Chapter 7: The Shameful Past Revealed 1
Life is a plunder, we are all rushing to get good things, and we don't care about fellow travelers at all. Because fellow travelers are enemies, is there any need to be merciful to enemies?
——Lichuan
After leaving Qingshui Bay, I wandered around aimlessly, but my thoughts always lingered on the two-bedroom, one-living-room apartment that I missed so much.
Half an hour later, I was sitting in the square eating ice cream when He Yue called me.
I just answered the call and before I could say anything, He Yue's furious voice came over: "Shen Muxi, come back here!"
I deliberately asked, "What's wrong? I have cleaned up all the cockroaches in my house."
He Yue lowered his voice and ordered, "Come back here right now. I have something to ask you."
"I'm not going back." I sat on the steps, swinging my legs.
He Yue took a deep breath and said, "Let me ask you, what do you mean by leaving me to your friend? I don't know her at all, and we can't get along normally."
I listened to He Yue's words and asked, "Did she tell you anything?"
"She didn't say anything, she was just too enthusiastic. I'm not used to it." He Yue told the truth and asked, "Where are you?"
"Bauhinia Square," I replied.
The sound of a door closing was heard from the phone, and He Yue said, "Wait for me, I'll come to you." After that, he hung up the phone.
I put down my phone, and a different emotion surged in my heart. I closed my mouth tightly, but finally couldn't help laughing.
I shrugged, glanced at the passers-by, and quickly stopped laughing, but I couldn't help feeling secretly happy in my heart.
He Yue looks like he is angry because I abandoned him.
He must care about me, otherwise why would he be angry?
No, he is not used to being with women, so he is angry. What does this have to do with whether he cares about me or not? But it is not right either. He and I get along very well. Does that mean I am special?
Thinking of this, I quickly shook my head. It should be normal for fans and idols to get along well.
"Oh, Shen Muxi, what are you thinking about?" I covered my face in annoyance.
After a while, He Yue's car drove over. Although Bauhinia Square was not far from Clearwater Bay, his speed could be considered the speed of light.
" Get in the car!" He Yue opened the car window and gave me orders while sitting in the driver's seat.
I walked over, opened the door and got in the passenger seat.
Every time I get in He Yue's car, He Yue will subconsciously check if I have my seat belt fastened. I have learned my lesson now and will fasten my seat belt as soon as he asks.
"Where are you going?" I asked him.
"Go home." He Yue said.
I asked in confusion, "Didn't you say you were out to find me? Turns out you were out to pick me up."
He Yue didn't answer me and drove seriously.
I turned my head to look at him, only to see that he had a stern face and a frown on his face.
He Yue's expression made me afraid to say anything. I remember the last time he had such an expression, I jokingly asked him if he liked me.
This moment, this scene, that person at that time.
As expected, He Yue didn't want to talk to me again.
I was very upset. Even if I did something wrong and apologized to him, he ignored me. I felt that in this situation, He Yue was the shy and annoyed little woman.
When I told Li Chuan about this feeling, he grabbed the billiard cue and burst into laughter.
He asked He Yue and I to play billiard with him, but He Yue didn't want to go, so I came alone to accompany him. I complained to Li Chuan about this and thought He Yue was a very strange person.
Li Chuan laughed enough, reached out his hand to ruffle my hair, and asked earnestly: "Shen Muxi, do you really not know that He Yue likes you?"
"Stop teasing me..." I dodged Li Chuan's hand.
Li Chuan smiled and said, "He Yue has a very weird personality. Hey, do you want to hear his story?"
"I do!" I nodded like a chick pecking at rice.
Li Chuan sat on the pool table and said, "Come here."
I walked over and sat next to Li Chuan, and Li Chuan told me He Yue's growth story.
Li Chuan said that He Yue has been a relatively introverted but very smart child since he was young. He has very high emotional intelligence and IQ, and other people's thoughts can hardly be hidden through his eyes.
He has high emotional intelligence but his emotional intelligence is useless because He Yue doesn't dare to be alone with girls.
He has been like this since he was a child and is afraid to be alone with girls.
"Then his life is really pitiful." I shrugged and said with deliberate ridicule.
Li Chuan smiled and said, "I was his mentor when he was in college, and many girls in school liked him. He was good-looking, and I recommended him to be the leading actor in a music MV when he was in his sophomore year. The first person he partnered with was the now popular actress Guan Lin - his first love." As he spoke, Li Chuan lowered his head and looked at me.
I avoided Li Chuan's gaze and said, "Go on."
