Chapter 9 You can not love me, but you can not abuse yourself
From then on, Zi Xin officially moved to Xia Boran's house.
The two of them went to school and went home together every day, always accompanying each other.
Xia Boran's transformation is so great.
There were more and more smiles on his face, as if he was no longer the aloof and cold boy, the boy who was so independent that even his sadness was quiet. His heart was slowly opened by tenderness.
He became more sunny and happy, full of vigor.
Zi Xin saw all this, and her heart felt even sweeter.
Their sweetness seems to infect the whole world.
There was only one person they couldn't infect.
On the empty playground.
The wind blew gently past.
The leaves of the camphor tree fell rustlingly.
The air is filled with the scent of flowers.
The gurgling sound of the artificial fountain not far away is like a pleasant symphony.
A tall girl gently brushed away the fallen leaves on her shoulders.
She placed a green leaf on her palm.
The sun is blazing, and the light shines through the green leaves, revealing the veins of the leaves.
She picked up the leaf again and tore it into pieces bit by bit with quick movements.
She was dressed in noble and gorgeous clothes and had a delicate face.
But his eyes were so cruel.
She whispered to herself, "Chen Zixin, I won't let you take Xia Boran away."
I will never let you take him away.
Her tone was so sad and the tears in her eyes were fleeting.
But--
What should she do!
What should she do to win back Xia Boran's heart?
Lan Yating was in a daze.
Her heart was in great confusion. Faced with such a situation, she was so flustered and at a loss as to what to do.
After a while, a flash of inspiration suddenly appeared in her mind -
She still has one last trump card, doesn't she?
The one who loves her, Xia Boran’s mother who lives far away in England.
Xia Bairan listens to his mother very much, doesn't he? And his mother likes me very much, so she will definitely stand on my side, not to mention that she is their family's designated future daughter-in-law, so Aunt Xia will definitely help me.
Thinking of this, Lan Yating couldn't wait to call Xia Boran's mother.
The streets were very quiet.
All I could hear was the busy tone on the phone.
The girls waited with bated breath.
She breathed softly, as if even her breathing was cautious.
After a while, Xia Boran's mother's voice finally came from the other end of the phone.
"Is that Yating?" the middle-aged woman on the other end of the phone asked puzzledly.
"Yes, it's me, Aunt Xia." The girl's soft voice sounded, "I haven't called you for a long time, I really miss you." The girl's voice was very well-behaved.
"Yating, you are still so sensible. You are such a lovely child." Xia Bairan's mother's voice sounded very happy. "Boran didn't even know to call me on his own initiative. If he was half as sensible as you, I would be a little relieved."
"No, no." Lan Yating explained softly, "Final exams are coming up soon, so Bo Ran will be quite busy."
"Time flies, and it's the end of another semester..." The woman sighed at the passing of time, paused, and asked in a puzzled tone, "Ya Ting called today, is there something you want to discuss with me?"
"Yeah." The girl's tone lowered and her voice was small, "In fact, I did encounter a rather difficult problem and I want to seek your help." Her voice was full of caution.
"Ya Ting, don't be so polite. You are the future daughter-in-law of our Xia family. I have always treated you as my daughter. If you have any difficulties, just tell me." Mrs. Xia's voice was very straightforward.
Her considerate words seemed to dispel the girl's last bit of doubt.
After a while, the girl finally spoke: "Actually...actually it's about Bo Ran. He seems to have someone he likes, and he's currently dating that girl..."
"What?" The woman on the other end of the phone sounded shocked. "Are you saying that Bo Ran is openly dating a girl other than you?"
"That's right." Lan Yating said affirmatively, "Not only that, he recently brought that girl back to live in the Xia family villa."
"Okay, stop talking." Mrs. Xia interrupted her decisively, "I will fly back from the UK soon. I just want to take a look at how Bo Ran's studies are going this semester. We'll talk about everything then." After she finished speaking, she hung up the phone.
There was a busy tone on the other end of the line.
The girl put down the phone gently.
She breathed a sigh of relief and looked relieved.
the weather is getting hotter.
The cicadas on the treetops kept chirping in annoyance.
The temperature has risen above 30℃.
The sky is clear and cloudless.
The weather was so hot and muggy that there wasn't even a breath of wind.
Fortunately, with the end of the final exams, summer vacation quickly began.
During this period, Zi Xin has been living in Xia Boran's house.
