Chapter 8: Dust in the Flame 05
It turns out he had seen through me a long time ago.
I looked up and saw the expectation for me in his dark eyes. I knew he didn't want me to plead for Lin Yonghe, but I couldn't help but say it, not for Lin Xiang, but for him.
This hatred should end.
"Qi Yuan, let it go. The person who really killed Uncle Ning is already dead, and all the grudges should be gone. Uncle Lin was certainly wrong, but if he didn't know that what he did was wrong, how could he help Aunt Ning? Lin Xiang told me..."
"Shut up, Tong Shuchen!" he yelled at me.
I didn't even blink, and my palms were sweating from nervousness: "Lin Xiang told me that she would persuade Uncle Lin to come and apologize to you in person. The judicial authorities will naturally judge what he did wrong."
"Tong Shuchen, I told you to shut up, did you hear me?" Ning Qiyuan stared at me with red eyes, and sparks seemed to be spewing out of his eyes.
My heart ached again, but I still finished what I wanted to say: "Qiyuan, let's stop here. Don't go on. It's just a cycle of revenge..." Before I could finish my words, my jaw suddenly hurt, forcing me to look down at him.
Ning Qiyuan tightly grasped my chin. He squeezed it as hard as if he wanted to crush my bones. My face was clearly reflected in his eyes, with disappointment, heartache, and sadness. He said, "I told you not to say it, why did you still say it?"
"Tong Shuchen, why are you always like this? Do you think you are a saint, a savior? Can you save everyone? You were like this to me two years ago, like this to Jiang Sijin, and now you are like this to Lin Xiang! How can there be someone in the world as kind-hearted and soft-hearted as you! Do you know how much I hate you for being like this?" Ning Qiyuan stared at me, as if tears would flow out of his eyes the next moment.
My tears immediately welled up, falling drop by drop. I didn't know if it was because he pinched me too hard or because I was heartbroken. I held his hand tremblingly and said, "Qi Yuan, I don't want you to..."
He let me go. I lay weakly on the sofa. He looked extremely angry: "Do you know what you are talking about? Tong Shuchen, you must not know? If I tell you that Uncle Tong's death is also related to this incident, will you still say such a thing!"
"What did you say?" I looked at him suddenly, and my heart skipped a beat. "Qi Yuan, say it again!"
He looked me in the eyes and said word by word, "I have already checked everything out. Uncle Tong was secretly killed by Jiang Zhongyuan because he had doubts about the cause of my father's death! His death was not an accident at all!"
It was like something suddenly exploded in my ears, my mind went blank, my ears were buzzing, and his voice was still in my ears.
"I originally planned not to tell you for the rest of my life, but you really disappoint me."
I was trembling silently. I tried to suppress it and calm myself down. But I couldn't. My mind couldn't help but think of the words my father wrote in his diary. My father wrote in his diary that he suspected that Uncle Ning's death was not an accident, but someone was secretly manipulating it. I never thought that the person who was secretly manipulating it would be Uncle Jiang. I only wanted Ning Qiyuan to live a peaceful life, but I ignored the truth of the incident.
It turns out that this is the real reason why he has always prevented me from taking care of Jiang Sijin.
It turns out that in the recording that Jiang Sijin gave me, those repeated “I’m sorrys” and those words that were about to be revealed were all because of this incident.
It turns out that after everything was revealed , the world before my eyes was so cruel.
If possible, I really would rather have never heard it and never known it.
At least... I can stop feeling so much pain.
"Sakimoto, why are you telling me this, why..." I choked and almost cried out.
Ning Qiyuan also covered his face with his hands, wiped it hard, and then came over to hug me, as if he had used up all his strength. He didn't answer me, but just said: "Shuchen, for you, I can do anything. I tried hard to hide all this, I wanted you to see the light in this world, I wanted to accompany you every day for the rest of your life. But now, those truths are making us farther and farther away. As long as we are still together, as long as we look at each other, we will keep thinking of those things, and those injuries will tear us apart every day and make us hurt..."
I closed my eyes and tears flowed freely.
My heart felt like it was being torn into pieces and was so numb that I couldn't feel any pain.
Have we finally come to this?
I grabbed his clothes tightly, as if this would prevent him from saying those words.
"It's not that I don't love you. On the contrary, besides my mom, you are the person I love most in the world."
"However, just like you couldn't face me before, I can't face you now."
"So Shuchen, now it's my turn to say this."
"Let's separate for now!"
Maybe my heart was numb from the pain, and I didn't feel anything when I heard such words. I just didn't think we would be separated like this.
The embrace gradually became cold. I didn't know when Ning Qiyuan left. When I came to my senses, he was gone. I hugged myself into a ball and finally felt the pain of a part of my body being forcibly torn away. I couldn't help but burst into tears.
Why do some people come suddenly and leave without any warning?
Why is it that even though they clearly like each other, there is still an unreachable distance between them?
Why has no one ever told me that even if two people love each other, they may not necessarily be together until the end?
Did I do something unforgivable in my previous life? That’s why in this life, I lost my mom, my dad, my friends, and finally even the person I loved left me…
If you are destined to become the loneliest person in the world, it is better to be alone from the beginning.
