Chapter 69: Collapse of Faith
Kong Nanzhu had nowhere else to go. As a loser, she could only go to Xu Qingqing when she wanted to relieve her depressed mood.
Xu Qingqing was still at her parents' house, and Kong Nanzhu picked her up in her car and wandered aimlessly around the city. Before she could speak, Xu Qingqing guessed her situation.
"Your celebrity husband has made you angry again, right?"
Xu Qingqing dyed her hair beautiful blonde. I don’t know if it was influenced by Pan Yue, but her dressing style seemed to be developing in the direction of bright and colorful colors.
Compared to Xu Qingqing's youthful vigor, Kong Nanzhu looked like a yellow-faced woman who had not yet recovered from a serious illness. Her complexion was bad, her face was bad, and her mood was even worse.
"Come to my studio. My small kitchen has been waiting for you to come. Make some desserts. Maybe you'll feel better."
In the next hour, Kong Nanzhu demonstrated with his strength what it meant to be absent-minded.
She was supposed to separate the egg yolks and keep the egg whites for whipping the cream, but she poured the egg yolks into the blender.
The oven time was set for more than half the normal time, and the whole studio was filled with a burnt smell.
Xu Qingqing had a headache and dragged Kong Nanzhu away from the kitchenette. In order to quickly dissipate the smell, she had to open all the windows. The cold wind blew straight in. They had to wear cotton coats and wrap themselves with a blanket to stay in the house.
Kong Nanzhu held a glass filled with hot water to warm her hands. The steam rising from the top of the cup made her eyes feel sore and swollen. Her long silence almost drove Xu Qingqing crazy.
Xu Qingqing couldn't bear to see Kong Nanzhu being depressed because of Qin Qi again and again. In her heart, Kong Nanzhu was the epitome of strength, and almost nothing could destroy her.
"Just tell me what's going on. If you can get through it, then go ahead. If you can't, leave now."
Kong Nanzhu raised his head and said seriously, "If we divorce now, do we need a 30-day cooling-off period?"
Xu Qingqing was dumbfounded. She had just made a joke, but she didn't expect Kong Nanzhu to actually be considering divorce.
"Don't be impulsive. I just said that. If Qin Qi knew that you were divorcing him because of my words, he would definitely destroy my house. Didn't you two go on a sweet hot spring trip yesterday? I saw your Weibo, and there was such a big wall of flowers. He must have put a lot of effort into it..."
I don't know if it took any effort, but it must have cost a lot of money.
Kong Nanzhu lowered her head again. She just said that to vent her anger.
Divorce was too difficult for her.
But she really didn't know how to change Qin Qi's concept. These things that should have been worked out when they were in love were selectively blocked by her blind love, and were not exposed so thoroughly until after marriage.
Now they have no way to break up and can only talk about divorce.
Kong Nanzhu felt a sharp pain in her heart when she thought of the word divorce. Qin Qi was the one she was obsessed with when she was a girl, and the beautiful fantasy she had when she first fell in love. However, after her dream came true, the reality cruelly laid a chasm in front of her that was more difficult to cross than the geographical distance, telling her that she could not change her lover, and that she had to give up more and cut off her wings in order to continue to live happily with him.
What a cruel multiple-choice question.
Kong Nanzhu didn't even dare to hope that her reasoning could change Qin Qi's stubborn ideas. She had understood Qin Qi's persistence in deciding something since she was fourteen years old.
Kong Nanzhu was not even sure whether Qin Qi's feelings could be called love. If it was love, it was a little too suffocating.
Seeing her eyes were red, Xu Qingqing helplessly placed the tissue next to her and whispered, "Actually, there are some things I've wanted to say for a long time, but you're husband and wife, and I don't want to say anything. When you were dating before, I found it very strange that you were clearly with him, but you always seemed to be single. Now that you're married, I feel like you're not as happy as before."
"You have never experienced the feeling of love, and you entered into marriage with Qin Qi. He is younger than you. I don't think he is capable of taking good care of you."
Xu Qingqing added, "I'm not talking about his financial ability. He's already very good in this aspect, but you don't need his care in this aspect, nor do you need him to provide these material things. But in other aspects, as your friend, I really don't find anything in Qin Qi that's worthy of your trust."
