Chapter 70
Lu Yao looked at me quietly. For a moment, the three of us fell silent, as if we had lost our voice.
The little ghost was still sitting on the side in panic. I looked at him, his body was shaking constantly, and he was obviously very scared. Compared with him, I felt more of an inexplicable complex feeling in my heart, as if I had a lot to say, but I didn't know where to start.
Lu Yao glanced at us calmly, then suddenly squatted down and tried to pull my hand, but I subconsciously dodged her. She was stunned for a moment, her hand suspended in the air, and finally slowly retracted.
I don’t know what she was thinking, but the expression on her face was a little gloomy. After a pause, she said to me, Tan Xi, I have something to say to you.
I didn't answer, and I didn't even think about talking, I just looked at her silently. She looked expectant, and after a while, she raised her hand again, and regardless of whether I was willing or not, she pulled me up and pretended to turn around and leave.
Strangely, I didn't struggle and just stood up with her. The little ghost behind me panicked and called me, saying, Tan Xi, you can't go with her...
I looked back at him, and Lu Yao was also looking at him. The little boy swallowed his words back before he could finish them.
I knew what he was worried about. This feeling was like the despair I felt every time I encountered a ghost. I had a lot of questions to ask Lu Yao and a lot of things I wanted to confirm with her, but I had no idea whether this trip would be good or bad. But I knew that if I stayed where I was, neither the little ghost nor I would be able to escape.
So I thought about it, nodded to the kid, and said, "It's okay, you go first..."
The little boy wanted to say something, but in front of Lu Yao, he could not reveal his thoughts.
I looked at him silently for a while. Lu Yao gently pulled me and left with her without saying another word.
Lu Yao and I didn't say a word during the whole journey. It felt like time was passing very slowly, as if the road under your feet had no end. I don't know how long we walked before we got back to the hotel.
The clerk at the front desk glanced at me. I guess she had already memorized my appearance, but fortunately she just looked at me curiously and didn't show anything too much.
We went upstairs and came to the door of my room. I reached out and took out the room card, and Lu Yao and I walked in one after the other. As soon as the door closed, my heart tightened.
I don't know what expression I have on my face right now, but it is definitely heavier than usual. I stood at the door and didn't go inside. Lu Yao looked at me and suddenly sighed softly, seeming a little disappointed with my reaction.
Then she walked to my bed, suddenly her face became stern, and she shouted coldly towards the bed, "Get out!"
I immediately heard a rumbling sound under the bed, as if something was bumping around underneath. The sound lasted for just a few seconds and then suddenly calmed down.
I thought the female ghost under the bed had probably already run away. Lu Yao's action made me even more frightened and uneasy.
Seeing that we were the only two people in the room, she turned around and looked at me intently.
I turned away her gaze, not daring to look at her eyes. I could only look at the wall on the side and asked first, "You are not Lu Yao..."
She spoke, her voice surprisingly calm, and said, "Yes, I am not Lu Yao."
We stood at opposite ends of the room like idiots. I looked at her, she was calm and composed, not dodging or hiding. My emotions seemed to be suppressed to the extreme, and the questions in my heart suddenly came out, why did you pretend to be her, why did you approach me!
She was silent for a while, and then she said, Tan Xi, I lied to you, but think about it, have I done anything to hurt you during this period of time? Yes, I am a ghost, you saw it, but if I can, do you think I don't want to live a good life and be an ordinary person!
I was surprised for a moment. Some people always say that being alive is more terrifying than being dead. But after I experienced all this, I also understood that both humans and ghosts have their own unspeakable things, just like how I felt when I became a living soul.
But she said it so directly, and I never thought about the answer myself. I just hope that when my soul leaves my body, I can still live well in this world.
Lu Yao suddenly smiled sadly. She sat dejectedly on the sofa, looking at the gradually brighter sunlight outside the window. She said, "I didn't have a good life when I was alive, but when I died, I felt that although my life was a bit hard before, it was much better than now. Look at me now. Even if this skin is painted beautifully, it is still not the original me."
I lowered my eyes and listened to these words, and suddenly I felt a little sad in my heart. She really didn't do anything to let me down, and she has helped me a lot until now, but I can't let go of that feeling of resistance in my heart. This may be human nature. As the saying goes, those who are not of my kind must have different hearts, and there will always be a feeling of rejection in my heart.