Her well-behaved and lovely appearance won the favor of the maids and the housekeeper Chen Bo, and hearty laughter could often be heard in the Xia family villa.
It was a joyful scene.
In a blink of an eye, it is already the third day of summer vacation.
Xia Bairan took Zi Xin to see an art exhibition during the day, and when the two were walking home, it was already night.
The stars winked mischievously in the night sky.
The lights in the Xia family villa were on, as bright as day.
The exquisite and luxurious crystal chandelier emits a soft light.
When Xia Bairan walked in holding Zi Xin's hand, he quickly noticed that something was wrong in the atmosphere.
He frowned slightly and looked intently at the sofa in the living room.
"Mother--"
Xia Bairan couldn't help but shout out.
Upon hearing this, Zi Xin subconsciously followed Xia Boran's line of sight.
She saw that there was a very beautiful woman sitting on the sofa in the living room.
Is she Xia Boran's mother? Zi Xin was stunned for a moment.
The woman in front of me looks so beautiful. She is wearing decent and luxurious clothes. Her noble temperament makes people feel a strong sense of distance. Her eyes are indifferent and she looks so superior.
Xia Boyan obviously did not expect his mother to come back. At this moment, he stood there in a daze, staring at his mother from a distance.
It was Zi Xin who was beside him who gently reminded him.
"Go to your mother quickly." She said in a low voice.
Xia Bairan came back to his senses and walked a few steps to his mother's side: "Mom, why are you back? Why didn't you tell me in advance so that I could pick you up at the airport."
A gleam of surprise flashed in Mrs. Xia's eyes.
She looked her son up and down in front of her, looking at him as if she didn't know him.
In just a few months, my son seemed like a different person.
Mrs. Xia was full of doubts, but at the same time, she felt so happy. She felt that her son was alive and well, with the vigor that a boy of his age should have.
He is completely different from the cold-blooded son of the past!
Mrs. Xia felt extremely relieved in her heart. She looked at her outstanding son silently with an extremely gentle smile on her face. She was secretly wondering in her heart, what was the reason that made him change?
She looked at the girl who was less than a meter away from her.
For a moment, she secretly admired it.
This is an extremely delicate and pretty girl.
Fair skin and eyes as clear as spring water.
She looked at the girl in front of her silently, but what she was thinking in her heart was that her son had undergone such a big change, and it was probably all because of this girl.
At this moment, she suddenly felt that she was not so disgusted with the girl in front of her.
She looked away calmly.
I secretly thought to myself that no matter what, I should first investigate the background of this girl.
The afternoon sun is scorching hot.
Office of the Chairman of Xia Group.
The light penetrated the curtains and shone onto the large crimson-purple desk.
By the window, a beautiful figure stood facing the window.
After a while, there was a light knock on the door.
"Come in." The woman said lightly.
The door opened and a man in a black suit handed over a bag of information with both hands.
"Chairman, this is the information you requested. We asked the best private detective to collect and compile it." It was an extremely respectful voice.
"Okay, thank you. Just put it on the table." The woman said softly.
The man in the "black suit" placed the bag of information respectfully on the table, then walked out lightly and closed the door again.
Peace returned to the office.
Chairman Xia turned around and she pulled out a chair and sat down.
Gently pull out the information from the file bag.
She looked serious as she flipped through the pages.
Sudden--
Great surprise filled her eyes!
Her hands were actually trembling slightly.
She quickly scanned the information on the documents, her eyes becoming more and more serious.
After a while, she slammed the documents shut.
My heart felt like it was being pressed by a huge rock, making it hard to breathe.
It was such a strong feeling of suffocation.
Her brows were furrowed, as if she was thinking about something important.
It was really hard to imagine what she had just seen——
It turns out that the girl named Chen Zixin is the daughter of the woman who died in the car accident five years ago!
This fact shocked her greatly.
Could it be that the girl approached her son Xia Boran for revenge?
Yes! It must be like this!
She deliberately approached her son, won his favor, and waited for an opportunity to be with him, just for revenge!
As she thought about this, she became more and more nervous.
We have to stop this quickly.
His eyes were bright and his brows were furrowed, as if he had already made up his mind.
Outside the window, the sky is overcast.
It is the prelude to the coming storm.
evening.
It was getting dark.
The wind was blowing violently.
The sky was overcast and the air pressure was very low, making people feel stuffy and uncomfortable.
