Chapter 10 I kissed you and you cried at night Xiang Qianlan02
I turned off my phone.
When I woke up in the morning, it showed 13 missed calls. 13 is such an unlucky number.
When my mother passed away, I also missed the call. I called back the unknown number. After the phone rang for a long time, a woman said in a sobbing voice, "My son was in a car accident."
I was still wondering who her son was, and she said, "I'm Yin Ping."
Yin Ping, Qi Beichen's mother.
I couldn't help but open the door and ran out. I don't know why, but I felt a little panicked. I saw a thick pile of snow outside. I guess it had snowed all night last night.
I felt inexplicably scared.
I was afraid that Qi Beichen would leave me unexpectedly like my mother. Even though I hated Qi Beichen, I didn't want anything to happen to him, and I didn't want anything to happen to him because of me.
"I want to see you." Yin Ping said, "Come to the First Municipal Hospital."
When I rushed to the hospital, I saw a haggard woman in the corridor. She stared at me with a complicated look in her eyes.
I approached her.
"Why won't you let him go?"
"I beg you to let my son ."
Her face twitched a few times, and then she burst into tears.
She didn't know that it was Qi Beichen who wouldn't let me go.
I faced her silently. She called me over, and she wasn't crying just to me.
Finally, she looked up at me and said, "I don't know who you are, but I know my son's personality. You must be very important to him, otherwise he wouldn't just save your number. He is very lucky and has a good life. He is not in danger, but he refuses to eat. I hope you can persuade him, okay?"
Fortunately, the result was not too bad. If something had happened to him, my sin would have been even greater.
"Okay," I said.
I walked into the ward and looked at the bandaged figure on the bed. My hands clenched into fists. I saw the steaming porridge on the table and handed it to him.
"Do you feel bad too?" His mocking voice echoed in my ears, "This is all because of you."
I looked at him stubbornly. He was sitting on the bed, pursing his thin lips as if smiling. He looked at me quietly for a while and then started coughing violently.
"Have some porridge." I said.
"Feed me," he replied.
Ever since I met him, he has always been smart and clever, achieving his goals step by step. Although I was very unhappy, when I saw his pale face and remembered the pitiful look of the woman outside the door, I gave in.
I stared at his flushed face, picked up the spoon and fed him a sip.
He stretched out his slender pale hand and grasped my wrist: "...You still hate me, don't you?"
He wanted to lean over and hug me, but I dodged his hand and looked out the window stubbornly, with my back to him, and said in a cold voice: "Yes, I should hate you."
The past years are like replaying movie scenes, one after another, clear and almost cruel. That was my mother, my dear mother. Because of him, I did not see her for the last time.
How not to hate?
Of course, I hate myself too.
I hate myself for still having a bit of softness towards him.
His fingers moved and held . I turned my head and looked back at him quietly, his pale face reflected in my eyes.
The two people didn't know what to say, they just looked at each other quietly in silence.
"What do you want me to do?" Seeing that I was staring at him, Qi Beichen spoke weakly, "Xiang Qianlan, what do you want me to do in the future?"
I tried to smile: "I just want to forget. My forgetting starts with you."
He was silent for a while, then asked: "Do you like Sun Nuofan? Do you love him?"
“He’s been very nice to me,” I said.
The room was bright, but it couldn't hide the expressions on each other's faces. At this moment, a ringtone came from my pocket. Someone was calling.
"Hello, it's me." I said softly with a smile on my face.
"Qianlan." Sun Nuofan asked me, "Where are you?"
"I..." I stared at Qi Beichen, and Sun Nuofan's eyes flashed through my mind. To be honest, if he knew that I was taking care of Qi Beichen in the hospital, he would definitely have all kinds of thoughts.
I didn't want to cause any more trouble, so I paused for a moment, bit my lip, and replied, "I'm at home."
He said with some difficulty: "Really?"
I didn’t know that at this moment Sun Nuofan was standing downstairs of my house. He looked up at the empty window and imagined that I was standing there.
