Chapter 10 Or I will replace him and make you forget the pain 1
Time can sometimes really torture people. I have been here for a while, and Nuo rarely speaks. He only replies when I speak, let alone taking me out.
I took a nap and when I woke up I found Nuo was not in the room. Where did he go? Did he go out without calling me?
I got out of bed and walked out slowly. Why did I feel like a thief?
Actually, I mainly wanted to see what Nuo would do when I was not around. Is he really just sleeping every day?
I opened the door; the yard was empty and a chilly wind was blowing.
In addition to the fire in this room, there was another house nearby with a dim fire. I walked slowly towards that place.
Although I opened the door very gently, it still caught Nuo's attention. He immediately stood up and looked at me warily. I smiled a little guiltily.
"What are you doing?" My eyes shifted to the thing behind Nuo. The red color was a bit dazzling. Was it clothes? So beautiful...
It looks a bit like the clothes An Lengxi is wearing, but a little different. Is this for girls to wear?
Although the white dress I wore from heaven made me feel pure and flawless, untainted by the mundane world, it seemed to be missing something compared to the dress behind Nuo.
"So beautiful, who does this belong to? Is it the person Nuo likes?" I looked at him and asked with some confusion.
I think so, otherwise he wouldn't have been staring at it.
"I don't know, I was already looking when I came to my senses!" Nuo said confusedly as he looked at the clothes hanging on the rack behind him.
How come he knows nothing about anything?
"Nuo, could it be that you lost your memory?"
I have some doubts about this answer. I just think Nuo seems a little confused and doesn't even know what he is doing. The only possibility is that he has lost his memory.
"Memory? My memory is that I lived here for a long time..."
"What?" I don't understand. What kind of memory is this?
"Do you like it?" Nuo suddenly asked nonsensically.
"This..." He pointed to the clothes behind him.
"Yeah, it looks very nice..." I nodded.
"For you!" Nuo looked at me, and seeing my puzzled expression, he joked, "This is also a way to comfort people, isn't it?"
He reached out and pulled the clothes, and the clothes fluttered as if they had life, looking extremely beautiful and charming.
"Can I wear it?" I asked hesitantly, looking at the clothes .
"Yes, it suits you very well!"
Nuo's praise made me feel a little embarrassed.
I looked at Nuo and asked, "Can you please turn around?"
After all, this is someone else's territory, I can't let them go out and wait for me. Nuo was very obedient and turned around immediately. I took off the white skirt that seemed to glow, and then put on this red long skirt.
It's really strange, this skirt seems to be tailor-made for me. Whether it's the shoulders, chest, or waist, it feels very fitting, and even the length of the skirt is perfect.
The back of the skirt is very long, with a one-meter train, and the entire skirt is inlaid with sparkling diamonds. The fiery red color is matched with gold threads, which is very beautiful.
"Nuo..." I called softly. Seeing him slowly turn around, I smiled sweetly, "Does it look good?"
Nuo stared at me for a while and nodded.
"That's right! This dress seems to be tailor-made for me. Are you really going to give it to me?" I was very happy. I haven't felt this way for a long time.
I walked up to Nuo, grabbed him, and said, "Nuo, look at me wearing such nice clothes, let's go somewhere to have some fun! Rukongai should also have markets and temple fairs like in the human world, right?"
After all, they also evolved from humans.
"It's indeed very lively outside, but..." Nuo responded expressionlessly.
He actually told me such important things just now.
"But what? Tell me quick."
"Is there anything you haven't done yet?" Nuo looked at me. His sincere expression made me unable to blame him for ruining my good mood.
When he asked me that, I felt my breathing stagnate and I felt very uncomfortable. I thought that Nuo had been following me just now, including the conversation between me and An Lengxi, he must have heard everything, so he asked me that now.
"Yeah! I still have things I haven't done, but I don't know what to do anymore. Forget it, just consider it as a loss, I give up..." I was helpless. Now staying next to An Lengxi, I felt it difficult to breathe. He was no longer the An Lengxi I knew.
"He doesn't deserve you, you should leave here." Nuo's tone was quite firm.
However, I felt very uncomfortable when I heard such words.
"Nuo, please don't say that again in the future, okay? This is not the boundary between heaven and hell at all. Love is enough. Why don't you understand it like him?" I looked at him and said hurtfully. I always felt that he was somewhat similar to An Lengxi.
Nuo didn't say anything.
I sneered, "What is more important than love? Will I be happy in heaven? I don't understand why you have to push me away. Would everything be different if I hadn't saved that child? Will I go to hell after I die? Why is my happiness and my joy destroyed by me and my beloved? Why don't you ask me about my thoughts and feelings..." Maybe it was because I saw the shadow of An Lengxi in Nuo that caused my emotions to get out of control.
"But……"
"No 'but'! If this kindness will make me so miserable, I would rather not have it. I said that for him, I can do anything, no matter how ugly, sinister, or even vicious." The resentment that erupted in an instant was unimaginable even to me, and then I felt a little lost, "But, An Lengxi, whom I like, is dead."
It was so painful to say this, my tears were about to burst out, but I was holding them back.
Nuo looked at me and frowned.
I waved my flaming sleeves, turned around and prepared to leave.
"I'm sorry..." Nuo immediately grabbed me, and then he hugged me tightly in his arms.
I couldn't break free, and Nuo gave me a strange feeling. I always felt like I knew him, but when I searched my mind, I couldn't find any memory of him.
"Does this mean I can ask you to stay with me? I fell in love with you from the first time I saw you." He said solemnly.
I don’t know why, but when I heard him say that, I felt a little moved.
