Volume 1 2009 Chapter 130: Could it be? Am I a scumbag?

Yi Haoyan's depression has improved over the past six months.

After taking the medicine, my sleep and appetite have improved a lot. Although I am still reluctant to actively interact with people, I can handle ordinary interpersonal communication.

In addition to Bae Joo-hyun and Bunny, I have also been in regular contact with Jessica from Girls' Generation. However, Girls' Generation has been very busy recently, so I don't have many opportunities to contact her.

So I still go to Professor Jin for psychological counseling once a week, for one hour each time.

This time it was also afternoon.

It’s the room at the end of the north corridor on the ninth floor.

Professor Jin was still sitting on the dark red sofa with two cups of freshly poured tea in front of him.

Everything is the same as usual.

According to the professor, this fixed time and environment makes people feel safe and easier to get into the state.

Every time Yi Haoyan came to this place, he felt at ease when he saw Professor Jin with a kind face.

"How are you doing recently?" Professor Jin handed the tea to Yi Haoyan and looked at him with a smile. His wise eyes seemed to see through the boy's confusion.

"Well, there's nothing else to do."

Yi Haoyan considered: "I don't feel any pain, nor do I feel numb. I've been getting along very well with the rabbit recently! Well, I feel happy!"

"Yeah." The professor smiled and listened to his description.

Most of the time he just listened, and would only answer after Yi Haoyan asked a question.

"I live with my cousin. Well, there's another sister, who's the daughter of my uncle's friend, and we live together in my cousin's house."

"I have a very close relationship with that sister. She is very gentle and we are like real siblings."

"I've been in Korea for half a year, and the only close friends I have are this sister and Rabbit."

"This sister is very beautiful and takes good care of me. She is really a very good person."

"But lately I feel like I've had some evil thoughts."

"Well, when it comes to women, mainly this sister and Rabbit, I feel a little impulsive... just like a man feels towards a woman. But I don't feel that way towards other women."

"Rabbit and I are currently in a relationship, which I think is normal, but I treat this sister as a relative, and I am even a little dependent on her."

"How did this happen to me?"

Yi Haoyan looked at Professor Jin with a bit of confusion, his face full of bewilderment.

Professor Jin took a sip of tea and asked slowly, "Have you ever had this kind of impulse before? I mean, before you came to Korea, or before you became depressed?"

After thinking about it carefully, Yi Haoyan shook his head: "No, it's not that I hate women, but I don't seem to have such a strong impulse."

"Let me ask you this?" Professor Jin changed his angle: "You are 16 years old this year. Do you ever have wet dreams when you sleep at night?"

"some."

"Oh, I understand." The professor smiled and patted Yi Haoyan on the shoulder: "First of all, this is not an evil thing. The saints in your country also said, 'Food and sex are also sex!' At your age, your secondary sexual characteristics are developing. The lack of impulse is a problem. This is an instinctive reaction of the body and a sign of health. Don't worry."

"Second, why didn't you have such an impulse before? It may be mainly because your depression was not very strong, but it lasted for a long time, so you didn't pay attention to it until you encountered a major stimulus and it broke out."

"Initially I thought you were depressed because of your parents' death, but now it seems you may have been depressed a long time ago, but it wasn't serious."

"Long-term depression will inhibit the transmission mechanism of happy emotions in the brain and produce physiological changes. This change will have a very obvious effect, which is the decrease in appetite and sexual desire. So you will say that you didn't have such impulses before."

"Then why is the body's reaction still normal?"

"Haha, that was at night, an instinctive reaction in an unconscious state. It's not under conscious control. So there's nothing wrong with your body, only your mental state."

"Then why do you only react like this to that sister and the rabbit, but not to other women?"

"This may be related to your own way of thinking. They are not your relatives, but in your conscious and subconscious mind, you perceive them as very close women. Psychologically, the relationship is very close, but not family."

"Rabbit is considered my girlfriend, but sister, I don't have that intention, right?"

"That's your conscious understanding. Your subconscious understanding is different. It's just that your subconscious is usually suppressed by your powerful rational thinking and acquired moral concepts."

"This, does it mean that I am essentially a scumbag???" Yi Haoyan felt like he was struck by a bolt from the blue.

"Haha, it's not you. Every man is like this. It's written into male genes and is a characteristic of human evolution. It's just that modern society suppresses this nature. You are already self-disciplined." The professor laughed and waved his hands: "And it's just a thought. There is no problem if you don't take action. Impulse cannot be controlled, so don't suppress it. The fact that you have such impulses now means that your depression is getting better and your basic desires are beginning to recover."

“This is a good thing.”

"Keep taking your medicine, keep exercising, and you'll be fine."

