When I woke up, the sun was shining brightly, and the bright sunlight shone through the glass window onto my face, making me dizzy . I propped myself up and looked for the figure who had always been by my side but whom I had missed countless times in the snow-white ward. However, I only saw Ai Xi, who looked nervous.
I didn't dare to ask Ai Xi how Gu Xi was doing.
I didn't even dare to mention Gu Xi's name. I was afraid that I would hear something from Ai Xi that would break me to pieces.
I just stared at Ai Xi, feeling scared and nervous. The heart rate reading on the heart monitor next to me kept rising, and my chest felt as if a huge weight was pressing on it, causing a dull pain.
Aixi grabbed my hand and rang the bell to call the doctor while anxiously saying, "Sister, sister, listen to me, Gu Xi is fine. His mother has taken him back to Italy to recuperate. I believe he will be able to come back to see you soon. Sister, do n't worry."
I knew Ai Xi would never lie to me, but I still held his hand tightly and stared into his eyes without blinking, to confirm: "You are not lying to me?"
Perhaps because I pinched him, Aisi was stunned, but he immediately nodded, nodded again, and then said: "Yes, sister, I didn't lie to you."
I finally felt relieved, and hot liquid flowed down from the corners of my eyes. It was not for myself who did not recognize Gu Xi, but for Gu Xi who had already recognized me but had been hiding it from me.
The doctor said that I fainted this time because of a heart problem, and I needed to be hospitalized for observation for a period of time, and I couldn't have big mood swings in the future, otherwise my life would be in danger. I didn't worry about these things. I took medicine and injections on time every day, and tried not to think about sad or happy things, because I wanted to get better quickly, be discharged quickly, and then go to find Gu Xi.
I sent a private message to Gu Xi on Weibo. I had so many words to say, but I didn't know where to start. I knew how much my obsession with Jian Chen had hurt him. I also knew that he would look at me with a smile like he did before and say, "Banxia, ​​it's okay."
However, it is precisely because I know that he will forgive me without any bottom line that I am so sad that I don’t know where to start.
After thinking for a long time, I finally sent her a message: "Gu Xi, I'm sorry, can I go to Italy to find you this time?"
Last time, he traveled across mountains and rivers to find me, this time, it’s my turn to travel across the ocean to see him.
I owe him this.
Soon, I received a reply from Gu Xi.
He said, "Banxia, ​​do you remember that we parted in September ten years ago? In September ten years from now, I will be waiting for you in Italy."
He was as considerate as ever and didn't mention the fact that I didn't recognize him, so I didn't say anything either.
Many things can only be said with sincerity when they are said face to face. Fortunately, God is kind and gave me such an opportunity to explain to him face to face and tell him in person who the person I like is.
I was discharged from the hospital a month later, and then there was a two-month vacation, and then it was September that I was looking forward to. Time did not become longer because of my day and night anticipation. On the contrary, it seemed that I just blinked happily, and the calendar had turned to September. I know that time did not speed up because of my prayers, but because two months is so short compared to ten years that it is not worth mentioning.
Without notifying Gu Xi, I couldn't wait to embark on my journey to Italy on the first day of September.
It was nine o'clock the next morning when we arrived at Gu Xi's villa. The nanny told me that Gu Xi would be back soon after a follow-up visit at the hospital. I refused to listen to the nanny and went upstairs to sleep. I stubbornly curled up on the sofa waiting for Gu Xi, but the nasty jet lag made me drowsy and I soon fell asleep.
A dreamless sleep.
It was dusk when I woke up. I was so confused that I didn't know whether it was real or an illusion. The sky outside the window was so blue that it broke my heart. The white clouds gradually drifted away. The sun shone in from the French windows. The boy in front of me, who was holding my hands tightly, had a handsome face. His slender eyes that looked at me without blinking were full of warmth and smiles. I knew who he was.
I held my breath and stared at his face, blinking once, and then again, but he didn't disappear, so I was sure that he was not an illusion in my dream. But I still didn't dare to call him, afraid that a small move of mine would easily disturb such a rare and peaceful moment.
The boy named Gu Xi and I have missed too much, but fortunately, it is not too late and everything is still in time.
I called him repeatedly in a very soft voice: "Gu Xi, Gu Xi..."
"I'm here." He quickly held my hand tightly, his brows relaxed, and he smiled gently.
I smiled silently, thinking, God really loves me so much, giving me the chance to see him again; giving me the chance to see his warm smile; giving me the chance to make up for all the mistakes I have made; giving me the chance to tell him that I like him.
very nice.
I held his hand, sat up from the sofa, and was eager to tell him everything. I said, "I'm sorry! Gu Xi, can you forgive me? How could I not recognize you? Actually... Actually, the person I like is..."
"It's okay, Banxia, ​​you're here now." Gu Xi interrupted me softly and without question, "Even if you never recognize me, what does it matter? It's good enough that I recognize you. Banxia, ​​I understand, I understand everything, so let's not talk about the past, okay? Let's just treat today as the first time we meet in ten years, okay?"
