Chapter 9 Being with you is like acting 2
"I don't want to embarrass you. Most importantly, I want to maintain my last bit of pathetic self-esteem. I don't want to appear in front of everyone with a self-deprecating image. The exposure incident has exhausted me physically and mentally. I don't think I can continue in this school. So... I ask you to approve my withdrawal. I have carefully considered this matter in my heart." After saying these words, I lowered my head and stared at the illusory projection under my feet. There was a girl there, a girl who tried desperately to stand up and succeed, but was eventually stepped on because of a mistake.
"Well, since you have thought about it so clearly, I have no reason not to accept your proposal." I don't know how long it was before I heard Principal Huang's suppressed breath.
I understand that as an old principal with a rigorous academic approach, he cannot bear to see this situation happen.
Although Shengxi College will expel students who have made serious mistakes, it will never abandon students in need, and the principal himself has donated large sums of money to support students in need.
Unfortunately, my difficulties are not financial, but spiritual...
"Thank you, Principal Huang. Although I may no longer be a student of Shengxi College, I will still be proud of my experience as a student of Shengxi College. This experience is an unforgettable time in my life." I am very grateful to Principal Huang for his understanding of me, and I bowed deeply to this respected principal.
Yes, looking back, the short time I spent at Shengxi College is still vivid in my mind. Along the way, there were hardships, happiness, pain, sweetness, tears and smiles. Although I never thought that after paying so much, I would still be a loser and not succeed in the end, the scenery along the way was still colorful. Moreover, during this time, I also met two boys who were very important in my life.
Yu Muchen, no doubt, it took me so long to realize my feelings. Yes, he is a big fool, a big idiot, a jerk, who only abuses me and orders me around, but... he still cares about me and takes care of me in his own way. I can't forget his bleeding forehead and swollen lips because of the fight I just had; I can't forget his deep affection for me with a smile; I can't forget his crazy eyes because of his possessiveness. We quarreled for so long, and it was only in the end that we figured out each other's feelings...
Wei Tingyi, in my life, apart from my father, there has probably never been a boy who takes care of me and helps me like he does, who takes care of everything for me and worries about me all the time, but he can only be the second one in my heart. Love is a thing that has no cause and effect, and no logical relationship. It’s just that because Yu Muchen ranks before him, I can’t respond to his feelings. But he is still my best friend and my cutest brother.
In addition, there is Gao Yutian, the little follower who surrendered foolishly for love. Now he is not so annoying. At least he is the one who really cares about Yu Muchen. After I leave, I hope he can still take care of Yu Muchen as always. There are also Jiang Shuang and senior Anna, who comforted Yu Muchen in the cheerleading team without fear of power, and "Bald Yan" who is strict but considerate of students... These are my most precious memories, treasures that cannot be forgotten in the long river of life.
"Student Ding Xiaoxiao, even if you are leaving Shengxi College, I still want to tell you. The road ahead is still long, and you may encounter all kinds of troubles and hardships. I hope you can overcome yourself and don't give up on yourself." Interrupting my own thoughts, Principal Huang said to me with a wry smile.
"Yes, I know! Well then, Principal Huang, I'll be leaving first..." After taking a last look at the old man's wrinkled face, I closed the door of the principal's office.
Coming out of the principal's office, I took a deep breath. This was probably the last time I would breathe the air of Shengxi College.
I am afraid that every beautiful flower, leaf, grass and tree here will have to say goodbye to me from today. I can no longer ride my bicycle along the slope to enjoy the morning scenery, I can no longer lean on the desk and look at the playground when I am bored, and I can no longer watch the splendor of the stars in that mysterious little room full of telescopes without paying attention to others...
"Ding Xiaoxiao, are you okay?" Seeing me come out, Wei Tingyi took two steps at a time and came towards me.
"Hey, stay away from my woman!" While I was talking to Principal Huang, Yu Muchen treated his wound. Now his handsome face was wrapped in a white bandage, which faintly showed blood, but his cheeks were very pale. But I think Yu Muchen is very handsome, as handsome as Apollo in Greek mythology. It's just that the wrinkles between his eyebrows make people want to reach out and brush them away, but I can't... I can't do that now.
"I'm fine."
I forced myself to smile at them.
"Gao Yutian..." I called softly. From the beginning, Gao Yutian had been standing beside Yu Muchen without saying a word, his eyes full of sympathy.
"What's the matter?" He heard my call and looked up.