Li Chuan added: "He Yue cherished this opportunity very much, so he kept asking me how to cooperate with Guan Lin, so I directly let Guan Lin lead He Yue. Guan Lin is older and more experienced than He Yue, so she is very proactive and responsible, so He Yue fell in love with Guan Lin. Ah, Guan Lin was really beautiful at that time, I was moved when I saw her, let alone a little boy like He Yue."
"Don't change the subject!" I urged Li Chuan angrily.
Seeing that I was mad at him, Li Chuan said with a smile, "Because of this drama, He Yue and Guan Lin got together. He Yue tried to get along with Guan Lin like an ordinary couple, but failed. He felt that he couldn't control Guan Lin, who was like a goddess. Over time, Guan Lin lost patience with He Yue. Now that I think about it, it's really a sad... uh, a little pitiful, because He Yue and Guan Lin were together for three years, and they didn't even hug each other."
"They were together for three years before they separated, which means that He Yue and Guan Lin broke up after He Yue graduated?" I asked Li Chuan.
Li Chuan nodded and said, "It seems so."
Then the timing matched. He Yue graduated from university and I just entered university. It was when I entered university that I used the ID "Yuerenge" to hang out in the online circle. It turned out that He Yue said that listening to my songs could relieve a day's fatigue. In fact, he was talking about the fatigue from a broken heart.
"At the beginning, He Yue's mother was happy that He Yue found a female celebrity as his girlfriend, thinking that her son could finally be with a woman. But she didn't expect that they would break up in the end, which made his mother very worried. If you have met his mother, you should know how passionate he is towards you." Li Chuan said.
I recalled Mother He's enthusiasm and couldn't help but say, "It's so passionate that it's about to burn me."
Li Chuan looked at me with a smile and asked, "Now you know why I am sure that He Yue likes you, right?"
I nodded, then played with my fingers and said, "Actually, I don't know why I made He Yue slowly change this habit that he himself couldn't understand. I feel like I didn't do anything."
Li Chuan said earnestly, "Little girl, love doesn't require you to do anything deliberately, the distance between two people can be gradually shortened. This is based on feelings. When I see you, my heart is moved, even if you only look back at me, or squat down to tie your shoelaces, my heart is moved at that moment, which makes me want to understand you, and my body and brain are not controlled by reason. In love, there is no reason, only the desire to cherish each other and be with each other. When we realize that our future life will be better with him, it is too late to look back."
I chewed over Li Chuan's words slowly. He jumped down from the pool table and said to me, "Rather than saying that He Yue is angry with you and ignores you, it's better to say that he is angry with himself. He has a very awkward personality. He must be thinking, you asked him if he likes you, does he really like you? You left him alone and he was so angry, but why was he angry? He will come up with an answer himself. He likes you, someone who can get along happily and hug in his life without having to worry about many things. You can make him laugh, make him nervous, let him hug you and protect you, but at the same time, he is afraid that you will be hurt because of his own problems, so he is angry with himself."
I jumped off the pool table and followed Li Chuan outside.
Li Chuan continued, "If you don't believe me, you can stay at your friend's house for a few days. He Yue will definitely urge you to go back."
"This was your suggestion, not my intention to not go back." I gladly accepted Li Chuan's opinion.
"Cunning!" Li Chuan pointed at me and laughed.
Once the truth of the matter is revealed, the haze in your heart will be dispelled.
After I came out of the billiard hall, I called Sunai.
Sunai heard that I was going to live in the dormitory and came to pick me up.
In her Audi, she asked me, "Did you have a conflict with He Yue?"
I shook my head and said, "No, I just want to verify something."
"Confirm whether he likes you." Sunai saw through my thoughts and said, "Muxi, He Yue is very good, you should seize the opportunity and don't miss it."
I turned my head to look at Sunai, feeling a little skeptical about her words. Did she really just want me to keep He Yue under control?
I asked Sunai, "Nana, are you in love recently? It seems like you have been dating a lot."
I saw Sunai's pupils shrink for a moment, then she returned to normal and smiled, "How could that be? I went on a blind date. My dad arranged a lot of rich second-generations who were well-matched for me. I was tired of dealing with them, but I couldn't refuse my dad."
Sunai is lying to me.
I didn't expose her. I said, "You and I will have common topics in values only if we are of the same social status. If you have someone you like, you can try to get along with him. But you have to open your eyes and don't be as naive as I was at the beginning. When I met someone like Qiao Xinyu, I was the one who was sad in the end."