I leaned against the wall, looking at her blankly. She suddenly turned around, and there was nothing in her face that looked unhuman.
Lu Yao suddenly smiled and said, "You asked me why I dressed up as Lu Yao and why I approached you? Tan Xi, why do you think I did that?"
Without thinking, I blurted out, "For the blood amber!"
Her laughter suddenly became louder, but there was a hint of sadness. After a while, she suddenly said, "Blood amber... What use is there for me to have that thing?" I pretended to be Lu Yao just because she was the person who appeared when you were the saddest and most lonely. At that time, you needed someone to be by your side. She appeared, and you believed in her.
Of course I knew what she was referring to. It was me when Ding Ding was murdered and Lin Tianpin died. I was very helpless at that time and really hoped that someone I could trust could help me. I met Lu Yao at that time. Maybe when people are in desperate situations, they are more likely to open their hearts to someone, but when they are stable, they are more likely to be more defensive against strangers.
But when I heard this, I was still happy and asked Lu Yao if she was still alive?
She suddenly stood up, took a step towards me, and said, "Lu Yao is naturally alive. Do you think I will harm her?"
I was speechless when I was asked this question. After hesitating for a long time, I finally said, "But you are a fierce ghost..."
She looked quite unwilling and said, "Even if I am a ghost, I have no grudge against her. Why would I want her life? I am just pretending to be her. She is still in your hometown, living the life of a rich lady."
I didn't know how to refute her. After all, she looked like a woman now, and it was hard for me to associate her with the skeleton before, so I just stopped talking.
Seeing that I had softened, she said, "You just asked me why I should get close to you, right?"
I nodded.
She continued, "To put it simply, I once received your mother's kindness. Although she was unable to help me in the end, I still remember this friendship in my heart. Now she is dead, but I am not the kind of person who is ungrateful. I approached you just to help you secretly for a while."
When I heard my mother mentioned, my brows immediately frowned. It turned out that she had dealt with my mother before. But even if what she said was true, why should I pretend to be Lu Yao? Moreover, the troubles I encountered during this period showed no sign of decreasing.
I told her the doubts in my heart. She smiled faintly and said, Tan Xi, you have to face some things when you encounter them. Although I can help you drive away the ghosts that attract you, I can't always be by your side. I try hard to pretend to be a human, but I am not a human after all. If you stay with me for a long time, your body will slowly collapse.
She took another step towards me and continued, "Now, I just want to stay here as an ordinary person. When you have nothing now, as a human being, I can share with you the horrible experiences you will encounter in the future. I will try my best to restrain my breath and not let other ghosts realize my identity. I will not take action unless it is necessary. All the troubles you encounter must be solved by yourself."
When I heard this, I was very puzzled. What she meant was that she wanted me to stay by my side and act like an ordinary person. As the saying goes, if one person's pain is shared by two people, only half will be left.
This is a kind of invisible encouragement. She hardly helps me do anything, but in my mind, she lets you know that you are not alone, and there will always be people to accompany you through life and death. But unfortunately, she is not a person after all, and what is even more regrettable is that I discovered her identity.
I was silent for a long time, not knowing how to continue this conversation. Thinking about her actions from the beginning to now, and every word she said, she was indeed thinking about me. I hope I can trust her and treat her like before, but her identity is like my knot, which is always hard to let go.
Finally, I can only say one thing, I know... evil spirits will harm people...
She was stunned for a moment, then suddenly turned around and walked towards the door. I heard her whisper, "Tan Xi, I can hurt others, but not you. If you are afraid, I can leave. If you are still willing to believe me, I will wait for you in my room for a day. Please think about it carefully."
I didn't respond at all, and didn't even see her back as she left. I just listened to her voice and then heard the door close with a soft "bang". The room suddenly became deserted and I was the only one standing there, staring blankly at the pattern on the floor.
After a long time, I slowly squatted down, hugging my feet. I felt like I was standing at a crossroads, with two roads in front of me to choose from. Lu Yao stood on one of them, which was narrow but sunny, and the other was spacious but dark and gloomy.
I held my head, not knowing which way to go.
