Chapter 97: Difficult Thoughts
Xu Shu stared at me with a hint of fear in her eyes. She said, "My sister, do you really like you?" There was even a hint of expectation in her words, hoping that I would tell her that her worry was unnecessary.
I said, "Haven't you already guessed it?"
Xu Shu's eyes turned into despair. She closed her eyes, put her hands on the steering wheel, and gently hit the back of her hands with her forehead. She looked extremely disappointed and regretful.
Although I have no feelings for her sister, I am still very touched by the precious first love of a young girl. I am now both annoyed and happy, and I cherish her very much. I have completely lost the disgust and resentment I had when I first met her. But when I saw Xu Shu had such an attitude after knowing the truth, I couldn't help but feel a little dissatisfied and angry. I thought, could it be that your sister's love for me is so unworthy to you? In your mind, am I, Tang Qian, really so unlovable?
Xu Shu finally turned around again, she sighed, and said: "Just now you said something about the guidance of love, you said you should explain it more clearly, then go ahead and tell me, what's the point of me listening?"
I was feeling a little annoyed, and all the things I wanted to say just now were gone. I was too lazy to say more. I just said, "It's very simple. Your sister is still young, and she does know what love is. She just feels fun in me now, and is quite interested in me. Well... it's like a child treating a new toy. At first, it's very fresh, and she loves it so much that she can't let it go. But after a long time, she gets tired of playing with it, and the novelty wears off. She will throw the new toy aside and treat it the same as the old toy she has played with before. Have I made it clear enough? So you don't have to worry at all, and you don't have to be afraid at all. After a while, your sister will naturally forget about me."
Xu Shu thought about what I said for a long time and felt that it made sense. He was a little happy, but also a little worried. He said, "You do have some truth in what you said, but what if she can't forget you?"
I laughed and said, "How is that possible? Your sister and I have only known each other for a few days. We don't know each other at all. She is a child at heart, and she is fickle. As she gradually matures and has more life experience, do you think she will still like an ugly uncle who is more than ten years older than her?"
Xu Shu burst into laughter again and said, "You're not that ugly! She even calls you Brother Tang Qian!" But now she was smiling and looked much more relaxed. It seemed that my words had convinced her. Xu Shu's worries were gone and she immediately became happy.
She was so happy, but it made me feel like a stone was blocking my heart, quite unhappy. I wanted to mock her for calling me brother Tang Qian, but I thought, forget it, there is no need to annoy people. I raised my hand to check my watch, it was twelve forty-nine, my god! It was almost one in the morning. I will wait until we get to Gu Ruoyan's house and coax her to sleep, then I basically won't need to sleep tonight. Although I slept all afternoon yesterday, the human biological clock is like this, and when it's time, sleepiness will continue to come.
So I said to Xu Shu, "It's really late! If you don't take me home quickly, I won't have much time to sleep when you come back."
Xu Shu said "Oh", and started the car again while smiling, "It's okay! I just came back from the American crew. This drama will not start shooting until March next year. In order to shoot this big drama well, I plan to turn down some other film and television invitations next year and make full preparations at home. So I will be very free during this period. Except for agreeing to record a new album with the record company, I will stay at home almost every day. So at worst, I will sleep in in the morning and not get up."
"Is this movie really so important to you? That it takes you three months to prepare?" I was a little curious and couldn't help asking.
"It's very important, but not as serious as you think. During this period, I mainly focus on familiarizing myself with the script and memorizing the lines. I don't have to worry about the performance, because I have the world's top director. I just need to do what he says. My English is not very good yet, so I plan to make up for it during this free time, so that my English will not make others laugh. By the way! Doesn't your fiancée speak fluent American English? I'd like to ask her to help me with my studies. Do you agree?"
I frowned and said angrily, "How many times do you want me to tell you before you remember? Hua Jingjing is not my fiancée!"
Xu Shu was in a very good mood. She couldn't help laughing when she heard the words. First, she laughed softly, then she started to laugh loudly. I don't know what nerve she touched, but she couldn't stop laughing. In the end, she laughed so hard that she couldn't even drive the car. She had to step on the brakes again and stopped.
She then leaned over the steering wheel and laughed wildly, unable to recover from .
I was inexplicably angry and asked, "What are you laughing at? Is what I said so funny?"
"Yes... I'm sorry... I... can't control myself... I'll... Hahaha... No, I can't do it anymore..."
Xu Shu was so exhausted from being laughed at that he even had a hard time explaining. I became even more angry and said, "If you keep doing this, I'll get off the bus! What the hell is wrong with you!"
Xu Shu shook her hands and finally recovered after a long time. She sat up straight, kept wiping the tears from her laughter, and said, "I'm so sorry, I lost my composure. Don't blame me, I... let's keep going." She started the car again, and while driving, she would wipe the corners of her eyes from time to time, which was enough to prove that she was really laughing so hard just now!
