Chapter 7: A Lifetime at a Glance 05
After lunch, An Yannan had a lot of things to deal with and was worried about Shen Chuxue, so he asked her to sit in the small garden behind the Student Union office building. There were very few idle people here, and usually the student union members came here to get some fresh air when they were annoyed during meetings.
There is an old swing in the small garden, which squeaks when you push it.
Shen Chuxue stood at the edge of the flower bed, stepping on the rubble and gently swinging on the swing. Her high heels kicked the rubble, making a lot of noise. Finally, the empty garden was not so deserted anymore .
"Chuxue, are you sad?" Fan Qi had actually been standing behind Shen Chuxue for a long time, but Shen Chuxue had never noticed.
As if she just realized there was someone behind her, Shen Chuxue turned around to look. Her long hair covered one of her eyes, and with some effort, she raised her hand to tuck her hair behind her ear, revealing her round earlobe.
Shen Chuxue didn't have pierced ears, and her earlobes were soft and very cute. Fan Qi couldn't help rubbing them and playing with them.
Seeing Fan Qi squatting on the side, Shen Chuxue asked with a smile: "Is this considered sad? How can you tell?"
Fan Qi sighed and said, "Didn't those romance novels you read teach you that when you are sad, just look at your eyes! Chuxue, your eyes are full of sadness, and it seems there is also a kind of despair... Don't smile, no matter how beautiful your smile is, it can't cover it up."
After all, Fan Qi has watched so many Korean dramas.
"Fan Qi, tell me, I pushed him away when he needed me the most. Will there be no possibility for us to meet again in the future?" Shen Chuxue asked uncertainly.
Standing up, Fan Qi put his hands in his pockets and thought for a long time before saying, "That can't be said. It depends on how important you are to that person. If you are very important to him, he will definitely forgive you! Even if you push him away, he can get closer to you! As long as you like each other, it's fine."
"But we can't be together."
Fan Qi blinked and asked, "There are many reasons why we can't be together. Which one do you belong to?"
Shen Chuxue thought about it seriously, pushed the swing again, and said in an unpleasant and harsh voice: "I hurt him and his family." She was not prepared to say too much to Fan Qi. The fewer people who knew about her family affairs , the better. It was not a glorious thing.
"Again, see if he loves you enough."
Shen Chuxue spent the entire afternoon trying to digest Fan Qi's words, but still couldn't come up with an answer.
Does Lin Jianluo love me enough? I am afraid that Lin Jianluo is the only one who loves me so purely besides Grandma Shen...
He met Lin Jianluo again at the school gate. An Yannan knew that it was useless to say that Shen Chuxue was sick. The excuse was too lame. After thinking about it carefully, he realized that he was just trying to fool him.
There was someone standing next to Lin Jianluo, who seemed to be from the same dormitory. The two of them were huddled together, talking about something. When they saw An Yannan and Shen Chuxue coming out, Lin Jianluo patted the man on the shoulder and walked over here.
A car whizzed past and almost hit Lin Jianluo. Shen Chuxue's pupils shrank slightly, but she just clenched her hands.
"Don't hide from me, I just want to see how you are. I know that what the Chairman said at noon was a lie to me, but you don't look well, are you really sick?" Lin Jianluo asked.
Shen Chuxue hid behind An Yannan and squeezed out a sentence from between her teeth after a long time: "It's okay , I'm almost well now, thank you."
A simple "thank you" can simply distance two people from each other, being polite yet distant.
Lin Jianluo nodded without saying anything, and left with his roommates.
Shen Chuxue walked out from behind An Yannan, first looking at the ground, then slowly raised her head and her gaze fell on the crowd where Lin Jianluo's shadow was no longer there.
The two returned to the An family. What was rare was that An Wei was also there, and he looked very happy. From what Li Qiuhe said, it seemed that a big deal had been made.
An Wei was so happy that he even thought Shen Chuxue was not so annoying anymore. He asked them to come down quickly to eat, saying that his aunt had prepared a very sumptuous meal.
An Yannan and Shen Chuxue naturally would not spoil An Wei's mood, so they readily agreed.
When they were having dinner together, several people drank wine, even Shen Chuxue drank two glasses. She finally tasted the flavor of the liquor, which was a bit spicy, but sweet in the throat. Shen Chuxue smacked her lips, and there was a bit of aftertaste, but Li Qiuhe did not allow her two daughters to continue drinking.
"Drink less, you are still young, you can't drink so much!"
"Okay, Mom, I won't drink anymore. I'll drink juice. Cousin, do you want to drink?" An Cenxi asked An Yannan.
He glanced at Shen Chuxue and said, "Drink, take it."
I knew that An Cenxi was still angry with Shen Chuxue, so he didn't even take Shen Chuxue's cup - An Cenxi only took two glasses, put one in front of himself, and gave the other to An Yannan.
An Yannan placed his glass in front of Shen Chuxue and continued drinking with An Wei. An Yannan still had some tolerance for alcohol and could drink a few glasses with An Wei.
"You should drink less too." Shen Chuxue said in a low voice.
"Yeah, it's okay."
After dinner, the three members of the An family watched TV downstairs. An Yannan and Shen Chuxue did not join in the fun and went upstairs together.
An Yannan stayed at Shen Chuxue's door for a long time.
"You should at least clean up your room. How can a girl's room be so messy?"
Shen Chuxue was about to close the door when she heard An Yannan's voice. She turned around, looked at the books and notebooks scattered on the ground, and said, "This is an ocean of knowledge! No, no, no, this is the floor of knowledge! After I finish reading them all, I will start to classify them and then repeat them!"
"Repeat?"
"Deeper impression! I want to put all these views on love into my head! If I can fall in love with someone again in the future, I won't be so slow."
An Yannan chewed over the word "slow" deeply, said nothing more, and returned to his room.
I don’t know if it’s an illusion, but since returning to school, Shen Chuxue seems to be able to meet Lin Jianluo in every corner of the school. Even when she goes to the supermarket to buy things, she can see Lin Jianluo talking to others at the door - he didn’t pay attention to Shen Chuxue, but he could definitely see her out of the corner of his eye.
Fan Qi was also very surprised.
"Does your Lin Jianluo know how to clone himself? He was playing billiards during the physical education class just now. Now that we are done with get out of class, is he done with get out of class too? Are freshman classes so leisurely? I remember that in order to ensure the cleanliness of the campus, the classes for freshmen, sophomores and juniors are interspersed. When we are done with get out of class, the freshmen should be having classes, right?" Fan Qi said this deliberately for Shen Chuxue to hear.
"Let's go."
In fact, Shen Chuxue knew that Lin Jianluo was waiting for an answer from her.
That day, Lin Jianluo could use alcohol to numb himself, but Shen Chuxue couldn't.
"Shen Chuxue, wait a moment." Just as they passed by, Lin Jianluo grabbed Shen Chuxue's wrist and called her by her full name. The palm of his hand holding her wrist was covered with beads of sweat, just like the first time he held Shen Chuxue's hand, which made Shen Chuxue a little dazed.
"Here's this. Eat this candy if you have a sore throat." Lin Jianluo took out a medicine box from his pocket. It was a kind of throat lozenge imported from abroad. Shen Chuxue had been silent for a while. Lin Jianluo thought she had a sore throat. When she left with An Yannan that night, her voice was also awkward.
She was stunned for a moment, then reached out to take it: "Thank you." Just as she was about to leave, Shen Chuxue thought about it and said to Lin Jianluo, "Lin Jianluo, thank you."
Thank you so much, thank you for so many things... Thank you for your love, care, and dedication to me, everything...
