Volume 2: The Church of Light Chapter 281 Ghost
"What's wrong with me?"
Xu Shen did not rush to argue, but stared at his mother in front of him.
"The doctor said you have delusional disorder." Mom said, "If it's serious, you will mistake reality for fantasy and fantasy for reality, but as long as you listen to mom, take medicine on time, and cooperate with the treatment, you can still be cured."
Xu Shen's expression turned cold, and he said, "Delusion is a mental illness, right? Does that mean this is a mental hospital?"
“This is my private clinic.”
Yono at the door turned slightly and said, "Before, in Xiao Zhao's private clinic, you were sent to a mental hospital for a short period of time because of an illness. There were several people sent there with you, and some of them were left in the mental hospital. Your mother was worried about you, so she spent a lot of money to hire someone to bail you out."
"Once you are recorded in the files of the mental hospital, you are completely defined and there is no way out of it."
"There is currently no cure for mental illness, or rather, the number is very small."
Xu Shen saw that Yono was making up "reality" and couldn't help but sneer, saying: "Since there are no cases of people being cured, why do you think I can be cured? You said there are others, who are they?"
"The cases I'm referring to are extremely rare, and I'm referring to cases in mental hospitals."
Jono said calmly, "Once you enter there, you will be surrounded by patients and you will not be able to get effective treatment. But in private clinics like ours, you can be cured."
"As for the people you asked about, you must have some impression of them. They are two women and one man. One is called Mu Xue, one is called Li Meiya, and one is called Xiao Ye."
Yono said: "The woman named Mu Xue has been transferred to another clinic. The sister named Li Meiya is the head nurse of that clinic. As for the one named Xiaoye, his original name was Li Ye, and he has epilepsy."
Xu Shen's face changed slightly. He didn't expect that the other party even knew Mu Xue's name.
Has my memory really been spied on?
Or is it that my own consciousness is now filling in the gaps?
"Don't talk nonsense..." Xu Shen was about to yell, but suddenly he was stunned. These names together... He suddenly remembered the first time he went out of the city, Director Liu called him, and the other team members included Mu Xue, Meiya, and Ono.
Chu Bai and Uncle Wang were also there at that time.
Could it be that the mental hospital he was talking about is outside the wall?
Thinking of the fog that was everywhere outside the wall, and the shell that could absorb the fog and heal itself, Xu Shen suddenly felt a chill.
Does the fog represent one’s confused understanding of the surrounding environment?
The shell represents that I have seen that those people are all mentally ill, without self-awareness, and are therefore just wandering shells?
Xu Shen suddenly thought of the fog floating in the lower city and the inner city.
The whole world is shrouded in fog.
Is it because... I have covered the parts that I cannot perceive with fog?
No no!
Xu Shen suddenly clenched his fists, his eyes became sharp and ferocious. He couldn't continue thinking like this, otherwise he would really go crazy!
Xu Shen absolutely did not believe that everything he had experienced was just a "stories" he made up.
How do we explain the huge bottom city, inner city, seven major families, and the mysterious spiritual world?
What are all these Xu that I have killed?
Oh, right, Xu!
Xu Shen's eyes were like lightning as he stared at Yono: "You said the hair on my shoulders was pulled off the nurse's head before, but in fact, it has always been with me. It is called Black Snow. How do you explain those Xu I killed?"
Yono sighed and said, "I said that everything in the story you made up is an allusion to reality. The nurse whose hair you pulled was called Xiaoxue. She had just started working at Xiao Zhao's clinic and was assigned to take care of you. Then she was attacked by you."
"Those 'Ruins' you mentioned are all your imaginary existences based on reality, including the abilities you mentioned."
"Think carefully about your own abilities. Do you feel that the abilities you mentioned are all based on optimization from point to surface? For example, when you mentioned the ruins silk and the chains, you saw the chains and imagined that you had somehow plundered the other party's abilities, which deepened your own imagination and made you think that you could use them."
"What you think of as cultivation and becoming stronger is just your symptoms becoming more severe, and you are imagining everything you have seen and heard."
Jono said, "Otherwise, do you think a normal person can remain normal after going through what you've been through?"
