After I finished the story, my clothes were almost dry. Seeing that the exam was approaching, Xia Nuo and I hurried back to the classroom .
However, when I bit the tip of my pen and looked at the test paper in front of me, my mind kept thinking about what Xia Nuo said to me.
Knight?
I looked at Shu Nian's back as he answered the questions seriously, and my mood became very subtle. If he really was a knight, then he must be a knight who looked bad but was actually very gentle!
Because, if he was not a gentle person, how could he pretend to pass by and leave a pack of tissues for a girl in the middle of the night just because she was crying?
Throughout the entire exam, I had no idea what I answered. I only knew that when I was still in a daze, it was time to hand in the paper.
After lunch, I returned to the classroom and found that there were no people around my seat. Just like the beginning of the semester, I was excluded again. But this time, there was another person in the same situation as me.
This person is Shen Xiaoxi.
The "aftermath" of that morning 's broadcast was that just when I had finally begun to integrate into the class, no one wanted to pay attention to me again.
Maybe everyone thinks I am too insidious. I appear to be timid and dare not speak loudly, but I actually fantasize about being with Xia Nuo.
As for Shen Xiaoxi, she heard some girls talking about her while eating. A former classmate from the same school told her what she did last year and thought she was disgusting. No one wanted to get close to her, as they were all afraid that they would become the next Bai Xiaodie.
So the current situation is that I am not liked by others, but Shen Xiaoxi is worse off than me.
Is this God's compensation and comfort to me, so that I am no longer miserable and lonely?
The three-day exam was finally over. The head teacher came to the classroom to inform the students of the date for collecting the report cards and announced the holiday.
Our winter vacation has finally arrived.
"Xiao Die." Xia Nuo turned around and talked to me. "Winter vacation is coming soon. If you have nothing to do, can I come and play with you during the vacation?"
"Oh, you want to play with me? Of course." Xia Nuo seemed to be unaffected by the story. Instead, he liked to talk to me more than before.
I am still very grateful to him in my heart.
But I don’t know how to deal with this strange relationship between him and me.
We seemed to be friends, but not really . We had fought together, twice, and I knew his secrets. But in the eyes of outsiders, I liked him beyond my capacity, but in fact, I just wanted to be as gentle and shining as him.
What kind of relationship do we have?
"Little Butterfly, go home." Shu Nian glanced at Xia Nuo and said to me lazily, "It seems like it's going to snow outside again."
"Ah, really?" I came to my senses and followed Shu Nian out of the classroom.
When I reached the door, I subconsciously looked back and saw Xia Nuo looking at me with a half-smile, a distant, indifferent, and distanced look.
My heart skipped a beat and an indescribable strange feeling came over me.
"Little Butterfly." Shu Nian called me.
"Coming." I stopped looking at Xia Nuo and followed Shu Nian out of the corridor.
As expected, it started snowing again. The previous snow had not completely melted yet, and the second snow fell. By tomorrow, there will surely be even thicker snow accumulated on the ground!
Snowflakes fell on my face, and after melting, only a cold feeling remained. This cold feeling was just like the look in Xia Nuo's eyes just now.
I always felt that Xia Nuo was very strange. He said that he had a dual personality. I indeed saw two completely different Xia Nuo with my own eyes. One was as warm as the sun, and the other was as dark as a dark night.
But why would that warm-hearted Xia Nuo also reveal such a cold look?
Could it be that just now was Xia Nuo's second personality?
No, no, that's not the case.
I quickly rejected this idea, because no matter how strong the secondary personality is, it cannot appear multiple times in one day!
I suddenly remembered something and stopped again .
That day, Xia Nuo called me to the equipment room. When the breeze blew his hair, I saw the bruise on his forehead. Then he gave me a cold look. But it was only a few seconds. He soon returned to the familiar Xia Nuo. Until he was beaten on the left arm by two bad guys with a wooden stick at the door of the equipment room.
