Chapter 6 You exist in my heart, no pity 02
"Silent Bai? Silent Bai!"
In silence, Zhou Shiqing's call echoed in the dormitory. Although the decibel level was gradually increasing, it did not receive the response it deserved.
So, she turned her head inexplicably, only to see Lin Mobai sitting in his seat with his back straight, motionless. His lifeless look made people worry.
Seeing this, Zhou Shiqing quickly stood up, walked to her side, gently put her hand on her shoulder, and called out again with an uneasy look on her face: "Mo Bai?"
"ah?"
After recovering from the light force on his shoulder, Lin Mobai turned his head slightly to look at Zhou Shiqing. The endless sadness and despair in his eyes, which he had no time to dispel and conceal, were all seen in Zhou Shiqing's eyes.
Zhou Shiqing's heart was startled, and she felt a little flustered and at a loss, and she just stood there in a daze.
It was not until Lin Mobai woke up completely, with all emotions gone from his blinking eyes and only confusion remaining on his face, that Zhou Shiqing came back to her senses.
Then, when Lin Mobai wanted to ask something, she had already reached out and held her in her arms.
At this moment, I have thousands of words in my heart, but my emotions are stuck in my throat, and I can neither spit them out nor swallow them.
During this period of time, she could clearly feel that something was wrong with Lin Mobai. He had frequent nightmares, was always absent-minded, and had sadness and despair in his eyes. All of this had taken away her smile, and even a forced smile no longer appeared on her face. She was getting more and more depressed and haggard, just like an autumn leaf, which made people feel distressed.
Even though I was by her side, I still felt powerless. It seemed that all I could give her was just a simple hug.
Zhou Shiqing was lost in thought and her nose was filled with sourness.
Then, Lin Mobai's puzzled question rang in the air: "Shiqing, what's wrong?"
"Mo Bai, I..." Zhou Shiqing subconsciously wanted to say something sentimental and caring, but her tongue was tied. So, she took a breath, let her go, and quickly searched in her mind for the main purpose of calling her a moment ago.
"Hmm?" Seeing that she was hesitant to speak, Lin Mobai tilted his head, looking like he was listening attentively.
"Oh, right, our drawings...both of ours were returned by the professor for redrawing!" After some hard searching, Zhou Shiqing finally remembered the call from the monitor a moment ago, and she couldn't help but feel annoyed. "The monitor called me just now and asked us to go to her dormitory to pick up the drawings. There are comments from the professor on them, and we have to hand them in again next week."
"Is that so..." Lin Mobai frowned slightly when she heard this. Although there was a hint of trouble in her tone, this result was already within her expectations. Because of her distraction during this period, she had not been able to draw a satisfactory painting, let alone pass the test of the professor who had seen countless paintings.
"It's okay. It seems that half of the students in the class had their papers rejected. As for you, it must be because the professor has high expectations of you." Seeing Lin Mobai's confused look, Zhou Shiqing immediately patted her shoulder gently and comforted her.
"Don't worry, I'm not that fragile." Lin Mobai smiled very reluctantly, stood up and said, "Let's go, let's go to the squad leader's dormitory to get the draft."
But, just as she stood up and was about to change her shoes, Zhou Shiqing pushed her towards the bed ladder and said, "You should go to bed and get some rest. Look at how bad you look. I'm afraid you'll scare others if you go out. I'll get the draft back for you, and you just concentrate on sleeping."
Lin Mobai felt a little embarrassed and immediately refused: "I'm fine..."
Zhou Shiqing rolled her eyes at her and said, "Don't be so fussy, it's settled. Go to bed and get some rest. I'll go out and get the drawings."
After saying that, she turned around, changed her shoes casually , and left the dormitory.
Watching her close the door and leave, Lin Mobai let out a long sigh, climbed up the ladder and lowered her hands and feet step by step. After landing on the ground, she sat down at the desk again. When her eyes inadvertently swept across the mirror on the table, her pale face also frightened herself slightly. Then, after sighing, she pressed her temple with her left hand tiredly, raised her right hand, opened the drawer, and took out a white medicine bottle.
Since she reunited with He Qingkong, she has had more contact with Lu Yanqi and Shi Xujun. However, the contact between the four people did not make her feel happy to regain her former close friends, but instead made her fall into the sadness after losing Ding Zhiyou again. She had nightmares every day. Occasionally, she dreamed of Ding Zhiyou with disheveled hair roaring like a demon to kill her. Occasionally, she dreamed of the accident scene that year and Ding Zhiyou's eyes full of resentment and despair.
Perhaps her illness had relapsed, but even though she relied on medication, she still couldn't escape from the nightmare.
