Chapter 90: Heaven does not grant one’s wishes (6)
In this world, there are countless things that do not go as we wish.
In the room, Yinyin sat quietly by the window, looking outside, as if she was deep in thought or in a daze ...
"Miss—"
Lei'er finally couldn't bear the inner depression anymore and spoke, because looking at the quiet Yin Yin always made her feel uneasy.
" Eh? What's wrong?"
Hearing Lei'er's voice, Yinyin reacted immediately and turned to look at Lei'er. Maybe it was because they hadn't seen each other for a long time, but Lei'er felt that Yinyin had become more beautiful, but there was always an indescribable sadness in her eyes, which was heartbreaking...
"No, Lei'er just thinks that the young lady's complexion seems to have improved a lot in the past few days. Madam will definitely be very happy."
"Um."
Yinyin nodded lightly, responded, and then shifted her gaze to the window, as if she didn't want to talk more. This was something that had never happened before. Uneasiness gradually surged into Lei'er's heart again. This time Yinyin came back, making Lei'er feel that the distance between her and Yinyin was so far.
"Lei'er——"
"Um, what is it miss?"
Maybe she was in a daze. When Yinyin called Lei'er's name, Lei'er was a little panicked. Yinyin's eyes had already moved to her, which made Lei'er feel even more flustered.
"How old is Lei'er this year?"
"Ten, nineteen."
Looking at Yin Yin's gaze and listening to her questions, Lei'er felt very nervous. She was no longer just feeling uneasy.
"Thirteen years already."
After Yin Yin spoke slowly, she fell into deep thought, which made Lei'er nervous.
"Lei'er is very cute. Girls of the same age would have already become mothers by now, right? Although Lei'er has been an orphan since she was a child, I am here with her now. Doesn't Lei'er want to find a perfect husband?"
"Miss!!!"
Finally, Yin Yin's words made Lei'er panic, completely panicked. This was what she least wanted to hear, and she quickly knelt on her knees.
"Lei'er, what are you doing? Get up quickly."
Yinyin was frightened by Lei'er's sudden kneeling. Even though Lei'er didn't have to kneel normally in the house, she was very surprised to see her kneeling this time. She didn't think it was because of what she said, so she hurried forward to help Lei'er up. But Lei'er knelt on the ground and refused to get up.
"Lei'er?"
"Miss, Lei'er knows that you are thinking about Lei'er, but ...but Lei'er doesn't want to leave you, nor does she want to leave Madam. Lei'er is willing to take care of you and Madam for the rest of her life, so please don't chase Lei'er away."
Lei'er pleaded to Yinyin with tears in her eyes.
"What are you talking about? Get up quickly and talk first."
First she knelt down, then she burst into tears. Yin Yin was also panicked when she saw it. She never expected Lei'er's reaction to be so intense. It was just good intentions. Yin Yin took a lot of effort to finally help Lei'er up.
"Miss, please don't chase Lei'er away."
"I didn't drive you away."
"I want to stay with the young lady and the lady for the rest of my life. I don't want to get married."
"How can this be possible?"
Yinyin's own emotions are already very confused, and she doesn't want to drag other people into the same mess as her. At least Lei'er is her personal maid, who has long exceeded the marriageable age, which makes Yinyin feel very guilty. If it weren't for her constant problems, she should have dealt with Lei'er's affairs first. She has been busy with the funeral since she came back this time, and now she has time to make plans for the future. Lei'er happens to be by her side, so Yinyin will of course give priority to Lei'er's future life. As a master, it is necessary.
"I don't know what will happen in the future, but you are different. You don't need to be implicated. You are a good woman. I believe there will be people who cherish you. Even if your father is gone, I can find a good family for you. The wedding will definitely not be worse than others."
"Miss, I won't marry. No matter what you say, I won't marry. I just want to serve the young lady and the lady well. I don't want to marry, and I don't want to leave."
Not only did Lei'er not listen to Yin Yin's words, but she became even more excited. With such a strong reaction, Yin Yin seemed overwhelmed. Seeing Lei'er's excitement, she knew that she couldn't continue.
"Lei'er, you only make me feel that we owe you."
Not continuing does not mean not saying it anymore. Yin Yin changed the way she spoke, and this method made Lei'er startled as soon as she opened her mouth.
"There are many things in the world that are not as expected. Considering the unknown variables in the future, why bother? While I can still help you, why not find someone you can entrust your life to? You don't have to sacrifice your life for me and mother. Do you want me to feel guilty for the rest of my life?"
"Miss."
Lei'er couldn't continue speaking in a trembling voice. Seeing Yin Yin's sad expression made her start to blame herself . In the past, Yin Yin in her eyes was so high and mighty, even a little willful and naughty. After going through so many things, the sadness in her eyes now was heartbreaking.
"Don't worry, I won't force you. I will only agree if you think that this is someone worthy of your lifelong trust. Before that, you can still stay, okay?"
Yinyin's sad eyes made Lei'er nod silently. Lei'er knew she couldn't refuse, for she was afraid that if she refused, Yinyin would be even sadder. Lei'er wanted to serve Yinyin for the rest of her life from the bottom of her heart. As long as it was for Yinyin, she was willing to do anything and could do anything. Besides, this matter was also for herself, so she couldn't refuse. She couldn't refuse the person in front of her who made her want to serve her for the rest of her life. She was afraid that if she refused, she would lose the opportunity to serve Yinyin forever...
