Chapter 8: Magpie 04
I think days like this are nice.
The mosquito finally came back, and my world was no longer as empty as before. My friends came back one by one. In my heart, the friendship I bought with 600,000 yuan cannot be measured by money.
Time passes, the years go by, the broken heart, the tears shed, the smiles flashed by because of that relationship cannot be exchanged for money.
I have very few classes these days, so when I have free time, I either go to the bar or go back home. I go see Weiwei, chat with her, and then go home to see my mother. She is still the same, she likes to stare at one place in a daze, she doesn't talk much, and she still looks depressed.
Before the incident at home, I especially loved to see my mother in a quiet state, and I felt that she exuded an elegant temperament. But now, I don’t like to see her like this at all. That quiet expression makes me panic. I am afraid that her depression will become more and more serious. Medicine and treatment seem to have no effect on her. Sometimes, I really don’t know what to do, and I don’t know how to make her happy.
I have never had much time to go back to my hometown, but every time I go back, it takes me several days to get out of that atmosphere, and my head hurts more and more.
Another weekend, I fell asleep in the backstage of the bar holding the recent account book.
As midnight approaches, the hustle and bustle outside has nothing to do with me. I just lie here, calculating the accounts one by one, watching the time slip through my fingertips, counting the scratches on the diary, and calculating how long is left in the year.
Mosquito is very capable. Although she dropped out of school very early, she has been through the world and is better at reading people's expressions and understanding customers' preferences than many of us. She is an excellent boss lady. At least, during the time when Weiwei was away, she was more suitable to be a boss lady than me.
Not long after I fell asleep, I heard someone knocking on the door. Then Mosquito came in and told me that his friends were coming over and asked me to go out for a while.
In City A, I have very few friends. The people I interact with the most are Mosquito and Xiaoba and his friends. At best, there are a few roommates, Mo Beibei who helps me hide my secrets, and those few people I don’t know who to count as.
Anyway, when that group of people came to hang out, they would always claim to be my friends, and I was too lazy to argue. So, it seemed like I had a lot of friends.
In the corner outside, a group of people sat around a large round table. I took a quick look and saw that it was always the same group of people. Counting from left to right, Leng Zimo, Ji Yusheng, Leng Yuting, Lin Feng, Mo Beibei, Cai Miao, An Jia, Chen Yisan, it seemed that it was always the same group of people.
Are they all my "friends"? Well, sort of! This group of friends once came to the bar with Leng Yuting, who looked reluctant, to apologize to me. Since then, they have come here to sit for a while almost every week, but they always come in groups of three or four, and it is rare for them to come together like today. I changed my mind and thought that they had just finished their exams and were about to have winter vacation. I guess they wanted to have a good reunion before returning to their hometown!
When I think of the winter vacation, I feel sad that several months have passed.
After the winter vacation, it will be half a year. In another half a year, there will be one more Li Wei among the people gathered here.
Yes, almost all the people I have interacted with recently have arrived, except for Weiwei. If Weiwei were here, she would be as happy as Xiaoba and the others when she saw how good her bar business is. Mosquito acted like a "boss lady" and served drinks and snacks to everyone. I was also pushed to the front of the group, with a smile on my face, and found a seat to sit down.
However, I was embarrassed to find that the seating arrangement of this group of people was very confusing and I had no idea where to sit.
If I sit with Cai Miao and the others, but the three girls in the dormitory are like conjoined twins, I am too embarrassed to get in; if I sit with Mo Beibei, Lin Feng next to her keeps looking at me with resentment, and Leng Yuting is right next to them. If I really go over, I will be glared at, and I really don't want to make myself look bad; if I go to stay with Ji Yusheng? Leng Yuting is there too. To be honest, she came to apologize to me last time, but looking at her expression today, she doesn't look like she doesn't care about anything with me.
There was no seat available, and I was considering whether to ask Xiaoba to help me get the leather chair in the lounge as an extra seat, when I suddenly felt a chill on my hand, and I was pulled over and sat down next to Leng Zimo.
