Extra: I miss you, do you know? 06
I have thought many times about what the scene will be like when we meet again. Will he be with his wife and children, or will he be reminiscing about our past in front of my tombstone, or... I will never see him .
When he actually stood in front of me and smiled at me, it felt like a lifetime ago.
I think I must be so ugly now, wearing a blue striped hospital gown that is several sizes too big, no makeup, and my hair is a little messy.
He walked up to me and smiled, "Ai Ye, long time no see, I missed you so much."
I said, “Me too.”
Just like when we parted, we didn't cry. Instead, we looked into each other's eyes with a smile, but tears of mixed emotions flowed in our hearts.
Now he has his own Internet company and is well-known in the industry. Just as I firmly believed when I left, his future is bright and glorious.
And these years of my life have also been shining, but I don’t know when I will die, leave my loved ones, and leave the man I love.
Leng Zimo and I sat on a bench under the shade of a tree in the hospital, talking about the past, the present, and the future...
He had a really glorious life these years, with many women around him, but none of them could really make him stay. He said he would never forget the girl lying in the cold and damp alley, moaning, her troubled physique, and her inner strength. He had tried very hard to get over Leng Yuting, but after that, Li Wei was still in his way. Just like when we separated, Leng Yuting and Li Wei are our lifelong pains, and we can never get over them.
But he still came back after learning that I was seriously ill.
"I don't know why, but I'm very scared this time..." He said, "Ai Ye, let's have another relationship, just like before I left. Let's have a good relationship, live a good life, and walk together. I don't need marriage, I don't need children, I just hope you can be with me."
"Leng Zimo, I'm sorry, I can't promise you this time." He has been buried in my heart for thirteen years. When I heard such a confession , I was moved but no longer had my heart moved.
I had to start re-examining my feelings, and I had to admit that I... no longer loved this man.
You see, I am like Lin Feng, a person who thinks he is a love saint. But in fact, I am not. I have... fallen in love with someone else.
When the word "transference" appeared in my mind, I was a little scared. Who did I fall in love with? The name in my mind began to magnify infinitely, and finally occupied all my thoughts.
I fell in love with Shen Anzhi, my friend, partner...Shen Anzhi.
Leng Zimo asked me: "Do you have someone you like?"
I nodded : "Yeah."
He said: "The person you like must be an excellent person."
I shook my head. "Him? He is a man who likes to spend money recklessly and flirt with young girls everywhere. You know, he has a company of ex-girlfriends, and each one is prettier and more expensive than the other. I used to think that children from wealthy families were like you and Lin Feng, but after meeting him, I finally understood what a real dandy is."
Leng Zimo: "Then he is also a happy dandy, because he is loved by you."
When Li Wei found me, she also saw Leng Zimo. They nodded to each other, which was considered a greeting. She put a coat on my shoulders and scolded: "Why did you come out without a coat again? If Shen Anzhi finds out, he will glare at me again."
"Okay, okay, I get it. You've become Shen Anzhi's lackey now." I turned to look at Leng Zimo, "If you have time, let's have dinner together tonight!"
"Can we call the man named Shen Anzhi?" he asked, "Does he know?"
It turns out that men are also sensitive creatures. I shook my head: "He will never know."
