Chapter 60 How could I possibly want to kill you?
Yes……
And that broken mirror.
Now it seems that just throwing it away casually could also turn into a disaster.
Xu Chong felt very hurt, and at the same time, he thought of another question.
Why would the water ghost go to such great lengths to help himself?
Could it be...
Xu Chong hesitated for a moment and asked, "Are you Xu Youan?"
"…Why do you think so?"
The water ghost was stunned for a moment, and his tone suddenly became frivolous, as if he couldn't help laughing.
"If it wasn't Xu Youan, why would you help me like this?"
Xu Chong frowned and said in a deep voice: "Although Sun Yourong and Zhou Ze both said that Xu Youan is dead, I can't think of anyone else you could be besides him."
"If he were still here, I'd really like to see his expression right now."
The water ghost shook his head and laughed, saying: "Sun Yourong and the others are right, Xu Youan is really dead, I saw it with my own eyes, you don't need to doubt it anymore."
"died……"
Xu Chong was stunned and even more confused, "What is your relationship with him? Why are you helping me?"
"Relationship... well, he considers me a friend, and I consider him an opponent?"
The water ghost said that he was a little uncertain, and then said with a slightly helpless tone, "Anyway, it's almost the same if it's not like this. As for why I helped you... This is the deal between me and Xu Youan."
"trade?"
Xu Chong was speechless.
This seems to be the second traitor who has close contacts with the Third Master.
And...opponent?
Which opponent?
It can’t be about martial arts, right?
"I know what you want to ask, but my acquaintance with him was accidental. I don't know most of the things you don't know either."
After saying that, the water ghost waved his hand impatiently, "Okay, kids, stop asking about adult matters. Let's get back to the point."
Xu Chong: “…”
If he wasn't really unable to defeat the water ghost, he really wanted to lift the water ghost's hat.
"When I say there's something wrong with your state of mind, I'm not exaggerating."
The water ghost's tone became serious, "Zhang Youde was okay that time, the most serious one is this time."
"After destroying Fu Wei and the other two's ability to resist, the best thing for you to do is to extract as much information as possible, fill in the gaps in the entire plan, and then kill them."
"But you chose the most foolish approach and used such an important opportunity to show off your power."
"Do you realize how risky this is?"
"I think you knew that, but you did it anyway."
"Because you realize that something is wrong with you , but you don't know exactly what's wrong, so you can only use this method to try to alleviate it."
The water ghost sighed after saying this, "But ask yourself, is this really useful?"
“…”
Xu Chong was silent.
"It seems that you have agreed with my point of view, so let's continue."
The water ghost nodded, pondered for a moment and said: "According to my guess, your mental problems are caused by two reasons. The first is the contradiction between your conscience and your words and deeds."
"Conscience and words and deeds?"
Xu Chong murmured, his eyes looking a little strange, "What do you mean?"
"You think that what you have done and what you pursue are not worthy of respect from the people, let alone their rewards."
"That's why the attempt to hang himself failed."
"So after you became the Dianshi, you deliberately distanced yourself from the people."
The water ghost left no room for him and directly pulled out the emotions that Xu Chong had buried deep in his heart, laying them nakedly on the surface.
The more Xu Chong listened, the more puzzled he became.
There is nothing wrong with what the water ghost said. If he is still the original Xu Chong, then this point is indeed true.
But he is not.
It wasn't him who hanged himself.
As for his later deliberate alienation from the people...it was simply an attempt to get rid of his original personality.
so far so good.
After pushing all the responsibility onto the original, Xu Chong heaved a sigh of relief, but his face remained solemn: "It's my nature, there's nothing I can do about it, you should say the second one..."
"That's nature?!"
The water ghost interrupted sharply, "Do you still think you did the right thing?"
Xu Chong was choked by this sudden harshness and said weakly: "Isn't that right..."
"you!"
The water ghost pointed at Xu Chong, and seemed to be very angry. He coughed for a while and then let it go dejectedly. "Forget it, it's not for me to decide right or wrong. Let me tell you about your father."
"he?"
When Xu Chong heard this, he immediately perked up.
"You should have learned about his deeds in Canglong from Sun Yourong."
The water ghost's tone was a little low, with a hint of nostalgia, "As far as I know. When the people supported him, they regarded him as their reborn parent. When they hated him, they cursed him to death day and night."
"But he never wavered from beginning to end and always followed his own way."