In fact, the place I least want to sit is next to Leng Zimo. It’s too embarrassing.
I always felt that there was something unclear between me and Leng Zimo. I always wanted to avoid him, but I couldn't help but accept his help and care for me. The two of us became more and more entangled. In addition, Leng Yuting revealed the fact that Leng Zimo and I hugged each other last time, which made it even more difficult for me to face this person.
I know clearly that no matter whether it is Lin Feng in the past or Leng Zimo in the present, it is impossible for me to develop feelings for them, because once feelings are involved, commitment is needed, and commitment means giving hope for a lifetime, and my life is too short.
I sat stiffly beside Leng Zimo, eating lazily and thinking about random things.
Suddenly my face felt hot and my heart trembled violently. I looked up and saw Leng Zimo smiling and putting his head close to my ear, whispering softly.
"I haven't seen you for half a month. You seem to have gained some weight!"
A sneer came from my ears, and my breathing was disturbed by the hot air blowing in my ears. I don’t know if it was because the temperature in the bar was too high or because of the alcohol, but my face felt hot and my mind was fuzzy. I chewed the peanuts that Leng Zimo handed over and asked stupidly, "Is it bad to be fat? It's ugly?"
At the dinner table, everyone was gathered in groups of three or four chatting and laughing. My mind was in a mess and I didn't realize that my actions could easily be misunderstood.
"It's not bad! You were too thin before. It's better to be a little fatter now. At least your face looks rosy!"
Leng Zimo's smile was full of meaning. I smiled at him, turned my head away, and concentrated on eating peanuts. The two of us didn't speak again. Leng Zimo's hands were very beautiful, slender and white, and the posture of peeling peanuts was very elegant. I looked at the peanuts piled in front of me, stunned, and my hands uncontrollably stuffed those peanuts into my mouth one after another. My head was in a mess, and my heart was also in a mess.
We shouldn't be like this, but I can't think of any reason why we shouldn't be like this.
Someone like me who is destined to leave early does not deserve to enjoy such silently surging tenderness.
After sitting for a while, there were only a few people left at our table, as everyone else went to dance. Looking at Leng Zimo, who was concentrating on peeling peanuts, and then looking at Lin Feng, who was staring at me from a few seats away, and then looking at Mo Beibei, who was next to Lin Feng and kept looking back and forth between me, Lin Feng, and Leng Zimo, worriedly, the scene was really awkward and chaotic.
I made an excuse to go to the bathroom and washed my face with cold water until the blush on my face was almost gone. Then I breathed a sigh of relief and felt much more awake.
As soon as I went out and turned the corner, I saw two familiar figures pushing and shoving in the dim corner.
I stood quietly in the dark place, watching Leng Yuting, who was laughing so hard that her body was shaking, push Ji Yusheng against the wall in a domineering manner and kiss him forcefully.
The two figures were entangled together, one pressed tightly, the other not pushing away. The kiss was very hot.
My eyes began to sour again, and the voice of a girl pretending to be strong but choking echoed in my ears -
"Ye Zi, do you know the taste of love? You've been in love with Lin Feng before, so you should know something about it, isn't it bittersweet? It's a pity that my love has just sprouted but is destined to never blossom and bear fruit. Please tell Ji Yusheng that I don't like him, not at all, not at all. Tell him not to contact me anymore. Give him the phone back and tell him not to contact me anymore. Don't tell him that I'm locked up here. Tell him that I went to France to play with my boyfriend, so that he will give up, heh."
Weiwei, did you see that? He has given up, Ji Yusheng has given up on you.
Apart from her family background, Li Wei is no worse than Leng Yuting, not at all.
However, Weiwei seems to be heartless, but she is more afraid of owing others than anyone else. She is afraid that she is not worthy of Ji Yusheng!
She was afraid, so she could only push him away. However, some people, once pushed away, can never come back.
Weiwei, my dear Weiwei...