He is still and has always been the Gu Xi who would say it doesn't matter what I do. He has always been the Gu Xi who would rather suffer himself than put me in any difficult position.
I forced my tears back into my eyes, smiled and nodded continuously. It was not until this time that I realized that Gu Xi was sitting in a wheelchair, with half of his left trouser leg floating empty in front of the wheelchair.
I thought of what the nanny said about going for a follow-up visit, and my tears almost fell again. I reached out and touched his leg: "Your leg..."
"Don't worry, it's just a routine check." As if he was stung by a bee, he suddenly turned his wheelchair to avoid my hand, then turned his head and smiled to change the subject, "Banxia, ​​have I ever told you that I have always wanted to do three things with you?"
When he said this, the golden sunset was shining through the window onto his thick eyelashes. His eyes blinked at me, and his long eyelashes looked like gilded angel wings. It reminded me of a few months ago, when he looked at me like this on a short trip with only him and me, and said, "My last wish in this life is to do three things with her." Isn't that greedy? He asked for three things at once.
At that time, he only told me one of the things; at that time, I didn't know that the "she" he mentioned was actually me. Fortunately, now I know what the other two things are. I immediately nodded solemnly: "Gu Xi, no matter what it is, I will do it." Yes, even if it is heaven or hell, as long as it is what he wants me to do, I won't even frown.
Maybe it was because I looked too silly with my serious expression, Gu Xi, who had been looking at me quietly, suddenly laughed, but the smile lasted less than two seconds before disappearing on his lips.
"First thing." He turned his wheelchair and walked out. I followed closely behind his wheelchair , ready for him to propose something difficult or romantic and surprising. However, he just led me to the garden in the front yard and pointed out a green plant to me.
I was stunned for a long time before I asked stupidly, "Is the first thing you want to do with me to look at that plant together?"
I looked at him nodding slightly and smiling contentedly, and a tear suddenly fell uncontrollably. I quickly reached out to wipe it away before he saw it.
Can you imagine?
All along, his so-called last wish, his greedy wish, turned out to be just such a simple request, but he regarded such a simple thing as the most extravagant wish. He has always been like this, always giving me too much but asking for too little.
I covered his legs with the white blanket in my hand and sat down on the grass beside him. The sunset was as gorgeous as a richly colored oil painting. Neither Gu Xi nor I spoke. We just watched everything in front of us quietly.
In the evening of late summer and early autumn, the sky was high and far away, and the clouds were so light that they were almost invisible. When the wind blew over, it brought with it a pile of withered flowers. If you look carefully, you can see one or two flowers still blooming among the withered branches and vines, blooming beautifully in the last moment of their lives. All the shrubs have changed into the dazzling golden color that belongs only to autumn, and only the plant that Gu Xi pointed to me is still stubbornly green, with very small silver and golden flowers hidden under the layers of green leaves.
I suddenly understood why Gu Xi brought me to see this plant: "This is... this is the honeysuckle you planted before?"
"Yes!" Gu Xi didn't look back, but I heard his laughter, "This is the only thing I took with me when I left the orphanage."
"Aren't you afraid of the trouble of going through customs when you take a plant abroad?" Although I said disapprovingly, I was actually very touched.
"But I want to know when it first blooms."
"Why?"
"Because you asked me when you left."
The mandarin duck vine bloomed on the seventh day .
I suddenly remembered that time, he was injured so badly, bright red blood kept flowing out from his forehead, and the first and only sentence he said to me after waking up was not "Banxia, ​​I am the one you are looking for", nor "Banxia, ​​the person I like is you", but "The mandarin duck vine bloomed on the seventh day of July", just because I once asked him "When will it bloom".
"Fool." I said, "Gu Xi is such a big fool."
"Yeah, what a fool." Gu Xi looked at me sideways, a smile still lingering on the corner of her mouth, "It's a fool's behavior to cross the ocean just to bring a plant."
He looked as if he was commenting on an insignificant person. I suddenly felt scared, afraid that the person in front of me would become someone else in the next second, afraid that my loss and recovery was just a dream I made up.
I was afraid that he would say something shocking again, so I quickly interrupted him and said, "So, what about the second thing? What is it?"
"You." He turned his wheelchair and reached out to scratch my nose. "You are always so impatient."
I immediately felt relieved. He would not become someone else. He was Gu Xi.
Only my little stone, only Gu Xi, can say to me, you, in such a gentle voice and in such a doting tone.
I laughed "hehe" like a happy fool, and Gu Xi laughed with me.
He said, "Banxia, ​​don't worry, we have plenty of time."
Yes, there is still time for everything. From today on, we have plenty of time, and a lot of futures that belong only to Ai Banxia and Gu Xi.
In the early morning, I woke up to the sound of gurgling rain. Through the glass window blurred by the rain, I could see the dreamy and beautiful scenery outside, which was so beautiful that it didn't seem like the real world.
I suddenly felt inexplicably panicked, jumped out of bed, and ran downstairs barefoot. When I saw Gu Xi sitting in a wheelchair in the hall, reading a book quietly, I was sure that all this was not a dream.
