I seemed to like doing things against this girl more and more. I always wanted to get her attention and always did things that seemed childish. I didn't know if this was the feeling of liking someone, but when I found out that He Xubei seemed to like her too, I got a little panicked.
As the class monitor and one of the most popular male stars in Y High School, there must be many people who like him. But he treats Yi Ping An differently.
Yi Ping'an was not good at studying, so in order to help her, he took two notes in every class and then pretended to give them to her as if nothing had happened. He would sneak a peek at her during laugh secretly when she was playing and laughing with her classmates...
If you like someone, you will pay attention to her every move. I think He Xubei also likes Yi Ping'an. If two people like each other but don't tell each other, they will eventually miss each other.
So I decided to tell her how much I liked her. I wrote a long Weibo post, telling her that I liked her. I also posted the photo I took of her when she was drunk. I wanted to see how she would react after seeing the Weibo post.
But what I didn’t expect was that several days had passed and she hadn’t even looked at it.
I was a little anxious. I was afraid that she would be with He Xubei, so I just confessed to her directly. I wanted to tell her that I liked her before He Xubei did.
On her birthday, I asked each of my classmates to write her a greeting card. I prepared a cake and put it on her desk. When she came, I would tell her in front of everyone that I liked her.
There was a hint of surprise in her eyes when she saw the cake. I told her at the right time that I liked her. She stood still after hearing that. I thought I might have scared her, so I told her not to be nervous. I started from the time when I first met her and told her when I started to like her. I thought I would eventually impress her.
But she neither nodded nor shook her head, she just stood there stupidly.
I think she was too excited.
I asked her, "Yi Ping'an, I liked you from the beginning. Tell me honestly, do you like me a little bit?"
But what happened next was beyond my expectation. When He Xubei saw all this, he excitedly pulled Yi Ping'an away, and he finally told him that he liked Yi Ping'an.
I was very panicked, because I knew Yi Ping'an liked He Xubei. If He Xubei said that he also liked Yi Ping'an, then I would have no hope , so I hurriedly chased him out. I couldn't let him say it out loud.
I chased after him, but saw He Xubei kissing Yi Ping'an. At that moment I could hear the sound of my heart breaking.
I rushed forward and hit He Xubei, and He Xubei reacted and also punched me.
I suddenly felt so confused. I actually lost my mind and hit the person she liked. She must hate me for doing this, right?
"Yi Ping'an, let me ask you, between me and He Xubei, who do you choose?"
Before asking this question, I already knew the answer, but I still forced her to answer. I wanted to hear her say it herself so that I could give up completely.
"I don't choose anyone, I don't like anyone!"
I didn't expect her to give such an answer. It seems that I still have a place in her heart. At least she didn't say she chose He Xubei.
But after hearing these words, He Xubei became a little dazed and accidentally slipped off the roof.
I heard her screaming and saw her terrified.
The result of this tangle was a tragedy, He Xubei died.
She slapped me hard on the face and said, "Li Ye, I hate you!"
Hate me? She said she hated me, but I didn't push He Xubei down, he fell down by accident. I just wanted to say that I like you, is that wrong?
This time, she was really heartbroken...
Even when her father passed away, I never saw her so sad. It was as if she was the only one in her world.
"It's all your fault. It's you! You killed him, you murderer..."
This is the only thing she says when she sees me. She always thinks that I was the one who killed He Xubei.
I began to regret and feel depressed. Maybe I was really wrong!
After He Xubei died, she seemed like a different person. She no longer cried or laughed, and her face had no expression.
I want to apologize to her. I don't expect her to forgive me, but I really don't want to see her drowsy every day, like a soulless walking corpse.
She didn't want to see me and didn't even give me a chance to apologize.
I followed her all day long. But I didn't dare to get close to her, because I was afraid of seeing her eyes, eyes full of hatred!
She sat by the lake for the whole day without eating or drinking. I was really worried about her. It was so dark at night, but she was still sitting by the lake. She must be missing He Xubei...
