Chapter 8 Pollution Chapter 54: Sea of Bitterness and Hope
"My memory is wrong?"
Xu Jingming, who was in mid-air, gradually calmed down, "It seems that the situation is already very serious!"
"At the beginning, I purified my mind and laid the foundation, and then I condensed my mind. I have condensed it eleven times so far." Xu Jingming pondered, "Condensing the mind is a difficult path. The further you go, the more you need to tolerate, and the difficulty of refining impurities is also increasing."
Tolerance, refining, and condensation.
The less tolerant it is, the easier it is to refine.
"I want to embrace the 'Dark Primordial Star'. The more information I embrace, the more deeply rooted the impurities will be. Every time I condense my mind, I need to embrace more information and refine more impurities. If I cannot refine them, a large amount of impurities will make my mind impure." Xu Jingming's face was solemn.
"Those who have inherited the 'Urobuchi' have no high-dimensional pollution and no abnormal emotions, but they still find it difficult to master the power of the mind realm."
"That's because..."
"If you want to condense the power of the mind realm, the massive amount of information contained is enough to evolve your own mind realm. It is extremely difficult to completely refine such a lot of information." Xu Jingming also understood why so few of the Void God Clan could succeed in taking this path.
Seeing the road clearly does not mean you can walk it successfully.
"Even if the Void God Clan is stuck in a bottleneck and has difficulty making progress, they will not lose control. After all, an impure mind is not a big problem. Many tenth-level source life forms do not have pure minds." Xu Jingming thought.
"But I've hit a bottleneck, and that's going to be big trouble," Xu Jingming worried.
"My spiritual power, on the one hand, must suppress the chaos of high-dimensional pollution, and on the other hand, it must also suppress abnormal emotions."
"The later you go in your cultivation, the more impurities you'll have! It's hard to suppress both confusion and abnormal emotions at the same time." Xu Jingming had a headache, "And now, I'm starting to have memory errors. This is a sign of losing control."
"what to do?"
Xu Jingming pondered.
"In fact, after my mind reached a higher dimension, the impact of pollution has been relatively small." Xu Jingming thought, the stronger my mind is, the easier it is to suppress the chaos of pollution. The stronger I am, the weaker the enemy is!
"Abnormal emotions are the big problem. Because abnormal emotions rely on my 'spiritual power'. The stronger my mind is, the stronger the abnormal emotions will be."
"And as time goes by, the abnormal emotions accumulate and have a greater impact on me."
Xu Jingming analyzed it carefully.
Abnormal emotions are the core key!
"Over the years, I have also tried to vent my painful emotions. Although it has some effect, it seems that the effect is not enough now." Xu Jingming's eyes were cold, "In order not to lose control, there is only one other way - assimilate it!"
"Assimilate abnormal emotions! Make it part of my emotions."
"Painful emotions are a part of me, and they will no longer disturb my mind." Xu Jingming made the decision.
He originally didn't want to choose this path, and had been resisting and venting his abnormal emotions. But now it seems that he has no choice!
"After experiencing all kinds of pain and getting used to it, pain becomes a part of me, and abnormal emotions become normal emotions."
"Then I shall be perfectly lucid again."
Xu Jingming looked down at the mineral planet , and then disappeared out of thin air.
…
Six years have passed in the blink of an eye.
Vion, an ordinary planet with life.
In a tavern, the owner Ning Wei was sitting on a chair outside the tavern, watching the passers-by. Suddenly, he saw a ragged beggar, and the beggar's eyes fell on him.
"Huh?" At this moment, Ning Wei felt as if his soul had been seen through, which made his face change drastically. He had too many secrets and he was not allowed to reveal his identity.
"In the past three days, I have traveled to 1,329 planets with life and observed billions of lives. The pain in your heart is the most intense I have ever felt in any living being." The ragged beggar approached, "Would you be willing to lend me three minutes?"
Ning Wei stared at the beggar in front of him: "What are you going to do?"
"I will possess your body and suffer your pain," said the beggar, "and then I will grant you one wish."
"Grant me a wish?" Ning Wei looked at Xu Jingming. He could feel the terror of this beggar. The most powerful people he had seen in his life were far less terrifying than the beggar in front of him. This made Ning Wei laugh, a little crazy, "You want to feel my pain? If you can feel it, then come on."
"Don't resist." said the beggar, looking at Ning Wei.
Ning Wei only felt that the beggar's eyes in front of him seemed to lead to a universe, and he would be lost if he followed him.
At this moment, the area where the two of them were was obscured, and no one else on the planet could see or enter here.
It seemed like only three minutes.
But with Xu Jingming's spiritual power, he spent 532 years in Ning Wei's memory, transformed into Ning Wei, and experienced everything he experienced.
Wait for three minutes to pass.
Ning Wei suddenly woke up, and saw the beggar in front of him laughing crazily: "In the endless sea of suffering, you still don't give up hope? Hahaha, just like a donkey, looking at the carrot in front of it, it keeps running forward, running and running, and running until it dies, the donkey will still be looking at the carrot and will never be able to eat it."