"Do you know what love is?" How can he, who doesn't even understand loneliness, understand the meaning of love?
"Maybe like you said, I don't understand, I have forgotten everything. In my memory, those things are very unfamiliar, like heartache, loneliness, love, and obsession. But when I saw you, those unfamiliar feelings gradually became familiar again."
It was the first time I heard him speak with such strong emotion, perhaps because he never revealed his inner thoughts.
"But I still love him very much..." I said.
Nuo was not angry, as if he had expected this. He said: "I will help you forget, not to forget him, but to forget your pain."
"Yes..." I didn't know how to face him for a moment. How should I refuse without hurting him?
"Or I can take his place and help you forget the pain." Nuo's words echoed in my heart.
Can I do this?
No, it feels so sad.
But it's only been a few days.
"Then you have to fulfill your promise!" I smiled faintly. The smile was a little forced, but I didn't know what expression I should use to face him.
Nuo was silent for a while, and I suddenly said, "I want to go to hell!"
"What?" Nuo was very surprised.
"This is the underworld. I want to go to hell." I said solemnly. Nuo stopped talking again, but I said aggressively, "If you don't take me there, it means you were lying to me just now."
Nuo remained silent. Is it that difficult? I just asked him to take me out to have a look.
"Why don't we go outside and take a look!" Nuo seemed to be unable to do anything with me.
"I want to go outside, and I want to go to hell. If you don't take me with you, I will go by myself."
I want to see what the hell that Shang Yi described is like. And An Yihuo is a man of his words. If he really wants to lock me up there, I should be mentally prepared.
"Okay, let's go outside first!" Nuo sighed helplessly.
"Thank you, Nuo!"
There was a gravel road behind the yard. Nora took me walking on this road. There were lanterns along the way, which felt very interesting. It was also very comfortable to wear a long and soft skirt.
This seems to be a side door, very narrow, but I prefer this type of door to those tall doors that make people feel insignificant.
Nuo took me out.
I knew it, it’s really lively outside.
At this moment, Rukongai was brightly lit, with vendors on both sides selling all kinds of snacks, and it was much more lively and prosperous than when Shang Yi took me through it in a hurry.
I don't know why, but when Nuoyi and I walked into the crowd, everyone made way for us. Although I was very curious, I didn't pay much attention to it and just walked forward.
Nuo followed behind me.
"What is this?" I looked at Nuo, then at the two bells in my hand, which were tied with a red string.
"Hehuan Bell..." Nuo took the bell from my hand, then squatted down, lifted my skirt, and tied the bell around my ankle.
I moved my feet and heard the crisp sound of the bell.
"This is good, can I tie a few more?" I asked, staring at my feet.
"Just one is enough. This one needs to absorb spiritual energy to make a sound. Your ringtone is very nice, so no matter how far away you are from me, I can hear it and find you." Unless it was necessary, Nuo would never say so much.
"Why do I feel like it's a bit like shackles?" I frowned and said in distress.
Nuo immediately became serious, looked at me and asked, "Don't you like it?"
Seeing how serious he was, I felt a little embarrassed and said, "No, it's great. I like it very much." I turned around and asked the owner who was fiddling with the Hehuan Bell, "How much is this?"
I regretted it the moment I said it. Why did I ask this? I don't have any ghost money.
The man just shook his head in fear.
I continued walking forward, accompanied by the clear and loud ringing of the bell.
I don’t know if it’s because of me or Nuo, but wherever we go, it seems like it becomes empty instantly.
It's good that no one cuts in , but it's so boring!
Is there still some light on me? I was very careful to hide my light, and I didn't wear that pure white dress. After paying close attention for a while, I realized that everyone's eyes were focused on the red dress on me, and everyone showed an expression of avoiding it.
"Does this dress have any special meaning?" I looked at Nuo and asked curiously.
Nuo shook his head and said, "I have forgotten its meaning."
Does it mean that it's useless to ask?
I turned my head away helplessly, and then I saw a lot of people, or should I say a lot of ghosts gathered together. I pulled Nuo over, and the bell made a cheerful sound.
I thought they would give way to me, but they all had their backs to me and didn't see me at all, so they didn't give way to me.
Nuo squatted down and said very gentlemanly: "I'll carry you."
Was he indirectly saying that I was short? But I didn't hesitate and jumped on his back.
It wasn't until he stood up that I could see the scene in front of me clearly.
Next to a bonfire, a woman in a black robe was dancing with a fan in her hand. Her steps were as light as a black butterfly.
"How beautiful!" I exclaimed sincerely.
It turns out that there are many beauties in hell. Her face is white and flawless, which forms a sharp contrast with her hair and the robe she wears. She looks very cool.
Hearing what I said, Nuo couldn't help but sneer and shook his head. Why did I feel like he was mocking something?
"What are you laughing at?" I asked in dissatisfaction.
“No…” There was still a strange smile on Nuo’s lips.
I jumped off him unhappily, then asked with one hand on my waist: "Are you laughing at me? Did I say something wrong?"
"You are right..."
Why do I feel like he is just being perfunctory?
"I want to eat something!" After I came here, I haven't had a single drop of water. I don't feel hungry, but my mouth still tastes tasteless.
Nuo nodded and said, "Then wait for me here!" After that, he quickly left my sight.
Suddenly, a black butterfly emitting a faint light flew over and danced in front of me, as if showing off its beauty.
I reached out to touch it, but it seemed to shy away. The closer I got to it, the farther it flew away. I seemed to have walked a long way following it, but in the end I got lost.
When I came to my senses, I found that I had arrived at a place where I had no idea where I was going.