This question hit home. Xu Shen was about to refute it, but he was choked with speech after opening his mouth.
He looked at Jonuo in front of him and suddenly had a strong urge. Was this the test the other party gave him?
The only way to escape is to break the illusion of "reality" in front of us?
If this is the case, the solution may be to kill Jono in front of him.
Or, create a surreal existence to break the reality constructed by the other party.
After all, everything you say is just imagination to the other party.
Once something surreal happens at this level, it means that everything the other person says is bullshit.
But...how do you create a surreal event?
Xu Shen could not feel the internal force in his body. At this moment, he was like a fog dweller before opening his eyes. The only difference was that he could open his eyes.
Oh, right, Fog People.
"How do you explain the fog people I saw everywhere?" Xu Shen looked at Yono and said.
Yono did not answer immediately, but glanced at his mother next to him, then said with a sigh: "Speaking of this, I have to talk about your information. According to the information provided by your mother, you were a genius when you were young."
"genius?"
"Yes, you have extraordinary insight and your IQ is far beyond that of ordinary people. You call those who follow a predetermined trajectory in life "Mist People" and believe that they are just mechanical beings of flesh and blood living according to a certain 'program'."
“I have to say, this feeling is very accurate.”
Xu Shen stared at him and said, "What about the seven major families?"
"Those are the seven famous mental hospitals in this city. Your mother accidentally leaked the information to you when she was looking for various hospitals. You heard it and made it up based on your imagination." said Yono.
Then...what about the mysterious world?
Xu Shen wanted to ask, but after thinking about it, he was not sure whether the Jonuo in front of him was an extension of the real Jonuo’s consciousness. This was one of his core secrets, and once it was exposed, he must be killed.
After thinking about it, Xu Shen decided to keep it.
Moreover, he secretly felt that even if he brought it up, the other party would most likely find a reason to explain it.
"The story you made up involves a lot of knowledge, which proves that you have a genius brain. It's a pity that there is often a fine line between genius and madness."
Yono looked regretful and said, "The most obvious point is, didn't you notice that your childhood memories were very vague in the story you made up? You didn't have many friends, and you didn't have many relatives. You covered up the memories of your normal period on your own. I believe that what you remember most vividly so far is the period when you were ill, the months when your condition worsened at home, and the various things that happened later..."
Xu Shen stared at him blankly, his expression gradually becoming ugly.
He couldn't help but feel a little shaken in his heart.
Could it be that what he said was true?
Is this... reality?
Is it a reality without ruins and monsters?
Skin peeling is electrotherapy, the seven major families are seven major mental hospitals... Is everything my imagination?!
Xu Shen couldn't help but grab his hair, almost pulling it out. The severe pain actually made him feel better.
But what made him despair was that the world before his eyes was calm, the white sheet covering him was still white, the stripes on it were clearly visible, and there was still faint dust floating in the air.
He looked up at his mother beside him, only to see a heartbroken expression on her face.
He suddenly thought of the ingredients his mother fed him.
Could it be that those are all medicines?
Countless thoughts came and swirled in his mind, and Xu Shen couldn't help but feel manic.
He roared, "Get out! Get out!"
"Xiao Shen."
Mom hurriedly tried to hold Xu Shen back, but was stopped by Yue Nuo.
"I was too talkative. He just woke up and I said too much. It irritated him. Don't touch him now. Go out first and wait until he calms down." Yono pulled his mother to avoid being injured by Xu Shen's random punches.
Xu Shen watched his mother being dragged out of the ward, pain in his eyes.
He clenched his fists and gritted his teeth, feeling as if there was a rage stuck in his chest with nowhere to vent.
Impossible, he absolutely did not believe that the world before his eyes was real.
But the pain he felt at this moment, including the pain caused by the needles in his arm breaking when he punched, was so clear.
This Jono is in two states. The other party constructs such an illusion through his ability, so a small investment can have an impact on the big!
However, no matter how Xu Shen called out or how he felt his body, he could not feel the slightest bit of power.
Without the power of the universe, it is naturally impossible to release abilities.
