Chapter 844: Promise is despair, courage is cowardice

"cannot?"

Nashida was completely confused. If Gu Sanqiu’s answer was “I dare not”, then she would find a way to encourage him.

But it’s not some weird psychological pattern.

“I’ve thought about this question before.”

Gu Sanqiu leaned against a tree holding a wine jug, taking a sip from time to time. He looked very free and easy, but the atmosphere gradually became depressing.

"The world is at peace. Even the once extremely prominent thousand-year-old families have been forgotten. There are even villains who dare to plot. That's because this era no longer needs heroes."

"I thought so at the beginning. With the things accumulated by my ancestors, there will be no problem living a peaceful life."

"As for after that? Who cares."

Gu Sanqiu deliberately concealed the actual situation. His real thought at that time was very simple, that is, there would be a tool person to solve everything in the future.

Then why is he in such a hurry?

“No matter what fate may turn out to be, there will always be someone to carry it forward. This era and the common wishes of the people will give birth to new heroes and hopes.”

Gu Sanqiu smiled and said, "This world no longer needs the Fengxiang family, nor does it need my Gu family. Perhaps expanding like the Yunjin family is the best choice."

"My thoughts at the time were very simple. As long as I didn't leave Liyue, there were very few things I couldn't do. I just wanted to stay with the girl for the rest of my life."

"Growing up with her, teaching her to make friends from all walks of life, and letting her live a happy life, that's enough. All I want is that simple."

"As long as she can live happily for the rest of her life."

The wine was finished, and Gu Sanqiu took out another pot.

"A long, long time ago, a small incident occurred in Wuwangpo. An old corpse from an unknown era appeared and caused trouble. I received her letter."

"When I saw that thing, I remembered everything."

Gu Sanqiu gestured: "If there is beauty in this world, with my Gu family full of loyal and brave people, we can at least live in prosperity for ten generations and a hundred generations of peace and happiness."

"But the most real situation is that they are dying one after another, and that good thing has not happened to me."

This is a chaotic, dark world.

Gu Sanqiu took out the heirloom eye and admired the dazzling gem in the sunlight.

"You try your best to avoid karma and disasters, but they will eventually find you."

"If I don't have the power, then they will have to bear all of this. Maybe there will be some changes before the golden-haired hope arrives?"

"When the changes affect other people, you say it's tragic, but when it happens to you, you hate your own incompetence."

"I accepted the inheritance, and then sent that old man to die again."

"The safety we enjoy in Liyue Harbor was created by them. Dad, Brother Xiao, Sister..."

"If this world is really that stupid (beep), then leave it to me."

"There are so many idiots in the world, the kind that would be better off just punching them in the face than reasoning with them."

"So everything has changed. I am too lazy to pretend anymore, young master. Anyone who dares to do anything weird will die."

Gu Sanqiu stopped drinking and took out a mint and put it in his mouth.

"Although it's a nice thing to express your feelings to a girl you like, it sounds too bad to have too many people you like."

"But it's just a liking, not love. I can still tell the difference, so there's no way to talk about feelings."

"Being together, sounds wonderful, right?"

"I can't, because I can't make a promise. I've experienced the moment of death myself, and I know how terrifying it is."

"If I continue like this, the tentacles of death will definitely wrap around me again one day and drag me into the abyss."

" Promises will become nothing but a piece of blank paper, and will bring the most real despair to those who have expectations."

"Maybe this is too much of a male chauvinist attitude, but I really think so."

"There's only one promise I can make, but I can't say it because it's too demoralizing."

Gu Sanqiu chuckled: "The promise is that after I die, the funeral will be handled by the maid. Others who come to attend can cry less and sprinkle more flowers on my coffin. It would be even better if they can dance around my coffin."

"If we die, I have to be the first one. What do the second brother and the girl think of me? All of you, move back a little."