It seems like it's about to rain.
In the Xia family villa.
"Why not? Mom!" was the boy's angry voice.
"I said no and it means no. You must separate from her immediately." Chairman Xia stood up from the sofa and pointed at Zi Xin who was standing timidly behind Xia Boran.
"But what's the reason? Mom! Zi Xin is really a very, very good girl. If you are willing to spend some time to get to know her..." The boy persuaded his mother, with a hint of pleading in his voice.
"Separate immediately!" was the tone that left no room for negotiation.
"But what's the reason? There must be a reason!" Xia Bairan was still fighting hard.
"No reason." A cold voice echoed in the air, "Do you think a girl like Miss Chen is really a good match for you?" Chairman Xia's voice was heartless and indifferent.
"Mom, I really like her, I like Chen Zixin very much." Xia Boran's voice was almost begging.
But Chairman Xia remained unmoved: "Separate immediately, there is no room for negotiation."
"No!" He uttered a word firmly and resolutely, "I will never separate from her. In this life, I only like Zi Xin and I only recognize her. I will always be with her, in this life, the next life, and the next life, we will never be separated!" Xia Bairan shouted loudly, he held Zi Xin's hand tightly, his body trembling slightly because of excitement.
"Stay with her and don't separate? Bo Ran! What's your reason for staying with her?" Chairman Xia's voice resounded in the air.
Xia Bairan was stunned.
"Bo Ran, do you still remember the car accident five years ago?" Chairman Xia also became excited.
As soon as she finished speaking, a trace of fear appeared in the boy's eyes!
How could he forget the nightmare-like scene from five years ago?
The approaching breath of made him feel breathless.
Memories immediately engulfed him like a tide...
He clearly remembered that his parents were arguing on the phone at that time, and he was sitting in the passenger seat. He just watched his emotional mother talking on the phone while driving. He felt that it was very unsafe, so he struggled to snatch the phone so that she could temporarily calm down her excitement.
But the tragedy happened at that moment——
Just as he reached out to grab the phone, their moving car hit a middle-aged woman.
He was so frightened that his face turned pale.
With a sharp brake sound, he saw his mother stop the car.
Before he had time to think about anything, he saw a little girl crying and chasing after him in the rearview mirror. He clearly remembered his mother's frightened look at that time. She looked at the little girl in horror. Then, he heard the sound of the engine starting again.
He didn't expect that his mother would step on the accelerator and drive away from the scene.
The little girl's cry echoed for a long time in the empty street.
That scene became a nightmare that he could hardly recall...
Since then, he has had a psychological trauma. He dares not drive, and even dares not cross the road alone...
"Son, you still remember that traffic accident, right?" Chairman Xia's voice brought Xia Boran's thoughts back to reality.
It was as if there was a small voice roaring in my heart.
No! That's not the case!
A feeling of fear instantly invaded his whole body, and he realized what seemed to be happening.
The truth of the matter was related to him, to Zi Xin, and to the traffic accident five years ago.
A great fear filled his heart.
He looked at his mother blankly, unable to utter a single sound.
It seemed like a century had passed.
His mother finally spoke again.
That is a nightmare-like truth.
"Do you know why she approaches you?" Chairman Xia pointed at Zi Xin who was standing there in a daze, unable to move.
Xia Bairan couldn't help but take a few steps back.
"She approached you to get revenge on you." Chairman Xia's voice was extremely cold.
"Because she is the daughter of the woman who died in the car accident five years ago." She finally told the truth!
"No!" Xia Bairan roared loudly, "This is not true, you are lying, this is an excuse you made up to break us up, right? It must be like this!" He shouted incoherently.
"But how can you be so cruel and tell such a false truth!" His spirit seemed to be collapsing, and he grabbed his hair tightly with both hands.
He doesn't believe it!
He found it hard to accept this cruel fact!
It won't be like this, it won't be like this!
Xia Bairan roared in a low voice. He turned around and saw Zi Xin standing at the door with a dazed look on his face.
He quickly ran to her and grabbed her arm tightly, as if he was afraid that she would believe this stupid lie and wanted to shake her awake.
"Zi Xin, listen to me! This is not true, it's a scam!" He was extremely scared and kept talking to Zi Xin who was stunned in front of him.
But that cruel voice pierced his heart again like a sword.
"If you don't believe it, you can go to the hospital to check it out!" Chairman Xia's cold voice came again.
