Chapter 6 Chapter 6

Snitch This time, Shen Zhi burst into tears very quickly. The moment the tears rolled down, Feng Ran regretted it. Freedom and all that, go to hell for now.

This move was simply a sure-fire move, and he really couldn't bear it.

He almost didn't think: "No, no, I don't want to be separated from you."

He held Shen Zhi's hand tightly, as if afraid that he would run away. Brushing away the tears again, Shen Zhi turned his face away and said, "There is only one chance. If you miss it, I don't know when the next time will be."

"No, there is no need for such an opportunity in the future."

"We...maybe we are not suitable."

"No one is born to be suitable for anyone."

Shen Zhi sighed: "You will regret it."

Seeing that his mood was stable, Feng Ran breathed a sigh of relief, put his arm around his shoulders affectionately, and said: "I will only regret not meeting you earlier."

The love words were blown to the sky again, and Shen Zhi laughed dumbly. The atmosphere eased, and Feng Ran went to the kitchen to make porridge. Shen Zhi stretched his neck to observe. The stove and kitchen utensils were polished and shiny, and the rags were hung neatly in a row. There were no stains on the floor and walls except for the scratches left by the previous tenants.

He said, "It's cleaner than the last time I came."

"I clean every day. Other places don't matter, the kitchen must be clean. But other places in my house are not messy either, right?" Feng Ran was very excited to be praised. In fact, his hygiene habits were average, and he found that Chen Zhi was quite clean and forced himself to clean.

"Well, when would it be best if you can stop smoking?"

"You always seem to be dissatisfied with me." Feng Ran tilted his head, "But it's good too, this way, I'm more motivated."

"What motivation?"

"Get a full score according to your standards."

"I don't have any standards."

"I want to be the most perfect man for you, so that you will never forget me. Even if we break up, you have to be spoiled by me so that no one can stand it."

He came closer and whispered, casually vowing, "Then, I will win. You'd better not think of leaving me casually." Chen Zhi

took a step back: "Were you like this before?"

"Be careful. I've never lost." Feng Ran smiled, turned off the fire and served the porridge.

The sweet aroma of hot porridge filled the kitchen. Amid his boasting like a peacock spreading its feathers, Shen Zhi clenched his fists. His affectionate eyes, which were covered with tears not long ago, suddenly became as cold as frost. He didn't know when, but his thoughts were always being gently pulled, loose or tight, obvious or hidden. The other end of the rope was tied to this boyfriend who he didn't acknowledge.

This feeling was terrible.

Love requires compromise. When Feng Ran persuaded himself like this, he had already promised Shen Zhi that he would not go to the bar in the future. And Shen Zhi also agreed not to check on him all the time.

They had just finished a few times, entangled until late at night, and before they could be intimate, Shen Zhi left his house.

He was dissatisfied in his heart, but didn't say anything.

There is one good thing about virgins: it is easy to train them. Shen Zhi has made rapid progress these days. Even though Feng Ran is so picky, he can hardly find any faults with him.

Shen Zhi is already very good, and he can't ask for too much.

Feng Ran began to work normally and gradually figured out how the two get along. The joy of love became clear. He was a master of flirting. He liked the way Chen Zhi blushed because of his words. In the streets and alleys, at occasional family dinners, they created a world for the two of them, and no one noticed the clues.

"How much do you like it?" Chen Zhi asked after he confessed for who knows how many times.

"I like it very much."

Shen Zhi looked at him deeply: "Don't lie."

Feng Ran paused for a rare moment: "Well, I didn't lie."

He turned to talk about other things, and Shen Zhi responded calmly. I don't know if he was deliberately trying to please him. From then on, he had a lump in his heart, which didn't hurt or itch, but it often seemed like there were worms crawling, which made people unbearable.

Yes, it was a difficult question how much he liked Chen Zhi.

It seemed that he still didn't like her that much. After all, the time they had been together was too short, and they didn't have time to have a deep understanding; after all, the reasons for being together were not so pure.

Winter came very late in Jiang City. It rained a few times at the end of the year. Feng Ran shivered with cold when he went out in short sleeves. Shen Zhi said, winter is coming.

On the winter solstice, which happened to be a weekend, Feng Qing bought a ticket to Jiang City. Feng's mother suggested that everyone have a meal together.