When he returned home, Yi Haoyan was puzzled.

According to what the professor said, did I subconsciously regard Sister Zhu Xuan as my girlfriend? No? Did I make a mistake?

I am so strict with myself, and this iron-clad guy who doesn't even accept a flirtation is actually a scumbag? ! !

Unacceptable, totally unacceptable!!

Yi Haoyan's self-awareness is confused...

afternoon.

Son Eun-hee and Bae Joo-hyun returned home one after another.

It was cold outside, but warm at home. After returning home, the two took off their thick winter clothes and walked around the house in slim clothes.

Sister Enxi wore a white sweater with a beige skirt and black tights underneath. She casually tied her hair into a bun, looking casual and elegant.

Bae Joo-hyun wore a black tight sweater with tight jeans and let her hair down, looking both cute and feminine.

Yi Haoyan looked back and forth at the two of them.

Both of them are dressed to show off their curves, but Sister Eun-hee's figure is even more advantageous.

But why does only Sister Joohyun look so attractive?

oh!

The lines of the neck and the rosy lips...

ah!

I didn't realize that Sister Zhu Xuan's waist is so thin, and the lines of the upper and lower parts appear to be very undulating...

Why!

I didn't realize that Sister Zhuxuan has small feet. They look so cute with their fleshy flesh. I really want to pinch them...

Yikes!

The eyes are so beautiful, twinkling.

Um??

Why does this look seem so angry?

"What are you looking at furtively!" Bae Joo-hyun shouted angrily with a red face.

"Oh! I noticed you looking us up and down. What are you looking at ?" Sister Enxi asked.

"Oh! I'm doing an experiment. I met with Professor Jin today. There is something I don't understand, so I came back to do the experiment." Yi Haoyan has always been honest in front of Sister Enxi.

"Doing an experiment? What experiment? Do you need to stare at us like this?" Sun Enxi didn't believe it.

"Is it really an experiment? I can't say for sure. If you don't believe me, call the professor yourself." Yi Haoyan looked honest.

"Really?" Sister Eun-hee dialed the number directly and walked aside to talk to Professor Jin.

Yi Haoyan turned around and kept looking Pei Zhuxuan up and down.

But what made Zhu Xuan feel strange was that the look in his eyes was not very annoying, but why did it reveal a bit of sadness? And a bit of despair?

Does my figure have such a negative effect? ! !

Sister Eun-hee was talking on the phone with the professor over there, and after a while she could hear a suppressed laugh. Sister Eun-hee apologized while laughing so hard that she couldn't breathe. The situation was too suspicious.

After a while, she ended the call, returned to the living room, looked at Yi Haoyan strangely, and her face turned red with laughter.

Yi Haoyan looked at her confidently.

Sun Enxi couldn't help laughing again and reached out to rub Yi Haoyan's head: "Oh my! My genius brother, why is he so cute! What can I do when he is so innocent? Wahahaha!"

Pei Zhuxuan couldn't help but look up at Sister Eunhee, with a question mark on her face? This was the first time she encountered such a strange situation: "Sister Eunhee, what's wrong?"

"Hehe, I can't tell you. Why don't you ask Yi Haoyan? Hahaha, I guess he can't tell you either." Sun Enxi couldn't stop laughing and waved her hand to leave: "Zhu Xuan! Thank you for your hard work! Haoyan is really doing an experiment. And he should be very sad. Please work hard for him! Hahaha!"

?????

What's going on?

Bae Joo-hyun was confused by this pair of siblings.

Staring with her beautiful eyes, she looked confused.

That night, Yi Haoyan kept looking back and forth between Sister Eunhee and Bae Joo-hyun.

Sister Enxi was very calm and just kept laughing.

Bae Joo-hyun felt a little embarrassed and changed into a loose piece of clothing.

Unexpectedly, Yi Haoyan's expression became even more lonely after seeing it, and he even slapped his head and covered his face with his hands and sighed.

Sun Enxi, who knew the situation, saw this scene and laughed so hard that she fell on the sofa.

Bae Joo-hyun's mind was full of confusion.

The brother and sister were puzzled for the whole night and said nothing.

Sister Eun-hee just smiled.

Yi Haoyan kept sighing and shaking his head, seeming to be in disbelief.

Bae Joo-hyun had no choice but to go back to her room and sleep in confusion.

When I was sleeping at night, I seemed to hear Yi Haoyan talking in his sleep next door.

It seemed like a very struggling dream, and I kept muttering about scumbags and beasts.

He was back to normal the next morning.

While eating, Zhu Xuan asked him who was the scumbag?

As a result, Yi Haoyan immediately got angry and his face turned black.

Sister Enxi laughed so hard that she sprayed out the milk.