that he lost the ability to speak.
For a long time, the two of them just stared at each other, Han Ji couldn't stop crying and Zhou Yan stared blankly, but Zhou Yan quickly adjusted his mentality and broke the silence...
"you--"
Zhou Yan's voice seemed to penetrate into her soul. Han Ji suddenly woke up and wanted to break free from Zhou Yan's grip, because she didn't want Zhou Yan to see her vulnerable side. However, her struggle was ineffective, as Zhou Yan's strength was so strong that she couldn't feel any pain...
"Please let go——"
Her voice was a little hoarse and weak due to crying. Han Ji tried her best to use her other hand to pry open Zhou Yan's restraints, but she was powerless. She didn't know if it was because she was too sad or if she didn't want to break free subconsciously. Whatever the reason, Zhou Yan's restraints broke somewhere in Han Ji's heart.
Zhou Yan just stared blankly at Han Ji, who was in tears and looked so fragile, and listened to her weak and helpless voice, and he couldn't say a word; Han Ji naturally didn't know what Zhou Yan was thinking, she only thought about how to escape, because Zhou Yan's inexplicable gaze made her heart ache.
"Please, please let me go, let me go--"
It was a cry from the depths of her soul, but Zhou Yan didn't know what it meant. He just looked at Han Ji, a person who was familiar and strange to him. He couldn't help wondering if the person crying like a tearful person in front of him was the Han Ji he knew? In his memory, Han Ji was gentle, skillful, generous and decent, and more importantly, strong... strong? At least in Zhou Yan's eyes, Han Ji was really strong, but did he really understand her? Until he saw Han Ji in front of him at this moment, Zhou Yan realized that he seemed to have never understood whether Han Ji was really strong.
Thinking of this, Zhou Yan suddenly grabbed Han Ji's hand and exerted a little force, and Han Ji was pulled into his arms. This time it was Han Ji who was stunned, her sobbing stopped, her expression froze, her eyes opened woodenly and casually, she forgot to think, struggle, or resist.
"If you want to go back, I will go back with you."
Holding Han Ji in his arms, Zhou Yan spoke to Han Ji in a tone he had never used before, and spoke without thinking. Han Ji was stunned when she heard this. She couldn't help but wonder if she was hallucinating or just dreaming? If she spoke, would she wake up from the dream?
Zhou Yan was quite surprised when he said this, but what surprised him even more was that he didn't regret it at all when he found out, nor did he want to take it back. He just hugged Han Ji and gradually calmed his heart. Whether it was Zhou Xinxin or Han Ji, Zhou Yan didn't know what attitude he should use to face them, and whether he would feel the same when facing their tears. The only thing that could be confirmed was that he didn't want to see their tears no matter what the reason was.
Two tears, two tears from people he cared about, made Zhou Yan wake up completely and realize that he had never paid attention to them; for two people whom he did not want to be hurt at all, Zhou Yan was shocked to find that he knew too little about them, and paid so little attention and care to them that he did not even know how much; but if it was Yin Yin, he could answer even the smallest questions, and could recite even the most trivial things by heart.