Kong Nanzhu felt as if her secrets had been exposed. She subconsciously wanted to defend Qin Qi and tried hard to recall how good Qin Qi had been to her when they were together.
"But he also has times when he can do well. When he and Du Ran had a scandal before, he asked Du Ran to explain it to me in person to reassure me."
Xu Qingqing frowned. She always felt that Qin Qi's temper was a little unpredictable. "You mean, he specifically called Du Ran here to explain to you in person?"
Kong Nanzhu was stunned.
That's not the case.
After Xu Qingqing said this, she suddenly realized that it was Du Ran who took the initiative to ask Qin Qi out for dinner, and she just happened to be with Qin Qi, so Qin Qi invited her to have dinner together.
Just, by the way.
Kong Nanzhu's hand holding the water cup was shaking a little.
Besides this, what else has Qin Qi done for her?
Two Hermès bags, a diamond ring for proposal, and a wall of roses.
No , Qin Qi also introduced Yayun’s resources to her, and he also performed such an operation.
Qin Qi still gave up some things for her.
Kong Nanzhu told Xu Qingqing that Qin Qi had undergone surgery. Xu Qingqing almost choked when she drank a mouthful of water.
"Ahem... ahem! Qin Qi actually got sterilized? He considers this as compensation to you?"
Xu Qingqing was speechless, her mind racing, "My silly girl, wake up, how can this be considered compensation? This kind of thing doesn't hurt him at all, it only brings him convenience and safety, okay!"
Xu Qingqing suddenly remembered something and her expression became serious. "Many male celebrities in the entertainment industry will undergo this surgery. This can effectively prevent them from...causing others to get pregnant unexpectedly. It is mainly to avoid risks and avoid the trouble of being harassed and blackmailed. Are you sure that Qin Qi has never done anything to let you down?"
Kong Nanzhu's head buzzed and the tinnitus blocked out the surrounding sounds.
The world was spinning.
She had not told Xu Qingqing about Qin Qi being drugged, so Xu Qingqing said this simply based on her understanding of the chaotic situation in the entertainment industry.
Avoid risks.
Yes, if Qin Qi encounters such a thing again in the future, it will be hard to guard against. It seems that taking such measures can reduce the losses and dangers by more than one level.
She was foolishly moved by Qin Qi's sacrifice for a long time.
Even though she was sure that Qin Qi had not been fooling around outside and had not done anything to let her down, this might be the real reason why Qin Qi wanted to have the surgery. This truth caused Kong Nanzhu's faith to collapse.
At half past eleven, Qin Qi called and wanted to take Kong Nanzhu back to the old house for dinner. His flight was at eight o'clock in the evening, and he had to say goodbye to Qin Hehai and Shen Jun before leaving.
Kong Nanzhu didn't want to face Qin Qi. She didn't know if she could pretend nothing had happened in front of Qin's father and mother.
But she went in the end because Qin Qi was outside Xu Qingqing's studio when he called.
Qin Qi was always so uncompromising. This call was not to ask Kong Nanzhu whether she wanted to go, but to inform her.
Kong Nanzhu always had no choice.
The weather was so cold, there was no point in making him make this trip in vain. Besides, it was hard to come up with a reason not to go back with him.
The heater in the car was on very high, but Kong Nanzhu's hands were shaking all the time. Qin Qi wanted to hold her hands to keep her warm, but the moment his palm touched Kong Nanzhu's fingers, Kong Nanzhu jumped back as if she had been electrocuted.
Qin Qi's hand froze in the air. After a moment, he placed his palm upward on the armrest between the two of them, "I'll warm you up."
Kong Nanzhu turned his head and looked out the window. "Sorry, I may not be able to pretend that nothing happened later. You should deal with my parents' questions. I don't feel like talking today."
Qin Qi kept his hands open, and Kong Nanzhu hadn't even looked at him since getting in the car.
I don’t know if God deliberately arranged this scene, but they passed by the Civil Affairs Bureau where they got their marriage certificate, and also passed by the bus stop billboard with Qin Qi’s endorsement.
The advertisement has been replaced with a new promotional image. Qin Qi on the poster still exudes charm, but the man sitting next to her at this moment cannot make her feel the heartbeat of love.
Kong Nanzhu felt that it was actually quite good to watch from a distance.