"Yu Muchen, his injuries are very serious. You, you must take good care of him." I said .
"Well... I will. I would do it without you telling me, but... you, what about you? As Muchen's girlfriend, shouldn't you take good care of him? Shouldn't you stay by his side?" Gao Yutian had a confused look on his face and was very puzzled by my instructions.
"Me?" I lowered my head and no longer looked at them. From today on, I would have nothing to do with them anymore.
In the afterglow of the sunset, I stood there quietly, and the three boys in front of me also accompanied me in the empty corridor. The shadows of the four of us were stretched long on the ground. Unfortunately, I stood on the other side of them. I did not belong to this school, nor to their lives. They and I were actually from two different worlds.
My shadow moved towards Wei Tingyi's tall figure step by step, and finally overlapped with him. I reached out my hand to him and slowly held it. All this happened in a very quiet environment.
"Let's go." I uttered these two words like a sigh, and without looking back, I took Wei Tingyi and disappeared at the end of the corridor, disappearing from Yu Muchen and Gao Yutian's sight, and from my life...
"Xiaoxiao, you..." After walking a long way, Wei Tingyi finally held my hand with an expression as if he wanted to ask something, but he swallowed the words back.
"I've decided to drop out of school." Yu Muchen didn't chase after me. I looked at the empty other end and said to Wei Tingyi in a vague tone.
"What? Drop out of school? No, you shouldn't do that. Actually, that matter... is not as serious as you think." Wei Tingyi shook his head.
"You don't have to persuade me . Principal Huang has told me everything I need to say, but I have already made up my mind..." I turned around and saw Wei Tingyi's face full of worry.
"So, what are your plans for the future?" He no longer insisted on his position and asked me softly.
"Plans? I'll take it one step at a time. Anyway, I have to find a school that will accept me first." I pretended to be relaxed and smiled. My smile must have been uglier than crying.
"Why don't we go abroad together? The environment abroad is good, the teaching quality is also good, and the future employment prospects are also great. Don't worry, I will accompany you no matter where you go. My family can quickly get a visa, and if necessary, I can also guarantee you..."
"No need... No need!" I interrupted Wei Tingyi's proposal , "Thank you, Wei Tingyi, for always thinking about me and doing everything you can to help me, but I already know who the most important person in my mind is, and who I like." I clearly saw the light flash in Wei Tingyi's eyes, and my heart ached.
"It's really happy and relaxing to be with you, but the person I like is not you. But being with the person I like always feels like acting, it's very difficult. I can't guess what's in his mind, and he can't figure out what I mean. We keep going around in circles and guessing, and it's really... tiring. I don't want to go on like this, so I decided to drop out and leave Shengxi College. Tingyi, can you respect my decision?" I actually understand that Wei Tingyi will understand me no matter what, no matter what incredible things I do.
"I understand..." After a moment of silence, Wei Tingyi accepted my idea as I expected, "I respect your ideas and decisions, because I am just your friend, I can only silently bless you..." Wei Tingyi smiled bitterly and stared at my face. His eyes were full of affection, but I couldn't bear it. He examined me for a while, and in the last afterglow of the sunset, his pomegranate-like lips imprinted on my forehead - this was the last kiss between friends.
"You must remember that I will always be your good brother and will always protect you. No matter when, you can come to me if you have any difficulties..." The burning temperature of that kiss and his magical whisper in my ear are my last and warmest memories of Shengxi College...
I left Shengxi College quietly, carrying with me my regrets and memories.
At the beginning, I was also helpless and didn't know what to do. Fortunately, Huang Ruo was still by my side at that time. After her persuasion, I decided to tell my parents and move to the small town where Huang Ruo was and transfer to the public school where Huang Ruo was.
Although the days after that were not all smooth sailing, they were still plain and uneventful.
Students in the civilian school are not like those in Shengxi College. They do not discriminate against people and it is easy for me to integrate into the group and become friends with them. What's more, Huang Ruo is by my side. She and I became classmates again, went to school together, and lived in her house. We started the days of Jiao and Meng Meng being inseparable again.
But occasionally, when I look up at the blue sky in the small town that seems fake, I still think of the days in Shengxi College. The people and things I met there, the flowers and rain I saw there, the bright stars at night, Wei Tingyi who looked at me intently in the dark... What I miss most is Yu Muchen. I miss his mischievous eyes, the smile in his eyes when he teased me, his beautiful cheek contours and his tall nose. Of course, I also miss the mouth that often spewed vicious words, the delicate mouth like a rose that could easily bloom into a charming smile, and finally, he had a lot of bad ideas in his mind, and he was so black-bellied.