Gu Sanqiu suddenly realized, "Oh no, by then it will most likely be a cenotaph, and I may not be able to enjoy the high-end treatment of sleeping in a coffin."

Nashida looked helpless: "Since when did sleeping in a coffin become a high-class treatment?"

Gu Sanqiu said seriously, "Compared to those whose bodies are torn into pieces, those who can be neatly stuffed into coffins and buried are indeed very happy."

"Okay, let's continue with the topic we were talking about. I already understand what you're thinking, but now I have a question. Do you have a lot of girls that you like?"

Gu Sanqiu corrected him, "I have a crush on him, but I'm not attracted to him. The last time I clearly felt attracted to him was when I had a fight with Jinmao's sister and was almost beaten to death. The time before that was when we were competing and I was almost killed by a fatal robbery."

"Well, these are the only two heart-touching moments that left a deep impression on me."

Nashida: ...

This psychopath is here again.

"I roughly know your action pattern. Because of your worries about the future, you basically block yourself from this aspect of emotion. However, due to the normal emotional needs in your heart, you break through the blockade and are willing to interact with the opposite sex."

Nashida frowned. "If we look at it from a common sense perspective, this seems to have successfully neutralized your thoughts and behaviors, but in essence this is also a self-protection mechanism that makes others think that you are normal."

"Is it possible to explain it this way? It sounds like a person with social phobia has to pretend to be a mature person who is good at socializing in order to earn a salary and have a family."

"That's about it. Essentially, you don't have anyone you really like right now, or you have a kind of... great love for everyone you know?"

Nashida said, "But you have never had the kind of true love that comes from your heart."

Gu Sanqiu quickly put his hand on his chest: "Who said that? I have everyone in my heart. They are all my wings."

"Don't interrupt."

Nashida tapped Gu Sanqiu's forehead gently: "I can't help you solve this problem, and I can't even give you an idea."

"You are not someone who grew up under the control of the void. Everything about every person, even me as the God of Wisdom, needs to be carefully explored in order to know their personal truth."

"You are not a coward, but your excessive bravery has caused you to show signs of cowardice and insecurity."

“Hate losing, hate tragedy.”

"If someone appears who you really want to spend your life with, you worry that you won't be able to be with her until the end."

"But I like people like you."

Nashida smiled and said, "I am increasingly tempted to invite you to become my first sage. With your strength and love for children, maybe you can also handle the work of the Flower Knight?"

Gu Sanqiu didn't quite understand: "The first sage, the Knight of Flowers? Is that some super rare profession passed down from ancient times that's very fierce in fighting?"

"That's not what I meant, but never mind. There's no need to rush."

Nashida stretched out her right hand towards Gu Sanqiu: "Come on, fly towards the sky for a while, maybe it can help you feel better."

Gu Sanqiu followed Nashida's advice. Staying under the tree would not help him complete the task of sending the boss home.

He quickly sent Nashida back to Jingshan Palace. Who knows if the thing in her head will cause trouble again. He had to go back quickly to ask his father and others for help.

Xiao Hei stood obediently behind Gu Sanqiu. Looking around, Gu Sanqiu breathed a sigh of relief when he found that everything was normal. After all, he didn't have to lose money or manpower.

Gu Sanqiu, who had relaxed, clasped his hands together and bowed to Nashida.

"Boss, I just had a headache and I was talking nonsense accidentally. Please don't take it to heart."

"Especially don't tell my dad."

Xiao Hei suddenly perked up. Is there anything that the weird old man can't know?

There's something exciting to watch!

"Don't worry, now that I've heard your secret, I'll keep it well."

Nashida held Gu Sanqiu's big hand and smiled.

"We are not strangers after all."

"We are friends."

"Xiao Sanqiu, before I leave, I will give you a message. I hope you will remember it."

"This is me, no, this is the first oracle given by the God of Wisdom 'Buyer' to all living beings in this world."

"Wisdom is within us, there is no need to seek it elsewhere."