Xia Bairan's hands dropped weakly.
Because he clearly saw——
A gleam of despair flashed in Zi Xin's eyes.
Such a heartbroken look appeared on her face.
"Zi Xin." Xia Bairan called her name softly, as if he wanted to say something, but when he opened his mouth, he couldn't say anything.
The girl knocked his hands down.
She fiercely covered her ears with her hands. "Don't call my name, Xia Boran, don't call my name!" She shouted in resistance.
Xia Bairan looked at her steadily, his eyes full of pleading.
"I hate you." She said word by word, emphasising each word.
After she finished speaking, she turned around resolutely and ran towards the door.
He did not chase after her because he saw that her expression was full of hatred and her back was so resolute that that resoluteness seemed to drain all his strength in an instant.
She just ran away without looking back, as if she was eager to run away from his life.
He slumped to the ground, feeling empty inside.
Outside the window, there was loud thunder and raindrops fell rapidly in an instant.
Boom!
As the thunder sounded, lightning showed its hideous face in the night sky.
The wind is raging.
As if trying to get rid of something.
Zi Xin ran hard.
She ran out of the Xia family villa in one breath and ran to the deserted street.
At this time, heavy rain came down.
There were already puddles of varying sizes on the streets.
Zi Xin ran quickly through the puddles.
The mud and water soiled her clean skirt.
But she didn't seem to care, she just kept running, running desperately. The nightmare-like scene just now could not be shaken off her mind! Her tears kept flowing.
She could no longer tell whether it was rain or tears that covered her face.
She thought she had found her own happiness, but she never imagined that it was just a mirage.
He turned out to be the indirect murderer of her mother!
How could she fall in love with the enemy who killed her mother!
Everything was blurry in front of her eyes.
She just kept running like that, seemingly not knowing how to stop.
She was like a heartless puppet, running wildly on the empty streets at midnight.
The memory awakens again.
The shocking bloodstains.
That harsh and desperate engine sound.
How could she forget such hatred!
But then, Xia Bairan's gentle and handsome face appeared in her mind again.
He carefully took care of her when she caught a severe cold. He beat away the gangsters in the alley at night and saved her. He took the heavy blow for her, with blood pouring from his head...
So many memories kept tearing at her heart...
The pain makes people want to die immediately...
If I die right now, will I not have to choose between my mother and him... Will I not have to make any more choices ...
Her vision was blurry, her whole body was wet, and her consciousness began to become unclear.
She didn't even notice that she was at a crossroads.
She didn't hear the driver's angry shout at her to get out of the way.
Car lights flashed.
Zi Xin suddenly felt a pair of strong arms pulling her into their arms.
Then, the harsh sound of brakes echoed in the lonely night sky.
Angry curses followed closely behind: "You stinky girl, are you looking for death? Die far away, don't look for bad luck with me!"
It seemed as if he had overdrawn all his strength.
She collapsed in the still warm embrace.
The warmth returned little by little.
She slowly opened her bright eyes.
Because of the rain, her eyes seemed especially bright: "Ouyang...Senior Ouyang!" Her tone was full of surprise. Obviously, she did not expect Ouyang Xi to appear in front of her at this time.
Seeing that she had regained consciousness, Ouyang Xi finally breathed a sigh of relief.
He picked her up gently.
She was so light, just like a fragile porcelain doll. He felt a surge of pity in his heart, and his tone was commanding and unquestionable.
She heard him say, "Zi Xin, you can't get wet in the rain anymore. You'll get sick, you know. You were almost hit by a car just now. Zi Xin, you can stop loving me, but you can't abuse yourself. Zi Xin, I'll take you home."
As he spoke, he held her tightly and began to walk. His tall and straight figure quickly disappeared into the night.
The rain seemed to be easing a little.
Ouyang Xi carried Zi Xin all the way back to the Ouyang family mansion.
He banged on the door.
After a while, the maid came to open the door : "Master, you are finally back." The housekeeper immediately came out.
Seeing Ouyang Xi's miserable appearance, soaked all over, the housekeeper frowned.
Afterwards, Ouyang Xi carried Zi Xin into the house.
The room was brightly lit, like two different worlds compared to the darkness outside.
Zi Xin struggled out of Ouyang Xi's arms: "Senior Ouyang, please put me down."
He laid her gently on the ground.