"It snowed all night last night, and many children were making snowmen. I saw how cute they were, so I took a few photos. I remember there is a small garden downstairs from your house, and you can see a few red plum blossoms. I saw they had buds a few days ago, but I wonder if they have bloomed now. Please remember to take a few photos for me when you have time."
I was at a loss for a moment: "Well, okay, maybe they haven't bloomed yet, I'll take pictures for you when they bloom..."
Sun Nuofan's sigh interrupted what I was about to say. He said, "But I just came from the small garden, and all the flowers there are in bloom."
"You would rather accept the fact that I lied than ask me where I am? Sun Nuofan, I..."
"Qian Lan, when you have time, let's go enjoy the flowers together."
I knew Qi Beichen was looking at me and listening to our conversation on the phone.
I glanced at Qi Beichen, walked out of the room, and said with a wry smile: "Sun Nuofan, we are getting married. I should only have you in my heart, but I am very confused. Qi Beichen has been coming to see me recently. He had a car accident and is now lying in the hospital. His mother asked me to take care of him... I know you don't like me to have any contact with him anymore. I don't want you to think too much, but I must end it with him..."
Sun Nuofan listened quietly and said to me: "Qianlan, I'll wait for you."
I retorted with rapid breathing: "But I don't want you to wait for me. I have been thinking, is it unfair for me to marry you in this state? You have waited for me for too long. Such a long time has passed, and our relationship is still like this. Do you still believe it? Do you believe in me? Do you believe that we have a future? Do you believe that we will be happy? Even if you know that I agreed to marry you to escape from him, don't you hate me?"
Sun Nuofan said: "The past is the past, I am the one who is with you, I just want you to be in the future."
Sun Nuofan finished speaking and hung up the phone.
I leaned against the wall, slowly squatted down, hugged my knees and buried my head. I didn't cry, I just felt helpless and painful.
Is it really a good idea to use a person to completely uproot something?
Qi Beichen, that man, seems to have made me a selfish and cruel person. This relationship has pushed me to this point. Who is right and who is wrong?
Sun Nuofan is the most innocent. Over the years, I have hurt him so deeply and owe him so much.
I closed my eyes, stopped thinking about Qi Beichen, and closed the door of my heart.
A pair of slippers appeared on the ground. I looked up and saw Qi Beichen standing in front of me. There was no pain or struggle in his tone. Those words were as light as the spring breeze.
"I will let go..."
After Qi Beichen finished speaking, he glanced at me and ignored me. Instead, he walked into the ward and closed the door.
I walked out of the hospital. Outside, the sound of children playing snowball fights drowned out the entire street. They were shouting and making noises, without a trace of sadness.
I went back home.
After walking downstairs, I took a detour to the small garden behind the house. It was such a cold day, and everyone stayed at home sitting around the fire. The small garden was empty. I could smell the faint scent of plum blossoms from afar.
I followed the scent, and the moment I saw Merlin, I stood there in shock.
The red plum blossoms blooming on the branches were like balls of warm fire. There were two snowmen on the ground, with eyes made of pebbles, mouths made of leaves, and noses made of branches. One of the snowmen had a gray scarf around his neck, and another had a few plum blossoms on his head.
I am very familiar with that scarf; it is Sun Nuofan's favorite.
A peach heart was drawn on the snow in front of them, covered with fallen plum petals, and a sentence was written on the snow: Qianlan, I love you forever.
I looked at the snowman sadly, my eyes were full of moisture.
Sun Nuofan...
The day before the wedding, as soon as I got up, Hongdou and Lin Wanqiu came to me and said, "Our little bride has finally shown up."
Hongdou and Lin Wanqiu looked at each other and smiled knowingly.
"Xiao Lan, there's a package for you. It's been sent to the company. Since you took a leave, we brought it to you and came to see you at the same time." Hongdou said as they moved in a cardboard box.