How do you prove you’re not crazy when everything you construct and think is called a “story”?
Xu Shen suddenly thought of a figure.
He couldn't help but look towards the ward and look around.
But I didn't see that figure.
Is it because of the conscious level?
"Yono!!"
Xu Shen suddenly roared.
Yue Nuo, who was comforting his mother outside the ward, heard Xu Shen's roar and immediately whispered a few words to comfort his mother. Then he opened the door and said, "Don't be excited. I'll give you some sedatives later..."
"Shut up."
Xu Shen interrupted him with a strange look in his eyes.
This look made Yono slightly stunned.
Xu Shen's eyes at this moment were extremely abnormal, filled with passion and excitement, a bit of nervousness, and also as if he was filled with hope and longing.
He whispered, "How do you explain... Maeve's existence?"
When the word Maeve came out of his mouth, Xu Shen felt so excited that his whole body was trembling, as if all the pores in his body were contracting and pumping, it was an indescribable feeling.
This was the first time he said Maeve's name in person.
It’s like the deepest call that has been held back for thousands of years.
When Yono heard Xu Shen's words, he was stunned, and then he showed a puzzled expression: "Maeve...?"
Xu Shen stared at him with blazing eyes: "Give me an answer!"
In reality, Xu Shen never mentioned Maeve. If everything he experienced was a reflection of reality, then what were the characters who were never mentioned in the "story" reflecting?
When Yono saw Xu Shen's serious and determined expression, he felt that this was a key point in the treatment.
His expression also became serious. He did not take Xu Shen's words as a joke. Instead, he walked to the side of the ward and picked up the previous medical record book.
He flipped through the pages quickly and soon reached the bottom, but did not find any relevant records.
Yono frowned even more tightly and said to Xu Shen: "Wait a moment, I will go investigate."
"I hope you can give me a satisfactory explanation."
Xu Shen smiled, appearing calm and composed.
Jono said nothing, but hurriedly left the ward.
After closing the door, Xu Shen heard Yono outside the door whispering to his mother about Maeve.
After listening to this, my mother was silent for a while, then she hesitated and whispered, "He...he really mentioned this name?"
"What? Is there something wrong with this name?" Yono asked puzzledly.
The mother was silent for a moment: "This is the name of our former neighbor's child."
Yono suddenly realized: "So that's the case, it's nothing."
"But the kid died."
"Dead?"
Yono was surprised, then thought for a moment and said, "That's normal. I've said it before. Everything he makes up has a corresponding thing in reality. Everything can be explained..."
Inside the ward, Xu Shen listened to their conversation in a daze.
Maeve...is the kid next door?
Maeve...dead?
That is to say, the Maeve that I saw did not actually exist?
When Xu Shen was confused, the door of the ward was opened and Yono walked in. Seeing Xu Shen's dull expression, he seemed to realize that his conversation was overheard, so he said, "You just heard it, the Maeve you were talking about is just your neighbor."
Xu Shen came back to his senses as if waking from a dream, and couldn't help looking at him: "You said before that the ruins I saw all had corresponding things, which means that the things I saw in the story all exist?"
"You finally believe that those are just stories."
When Yono heard Xu Shen's words, a trace of relief appeared on his face: "That's right, whatever you see exists in reality, and your imagination is all based on reality."
Xu Shen stared at him blankly, his expression becoming slightly weird and unnatural: "But... I always see Maeve... She is by my side anytime, anywhere."
Yono was stunned, and suddenly felt a chill all over his body.
A dead child, Xu Shen saw it anytime and anywhere?
But soon, he came back to his senses and chuckled: "Don't be ridiculous, this is impossible unless you keep seeing her body."
Xu Shen shook his head slightly, staring at him with a serious and determined look: "She has always been by my side, but I have not had any contact with her, but I can see her..."
Yono was shocked by Xu Shen's serious expression. He was stunned for a moment and couldn't speak for a long time.
During the time of treating Xu Shen, he knew that Xu Shen would not talk nonsense, which means that Xu Shen really saw the child named Maeve?
But...how is this possible!
Delusional disorder is not made up out of thin air; everything has a reference.
Unless... what the hell?!