After that, Shanuo did something very cruel to me. After I pushed him away, he fell asleep, and when he woke up, he became the warm Shanuo again. He told me that he lost consciousness the second I saw the bruise on his forehead.
If that was the case, then who was the person who accompanied me all the way to the door of the equipment room? If that was really Shanuo's second personality, why did he let someone injure his arm?
It was obvious that night when he and Shu Nian beat up those two men together, they were very skillful.
"Watch your feet." Shu Nian grabbed my arm and pulled me away, preventing me from stepping into a snow pit.
"Thank you." I thanked him quickly and stopped thinking about it.
As for Shanuo, the more I think about it, the more complicated it seems.
"Are you in a bad mood because of Shen Xiaoxi?" Shu Nian asked, "Or is it because of something else?"
"Shu Nian, can I ask you a question?" Although I didn't want to dwell on Xia Nuo's affairs, Shu Nian asked, and I couldn't help but want to ask others' opinions, "Do you think there are really people with dual personality in this world?"
"A person has two relatively independent and separate personalities, which is called dual personality." Shu Nian said slowly, "But so far, there are no more than a thousand cases of dual personality in the world, and less than fifty cases of multiple personality. There are more than seven billion people in the world, and these less than a thousand people with dual personality are more inconspicuous than a grain of sand in the sea. So dual personality exists, but you will never meet it. Why do you want to ask this question? Do you suspect that you have a dual personality?"
"Although the probability is very small, it is possible." I was puzzled. "For example, sometimes the same person can give people completely different feelings."
"Little Butterfly." Shu Nian stood in front of me, looked into my eyes, and asked me, "When you feel that the other person gives you a completely different feeling, are you sure you fully understand that person? In fact, everyone has multiple sides, and they will have different attitudes towards different people, but this does not mean that the person has a split personality. Indeed, many people like to say that they have a split personality, or suffer from other weird diseases, which makes people feel cool and feel that they are different."
"You mean... many people say they have a dual personality and act completely different, but they are actually pretending?" I looked at him in surprise, my mind was a little confused.
"There are still many people with paranoia at our age. What can't we make up?" Shu Nian smiled. "Let's go home! Look, the snow is getting heavier."
I looked up at the leaden sky, and large flakes of snow were falling down violently with such a mighty force.
Shu Nian said, are you sure you fully understand that person?
Yeah, I actually don’t know Shanuo at all!
When I got home, Shen Xiaoxi hadn't come back yet.
I didn't go back to my room, but sat in the living room, waiting quietly for Shen Xiaoxi.
I need an explanation - an explanation for how she exposed my secret in front of all the teachers and students in the school. I am no longer the Bai Xiaodie of the past, the Bai Xiaodie who would faint and run away when she revealed my secret.
I won't take the initiative to cause trouble for her, but that doesn't mean I will still be so cowardly as to allow her to bully me.
"Xiaodie, you're back so early. How did you do in the exam?" Dad came down from upstairs carrying a briefcase. He was a little surprised to see me sitting in the living room.
"Not bad." I glanced at him indifferently, not wanting to say anything more to him.
He pushed his glasses awkwardly: "Dad has to go out for a while, your Aunt Chen is out shopping, dinner..."
"I'll take care of dinner myself," I interrupted.
He opened his mouth to say something, but in the end he just sighed and walked away silently. I looked at the closed door and felt bad.
On the stage that day, I saw him crying. Was it because he saw me dancing to my mother's favorite dance, "The Dying Swan"? I wonder if there was a moment when he regretted marrying Shen Xiaoxi's mother?
I sat in the quiet living room, just waiting.
Ten minutes later, Shen Xiaoxi finally came back. She was a little surprised to see me sitting in the living room, because most of the time when I was at home, I stayed in my room and didn't come out.
She wanted to ignore me, but I called out to her, "Shen Xiaoxi, don't you have anything to say to me?"
