Early the next morning, Guan Yue and I were awakened by a series of doorbell rings.
She was so scared that she rolled over and fell off the bed. I was in a bad mood because I had just woken up. With my hair messy, I yelled angrily, "Who is it?" and ran to open the door reluctantly in my slippers.
The moment I opened the door, I froze in place.
Qiao Nuo, who was neatly dressed, was holding two bags of breakfast and stood at the door awkwardly. Why did I use the word awkward to describe him? First, the eye mucus in the corner of my eye had not been wiped off, and second, the two buttons on the chest of my pajamas were not buttoned. When he saw my disheveled and sleepy appearance, he also discovered that I had a flat chest. I don't know if it was subconscious or unconscious, I raised my hand to close the door, but he couldn't help laughing and pushed the door open and walked in openly.
I took two steps back and quickly buttoned my clothes. He took off his shoes, put breakfast on the entrance, and then leaned over to me when I was off guard.
"Did you drink last night?" he asked softly, his eyes moving back and forth on my face.
My face suddenly became hot and I nodded embarrassedly.
"Go wash up quickly, and then have breakfast while it's hot." He smiled, and then gently kissed my unwashed face. My heart was like being lifted up by a huge hydrogen balloon, swaying and floating. I nodded and hurriedly went to the bathroom, not wanting him to see me in such a slovenly state.
When I came out after washing up, Guan Yue had just woken up. She sat cross-legged on the sofa, eating a huge bun, with a decadent look on her face. I was disgusted by her. Qiao Nuo was flipping through the newspaper on the side, not paying any attention to her.
"Hey, can you brush your teeth before eating breakfast? You still have to go to class later." I threw the pillow at her, but she didn't care. "No, I'll go to bed after eating."
"You——" I was about to lose my temper, but Qiao Nuo looked at me at this moment, and my arrogance instantly weakened. After all, he and I had just been together, and Guan Yue's cousin didn't say anything, so how could I lose my temper casually.
"Okay, okay, whatever you want." I rolled my eyes at her and sat down to eat breakfast.
"Jing'an is right. Go wash up before eating, and then pack up and go to class with us." Qiao Nuo closed the newspaper and ordered Guan Yue like a veteran cadre.
If it were in the past, Guan Yue would never dare to disobey her eldest cousin, but now Guan Yue is simply throwing away all hope.
"If I say I won't go, then I won't go. Even if I go, I won't listen. Just leave me alone. I'll be willing to go out and see people when I've had enough of staying at home by myself." She looked like a dead pig that was not afraid of boiling water. Qiao Nuo and I looked at each other and sighed together.
Guan Yue didn't end up attending class with us.
On the way, I told Jonno everything that happened yesterday, and Jonno was not surprised at all.
"Guan Yue is a person who gets stuck in a rut easily, and she has a very stubborn temper. Once she makes up her mind, no one can persuade her. Just let her be. Fortunately, her family is well-off, so she has the capital to do whatever she wants." His words were pertinent. "Don't worry too much about her. You have your own life to live, too."
"Yes, you are right."
Anyway, it all depends on her luck. After all, I have said everything I should say and advised her. And I have not completely eliminated all the troubles in my life just because I am with Qiao Nuo. It's just that all this has not yet become apparent.
Soon, we arrived at school. I thought Qiao Nuo was just talking about going to class together, because he usually accompanied his father to handle company affairs and rarely had time to go to school. But even so, he could always make up for his homework at other times and easily get the top ten in the school.
To be honest, sometimes I hate this kind of gifted child so much that my teeth itch.
"Go ahead and do your work. I'm going to class!"
I closed the car door and waved goodbye to him with a smile.
"Wait a minute, I'll go with you."
After he locked the car, he came over and held my hand. It was the peak time for classes, and even in the parking spaces on campus, there were many people coming and going.
"Aren't you going to be busy? It's really class time!"
"Why, you don't want to?" He smiled at me and held my hand tighter. Sure enough, as soon as he got off the car, several girls passing by noticed it was him, some almost screamed, and then more and more people noticed me and him. No matter far or near, their eyes were like sickles hitting me. I have always been a low-key person, and I was completely panicked by this situation.
"It's not that I don't want to, I—" I subconsciously pushed him away, trying to pull my hand away, "So many people are watching, it won't have a good influence."
"There are so many people watching, no one is paying attention to us." He deliberately raised his voice and simply pulled me in. "Besides, isn't it normal for couples to take classes together?"
He looked at me with such innocence that I couldn't refute him at all.
Seeing me like this, he finally couldn't help laughing: "I'm just kidding, I do have something to do, but I want to take you to the classroom today. You won't refuse this request, will you?"
I shook my head. It wasn't that I didn't want him to accompany me to class, I just couldn't get used to being the center of attention. Dating is a matter between two people, I'm not a girl who likes to show off, and I don't want to be judged by others.
Indeed, I am not good enough and cannot fully deserve him as he is now.
Ultimately, it was my inner inferiority complex that was causing the problem.
But I forgot, how could someone as smart as Qiao Nuo not see it?
"Jing'an, I'm just like other boys. Once I set my mind on someone, I will announce it to the whole world. I want to tell everyone that you are the girl I like and no one can bully you." He said it solemnly as if he was making a promise.
"Qiono..." I was speechless after hearing his words.
He is always like this. He speaks very ordinary words, but every word is more precious than gold and silver. He sounds calm and peaceful, but it makes my heart churn.
"Qiono, I'm not as good as you think. You also know that my purpose of approaching you in the beginning was not pure, so, so I'm actually not worthy of-"
I always get flustered when facing him.
"There is no such thing as being suitable or not, Su Jingan. If I minded, I wouldn't be with you, idiot!"
"I don't care about your past. I only care about you."
"I will protect you and give you the best life. You just need to stay by my side."
He smiled, and the warm sunlight seemed to give him a halo, making him look bright and warm. He held my hand, and the warmth of his skin flowed into my heart.
This journey of life is a mixture of joy and sorrow, but more often than not, it is filled with endless hardship.
However, there will always be someone who will make you feel, the moment he appears, that even all the hopelessness and pain you have endured in the first half of your life will become insignificant.
He smoothes out all your sharp edges, sweeps away all the despair and darkness in your life, and allows you to re-experience the preciousness and beauty of life.
And he is this person.
And how could I be so worthy to actually meet him?
So, accompanied by Qiao Nuo, I arrived at the classroom on time.
Just as I thought, almost everyone was looking at us along the way, and I even felt the feeling of a wedding scene in advance. He walked me to my seat and left reluctantly.
As soon as he left, all the students in the classroom started to make a noise, and as I looked at his back as he left, I felt like I had had a wonderful dream.
It was not until now that I understood why girls become stupid, shy, and even unreasonable when they talk about love.
I didn't pay much attention during the entire class. All I could see in my mind was Qiao Nuo's face.
If a person who is not good at loving others really starts to love someone, he is probably more terrible than anyone else. Because the threshold of loving is too high, once you love someone, you can't let go of it in this life.
I am well aware of this and I am afraid of it, but I can do nothing about it.
I don't know what my future with him will be like, but I know I will use all my strength to keep him.
so--
I opened my phone, took another look at the message Dong Mingyang sent me this morning, and secretly made up my mind.
No matter what, it's time to say goodbye to the past.
Only when we truly say goodbye can I become the one who truly deserves him.