Sunai laughed dryly a few times and asked, "Muxi, do you still have such a strong opinion of Qiao Xinyu?"
"It's not that I have a big opinion about him. I have no feelings for him now. What I mean is that you should be careful not to meet someone like him. When you are in love, you are more sincere than anyone else, but when you break up, you can say anything." I observed Suna's expression carefully. It was obvious that she felt very uncomfortable when I mentioned Qiao Xinyu, but she still responded to me with a smile.
"Yes, yes, I know Mu Xi treats me the best. I will pay attention and show it to you when I find it." Sunai said with a smile.
I sighed in my heart, but pretended I knew nothing on my face.
Sunai was deliberately hiding something from me. I remembered what He Yue said at Happy Valley. He said that since I had been in love before, I should know what the smile on Sunai's face meant.
Yes, the smile on her face at that time represented happiness, representing that Qiao Xinyu was her only support in the whole world.
But I have seen what kind of person Qiao Xinyu is, and Su Nai is my friend. It is impossible for her to go to a mountain of tigers knowing that there are tigers there.
I glanced at Sunai out of the corner of my eye. Is the relationship between Sunai and Qiao Xinyu more complicated than I imagined?
It’s so tiring. Since when did we need to speculate and test each other in order to find out about each other?
After returning to the school dormitory, Suna and I slept in the same bed.
The next morning, I received a text message from He Yue, asking me where I was and why I didn't go home.
I didn't reply to him. I got up, washed up and went to morning class.
When I was in class, He Yue called me. I hung up and texted him back: "I'm in class."
He replied to me: "I will come back to cook at noon. I have a stomachache."
I frowned slightly. He was trying to play a trick on me, but I refused to go back.
Later, I didn't reply to He Yue's text messages, nor did I answer his calls. During the afternoon class, there was a commotion at the back of the classroom, and many girls screamed.
I turned around and was surprised to see He Yue walking in with a sullen face.
He Yue was a figure on the school's honor roll, and his presence would cause a sensation. The teacher knew He Yue, took off his glasses and asked, "He Yue, are you back to your alma mater?"
He Yue walked up to me and said to the teacher, "Sorry, teacher, I'm sorry to bother you for a moment. The student has something to ask her."
After saying that, he grabbed my arm and dragged me out of the classroom, completely ignoring the fact that my classmates were looking at us as if we had seen breaking news. I could only follow him like a pet being led by the nose.
In the corner of the corridor, He Yue frowned slightly and asked me, "Why don't you come back?"
Thinking of Li Chuan's words, I felt a little happy in my heart, but pretended that I knew nothing and said faintly: "I just missed Su Nai and Xiao An Ning, so I stayed in the dormitory with them for one night, and I will go back."
"Then why don't you answer my calls or reply to my text messages?" He Yue didn't know that he was like a child at this moment, stubborn and adorable.
I continued to lie and said, "I'm in class and can't answer the phone."
He Yue stared at me, his eyes moving up and down. After a while, his voice softened and he said, "If you didn't come back because I was angry with you, I'm not angry now, so come back."
I suddenly felt intoxicated, as if I were immersed in the most fragrant wine.
I tilted my head slightly, my vision became blurred, and in my eyes and mind, there was only He Yue and the words he said. The breeze blew, gently lifting my short hair, and I couldn't help but smile.
He cares about me.
"You want me to go back so much." I slowly raised my eyelids, stared at He Yue, and asked tentatively, "If my rent is due, will you keep me?"
He Yue looked around uncomfortably, intentionally avoiding what I said.
"Will it?" I asked expectantly.
He turned his head to look at the scenery outside the balcony, and said after a while: "Actually, I..."
I calmed down and wanted to listen to him, but before He Yue could finish his words, the bell for the end of get out of class rang.
The classmates came out one after another. As soon as they saw He Yue, they started taking pictures with their mobile phones. Some girls couldn't help but scream.
He Yue coughed a few times deliberately, pointed at me, and restored his cold image in the eyes of outsiders, and said: "Go back, well, you should pay the rent."
After saying that, he turned around, squeezed into the crowd, and walked downstairs.
I felt helpless and could only follow him.
When I walked downstairs, I looked at the tall figure in front of me and said, "You caused such a sensation as soon as you appeared. You should be more careful next time."
"But I come back occasionally to give lectures," said He Yue.
“Giving a lecture is different from coming back suddenly,” I corrected.
He Yue found his car, opened the door for me, and said, "Get in."
I got into his car. After He Yue got in, he stepped on the accelerator and the car sped away.