"It's the same with you." The beggar pointed at Ning Wei, "Always looking at hope, but never able to touch it."
"Without hope, you would have committed suicide long ago. But it is because of hope that you have experienced more pain." The beggar smiled strangely, "Your relatives died, your hometown was slaughtered, your civilization was shattered, and you were escorted to a slave planet as a star life. You joined the rebels, and the rebels failed again and again... Your heart has been broken and you have been a walking corpse. How can you still hold on? Just because of that little bit of hope?"
Xu Jingming laughed so hard that his eyes turned red.
"I am unwilling to die like this . I want revenge, no matter the cost!" Ning Wei stared at Xu Jingming.
"Haha, I feel the same way." Xu Jingming laughed, and his laugh was a little crazy. Using the method of the mind, my heart merged into his body. In three minutes, I felt the pain of Ning Wei's life. Most source lives would go crazy, but Xu Jingming had already gotten used to it.
In the past six years, he has traveled from planet to planet in the universe, watching countless creatures with his eyes, looking for the creatures with the most intense emotions of pain. At first, he was greatly stimulated, but after being possessed again and again, Xu Jingming also became crazy.
They would even rather be like beggars and be discriminated against and hated by countless living beings.
Although Xu Jingming is immersed in various pains every day, he has already adapted to it, and the impact of extremely painful emotions has become weak.
"Your wish is revenge, right?" Xu Jingming looked at him.
"Yes." Ning Wei looked at Xu Jingming, "If you have read my memories, you should know what I want most."
"You want all the enemies who slaughtered your people in your hometown to die!" Xu Jingming nodded, "Okay, 325 years ago, all the executioners who slaughtered your hometown, as long as they are still alive. I will kill them all, leaving no one alive."
Ning Wei couldn't believe it. Could the other party really do it?
"If you go collect information tomorrow, you will find out about their deaths." The beggar turned and left.
More than three hundred years ago, there were a total of 739 star creatures who carried out the massacre and have not died of old age. Among them, there are two eighth-level star creatures.
Although the massacre was a secret, and although the 739 of them were scattered throughout the galaxy, Xu Jingming was able to search for a lot of secret intelligence by traveling from planet to planet, and he was able to investigate thoroughly and lock on to one target after another.
Within one day, all 739 people died.
Whether it is an eighth-level star life who commands a space fleet, a royal descendant of noble status, or a businessman traveling to other star alliances for trade.
All the star creatures who carried out the massacre at that time died.
The rebels had always regarded these people as targets for revenge, so naturally they quickly collected information about most of the other deaths.
"Are all these executioners dead?"
"That demon is dead too?"
Many rebels were confused.
"Haha, dead, all dead."
Ning Wei received information from the rebels in the tavern, and after muttering to himself for an hour at night, he committed suicide. When he finally touched hope, he no longer had the strength to live.
Xu Jingming, like a beggar, stood outside the tavern, silently watching Ning Wei, who had gotten what he wanted, finally choose to commit suicide.
"This is your final outcome. Death is actually a relief for you?" The beggar smiled. "What's the point of suffering? No matter how great the suffering is, as long as there is a little hope... you can withstand it."
"The sea of suffering is endless, but there is a boat that can take you across. The name of the boat is 'hope'."
“But in fact, without hope, pain will turn into despair. There will be no more pain.” Xu Jingming laughed crazily, “Hope is a boat, and hope is also the source of pain, hahahaha…”
"Next."
Xu Jingming continued to wander in the universe, searching among the planets with life, looking for one where the emotion of pain was strong enough, and then possessing the body to feel it.
Although he seemed to be getting crazier and crazier, and felt the difficulties of those people's lives for just three minutes each time, Xu Jingming was actually getting more sober. The impact of abnormal pain on him was getting smaller and smaller.
He knew exactly what he was doing.
"I am in a sea of suffering, but I still have hope." Xu Jingming also has his own concerns in his heart.
In recent years, he has not been close to his hometown or visited his family.
"One day, I will solve the pollution and the troubles of abnormal emotions."
…
Xu Jingming walked around like a beggar.
"Would you lend me three minutes?" Xu Jingming said every time he found a place where the pain was strong enough. "I will grant you one wish."
Xu Jingming fulfilled the wishes of these people in distress time and time again, and he gained some insights by watching what they did after their wishes were fulfilled.
Finally one day.
Xu Jingming, like a beggar, was walking in the city, but he saw three figures appearing in front of him.
One is the deputy dean of Chi Meng, one is the deputy island master of Fan Xi, and one is the guard of Baiyu.
"The managers of the three most powerful forces have come together." Xu Jingming looked at them and smiled, "Is it because I have caused too much trouble in the past six years?"
"Junior brother." Vice Dean Chi Meng frowned slightly, "You have lost control."
"Out of control? No!" Xu Jingming smiled happily, "I feel more sober than ever before."