"I asked him why he did that, and he said he was just doing what he wanted to do, what he thought was right, and how the people treated him was the people's business."
"I didn't understand it at the time, until he abandoned the people of Canglong County without hesitation and chose to die to save you."
“Always do what you think is the right thing to do at the moment, give up what needs to be given up, see it through to the end, and don’t be swayed by external things.”
"I think this is what true conscience is."
Unity of knowledge and action?
Xu Chong seemed to be thinking about something, "I think I understand what you mean."
"That's good."
The water ghost nodded in satisfaction and continued, "The second reason is related to your martial arts realm, and this reason will aggravate the first reason... Are you currently at the fourth level of Tongmai? Or the fifth level?"
"Fifth level."
Xu Chong speaks frankly.
“That’s the biggest problem.”
The water ghost nodded, "In fact, the state of mind can actually be considered a state of mind. The reason why it is not singled out is that under normal circumstances, the state of mind exceeds physical strength."
"normal circumstances?"
Xu Chong raised his eyebrows.
"It's very slow for a normal person to improve his strength. Even if he has a high talent, his state of mind will grow faster than his strength."
The water ghost patiently explained, "But you are different. Xu Youan laid a very good foundation for you, which caused you to practice too fast, and your strength increased far more than your state of mind."
"Isn't it good that strength exceeds state of mind?"
Xu Chong was a little confused.
In his opinion, strength is real power, it is the basis for survival, what does the state of mind have to do with it.
"Don't you feel that your good or bad thoughts towards others are being multiplied invisibly?"
The water ghost asked back.
"this……"
Xu Chong was stunned, and then his face changed drastically.
He remembered one thing... When he saw the cats and dogs shot by the Blood-Clothed Guards, he actually had the urge to avenge them!
At the time, I didn't take it seriously. I just thought that the Blood Robe Guards deserved to die for killing without warning. But now I think about it...
Xu Chong shuddered, "What can I do to change this situation?"
"Cultivate your character, slow down your improvement in martial arts, and try not to fight with others."
The water ghost answered.
Xu Chong was silent.
If he had a choice, he wouldn't want to improve so quickly.
Wouldn’t it be great to save spiritual energy and live forever?
But the problem is that there will always be all kinds of people and all kinds of things that force him to improve.
After thinking for a while, Xu Chong said, "I will try my best not to break through, but there has to be a limit, right? When can I let go of the suppression?"
"It depends on your own feelings. When you feel that your mind is clear and harmonious, then you can break through to the level of Tongmai."
"The mind is clear and harmonious..."
Xu Chong chewed on the words carefully, but still didn't quite understand them.
"In the short term, the attention of the imperial court and the Taiping Dao will be focused on the missing Wei Wuxie. You have a long time to solve this problem."
"Besides, if you are not a noble, what's the point of breaking through to Tongmai? You can't use it anyway."
The water ghost stood up and walked towards the door, "Remember, try not to take action if you can."
Xu Chong's eyes moved slightly, almost instinctively, and he took this opportunity to look at the appearance of the water ghost.
An extremely unfamiliar face with a short beard, probably around 40 or 50 years old.
Just looking at his face, it matches this outfit very well...
Unfortunately, it really is not Xu Youan.
Xu Chong was slightly disappointed. He waited until the water ghost reached the door before he stood up and shouted, "How can I find you?"
"Find me?"
The water ghost paused, slowly turned around, and looked through the bamboo hat, falling on Xu Chong's face, "I have said everything I need to say, what do you want to see me for?"
"You help me so much, I want to help you too if I have the chance."
Xu Chong did not dodge or evade, and looked into the gaze.
Time passes slowly.
After a long while, the water ghost sighed: "You... do you really want to kill me?"
"kill you?"
Xu Chong smiled and shook his head repeatedly, "You've helped me so much, how could I possibly want to kill you?"
"No need to deny it."
The water ghost said calmly, "From the beginning to now, even though I clearly expressed my intention, you never gave up looking for a chance to kill me."
"Really not."
Xu Chong frowned, and his smile gradually disappeared . "You should know that I have obtained the Wuxiang Cloth. When the time is right..."
"When it comes to getting rid of your household registration, your first choice should be Sun Yourong, whom you trust more, rather than me."
The water ghost was not moved at all and turned his back again, "I don't know if this is caused by your state of mind or if you really want to kill me."
"But it doesn't matter. You probably won't see me again in the future."
"May you have a peaceful time."