Her steps were a little weak and she almost fell. He hurriedly held her arm and said, "Be careful."
She looked around and found that the clean floor was stained with rain water. She smiled at him apologetically: "I'm sorry." Her lips were pale and her voice was very weak.
Ouyang Xi felt distressed.
He gently supported Zi Xin's body: "Don't say sorry to me." He looked into her eyes seriously, "All you have to do is take care of yourself."
Zi Xin looked at him gratefully.
"What you need to do right now is to go upstairs, take a shower and change into clean clothes, otherwise, you will definitely catch a cold." Ouyang Xi's eyes were full of worry.
"Okay." Zi Xin nodded meekly, then followed the maid up the stairs.
Her body was extremely weak, as if it did not belong to her own. She had just experienced such a severe blow that she was still in a state of dissociation.
then--
When he stepped onto the eighth step, without any warning, Zi Xin fell heavily down the stairs.
"Zi Xin!" As Ouyang Xi shouted at the top of her lungs, the girl's body fell like a beautiful butterfly.
He quickly ran to her, picked her up, and shouted her name loudly: "Zi Xin, wake up, Zi Xin!"
Zi Xin's eyes were tightly closed, and her long eyelashes cast fan-shaped shadows on her fair face like butterfly wings.
She said nothing.
Like a sleeping angel.
The midnight sky is extremely lonely.
The rain is still falling.
It was a starless night.
Xiachuan City Hospital.
The smell of disinfectant is strong.
The empty corridor was quiet.
Sudden--
The silence was broken by the sound of hurried footsteps.
A tall, panic-stricken boy rushed into a ward like a madman.
He is Xia Boran.
Half an hour after Zi Xin left Xia's house, he suddenly became frightened - he couldn't let her leave, he absolutely couldn't let her leave, otherwise he would regret it for the rest of his life!
However, he couldn't find her anywhere after coming out, and finally, the only person he could think of was Ouyang Xi. Who knew that after arriving at his house, he was told by his housekeeper that Zi Xin was injured.
At this moment, seeing that she had woken up, he called her name happily: "Zi Xin!" His voice was full of worry.
Zi Xin stared at the ceiling with empty eyes.
After a moment, she finally turned around and shifted her gaze to the boy in front of her.
It was a heartless and indifferent voice: "Please get out, you are not welcome here!"
"Zi Xin. Are you feeling better? I'm really worried about you." Xia Bairan tried to hold the girl's hand, but was shaken off.
Her voice was so cold: "Do you want me to say it again? Please get out!"
"Zi Xin!" Xia Bairan's voice was filled with pain, "Please don't be like this, okay? Seeing you like this, my heart really hurts."
"Pain?" Zi Xin sneered, "Do you know what pain is? Do you know how painful it was for me when I lost my mother? I could have grown up happily, but it was all because of you - Xia Boran, you are the devil who destroyed my family's happiness. Now you actually say the word 'pain' to me with a clear conscience, do you think you have any position?" The girl's voice trembled.
Xia Boran stood there in a daze. After a while, he finally came to his senses and continued to call her name unwillingly: "Zi Xin, that thing...that thing was really an accident, I..." His voice was full of pleading.
"Accident? Xia Bairan, is this your excuse to shirk responsibility and make your conscience feel better? You really make me feel sick." She looked at the boy in front of her with disgust.
Xia Bairan clenched his hands tightly together. He looked at the girl in front of him, who was completely different from the lively and cheerful Zi Xin, and felt sad.
"Zi Xin, can you forgive me? Please forgive me?"
"Shut up! Do you think I have anything to say to the murderer who killed my mother and then escaped irresponsibly?" Zi Xin was extremely emotional. "If at that time... if at that time you would have shown me a little mercy, then Mom... Mom might not have died." As she spoke, tears filled her eyes.
"It was you who cut off my mother's last hope of life, Xia Boran. I hate you. My whole heart hates you vehemently. I will never forgive you in my life. Please leave... Please disappear from my sight immediately!" She pointed at Xia Boran with one hand. She was so excited that she was breathing heavily after saying this.
Xia Bairan's eyes dimmed. He knew that no matter what he said now, Zi Xin would never forgive him.
He looked at her affectionately and left sadly.
He closed the door of the ward gently.
There was a sudden silence inside the door.
Zi Xin lying on the hospital bed seemed to have exhausted the last bit of strength in his body.
As the door closed, her body collapsed...