"There's nothing to say." She said stiffly and walked up the stairs to leave.
I stood up, rushed over and grabbed her arm.
"Why did you do that?" I didn't let her escape. She had really gone too far this time. "Do you really want me to be hated by everyone?"
"Is it not possible?" She yelled, "I just want everyone to hate you. I just can't stand seeing you do well. I just want everyone to know that although you may look harmless on the surface, you are actually very sinister!"
"Do you think it's worth it to let yourself fall into the quagmire and become a person hated by everyone just for this?" I felt a little amused.
"Anyway, stepmother's daughters are all bad kids! Isn't that what fairy tales are all about? Bai Xiaodie, you are Cinderella, and I am the stepmother's daughter. The prince is destined to belong to Cinderella. If the stepmother's daughter wants to be with the prince, she can only find a way to make everyone hate Cinderella." She was a little incoherent, and a trace of sadness flashed in her eyes, "Obviously... stepmother's daughter also likes the prince!"
"Who said fairy tales are lies?" I felt very complicated. Looking at Shen Xiaoxi like this, I suddenly felt that she was also very pitiful, even though she had always been hateful. "It turns out that the person who believed in fairy tales was not me, but you, Shen Xiaoxi. Wake up, reality is not a fairy tale, don't do this anymore."
A feeling of powerlessness suddenly came over her. Shen Xiaoxi had always been a willful little princess. If she wanted, she could easily make the whole world like her. She didn't expect that she would be so humble now.
"Shut up! What right do you have to tell me to wake up? Who do you think you are? How can you talk to me like that?" Maybe my attitude angered her, and she became even more irritable. "What else can you do besides pretending to be pitiful? I really hate you, I hate cowards like you!"
"Am I a coward, or are you? No matter how cowardly I am, at least I dare to face my true self! I won't hide my true self with a mask and become a two-faced person who only knows how to please others!"
"Is there anything wrong with being nice and fawning?" She said loudly with red eyes, "Do you think everyone is like you, Bai Xiaodie? You act like the whole world owes you all the time, and you still have a father who cares about you. Not everyone is like you!"
"Don't mention him!" I was completely enraged when she mentioned my father. "I don't need the care of a guy who could be deceived by you with such a hypocritical mask!"
"You sound so nice, but you just want to keep yourself in tragedy and enjoy your misfortune. You only have yourself to blame!" She pushed me hard, "You really are annoying!"
"You're annoying too!" I said, "If you hadn't broken into my house, my dad and I wouldn't have ended up like this!"
"Don't push the responsibility onto me!" Shen Xiaoxi said, "Is it really because of me that you became like that? No, Bai Xiaodie, why don't you look for the reason in yourself?"
"Get out!" I didn't want to hear her continue. My whole body was shaking violently. "Please get out of this house!"
"Bah!" She pushed me away and quickly went upstairs, "You should leave. This is my home now!"
"You shameless intruder!" I never thought that someone could be so self-righteous.
"So what if I'm an intruder? Can't you allow others to take the things you don't want?" She laughed sarcastically, "Whether it's this house, Xia Nuo, or Bai Xiaodie, I won't give any of them to you!"
"Xia Nuo doesn't like you at all! You must have embarrassed yourself in front of Xia Nuo on the day of the celebration. I don't know what Xia Nuo said to you that made you take off your disguise, but Shen Xiaoxi, not everything in this world can be obtained by disguise and deception!" I said.
"Hmph, just wait and see!" She said harshly, and then with a loud "bang", she slammed the door.
I stood in the suddenly quiet living room, breathing heavily, my face covered in sweat. Only then did I realize that I had just had a big fight with Shen Xiaoxi.
All the words that had been suppressed in my heart were finally spoken out without reservation.
I can’t describe this feeling, but…
The frustration that had been suppressed in my heart for a long time finally disappeared.
Let’s start from today, Shen Xiaoxi, I, Bai Xiaodie, will no longer tolerate you!