Gu Xi turned around when he heard the voice and saw that it was me. A smile suddenly appeared on his expressionless face a moment ago. Then he stretched out his right hand towards me and said, "The second thing is to dance with me."
I could imagine that his second thing would be just as simple, but I didn't expect that he would make this request when I was disheveled and in my pajamas. I pointed to my pajamas with a cartoon bear pattern and shook my head and laughed. I didn't want to dance the first dance with him in this image.
But he kept stretching his hand toward me, looking at me with a pair of eyes that could speak, and saying, "Come here."
My determination, which was very strong just a moment ago, was immediately defeated. When I walked down the stairs, Gu Xi finally couldn't help laughing at my pajamas.
"Hey, stop laughing at me. Dancing in pajamas is weird. I told you I didn't want to, but you insisted. Now you're laughing at me again."
My face suddenly became hot because of Gu Xi's smile. I turned around and wanted to rush upstairs, but he pulled me back. I heard his low voice behind me, he said: "It's not strange, Banxia, ​​no matter how strange it is, it's not as strange as a person in a wheelchair dancing."
My heart felt like it had been punched hard by someone, and it hurt dully. I said nothing more, turned around and held his hand tightly.
Music started playing, and the melody was so familiar. It was the music for the opening dance of the White Sand Night, "The Blue Danube" by Johann Strauss II. I was a little surprised, not knowing if it was a coincidence or if Gu Xi had some special reason to choose this song. But I couldn't care less. This was the first dance between Gu Xi and me, and I had to concentrate.
What a strange dance combination, I was wearing cartoon pajamas, he was sitting in a wheelchair, but we both showed unprecedented seriousness, although it couldn't be considered a formal dance. We just faced each other, holding hands, moving the wheelchairs and steps slightly with the music, but at this moment, I felt that I was the happiest person in the world. If possible, I hope that this rainy day with a blue sky can last forever...
When the last note ended, Gu Xi suddenly let go of my hand and said, "Do you know why I chose Johann Strauss's The Blue Danube?"
I was stunned, not knowing why Gu Xi asked this.
But he didn't wait for me to ask, and immediately smiled and said, "Because the first dance you and Jian Chen had at the White Sands Night was to this song."
I don't know why, but I felt that the way he tried to smile was very forced. I thought about the things I had said and done to hurt him because of Jian Chen. I didn't understand why he said that, but I was eager to clarify those misunderstandings. I said, "No, Gu Xi, at that time, it was because I thought he was you. At that time, he was just your shadow."
"Is Jian Chen just Gu Xi's shadow?" Gu Xi repeated in a daze. He stared at me for five full seconds, then he looked at me at a loss, showing a shockingly bright smile that I had never seen on his face, and said, "Banxia, ​​it doesn't matter Just like you said, Jian Chen is just Gu Xi's shadow. I know everything."
I let out a long sigh.
As if eager to change the subject, Gu Xi immediately said: "Banxia, ​​now, let's do the third thing."
It was also such a fresh morning, and such a drizzling and foggy weather, and he and I were on a journey. For me, he pretended to be Jian Chen without complaint. At that time, he must have been very sad, but he smiled and said to me as if nothing had happened, "My last wish in this life is to do three things with her." At that time, he only asked me to pretend to be that "her" and accompany him to do one of the things.
If, among those three things, the first one was to accompany him to see the mandarin duck vine, and the second one was to dance with him, then the third one must be the thing that I had not finished doing with him.
But I didn't want to remind him that we had already done half of the third thing, because at that time I was still "in love" with Jian Chen and pretending to be Ai Banxia, ​​the one in Gu Xi's heart. And now, I want to do this again with him as Ai Banxia who likes Gu Xi, because this is the wish of Gu Xi who likes Ai Banxia.
I waited patiently for Gu Xi to announce what the third thing was, and sure enough he said, "The third thing is that the girl I like wears her favorite clothes and curls up on the sofa with me, watching her favorite cartoons."
Like a magic trick, he handed me a cornflower blue dress and tilted his head to ask, "So, Banxia, ​​what's your favorite cartoon?"
The past is like an old disc that I quickly rewound and fast-forwarded, and then suddenly got stuck somewhere and couldn't move. I knew something must be wrong, but my brain instinctively rejected such questioning and exploration. I just mechanically gave the same answer as last time: "We still don't know the name of the flower we saw that summer."
"Wow, such a long name? But it sounds like it's good-looking." Gu Xi's expression was exactly like the first time she heard the name of this cartoon.
"Yeah." I nodded like a puppet. Things shouldn't be like this. Last time, I told him that my favorite dress was actually pearl white, and he had watched half of the movie "We Still Don't Know the Name of the Flower We Saw That Summer" with me. Why did he prepare a cornflower blue dress for me? Why did he act like he was hearing the name of that cartoon for the first time?
Just when the doubts in my heart were about to reach their peak, I thought of a possibility. Maybe, he wanted to do this with me again just like I did, so he discarded all memories of the last time he did this.
Yes, that must be the case.