I followed He Yue and he took out the key to open the door. When he opened the door, I leaned against the door frame and looked at him, asking in a very annoying way: "He Yue, you want me to come back so much, not just to pay the rent, right?"
"I don't know what you are talking about." He Yue opened the refrigerator, found a can of Coke, opened it and drank it.
He Yue's deaf and dumb behavior made me a little more aggressive, so I asked again: "Senior, are you reluctant to let me go?"
He Yue stopped drinking Coke, turned his head slightly, looked at me, and asked, "Did you take the wrong medicine?"
I opened my eyes wide, nodded slowly, and said, "You can continue to pretend." Then, I stretched and walked to the bedroom, "My idol is going to write a song. Call me when dinner is ready, little fan."
After saying that, I went into the bedroom, leaving He Yue standing in front of the refrigerator alone, thinking for a long time.
We each have our own pursuits and our own secrets that cannot be told. There is no need to reveal them. As long as the time is right, everything will fall into place naturally.
Besides, the most important thing for me now is to write a song, a song that will satisfy Lichuan and the general audience. This is the step for me to realize my dream, and I can't rest halfway.
But I was bored staying in the room and at school, and I had no thoughts at all.
On weekends, He Yue was not at home, so I went out alone to look for inspiration.
Passing by shop windows and overpasses, listening to rock and ballads, my mind is still in a mess. I don’t even know how to position my songs.
After spending two hours outside, I took out the chorus sheet and sat in front of the mall humming it, hoping to get some inspiration.
But I stopped before I finished humming the chorus.
At the exit of the mall, I saw a familiar figure.
It’s Qiao Xinyu.
But the person next to him was not Suna, but another girl I didn’t know.
Qiao Xinyu put his arm around the woman's shoulders and held shopping bags of various sizes in his other hand. The girl was smiling happily, but I just felt stupid looking at her.
"Qiao Xinyu!" I called out Qiao Xinyu's name from afar. They both heard it and turned around at the same time.
I walked over with a smile on my face and greeted her: "What a coincidence, meeting you here. Hmm? Who is this, your girlfriend?"
Qiao Xinyu was a little surprised when he saw me.
The girl tilted her head and looked at Qiao Xinyu, and asked innocently: "Ayu, who is this?"
Qiao Xinyu unconsciously moved his hand down from the girl's shoulder. He was about to speak, and I answered for him: "I'm his ex-girlfriend, and you're his current girlfriend, right?"
The girl looked at me in confusion, and finally said sourly: "Ex-girlfriend."
"Yeah!" I nodded and continued to ask Qiao Xinyu with a smile, "I am your ex-girlfriend, this is your current girlfriend, then what is Sunai to you?"
I squinted my eyes and looked at Qiao Xinyu.
Before Qiao Xinyu could react, the girl did. She looked at Qiao Xinyu and then at me and asked me, "What Sunai?"
"What's it got to do with you? Did I ask you?" I glanced at the girl coldly and turned my gaze back to Qiao Xinyu.
Qiao Xinyu licked his lips and said, "Sunai is my girlfriend."
As soon as he finished speaking, the girl pushed Qiao Xinyu hard and asked, "You have a girlfriend? Qiao Xinyu, what's going on?"
"The fact is that I have a girlfriend, I'm just playing with you!" Qiao Xinyu simply gave up and yelled at the girl impatiently.
The girl came to her senses, slapped Qiao Xinyu unceremoniously, and left in anger.
I smiled, looked at Qiao Xinyu, and asked, "Does it hurt?"
Qiao Xinyu rubbed the corners of his mouth and asked me, "Are you satisfied?"
"Not satisfied." I put my hands behind my back and staggered, "Qiao Xinyu, you've been living such a comfortable life recently, are you worthy of Sunai?"
Qiao Xinyu shook his head and said, "You are quite lucky. You actually hooked up with someone like He Yue."
I nodded and said, "Yes, it is indeed very nourishing. He is much better than you."
Upon hearing this, Qiao Xinyu's expression changed.
I was too lazy to talk nonsense with him, so I turned around and said, "Sunai likes you, it's none of my business, but if you continue to fool around outside, don't blame me for telling Sunai all this."
Qiao Xinyu sneered, "Why, do you want me to stop fooling around? Then come back to me."
I turned around and glared at him. Qiao Xinyu sneered and said, "Shen Muxi, I don't ask for your forgiveness for what I did, but I loved you. Even if we are separated now, I want to give you a piece of advice. If you always think about your friends, you will regret it one day. Because if you treat them as before, they will not be like this."
