Chapter 6: Meeting You at the Horizon Lu Shuang 04
Because my part-time job hours are not fixed, my income is also very unstable. I can only barely maintain the food and drink expenses of me, Su Xin and Lu Lan, but the rent is coming soon, and the current situation is completely stretched, which makes the situation worse.
After that big fight, Su Xin finally settled down, stopped drinking and talking nonsense, and even started looking for a job. But after all, she had no skills and was old, so it was not easy to find a job, and she never found one. Maybe out of guilt, she took on all the housework, cooking, washing, mopping the floor, and she actually looked like a decent person.
I began to believe that people are forced to do things, and maybe on this day, she finally got it.
But money is still a big problem. I even started to pay attention to some private lending institutions, which do not require collateral, but the interest rate is very high. In fact, I also want to go to the bank to apply for a loan, but because Su Xin abused credit cards before and her credit is too bad, I couldn't get a loan every time.
Just as I was looking at the loan advertisement at a loss, my cell phone suddenly rang.
I glanced at the caller ID and it was Shen Yuxi.
In fact, the relationship between Shen Yuxi and I has been at a standstill for a long time. Whether I have questions about a report or contact him privately, he always keeps his distance from me.
But he has always been like a lamp to me. He is shining in the room, and I am a moth . I want to get closer to him, but there is always a layer of glass between me and him. This feeling is particularly torturous for me, but there are too many things that torment me, which actually dilutes the discomfort he brings to me.
I know that he probably doesn't like people like me. He helped me at first just because I had good grades, but after getting to know me, he found that I was not a very kind person, so he kept his distance from me.
Sometimes I am really jealous of Yu Nansheng, jealous of Shen Yuxi for being so good to her, no matter what she did wrong, he can tolerate it. Because she is kind, hardworking, and has qualities that everyone admires. But I am a trapped beast in the dark, and even my efforts seem despicable.
I stared at the phone screen for a long time before answering the call: "Reporter Shen."
Shen Yuxi said, "The report you wrote last time received a good response, and the newspaper gave out a bonus. I transferred the money to your card."
I was stunned for a moment. I didn't expect that I could get a bonus: "Thank you..."
Shen Yuxi paused for a moment and continued, "If you put all your heart into your work, there will always be rewards."
This was the first time in such a long time that Shen Yuxi spoke to me in a slower tone. I listened and felt something different in my heart: "Shen Yuxi, can I be your apprentice now?"
Didn't I work so hard in the newspaper office just to stay and make him look up to me? Maybe I didn't even realize that I wanted to get his approval so much, wanted to show him my best side, and even concealed my current predicament, probably because I hoped that one day he would recognize me like he recognized Yu Nansheng.
No, maybe I am even more greedy. I hope that he will value me more than Yu Nansheng.
However, all he said on the other end of the phone was a faint "You are not suitable."
"Why not? Everyone says that my talent is better than Yu Nansheng's, and I am more suitable to be a reporter..."
I can't stand his indifferent tone. Why can't he see my strengths?
"But I'm not one of them." Shen Yuxi still said this in an emotionless tone and hung up the phone.
Hearing the busy tone coming from the other end of the phone, the joy of getting the bonus disappeared in an instant, and an inexplicable regret occupied my entire brain.
I threw my phone on the bed and felt like a deflated ball. Why couldn’t I beat Yu Nansheng no matter what I did?
