Xiao Muhua, cross the ocean 1
I have always disguised myself by being taciturn and dull, just hoping to gain peace, but such a short sentence actually broke my inner balance.
——《I'm waiting for you in the best time》
I have always felt that communication is the basis for people to get along with each other.
This is true for friends, lovers, and family.
Min Han initially thought that his parents didn't love him because they spoiled his younger brother more than himself. In Min Han's heart, his younger brother was so ignorant, but his parents treated him well without any regrets.
If I make the slightest mistake, my parents will scold me.
She felt that her parents loved her younger brother more than herself, and sometimes she even felt that they didn't love her at all.
But in the end, when both parties' hearts gradually opened up, they discovered that there were so many misunderstandings between each other. It turned out that you loved me a little more than I thought.
When I was younger, I also had a lot of friction with the people close to me. I always made others angry and myself angry. I always wondered why we still quarreled even though I did nothing wrong.
Thinking about it now, maybe it was because we didn’t tell each other our true thoughts very well, or at all, at the time.
So, the other party may not understand me, and I may not understand the other party.
Family love is really a very subtle thing.
It is easiest for us to ignore it in daily life, but it can also hurt our hearts inadvertently.
When I first conceived the story of Xiao Muhua, I was deeply moved. I have written many youth stories, but this time, I wanted to write a different one.
Very different. The characters, background, and story are all different.
Xiao Muhua lives in a small town by the sea. Besides her, she has a younger brother who is four years younger than her and a father who is a carpenter.
Where did Xiao Muhua's mother go? Her mother left her on a big boat when she was five years old. At that time, Xiao Muhua was wearing a floral dress and ran after the boat, and the waves almost drowned her.
From that year on, every time the day her mother left, Xiao Muhua would go to the beach barefoot and look out, hoping to see her mother coming back on a big ship.
But mom didn't come back.
Every time Xiao Muhua went to see her, her father would drive her back with a rolling pin. When he got home, he would beat her. Xiao Muhua said nothing and kept her tears in her eyes.
Dad started crying while beating his baby, and then he hugged Xiao Muhua and cried together.
When Xiao Muhua was seven years old, her father picked up a younger brother for her.
The three-year-old kid stared at Muhua timidly. Muhua fed him, taught him to read, and took him to play. The kid stayed at Muhua's house for a week, but still couldn't call people. Muhua teased him, "You are such a little piece of wood."
Then, this little doll was called Xiaomu.
After that, every time his father hit Xiao Muhua, Xiao Muhua would hug his sister and cry loudly without saying anything. His father softened his heart and rarely hit Xiao Muhua.
And Xiao Muhua, now that she has a younger brother, smiles more often than before.
Later, Xiao Muhua grew up to be fifteen years old and Xiao Mu grew up to be eleven years old.
Muhua was studying in the town's middle school, while Mu learned to make furniture from his father at home. He would make a small animal for his sister every month, and then he would smile when he saw his achievements.
"Little Mu, take out your notebook. Today, your sister will teach you what you learned in school." Muhua put down her schoolbag when she got home and turned to call Little Mu. Little Mu ran to get the notebook and then sat in front of her sister obediently. Muhua patiently taught him and Little Mu listened very seriously, first because he liked to study and second because he liked his sister.
When my father saw their appearance, his originally hot-tempered temper has calmed down a lot over the years.
The little piece of wood is simply the softest thing in Muhua's life.
There is another soft spot in Muhua's life, and that is Chen Hui.
Chen Hui is two years older than Mu Hua. He likes to wear washed blue shirts. He lives next door to Mu Hua and has not been here long. When Mu Hua's father beats him, Chen Hui will come to help. Chen Hui is stronger than Mu Hua. Every time Mu Hua gets beaten, Mu Hua will hug his father, and Chen Hui will pull Mu Hua to his home.
Chen Hui asked Muhua: "Why does your father like to beat you so much?"
Muhua sat in the corner, hugged her knees, and shook her head absentmindedly.
Chen Hui found a lollipop in his drawer. He handed it to Muhua and said, "Next time your father hits you, come to me before he does anything else."