The dinner was held at a Chinese restaurant. Shen Zhi's father did not come, saying that he was not feeling well and was hospitalized again. Feng Ran asked Shen Zhi if he wanted to visit him, but he said no. His mother did not say anything either. Feng Ran said "oh" and did not ask any more questions.

During the meal, his sister caught him at the door of the toilet and asked, "What's going on between you and him?"

"I remember buying you a tablet last time.

" "Tell me the truth, do you have an improper relationship?"

Feng Ran's eyes swam around: "What are you thinking about? There is nothing. We are all normal. Yes, normal."

"You secretly peeled a plate of shrimp for him, how is that normal?"

"I peeled it for you too."

His sister shook her head: "Not normal, absolutely not normal."

Although Feng Qing knew his orientation, he did not want to confess so quickly. He and Shen Zhi were destined not to last, and talking too much would inevitably cause trouble.

"I have a partner, don't spread rumors about me."

"How can you find a partner when you just returned to China? I don't think it's that simple."

As he was talking, Feng Ran was sharp-eyed and saw his mother coming over. He made a gesture to Feng Qing to keep quiet. His sister turned around and shouted, "Mom."

Feng Ran asked, "Where is Chen Zhi? Is he alone in there?"

Feng's mother nodded and said, "Yes, Qingqing, go back first. Feng Ran, come out and help mom see how to open the sunroof of this car."

"The driver didn't come?"

"The driver will be here soon."

"Then let the driver see. I don't know how to do it." Feng Ran left after he finished speaking, without looking at his mother's face, which was probably not very good.

He had a hunch that his mother was very strange, and Shen Zhi's father always looked at him inexplicably. Every time he talked to these two people, he felt like there were ten thousand ants crawling in his heart.

But when he saw Shen Zhi, everything didn't matter anymore.

Chen Zhi was still eating the shrimps on the plate. When he saw him come in, he smiled shyly: "Are you full? I see you haven't eaten much, and you've been peeling them for me."

"What's the big deal?" He sat next to him and fiddled with the corner of Chen Zhi's clothes with his fingers. "Are you going to my place or yours tonight?"

Chen Zhi said: "I'm on a business trip tomorrow, forget about today."

"Business trip? Why haven't I heard you say that before?"

Feng Ran had to stop talking when his mother and sister came in. After the dinner, Feng Qing said she wanted to go to Feng Ran's place to take a look. The three of them were in the same car, so Feng Ran didn't know what to say. He waited patiently until they arrived at the destination. His sister got off the car, and Feng Ran sat in the passenger seat without moving. He asked: "What's the situation of your business trip? How many days will it take?" Chen

Zhi reported a place name: "Five or six days."

"Why didn't you tell me in advance?"

Shen Zhi urged: "Don't let your sister wait too long."

Feng Ran stared at him for a few seconds: "Okay."

He opened the car door and walked out without looking back. Shen Zhi suddenly called his name from behind.

He and his sister turned around at the same time. Chen Zhi looked at them and said with a smile, "If you have nothing to do, would you like to take a leave and go with me?"

His sister immediately started gossiping, "Where are you going?"

"On a business trip," Chen Zhi replied.

Feng Ran cursed inwardly, and the unhappiness of not knowing it at the first time disappeared. Maintaining his composure, he said, "Then I'll think about it."

"Don't take too long."

After returning home, his sister couldn't wait and said, "Look at you, you're still pretending with me."

"What are you talking about... you're so disrespectful."

"You're not honest at all. If you continue like this, I won't tell you a word about my affairs in the future."

Feng Ran lost his temper: "No, we just have a better relationship recently, and we're not sure about the future."

Feng Qing shook her head repeatedly: "Forget it, forget it, you are so brave. What if mom and Uncle Shen find out?"

"They won't find out."

"How can you be sure?"

"If no one tells, how will they find out?"

"...I don't think so. How can you be sure that no one will find out or tell on you?" Feng Qing said, "Besides, if we break up in the future, it will be so embarrassing to meet during the holidays."

"What's embarrassing about that?" Feng Ran can become friends with every boyfriend he breaks up with, and Shen Zhi will be no exception.

Feng Qing had nothing to say. After Feng Ran laid out new sheets and quilts for her, she slipped into the bedroom. Suddenly, she remembered something and turned around to lean on the door frame: "You only have one bedroom here."