Oh my god, I really miss him so much. I want to run back to Shengxi College right now, throw myself into his arms, and proudly announce to everyone: I am his girlfriend...
"Xiaoxiao, what are you thinking about?" Huang Ruo suddenly jumped in front of me and interrupted my memories.
"No, I'm not thinking about anything. I'm just thinking about what to eat when I get home tonight." I didn't want her to see through my thoughts, so I quickly made up an excuse.
"Nonsense..." Huang Ruo sighed, "You still want to hide it from me. Don't you think about how many years we have been friends? I know, you are thinking about... thinking about Yu Muchen, right?" She stretched out her white and slender fingers and poked my forehead.
Since Huang Ruo saw through everything, I couldn't pretend anymore and could only nod silently.
"Since you miss him, why don't you go back?" Huang Ruozheng sat in front of me with a serious face.
"I have chosen to leave and I won't look back." I pouted.
I am a person who is stubborn sometimes. Once I make a decision, I will not change it. It was like this when I announced that I had a handsome boyfriend, when I joined the cheerleading team, and now I am determined to leave. Therefore, I did not contact Yu Muchen again, and even changed my mobile phone number, so that I could completely disappear from his life.
"Xiaoxiao, don't be so stubborn. When it comes to love, it's better for both sides to make concessions. I think that Yu Muchen actually really cares about you, and you really like Yu Muchen. Since you two love each other, why do you have to break up? Besides, Yu Muchen is so handsome, can play football, and has good grades. Although he is not as good as Wei Tingyi, you don't like Wei Tingyi. My Xiaoxiao is cute and beautiful, with a great figure. They are simply a perfect match!" Huang Ruo paused and glanced at my expression.
"No matter what you say, I will never contact him..." I rolled my eyes at Huang Ruo.
"Oh, why are you so stubborn? The ancients said that lovesickness is the most painful. Why do you have to suffer so much? Don't think I don't know that you often stare blankly behind my back at night. You must be thinking about Yu Muchen, right? And you cry secretly behind my back, and I am embarrassed to expose you. Alas... The bright moon knows nothing about the pain of lovesickness. The slanting light shines through the red door until dawn. You are obviously not that strong, so why do you have to put yourself in a difficult position?" When Huang Ruo saw that it was useless to flatter me, she immediately used her best sad tune, coupled with her graceful voice, which almost made the people around her burst into tears. Those who didn't know would think that I had a shocking and extraordinary love with someone else!
Seeing some girls nearby looking over here with gossipy eyes, I immediately covered Huang Ruo's mouth.
"Enough, enough! Stop making me sound so miserable. This is my own choice. It's not a life-and-death separation... Do you think there isn't enough gossip about me in Shengxi College? Do you want me to suffer gossip here as well?" I glared at Huang Ruo.
"Oh, I'm just concerned about you! Besides, if you don't go to see Yu Muchen, I... I can't see Gao Yutian either! Yu Muchen always asks Gao Yutian to ask me about you. Gao Yutian talks about this every time he calls me. I'm so annoyed. You know I won't lie. Maybe I'll tell Gao Yutian in a few days!" Huang Ruo's face flushed when she mentioned Gao Yutian.
"I was wondering why you are going to such great lengths! Turns out it's all for your own good!" This time it was my turn to poke Huang Ruo on the forehead. Ever since she got involved with Gao Yutian, this girl has become more and more frivolous, and she has lost the feeling of a lady from a noble family.
"Hehe..." Huang Ruo stared at me and smiled foolishly, "It's for me and for you. This is a good thing that kills two birds with one stone!" Huang Ruo stuck out her tongue mischievously. Why do I feel that she... looks more and more like me? Is it true that "birds of a feather flock together"?
"Xiaoxiao, maybe I will reveal your current cell phone number to Yu Muchen someday." Huang Ruo raised his eyebrows with a serious look in his eyes.
"How dare you? You are so bold!" I pinched her.
"Well, forget it if you don't believe me!"
Huang Ruo pursed her lips and gave me a meaningful look. This look made me feel...
a bit dangerious!
Could this guy have given my number to someone else?
So it is absolutely unbelievable that a woman in love has an IQ of zero!
I silently complained and left Huang Ruo behind.