When I was angry, I wanted to know why Xu Shu laughed at me like that, but then I changed my mind and was afraid that Xu Shu would say something that would make me even angrier. I was afraid that I would not be able to control myself and would have an outburst, and if we ended up having a quarrel, it would not end well.
I held it in, leaned back in my chair without saying a word, and simply closed my eyes to rest.
Xu Shu's breathing returned to normal. After a while, she asked, "Are you angry? Why aren't you talking?"
I said, “No, I’m just sleepy.”
"Really? Then I'll drive faster."
The Lamborghini began to accelerate and quickly drove out of the mountain road and onto the highway.
Because of my silence, the atmosphere in the car suddenly became heavy. After a while, Xu Shu finally couldn't help it and said to me: "Are you really angry? Sorry, I wasn't laughing at you just now. I just remembered that my sister and I were hiding behind the curtains just now, and heard those wonderful performances of Hua Jingjing, and I couldn't help it again. I didn't mean anything else, don't misunderstand me!"
I opened my eyes and recalled that Hua Jingjing thought that no one was in the room, so she said those explicit words boldly, trying every means to seduce me to eat her. I was really embarrassed at that time, anxious but unable to speak out. That scene was really funny, and I laughed when I thought about it. No wonder Xu Shule became like that.
I couldn't help laughing. Xu Shu saw me laughing and knew that I wouldn't blame her anymore. She followed me and laughed.
It's fine if I don't want to think about that scene, but it's really funny when I think about it. I laughed so hard that I almost cried. Xu Shu laughed and said, "You're so annoying! You laughed so hard, and you blamed me for being sick. You're the one who's sick!"
I tried hard to hold back my laughter and said, "If you don't tell me, how can I know what's going on in your mind? You're so happy all of a sudden, is there something wrong with you?"
Xu Shu rolled his eyes at me and said, "You're surprised by what you've seen!"
The heavy atmosphere in the car disappeared as we smiled.
The car had already entered the city. Xu Shu suddenly sighed and said, "I think Jingjing really loves you. I've been classmates with her for so many years, but when have I ever seen her resort to seduction to get a man? I can't believe it. Jingjing is such an outstanding person, with such a good background and such a beautiful person. She is so proactive in pursuing you, but how can she not move your heart at all? I'm very curious, what kind of person is your girlfriend, who can make you, Tang Qian, so determined and so loyal?"
I suppressed my smile and felt a pain in my heart.
Am I emotionally loyal?
Not necessarily! Don't you know who I like? Just now in the study, although I didn't say it clearly, but my deep affection and my actions at that time, don't you understand? Now you say that I am determined and loyal in my feelings. What do you mean? Are you testing me?
I can't figure out Xu Shu's heart, which is as deep as the sea. This woman is very strange. Sometimes she can act innocent like a child, but sometimes she is so scheming that it's scary. Among all the women I have ever met, Xu Shu is the one I can't see through and understand the most. Just like being friends with her, I feel that sometimes she values me very much, and even begs and cries for me to keep me as her friend. Sometimes she also looks down on me from the bottom of her heart, thinking that I am not worthy of love at all. Even when her sister fell in love with me, she felt incredible and unacceptable.
I suddenly remembered what happened last time. Xu Shu seemed to think that it was a big mistake for any woman to fall in love with me. When she saw Hua Jingjing and I together, she didn't ask why and couldn't wait to break us up. She even spent a lot of money to bribe me. And this time when her sister fell in love with me, she even put down her pride and begged me to let her sister go. It's really strange. Am I, Tang Qian, so unworthy of a woman's love in Xu Shu's heart?
I didn't answer Xu Shu's question and fell silent. Xu Shu seemed to feel that it was the wrong time to ask, so he stopped asking. I noticed that the car turned a corner after passing an intersection and drove towards my home. I hurriedly said, "Wait a minute, you are going in the wrong direction. I want to go to Biyun Community."
Xu Shu was stunned for a moment and said, "Biyun Community? Don't you live in Huaxia Community?"
I was not surprised at all about how Xu Shu knew where my home was. After all, her brother and sister had been to my home before, and even her bodyguards had followed me there. So I was not surprised, and just said, "I have something else to do, so I won't go home yet. Can you take me to Biyun Community? Thank you!"
Xu Shu said: "Why are you being so polite? Where is Biyun Community? I'm not very familiar with some places."
Under my instructions, Xu Shu turned the car around and drove the Lamborghini to the downstairs of Gu Ruoyan's house. I was about to push the door open and go downstairs when I heard Xu Shu say quietly, "You're still at someone else's house so late, it must be your girlfriend? You and her... live together?"