Muhua looked into Chen Hui's clear eyes, and suddenly thought of the sea and the day when her mother left.
Then, Xiao Muhua cried.
Even if her father hit her, she would not cry so sadly.
Chen Hui gently wiped Xiao Muhua's tears with a tissue and said, "Don't cry. Eat some candy, your mouth will feel sweet, and your heart will feel sweet too."
Xiao Muhua was obedient and ate candy while sobbing, wanting to feel sweet in her heart.
Is dad really not nice to Xiao Muhua?
otherwise.
Muhua knew that her father was actually very kind to her. If her father had something delicious, he would always save it for Muhua first. If Muhua needed to buy something, her father would work overtime to earn money to buy it for her.
Every time after beating Muhua, my father would secretly hide in the kitchen and wipe his tears.
Dad is not good at expressing himself and has a very dull personality, but he really loves Muhua. When Mom was still alive, Dad often let Muhua ride on his neck and took her around the town and the beach.
Dad said: "I want our little Muhua to always stand tall, so that she can see the scenery farther away."
After my mother left, my father's personality became strange.
My father thought there was something wrong with his mind, so he secretly went to see a doctor, but the doctor said that there was nothing wrong with him mentally.
Does Xiao Muhua hate her father? She doesn't hate him, she only hates him when he hits her. She doesn't know why her father hits her, she just misses her mother, so she runs to the beach.
In the hot summer, Chen Hui rode his bicycle to take Xiao Muhua to the beach.
Xiao Muhua's skirt and short hair were blown by the wind. She looked at the distant sea level and asked, "Chen Hui, do you know what's on the other side of the sea? Why do so many people want to go to the other side of the sea and don't want to come back?"
"For some people, the other side of the sea may be a better world." Chen Hui didn't know how to answer Xiao Muhua, but he knew that those who would never come back like the place they are going, not the place they are returning.
"So do you like that other side of the sea?" Xiao Muhua asked Chen Hui with her head tilted.
Chen Hui was stunned for a moment, then said, "I wouldn't like you for no reason."
"But I like it." Xiao Muhua looked at the other side of the sea. "I want to know what kind of place it is that can take my mother away and shatter my originally peaceful home."
Muhua's eyes were filled with longing for the other side of the sea.
Chen Hui stood there, quietly accompanying Muhua for a while, and then said, "Let's go home, otherwise your father will beat you again if he finds out." After a moment, he said, "Muhua, I promise you that when I grow up, I will take you to where you want to go and fulfill your wish, okay?"
Muhua nodded blankly, and finally asked as if to confirm: "Are you serious, Chen Hui?"
Chen Hui laughed: "Really, you believe me."
Xiao Muhua believed him, of course. He was the best person to her besides Mu Mu.
In order to fulfill her promise to Chen Hui, Xiao Muhua worked harder in school because Chen Hui had good grades and if she wanted to go with him, she had to be as good as him.
Xiao Muhua began to study day and night. The fat boy who liked to bully others in the class always whispered in Muhua's ear: "You can't get into No. 1 Middle School, and your family doesn't have the money to support your education!"
Xiao Muhua turned a deaf ear to it.
A year later, Xiao Muhua was admitted to No. 1 Middle School.
The fat kid who mocked others stood in front of Xiao Muhua with the bought scores, still saying with high spirits: "You can't get into a good university! You are a wild girl with no one to support you!"
Because of this sentence, Xiao Muhua pushed the fat boy down.
Chen Hui injured the little fat boy.
The little piece of wood bit the little fat boy and hurt him.
The head teacher called Xiao Muhua to the office, where the fat boy's parents were also. The head teacher said to Xiao Muhua, "It's wrong to hit people. Call your mother over!"
The little fat boy's face was covered with bruises. He said, "She has no mother. Her mother ran away with another man. Her father is a poor carpenter!"
Xiao Muhua glared at the little fat boy fiercely, and the little fat boy shrank into his mother's arms. Her mother spoke very harshly and kept abusing him.
