After returning to school, I stayed there for a week, learned how to make some of Lin Xiaolun’s favorite dim sum from the dim sum chef, and then went to the hospital again.
No matter whether Lin Xiaolun sees me or not, I want to see him anyway.
I walked straight into Lin Xiaolun's ward, but Lin Xiaolun was not in the ward at that time.
I waited in the ward for an hour, and suddenly I heard voices coming from the corridor outside.
I walked to the door and looked out. Lin Xiaolun was sitting in a wheelchair, looking up and talking to Ding Chuchu behind him.
I stood quietly.
Ding Chuchu stopped pushing the wheelchair when she saw me. Lin Xiaolun looked up, and his pupils shrank when he saw me.
I opened my mouth, showing a bright smile, and said, "Lin Xiaolun, long time no see."
Lin Xiaolun looked at me blankly, with veins bulging on the back of his hands gripping the armrest of the wheelchair.
I walked over, lowered my head and smiled: "I've been waiting for you for a long time. Did you go out to play just now? Chuchu, let me push it." As I said that, I reached out to grab the wheelchair handle.
"Chu Chu." Lin Xiaolun's voice was extremely intimidating. Ding Chuchu was startled and my heart was pounding with nervousness.
"Push me in." Lin Xiaolun said.
As if she had received an order, Ding Chuchu pushed Lin Xiaolun past me and walked into the ward. I followed him in unwillingly, watching Ding Chuchu carefully help Lin Xiaolun onto the bed.
I walked to the bed, took out some snacks, and said, "Xiao Lun, this is the snack I learned to make. I told the snack chef about your physical condition, and he said you can eat this. It tastes good and can make you feel better."
I put the snack in my hand to Lin Xiaolun 's mouth, but Lin Xiaolun didn't even look at me and said coldly: "If you didn't show up, I would be in a good mood."
Hearing this, I held back the pain in my heart and said with a forced smile: "Try it, and I'll leave right away."
Lin Xiaolun pushed my hand away impatiently: "Don't you understand what I'm saying?"
When he pushed me like that, the snack in my hand fell to the ground.
I bent down to pick it up, blew on it, and said softly, "Little Wheel, be gentle, it will hurt too."
There is something behind my words. Lin Xiaolun is so smart, how could he not understand it?
I put the snacks back into the box and said with a smile, "I put the snacks here. Chuchu, you feed Xiaolun a little. I have classes in the afternoon, so I'll leave first and come to see you in the evening."
After saying that, I walked straight out of the ward.
It wasn't until I walked out of the hospital that I dared to cry and show my vulnerability.
It doesn’t matter, I can endure everything as long as I can see him, I comforted myself in my heart.
As soon as the afternoon class was over, I rushed to the hospital without even having dinner. Although I had encouraged myself, I still felt a pang in my heart when I saw that none of the snacks in the snack box were missing.
Guo Lu and Ding Chuchu were both there, and I was standing in the ward, feeling like a joke.
"What are you doing here again?" Lin Xiaolun asked me indifferently.
"It's up to you," I answered honestly.
"I don't need you to come and see me." Lin Xiaolun turned his head said.
I sat down on the stool next to me and said carefully, "I'll come and see you before you leave."
Lin Xiaolun was so angry that he sat up from the bed, pointed at me and yelled, "Why can't you understand what I'm saying? I told you I don't need you to come see me, what do you mean by staying here all the time?"
I bit my lip and said nothing, just looking at him.
Lin Xiaolun continued, "You are like a piece of sticky candy. Are you annoyed?"
I suddenly stood up from the stool, rushed to Lin Xiaolun, looked down at him, and said loudly: "What are you yelling about? Why are you pointing at me? What's wrong with me being here? You don't like me staying here, right? You want to marry Ding Chuchu, right? Fine, get well, get well, and I will roll away immediately, as swiftly as an ostrich egg. Everyone knows , why are you pretending? Lin Xiaolun, if you want me to leave so much, I might as well jump off here. If I die, won't I be away from you?"
Lin Xiaolun was so angry that his whole body was shaking and his chest was heaving violently.
Aunt Tang hurried forward to comfort him, asking him not to get excited, and begged me: "Le Le, please stop talking."
Although I was worried, I continued to say, "Lin Xiaolun, I won't leave. Let's see what you can do to me. If you have the guts, jump up and hit me." After saying that, I sat back on the stool, crossed my legs, folded my arms across my chest, and looked to the other side stubbornly.
Lin Xiaolun closed his eyes and called for help: "Mom, let her out."
"I'm not leaving." I answered firmly without waiting for Aunt Tang to answer him.
Lin Xiaolun couldn't do anything to me, so he could only lie on the bed in frustration, covering himself tightly with a quilt.
Very good, this is exactly the effect I want.
Lin Xiaolun fell asleep, Aunt Tang and Ding Chuchu also went back to their rented house to rest. Guo Lu asked me if I wanted to go back, but I refused.
