Chapter 10: Happiness after the dust has settled three
Because the basketball game was coming up, An Yixuan was also busy, so he naturally couldn't take care of me most of the time. I didn't go to him on purpose, because I didn't want him to think I was annoying. I was afraid of losing him, but I was also afraid that I would make him hate me if I was too busy. I could only watch him and Xinmeng busy from afar, and I couldn't help.
"Baby, what's wrong with you recently? Are you too tired from studying?" My mother felt distressed when she saw that I had lost weight, so she bought a lot of delicious food and cooked for me every day.
"Oh, I told you before that studying at St. John's is very hard, but now that my daughter is here, you have to work hard!" Although the father felt distressed, he still focused on encouragement and education.
"Don't worry, your baby is an indestructible cockroach! I can definitely handle it." I patted my chest to show that there is no problem with my studies now.
"Xizi, you have lost weight recently and eat so little. An Yixuan is so busy. He was busy before and still had time to see you. Why doesn't he come to see you now?" Lingdang said worriedly and a little angry.
"Nowadays, all they do is study and practice. It's hard to balance study and basketball. And the teacher also said that study is more important for St. John's. They can only spare a little time for practice. Of course they will be very tired. It's normal that they don't have time to pay attention to me. Don't be so angry." I pinched Lingling's face and said.
"Fortunately, the competition is about to start. You will have time after it's over. Then you can be together. You must ask An Yixuan to compensate you!" Lingling said viciously, "And me too!"
"You!" I said with a helpless smile, and at the same time comforted myself in my heart, maybe everything will be fine after the basketball game, maybe I was just overthinking it!
Our school won the first few games of the basketball game and made it to the finals. The finals were scheduled for Sunday. I came to the game early in the morning to cheer for An Yixuan, but An Yixuan didn't have time to pay attention to me. He just greeted me and arranged for me to sit in the audience. The rest of the time he was chatting with Xin Meng. I sat in the audience and looked at the two of them. I felt so painful in my heart. They really match each other.
"The captain of St. John's is so handsome, and next to him is his girlfriend, they are such a perfect match. I heard that his girlfriend paid a lot for this competition, it was not easy."
"Xin Meng? She is really amazing. She particularly likes Captain An Yixuan. I guess they will definitely be together!"
"This is not fair, couples, I'm so jealous."
The students sitting next to me were all whispering, and those words were like knives stabbing into my heart.
An Yixuan's strength is obvious to all. After this period of training, the level of their entire team has improved a lot. It can be said that they have triumphed all the way. I can feel that An Yixuan's eyes will still look at me, but more often he looks at Xin Meng. I sit in the audience and feel so lonely and feel that An Yixuan is so far away.
After the competition, St. John was undoubtedly the first. After the whole audience cheered, the students of St. John went to the largest hotel in the city to celebrate. I was originally going to go with An Yixuan, but after seeing them and Xinmeng get on the same car, I gave up the idea and took a taxi with Lingdang.
The teacher had already booked a private room in the hotel. When Lingdang and I arrived, An Yixuan was being interviewed by his classmates. He was obviously very happy, smiling brightly . Xinmeng standing beside him felt like a little bird.
I felt very depressed, so I found a deserted corner, picked up a bottle of wine and started drinking.
"Xizi, don't drink anymore. Don't be like this. I'll take you to see Anyixuan, okay?" Lingling said anxiously, grabbing my bottle of wine.
"Lingdang, I'm fine, I just feel a little stuffy. Don't worry, I can drink a lot." I pushed Lingdang's hand away and continued drinking. It was a red wine with a relatively low alcohol content, but I still felt unsatisfied after finishing it, so I secretly took some beer to drink.
"You will definitely get drunk if you keep doing this. I'm going to find An Yixuan!" Lingling said worriedly beside me.
"Don't go look for An Yixuan." My head was a little dizzy, maybe because I hadn't eaten much recently, and I was in a bad mood and drank a lot. I felt drunk and felt a little distracted as I lay on the table.
"Lie down for a while, I'll go find An Yixuan!" Lingling patted my back.
"Don't go look for An Yixuan!" My tears slowly flowed out, "Bell..." I felt someone patting my back, and then a cup of warm water was handed to me.
"Lingdang, thank you. Don't go look for An Yixuan." I took a sip of water, my voice a little choked up, "You don't know what happened between An Yixuan and me... Lingdang, the me you see now is not me..."
"you're drunk……"
"No, I'm not drunk, Lingling. I'm not the 16-year-old Sakiko now. My soul is the 26-year-old Sakiko! I traveled back to the age of 16 because of An Yixuan..."
"What did you say?"
"It's true, Lingling. I don't know why I traveled back in time. I met An Yixuan in college, and then we got together. We have been together for many years. I thought we would get married and have children and would never be apart for the rest of our lives. But I didn't expect that the person he loved the most would appear, Xinmeng..." My tears fell like beads from a broken string. "Xinmeng appeared. I remember An Yixuan talking about his girlfriend in high school. He said that he and Xinmeng had been together the longest. Those were the three most innocent years, and I missed them all... He wants to break up with me, so let's break up, but I really love An Yixuan, do you know that?"
"Xizi..."
"During the time when we broke up, I felt like I had lost my soul. I couldn't eat or sleep. I still remember An Yixuan came to see me, and then I fainted without knowing why. After that, when I opened my eyes again, I became my 16-year-old self... You know, I didn't know An Yixuan when I was 16... I remembered his home address, and I took a taxi to find him. I really met him, but he didn't remember me at all. I thought it was a chance given to me by God. I worked so hard to transfer to St. John's. I thought he and I could start over. Even when Yayi showed up, I wasn't afraid because he said he didn't like Yayi very much. But Xinmeng was different. They had been together for four years. If Xinmeng was the woman he loved the most, then was my appearance a mistake?"
"Your presence is not a mistake!"
"It was a mistake. I thought I could be with An Yixuan since high school. I thought I could accompany him through his best years. I thought we would be together, but Xin Meng showed up. They are so good, so good... Shouldn't I have shown up? I feel like a thief who stole someone else's love." I sobbed.
"Xizi..."
"I know that An Yixuan is cold and distant to strangers, but it will be different after getting to know him. I know that An Yixuan likes to eat potato chips and drink frozen cola. I remember he said that his favorite thing in high school was basketball. When we were in college, he once skipped classes to watch a basketball game, and I accompanied him even though I didn't understand a thing. Also, at work, he had a stomachache due to drinking frozen cola, so I took a leave to make porridge for him... My love for him is also very real, no less than Xin Meng's!" As I was talking, I felt my head was very heavy. I lay on the table, my head became heavier and heavier, and I became more and more dizzy, and gradually lost consciousness.