"I didn't buy anything." Who sent it? Sun Nuofan? How did it get to the company?
"It arrived two days ago, and there's no sender written on it." Hongdou winked at me, "Let's open it and take a look." We moved the box into the house together. The express box was very large and the packaging was very beautiful. When we opened it, the three of us widened our eyes - wedding, wedding dress?
"Why not send it to your home? Is it a surprise from Sun Nuofan for you?" Hongdou asked.
Lin Wanqiu replied: "How could that be? If it was Sun Nuofan who ordered it, he should have told Xiaolan. Maybe it was given to you by your friend? Your best friend? Your classmate?" Lin Wanqiu looked at me, and I smiled and shook my head.
Hongdou exclaimed, lowered her head to glance at the wedding dress, checked the label, and shouted, "Big money, big production, rich man, this designer has a great background, I heard that he doesn't spend easily, Xiaolan, you have a lot of face!"
There was a handwritten card on the wedding dress: Our game, your happiness, Qi Beichen.
"Oh..." Hongdou and Lin Wanqiu stared at me at the same time.
I bit my lip, looking at the wedding dress with a complicated expression. Was it a gift from him? Did he also customize the wedding dress? Did he order it a long time ago...
It turns out that the agreed letting go means letting go and fulfilling the wish.
Qi Beichen, thank you for coming into my world, thank you for being willing to leave my life.
Lin Wanqiu gave me a meaningful look.
"What are you daydreaming about? Go, try on this wedding dress, it's so beautiful. I can't wait to see you wear it. It's a gift from an old lover, so it's okay to wear it for a while." Hongdou stamped her feet anxiously.
"Okay." I smiled helplessly and walked into the room carrying the wedding dress.
My wish used to be very simple, which was to let my mother live a good life. Later, so many things happened and I became a duckweed with nowhere to go, drifting with the tide. I don’t know why, but I suddenly thought of my mother, and my heart felt as uncomfortable as if a ball of cotton was stuffed in it.
After I changed my clothes, I pushed the door open and came out. The light shone on my face and I saw the person in the mirror.
"Has anyone ever told you that you are breathtakingly beautiful?" Lin Wanqiu's voice and tone were the same as usual. She walked forward and helped me fix the zipper on my back.
The light shone on me, and the rhinestones on my chest shone white light under the light. The long fishtail skirt dragged on the ground, and the wedding dress was luxurious and retro, romantic and mysterious, which set off my graceful figure.
It is indeed beautiful.
Lin Wanqiu leaned against the door and said to me, "Xiao Lan, you are the most beautiful bride I have ever seen."
I looked at her.
"I hope it's the happiest." She smiled at me.
I didn't move. She saw that I was in a daze, reached out and blew me a kiss, then walked towards the kitchen to find something to eat.
"Ms. Hongdou, can I change?" I said.
Hongdou looked at me in surprise, then waved her hand and said, "It's very beautiful. Go change it, change it."
So, I walked back to the room silently and took off the wedding dress, like taking off the shackles. I felt a little guilty, I was a woman who didn't deserve happiness, and that happiness had nothing to do with me.
I just wanted to get away from someone.
Lin Wanqiu came out of the kitchen with a cup of coffee. She looked at me with a smile that made me a little uneasy. She said to me, "Xiao Lan, a man loves you, and a man has hurt you. Since you didn't choose Qi Beichen, don't let down the man who loves you."
She mentioned to me...Qi Beichen.
I didn't explain much, I just said, "I understand."
"Xiao Lan, be happy."
After Lin Wanqiu and Hongdou left, the room became quiet and her words echoed in my mind.
Don't let down the man who loves you.
I walked into the room, picked up the white wedding dress, and put it back into the box.
Qi Beichen, forgive me for not being able to accept your feelings. In this game, if there is still one person who can be happy, I would rather that person be Sun Nuofan rather than us.
I finally let go.
I said it before , I'm not suitable to be a good person.