I closed the door, moved the stool to the bedside, and looked at Lin Xiaolun who was sleeping soundly. He had thick eyelashes and a peaceful face, just like an ordinary person, without any signs of illness.
I couldn't help but get close to Lin Xiaolun and whispered, "Xiaolun, I really hope that I'm the one who's sick. If I were sick, I would definitely want you to accompany me, instead of just wanting to drive me away like you do. Aren't you tired?"
Lin Xiaolun was sleeping soundly and had no way of answering me.
I laughed in my heart, then stood up, slowly leaned down, and gently pressed my lips against Lin Xiaolun's lips.
It's so cold... If his chest been still rising and falling slightly, I would have thought the person under my lips was a cold corpse.
"Good night." I whispered in his ear and then lay down on the edge of the bed.
I was so tired that I fell asleep quickly. In a daze, I felt Lin Xiaolun's hand reaching out from under the quilt and slowly placing it on my head.
The faint footsteps outside the door were getting farther and farther away.
Lin Xiaolun gradually accepted me. At least he no longer looked at me in a bad light or chased me away at every turn.
In fact, I knew I would not lose this battle, but what I didn't expect was that Ding Chuchu would give up on her own initiative.
I hurriedly hailed a taxi and rushed to the airport. Ding Chuchu was standing far away with a suitcase, like an angel fallen into earth.
She was dressed appropriately today, without any makeup on, but she looked particularly comfortable.
Ding Chuchu opened her arms and said with a smile, "Can I have a hug?"
I didn't understand why, but I went up anyway. Ding Chuchu hugged me gently and whispered in my ear, "You win."
Just be honest and be sincere.
I looked at her in surprise, and she smiled helplessly: "I made up all this talk about marriage, just to make you give up."
I looked at her silently. Sometimes I don’t know what to say and silence is best.
Ding Chuchu continued, "Although Lin Xiaolun asked you to leave, he still couldn't bear to let you go. Last night when you fell asleep, Lin Xiaolun reached out and gently rubbed your hair. I'm afraid I can't buy that kind of tenderness and doting in my lifetime."
"So you have given up on him now and are planning to return home?" I asked her.
"Yeah." Ding Chuchu nodded, and said with a sense of relief, "Think about it, I'm still so young, I can't just cling to a tree that already has an owner, right? I want to regain my interests , my confidence, my self-esteem, and my life."
I spread my hands and said sincerely, "I wish you the best."
Ding Chuchu shrugged and asked with a smile: "Are we still friends?"
I thought about it and deliberately kept it a secret: "If you need me, I can still consider flying to you."
Ding Chuchu laughed out loud, and even cried. She hugged me again, choking up and saying, "Take care of yourself. Next time we meet, I hope you and Lin Xiaolun will appear together."
People say that separation and death can make people forgive each other, and it seems to be true. I obviously don’t want to cry.
I secretly wiped away my tears and said with a smile: "Okay, just wait."
Ding Chuchu patted my shoulder, turned around and left, dragging her suitcase. She left freely and resolutely.
I don't know how long it took me to come back to my senses. I stepped back several dozen steps outside the airport and looked up at the plane that had just taken off to Beijing.
Goodbye, Ding Chuchu.
One day in the future, I will walk up to you with a healthy Lin Xiaolun and introduce her to others, saying, this is my best friend, her name is Ding Chuchu.
I retreated into my own world, blocking out the people and things that had gone away.
Apart from classes, I would spend the rest of my time in Lin Xiaolun's ward, bringing him new and interesting things every day. He went from being indifferent to slowly turning his eyes to glance in my direction.
The look in his eyes, as if he was looking at a childish kid, was very similar to when he was healthy and happy.
Lin Xiaolun was lying on the bed and asked, "Qin Lele, are you bored?"
When I heard Lin Xiaolun calling my name, I excitedly jumped in front of him and asked, "What did you call me just now? Call me again?"
Lin Xiaolun blushed and looked away: "Nothing."
"I just called me Qin Lele, why are you pretending?" I said dissatisfiedly.
Lin Xiaolun muttered, "You heard it and you're still asking."
I leaned over and asked softly, "You're not going to chase me away? Are you willing to talk to me? You won't lose your temper easily, right?"
Lin Xiaolun was too embarrassed to answer, so he turned sideways, closed his eyes, and said, "I don't want to bother with you."
"Then I'll take care of you." I sat next to Lin Xiaolun, and regardless of whether he was willing or not, I leaned on him and hugged him gently.
Thank you for not rejecting me anymore, Lin Xiaolun.
After I dealt with Lin Xiaolun's issue, my mood improved.
In my second year at the University of Southern California , I received a high scholarship. I kept part for myself, sent part to my parents, and used the rest for Lin Xiaolun’s medical expenses.