"Yeah, I'll sleep on the sofa."

"When are you going to find Chen Zhi?"

"I haven't decided yet, tomorrow."

His sister looked at him with strange eyes: "Why don't you go later..."

He slammed the door: "Okay! Go to sleep."

His sister knew about his sexual orientation when he was 21 and she was 15.

He remembered it very clearly because the next day was her 15th birthday.

At that time, his mother had left them for several years, and the family was heavily in debt. He worked day and night to pay for tuition, living expenses and debts. He only gave himself one night off a month. On the last night of each month, he would indulge in music and alcohol, seeking intense sensory stimulation and temporarily forgetting the pressure of life.

One night, when he came home, his sister was nowhere to be seen. He was so frightened that he sobered up. He threw the midnight snacks and cakes he bought on the table, searched around the house, and finally found a few photos on the table.

He only took a look at them and froze in place, unable to move. ——The protagonist of the photos was him. At different times, he looked comfortable, leaning on the sofa, holding a man in his arms—a different man. Some of them were close to each other, drinking and chatting, and some of them were head to head, whispering. The more they went on, the more

unbearable it was. The last photo was him twisting the man's chin and putting his face against him... He felt embarrassed as if he could not hide.

He stayed for a second, then ran straight into the night.

It was already late at night when he found Feng Qing. At the door of grandma's house, Feng Qing was holding the door with her feet, not letting him in.

Feng Ran said with a stiff face, "Those are all photoshopped pictures."

"Go back, be careful not to wake up grandma." She looked at the floor.

"You still have to go to school tomorrow. Grandma's place is too far from school."

"It's your birthday today. I bought a cake with your favorite mango filling."

"Do you want a gift or not? If you want to buy something, come out and find Ren He and tell him. He just made some money."

No matter what he said, she just wouldn't give in. She had no choice but to wait outside the door.

Ren He listened to his description on the phone and drove him here. Now he couldn't leave, so he told him not to worry and ran over to lobby like a diplomat. Ren He was thoughtful. In the past, Feng Qing didn't want to tell Feng Ran some things, but she would tell him.

Feng Ran felt relieved and waited for two hours until dawn.

"She doesn't have the concept of homosexuality." Ren He said when he came back, "I told her about my situation and your pressure. Just wait for her to slowly accept it. What else can we do?"

When sending Feng Qing to school, the three of them were in the same car. They didn't chatter like before, and they couldn't sleep. It was so boring that people felt uneasy.

Finally, Ren He joked: "In just one night, we both got kicked out of the closet. I thought I had to wait until I was no longer single to come out."

The brother and sister didn't say anything.

After a long while, Feng Qing spoke softly: "Will you become... a couple in the future..."

Feng Ran and Ren He spoke at the same time, interrupting her quickly:

"That's not the case."

"How is that possible."

After saying that, Ren He laughed, and Feng Ran couldn't help but twitching his lips.

He tilted his head slightly and glanced at a corner of his sister's school uniform: "Who gave you the photo?"

"Classmate."

"What classmate?"

"My classmate said he had seen you several times, but I didn't believe it, so he took a photo of me."

Not only did he take the photo, he also printed it out. He's really free! Feng Ran cursed inwardly.

Ren He caught something: "Your classmate went to the bar underage?"

"Uh, he's an adult... the kind who has been held back for many years."

Ren He said: "Don't deal with people like this."

"We're not familiar with each other, and we only talked once."

After a long silence, Feng Qing said: "Brother, that classmate... may be interested in you."

Ren He laughed.

Feng Ran was furious: "Get him out!"

If he caught this guy, he would not feel relieved even if he beat him up.

Before getting off the car, Feng Qing spoke again: "Brother, when did you become like this?"

"He was born like this," Ren He answered for him, "He knew he was like this ten years ago."

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"You are still young, I was afraid you couldn't accept it."

"I'm not young anymore, I already know a lot about family matters, by guessing, discovering by myself, and hearing what others said. You never told me. Mom and Dad are gone, and there are only you and me left at home, why did you hide it from me and carry it all by yourself. Today is my birthday, and I have only one wish... I hope this is the last thing like this," Feng Qing jumped out of the car and stood in front of his window, "Okay, Feng Ran?"

"...Okay."