Chapter 8 Are You the Right Person? two
His gaze was clear and shallow, and it fell on my face, but it seemed to be able to see through my heart. I lowered my head and dared not look into his eyes. My heartbeat was so fast that I could hardly breathe.
I clenched my fingers until they hurt, feeling nervous and expectant. I clearly understood that I did not love the handsome boy in front of me. All I expected was to hear him say in person that he liked Song Hexue, the fat, plain-looking, unself-aware, clingy but kind Song Hexue, the other Song Hexue in the world that I had always played, and not anyone else.
However, I waited for a long time, but what I got was still the answer that I expected but could not face no matter what.
He said: "I like you because we are the same, with a proud and lonely heart."
I closed my eyes in despair like a prisoner sentenced to death. The person he liked was not Song Hexue, but Song Xihe.
An unknown anger rose from the bottom of my heart, and I almost lost my mind. I don't understand, I tried to get fatter, wear strange clothes, and try to turn myself into Song Hexue, why is the ending still the same?
I remembered the helpless and desperate look in Hexue's eyes when I saw her for the last time; I remembered her saying to me with a sad smile: "What's the use? No matter how hard I try, in the end, they will only have people like you, Song Xihe, in their eyes."
I was so angry that I asked him loudly, "Which eye of yours saw me lonely? Which eye of yours saw me proud? I know clearly that I am just a coward who doesn't even dare to confess to the person I like, Song Hexue! Xu Yun, tell me, why did it end like this in the end?"
I was so distraught that I almost revealed my secret.
Faced with my "crazy talk", Xu Yun was not surprised at all.
He just looked at me so gently and lovingly, without explaining or asking any questions.
He just said with a sense of loss: "Liking someone is something you can't help yourself."
Then, he looked at me anxiously, as if waiting for a verdict, and said, "Do you like me a little bit?"
"No, no, it's not..." I shook my head desperately and backed away.
The moment Xu Yun stretched out her hand to grab me, I heard the sound of branches breaking behind me. I turned around in surprise and saw a red figure flash by not far away. It was Hua Ziyin.
I turned around, left Xu Yun behind, and ran desperately in the direction where the figure disappeared, as if this way I could escape all the realities that I didn't want to accept, as if this way I could pretend that Xu Yun had never said anything.
I was running in the bushes, and suddenly someone reached out and grabbed me. I lost my balance and fell straight into the person's arms. All I saw was a sea of red. This person could only be Hua Ziyin.
I secretly breathed a sigh of relief, but he pushed me away like I was avoiding the plague, tilted his head to the side and said, "Congratulations, you've finally achieved your goal."
"I, I actually..."
"You don't have to rush to explain anything to me. I can hear and see everything." He turned and walked forward expressionlessly. "Besides, we are just classmates. You don't need to explain anything to me."
"Yes!" I followed him closely and said angrily, "I don't need to explain anything to you."
"Really?" He suddenly turned around and asked me angrily, "Song Xihe, how long are you going to lie to me? If making Xu Yun fall in love with you is your real goal, then now that your goal has been achieved, why are you running away? Hmm? Tell me, why did you run away just now?"
Have you been seen through?
Hua Ziyin was being aggressive, and I didn't want to show weakness. At this moment, even if I had been seen through, I would do my best to deny it . That was me, Song Xihe.
I blinked and said innocently, "Why should I run? Hua Ziyin, are you simple or naive? Have you ever heard of the phrase, playing hard to get? I don't need to explain what it means, right? You heard Xu Yun said he likes me. My wish was barely fulfilled. But you know, we girls are greedy, and I want to make this relationship stronger, so I didn't answer him on the spot, but chose to run away. This is just a trick I usually use, what's so strange about it? If Xu Yun really likes me, he will definitely not change his mind. Instead, he will think that I am more adorable when I run away shyly..."
I chattered on and on, trying to divert Hua Ziyin's attention with these made-up lies.
He was fooled. He slowly turned his head to look at me, his face changing from gloomy to bright. He said word by word: "Song Xihe, I really misjudged you."
"Thank you for the compliment." I looked up, met his gaze, and smiled shamelessly and frankly, "It seems that you have a better understanding of me."
I secretly applauded my ability to lie without changing my expression or heartbeat. Hua Ziyin walked forward silently. Occasionally, a bird's cry could be heard in the woods, as if someone was hiding in the darkness and crying desperately.