I brought Lin Xiaolun a delicious nourishing soup, which was an authentic soup that I spent a whole month learning how to make in the school cafeteria.
Lin Xiaolun leaned on the bed, sipped the soup mouthful by mouthful, nodded and praised: "Not bad."
I was very happy and couldn't help but raise my eyebrows and said, "That's right, now I can handle affairs of state, cook in the kitchen, catch cockroaches, and fight hooligans."
"You feel so proud when I praise you." Lin Xiaolun rolled his eyes at me.
I snorted in dissatisfaction and continued to cut the branches in the vase.
"Snapped!"
Suddenly, there was the sound of a porcelain bowl falling to the ground behind me.
I turned around and saw Lin Xiaolun holding his chest with one hand, curled up on the bed in pain.
"Lin Xiaolun!" I was so scared that I rushed over, holding Lin Xiaolun with one hand and pressing the bed bell with the other hand.
The doctor and nurse rushed over, checked Lin Xiaolun's body, and said, "Quick, go to the emergency room."
I was so panicked that I couldn't help at all. I could only follow the nurse to push the bed and cheer Lin Xiaolun on.
You only go to the emergency room if the situation is critical.
I held the doctor's hand and asked repeatedly, "What happened to Lin Xiaolun? Is the situation serious?"
The nurse pulled me away and told me not to disturb the doctor's work.
I could only stand outside the door and wait anxiously.
Aunt Tang and Guo Lu rushed over after hearing the news.
Aunt Tang leaned against the door, crying and asking God to bless Lin Xiaolun. Guo Lu comforted her, feeling equally anxious.
I don’t know how long it was before the doctor finally came out of the emergency room.
"How is it? Doctor, how is my son?" Aunt Tang rushed over, grabbed the doctor's clothes and asked crying.
The doctor said: "The patient has been saved, but his condition has worsened. If we can't find a suitable heart for transplant, I'm afraid he won't live for more than a month."
What……
I felt like I was struck by a bolt from the blue. Aunt Tang had fainted. She wouldn't live for more than a month? She was fine just now, how could she suddenly not live for more than a month...
When Lin Xiaolun was pushed out of the emergency room, his face was as pale as a piece of white paper.
The doctor said: "He needs to rely on an oxygen mask to maintain his life for the time being. Please think of a solution as soon as possible."
I was at a loss. How could we find a solution? This was not bone marrow, not blood, but a heart. Everyone has only one heart. How could we find a solution?
Because of this incident, I have not been to class for several days. The teacher at school knew about this and called on all the teachers and students to donate money for me.
But donations would not be of any use, what Lin Xiaolun needed was a heart.
After a few days, I was exhausted.
When I was dozing off in the dormitory, Guo Lu suddenly called me.
"Hello?" I rubbed my eyebrows and answered the phone in a daze.
Guo Lu's voice was a little nervous and anxious, like a bomb exploding in my mind. He said, "Le Le, please come to the hospital quickly. Xiao Lun seems to be dying..."
I woke up suddenly and ran to the hospital in a hurry without even having time to put on my shoes.
What does "no more" mean? Lin Xiaolun, you have to hold on for me! Hold on so that I can come to you, hold on to find the right heart. We have finally come this far. Lin Xiaolun , you can't just abandon me like this, you can't...
I couldn't help but let my mind wander, and my feet felt a burning and stinging sensation as they stepped on the asphalt road.
I felt like the whole world was sinking into the deep sea. People covered by the sea water had difficulty breathing, their calls for help were in vain, they struggled and waited for death, unable to do anything.
The red light on the road was flashing, and I was so anxious that I rushed straight ahead without paying attention to the passing vehicles.
Suddenly, there was a loud bang.
I was suddenly thrown up heavily, and I saw many frightened faces and frightened eyes around me. They opened their mouths wide, and I couldn’t hear clearly what they were saying.
What's wrong? Am I going to meet Lin Xiaolun? Why are you all looking at me...
My body suddenly became very light, the vehicles beneath me were squeezed together, and the sounds of various horns pierced my eardrums.
My body hit the windshield of a car heavily, leaving a glaring red mark, and then I rolled down the windshield uncontrollably.
I suddenly couldn't move, and the warm liquid was spreading under my body. I almost forgot the pain.
A foreigner's face enlarged in front of my eyes. I wanted to look up and speak, but no sound came out and a lot of blood flowed out of my mouth.
I slowly raised my hand and grabbed his clothes, and with my other hand, which was stained with blood , I covered my chest.
The man lowered his head. I found his ear and squeezed out a voice with difficulty: "Sinai Hospital...my...my heart, give...to him..."
Just send me to Sinai Hospital where Lin Xiaolun is, right? They will understand, right?
My head feels so heavy, my eyelids feel so heavy, I just want to fall asleep .
An arm wrapped around my shoulders, and I leaned comfortably in his arms, slowly losing all consciousness.