As she thought about it, her head started to hurt violently again. Ding Zhiyou seemed to appear in front of her again, baring fangs and claws like a ghost. In fear, her breathing became more rapid and her heartbeat became faster.
Then, Lin Mobai hurriedly opened the medicine bottle, poured the pills into his hands, and quickly swallowed them with cold water.
The pain was relieved after the medicine slowly took effect. In the silence, she frowned, closed her eyes, supported her head with her hands, and carefully slowed her breathing and heartbeat.
Every time he took medicine, Lin Mobai would send Zhou Shiqing away or take the initiative to avoid her.
She thought she had concealed it well, but she didn't know that Zhou Shiqing had accidentally seen her taking drugs several times, including this time.
At this moment, through the small window next to the dormitory door, Zhou Shiqing saw the entire process of Lin Mobai taking the medicine. She was gritting her teeth and pursing her lips, unable to hide the heartache and worry on her face.
The reason why she volunteered to help Lin Mobai retrieve the drawings was, on the one hand, for the sake of her health, and on the other hand, she deliberately wanted to test Lin Mobai.
Zhou Shiqing had already become suspicious after seeing her secretly taking drugs several times. However, after asking her once or twice, she always pretended that it was vitamins, so she didn't want to expose her. After all, she was worried that her impulsive words would make Lin Mobai push her away, especially at this particularly sensitive moment. She couldn't grasp the extent of her questions.
What's more, she only had a close friend like him by her side, and Zhou Shiqing couldn't bear to hurt her by exposing the truth.
Even if it was just pretending, just a provocation, she was unwilling to do so, because she was worried that Lin Mobai, who never expressed his feelings honestly, would give up this friendship.
As he thought about it, Zhou Shiqing took a deep breath and then slowly exhaled.
Then, as she turned around and walked away slowly, she also dialed He Qingkong's mobile number: "He Qingkong, I have something to tell you. Is there anyone with you now? Is it convenient?"
Because she was nervous about Lin Mobai, she didn't even consider basic courtesy and directly called He Qingkong by his full name.
At this time, He Qingkong was practicing painting in the dormitory. When he heard Zhou Shiqing's nervous voice, he frowned. Then, he glanced at his roommates, stood up silently, took the phone and left the dormitory.
"Hello, classmate Zhou, it's me. I don't have anyone around me right now. What do you want to talk to me about?" He asked cautiously, "Is it about Xiao Bai?"
"Well, it's about Mo Bai." Zhou Shiqing took a breath, looked around, and then continued, "Just now I saw Mo Bai taking medicine, it's the so-called vitamins. This is the fifth time I've seen it this week. Every time she deliberately sent me away, or hid aside to take it secretly. This can't be as simple as vitamins!"
"Take medicine?" He Qingkong's eyebrows furrowed even tighter when he heard this. "Then did you secretly take a look at what medicine it was?"
"I can't see it. She hides it very well." Zhou Shiqing sighed again, "But I guess it's probably some kind of sedative or something like that, because every time I see her, she's in pain before taking the medicine, and she seems to be very dependent on the drug."
"Sedatives... I get it."
"He Qingkong, what do you know? Is there something I don't know? Regarding Mo Bai, why...why is she like this?"
"I...Xiaobai..."
"I'm also Mobai's friend, I'm really worried about her! He Qingkong, I hope you can be honest, I hope I can help her! Has Mobai ever experienced anything in the past? Can you tell me honestly? Now I know nothing, I can only watch her continue to suffer, I can't do anything!" Out of concern and care, Zhou Shiqing couldn't help but get excited, and her decibel level increased several degrees uncontrollably. Then, as if she suddenly realized her own loss of composure, she took a deep breath, turned down the volume, and said, "Moreover, my intuition tells me that Mobai's condition is more serious than we thought. She has had nightmares frequently before, and her mind is in a trance. If it continues like this, I'm afraid... I'm afraid..."
"How is she now?" Hearing Zhou Shiqing's trembling voice, He Qingkong became more worried, and his hands were clenched into fists.
"It looks like she's feeling better now." Thinking of Lin Mobai, whose pain had eased after taking the medicine, Zhou Shiqing said, "He Qingkong, I need to know the whole truth. After all, I'm her good friend and the only one who can take care of her right now. Do you understand?"
"I understand." He Qingkong sighed and looked up at the gloomy sky. " Xiaobai did have a very painful experience. Four years ago, Xiaobai was involved in a murder case. It is said that the police found Xiaobai in a ruins, and a girl's... body. That... that was our mutual friend, and Xiaobai's best friend since childhood, like a sister..."