Not long after, Xiao Muhua's father came with a rolling pin. Knowing that Xiao Muhua had bullied the fat boy, his father asked why.
Muhua told the truth.
Dad said, you shouldn’t hit people, you are wrong in this matter.
Muhua was very angry and said that the fat boy deserved to be beaten! She was right!
Seeing his daughter’s bad temper, the father was so angry that he raised the rolling pin.
Xiao Muhua looked at the falling rolling pin, and the tears in the corners of her eyes burst into a flower, shouting: "I am not wrong, I am not wrong! I have someone to take care of me! Dad, you take care of me——"
Dad’s rolling pin fell in mid-air, and he felt angry and sad.
"Mom is gone. I went to the beach to see her just because I missed her. But Dad, you are obviously by my side. Why don't you want to trust your daughter in everything?" Xiao Muhua started to cry. Her father would beat her every year, but she had never cried so hard.
That night, Dad cooked a lot of delicious food.
But Xiao Muhua was still angry and refused to eat a single bite.
Dad pushed Mu Tou, who timidly walked over and pulled his sister's clothes, shouting, "Sister, eat."
"No!" My sister wiped away her tears.
Mu Tou turned his head helplessly and looked at his father, but his 40-year-old father hunched over slightly and looked at him expectantly. He was not very good at expressing himself and didn't know how to tell his daughter.
Mu Tou pulled Mu Hua's clothes again: "Sister, I'm hungry."
Xiao Muhua sniffed and turned to look at Xiao Mutou. Xiao Mutou was only twelve years old. Xiao Muhua felt distressed because of the pitiful look on his sister's face when he saw her angry and worried.
Xiao Muhua finally took Xiao Mutou to eat together. At the dinner table, Dad kept picking up food for Muhua silently, but Muhua didn't say a word.
When she was at Chen Hui's house, Mu Hua was still angry and yelled angrily: "I want to study hard and escape from this damn place as soon as possible! I don't want to be with him! He doesn't treat me as his daughter at all!"
My father, who was pushing wood outside the house, heard it, was startled for a moment, then gave a bitter smile and continued with his work.
Xiao Muhua has reached a rebellious age and doesn't even go home.
Little Mu went to school to find Muhua. Muhua touched his head and said, "Mu, I'm going to my classmate's house tonight."
Mu Tou looked up and said, "Mu Tou misses his sister."
Muhua was reluctant to leave Mutou, but she didn't want to see her father's face even more. So she said, "Mutou, be obedient. Sister will be back soon."
"You're lying." Mu Tou whispered, "Sister just doesn't want us anymore."
Muhua calmed down and asked, "Mutou, do you think Dad is okay?"
Mu Tou raised his head and nodded.
Muhua frowned: "What's good about it?"
Mu Tou said, "Dad adopted Mu Tou, fed him, and taught him to work."
"So do you think he is good to your sister?" Muhua asked again.
Mu Tou thought for a while and nodded honestly.
Muhua was a little shaken, but then she thought, Mu was still a child, what did he know? He had no one to rely on, so he would be happy if anyone gave him a bite to eat.
Muhua shook his head, sighed, and said, "Mutou, go back."
After saying that, she turned around and left. She clearly said she was going back, so why didn't she go back with him, but let him go back alone?
Wood doesn't understand.
The daughter hasn't been home for a long time. Before going to bed every time, her father would go to her room, turn on the light, take a look, then turn around and leave silently.
During those days, Muhua couldn't sleep, and neither could her father.
Soon another year will pass and Chen Hui will take the college entrance examination.
Muhua asked him secretly, "Where do you want to go to college?"
Chen Hui thought for a moment and said, "Beijing."
Muhua felt a little disappointed because Chen Hui had said before that he would take her to see the other side of the sea. If Chen Hui went to Beijing, it would be difficult for them to even meet.
Muhua wanted to ask Chen Hui, "Do you still remember what you said that year, that you would take me to the other side of the sea?" But she didn't dare to ask. Even though Chen Hui was very kind to Muhua, she still felt deeply inferior in front of him.