If it was me who fell that day, would she care so much and be so sad?
I lowered my head and thought so, and when I looked up again, I saw her walking towards the center of the lake!
Yi Ping'an, is this how you punish me?
I rescued her and called Ling Shanshan. I thought she wouldn't want to see me when she woke up.
I thought that if I confessed to her first, I would squeeze He Xubei out of her heart, but I was wrong. There is no first come first served in matters of the heart. She has liked him for so many years, but I know less than one tenth of her as well as he does.
I envy the boy who wore a white suit and played the piano in her memory. Why didn’t I meet her earlier?
Afraid that she would do something stupid again, I would quietly follow her after school every day.
Yi Pingan, I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm sorry...
Yi Pingan, I know that even if I say sorry 10,000 times, I won't get a single "it's okay" from you, but I still want to say it. I also know that maybe you won't see this microblog, but I still want to say it.
I know you are very sad about He Xubei's death, and I am no less sad than you. Although it was not caused by me, it is not . If I hadn't forced you to get an answer, perhaps this would not have happened.
But is it wrong for me to say that I like you? You once had a crush on He Xubei, and you know the feeling of a secret crush. Do you know how it feels when I secretly like you?
If you like someone, you have to say it out loud. I can’t hide it, so even after confessing three times, I still want to tell you - Yi Pingan, I just like you!
Now that things have happened, no one can change anything. I know you hate me and don't want to see me, but please be kind to yourself.
I wrote an apology letter on Weibo, I hope she can be kind to herself and not punish herself for the mistakes of others. If someone must bear the consequences, then I am willing to bear it all!
Song Jingyan actually confessed to me at this time. How could I like a person who appears kind but is actually selfish and scheming, and who chose to leave when her good friend suffered a series of setbacks?
I saw Song Jingyan bullying her, this bad girl! I will never let her go.
I hired some thugs to scare Song Jingyan, but I didn't expect that they would destroy her!
I realized that this matter had become a big deal and I had to choose to escape...
She lives in hiding outside, and I worry about her every day, wondering if she is still so sad and whether she will do something stupid again.
I saw her message on WeChat . She asked me where I was. This was the first time she contacted me after He Xubei's death. I immediately replied to her voice message: "Ping An, are you worried about me? Don't you hate me anymore?"
I wanted to hear her answer, but I was afraid to hear an answer that would break my heart even more. However, I was not heartbroken, because she did not answer my questions. She kept asking me where I was, whether I was okay, and she wanted me to go back and face my mistakes bravely...
It turns out that she is still worried about me. Do I still have a place in her heart?
But Yi Ping'an, I can't go back, none of us can go back.
It’s not that I’m afraid to face the mistakes I made, it’s that I’m afraid to face you again.
I see her messages every day. She says she couldn’t find me anywhere. She says Yangguang is dead, He Xubei is gone, Song Jingyan went to America. She says she has no friends anymore and doesn’t want anything to happen to me…
I left her a voice message and then blocked her WeChat account. Yipingan, just pretend that I never added you. This started and ends on WeChat.
Brother Hua is the organizer of underground racing gambling. I have been following him since the accident, relying on illegal racing on secluded roads at night to win prizes. He said he would race with Dagang and others tonight, and the prize money was very tempting, so I was a little tempted. I want to give this prize money to Yi Ping'an, maybe this is the last time I help her.
But I didn't expect that there was a traitor on Brother Hua's side. My motorcycle was tampered with and I was thrown out when turning a hairpin turn.
As my body rolled on the ground, I knew it was really over this time.
Blood kept coming out of his mouth, the motorcycle was burning due to oil leakage, and I heard the long sirens blaring.
I felt my consciousness drifting away. I seemed to see Yi Ping'an's face, the face on which I had drawn a turtle, the face that would puff up when nervous, and the look in her eyes that resented me...
Yi Ping'an, if it was me who died instead of He Xubei, would you be sad for me?
But what a pity, I can no longer wait for this answer...