Chapter 58 Rejection
hypocritical!
I’ve been scolded many times in my life, but this is the first time someone has called me a hypocrite!
But this time when Hua Jingjing called me hypocritical, I felt so ashamed that I couldn't even say a word in rebuttal. I even thought to myself, Tang Qian! You are so hypocritical. You can actually say such hypocritical words. Have you really considered Hua Jingjing? The reasons you said are actually so far-fetched!
Looking at Hua Jingjing's sad and desperate eyes, I felt for the first time that I might and inevitably would hurt her.
I felt a sense of unbelievable unreality in my heart. Just a few days ago, this rich girl in front of me, the boss of the company, was trying every means to discipline me. We fought each other so hard that we almost lost our lives. But today, right here, I heard with my own ears that she was willing to change her temper for me. In other words, she liked me.
I really couldn't believe it. What did Hua Jingjing see in me, a poor boy? What virtue and ability did I have to be favored by this rich young lady?
Instantly, I was touched. After all, the woman in front of me was a woman who loved me! I had already hurt her by not accepting her. How could I make up some beautiful excuses to perfunctorily deal with her? It was too unfair to her! I recalled the first time I met her and the many fights I had with her afterwards. It seemed like a lifetime ago!
I sighed softly and said, "I'm sorry, I really can't accept you. You were right just now, I'm very hypocritical, I... don't deserve your love. There are many reasons why I want to resign, but one of them is to avoid you. I... I... I already have a girlfriend who loves me. I owed her too much in the past. Now I just want to treat her seriously and make up for what I owe her. So, I can't be with you, do you understand?"
Hua Jingjing's eyes suddenly turned red, but she tried hard not to let the tears flow out. She tilted her head to one side, put a finger in her mouth and bit it hard, and finally said: "Tang Qian! You are so cruel! I... would rather you be hypocritical. When you say this, my heart is so sad!"
I understand how Hua Jingjing feels. Many years ago, Qiu Jieqin was also here to listen to me say these words. At that time, she behaved just like Hua Jingjing does now, with pain and resentment, tears and sobs, and she was extremely sad. I hurt her then, and now I am going to hurt Hua Jingjing again.
I felt bad, and I really didn't want to do something that hurt others, but sometimes people are helpless and some things cannot be avoided. Since I have chosen Qiu Jieqin, I have to be responsible for her and my own words and deeds, even if it will hurt others, there is nothing I can do about it.
"Knock, knock, knock." At this depressing moment, there was a knock on the door outside the office, waking me and Hua Jingjing up. Hua Jingjing rubbed her eyes with her hands and said to me softly, "Wait a minute, I'll sit back and you go open the door."
She and I both stood up. I walked to the door and saw that Hua Jingjing had already sat back at her desk, so I reached out and opened the door.
Standing outside the door was Fan Yunting, deputy manager of the planning department. She was holding a document in her hand. She glanced at me and walked straight to Hua Jingjing and said, "Boss Hua, the numbers here still need your final decision, but my colleagues and I have checked them carefully, and there shouldn't be any major problems. Can you take another look?"
Hua Jingjing forced a smile, reached out to take the document, flipped through it a few times, and then stamped it and returned it to Fan Yunting, saying, "Since you have all checked it carefully, I think there should be no major problems. Just send it out as is."
Fan Yunting saw that Hua Jingjing seemed to have a sad face and looked listless. Her keen intuition as a woman made her look towards me immediately.
I quickly turned my head and pretended nothing happened.
It was Hua Jingjing who spoke first: "Manager Fan, Tang Qian just submitted his resignation to me. This is his resignation letter. You are also his leader, please take a look."
Fan Yunting was a little surprised. She took the envelope from Hua Jingjing and said to me, "You want to resign? Why?"
I said, "The reasons are all written in the resignation letter."
Fan Yunting opened the envelope, unfolded the resignation letter and began to read it. The letter was very short and she finished reading it in three seconds. Fan Yunting seemed to find it very funny and said, "You want to go out on your own? Not bad! You are quite ambitious and have great aspirations."
I didn't know whether Fan Yunting was praising me or insulting me, so I couldn't respond for a moment. Hua Jingjing said to Fan Yunting: "Do you agree with his resignation?"
"I agree! Why not? Everyone has their own aspirations. Maybe after Tang Qian leaves, there will be greater development." Fan Yunting threw the letter back on the table and said to Hua Jingjing, "Then I'll go out and send the documents."
Hua Jingjing nodded, and Fan Yunting turned and left. When she passed by me, there was a look in her eyes that I couldn't understand, as if she understood everything.
After Fan Yunting left, Hua Jingjing stared at the letter paper on the table for a long time. I had no choice but to remind her, "Boss Hua!" Hua Jingjing's eyes moved. She sighed first and said to me, "It seems that I have no way to stop you from leaving?"
I said, "I'm sorry!"
Hua Jingjing gave a bitter smile, picked up the pen on the table, and wrote a reply on the letter paper, then signed her name. She slowly folded the letter paper and said to me: "I signed and agreed, you give the resignation letter to the Human Resources Department, and the Human Resources Department will handle the relevant resignation procedures."
I said happily, "Yes, thank you!" and reached out to take my resignation letter. But Hua Jingjing retracted her hand and said, "Wait a minute, just because I agree to your resignation doesn't mean that this matter is over. I still have a lot of accounts to settle with you, and it's not convenient to do it in the company. After get off work, you wait for me in my car. I want to settle things with you tonight."
I was in a state of panic. I had just rejected her courtship, and she was so angry that she got angry. What good would happen to me? She would tear me to pieces. Thinking of Hua Jingjing's vicious and cruel methods, I couldn't help but sweat on my back and said in a trembling voice, "Tonight? No need?"
Hua Jingjing sneered: "Do you still want my signed resignation letter? Otherwise I will tear it up." As she said that, she made a gesture as if she was going to tear it up.
I thought that I would have to make it clear with Hua Jingjing eventually. No matter how much she hit or scolded me, I would have to bear it. After all, I was the one who let her down, and it was not her fault that she liked me.
I said, "Okay then! We'll have a good talk tonight, but I want to make it clear that a gentleman should use words instead of fists, and you are not allowed to hit others!" Hua Jingjing wanted to laugh but couldn't, so she threw the letter back to me and said, "Go and complete your resignation procedures. After that, come to my place to get the car keys."
I was afraid that she would change her mind again, so I quickly took it and turned around and left. Hua Jingjing angrily tore up the documents on the desk, saying, "You want to talk but not fight? Fine! If you want to talk, then talk! I, I'm going to bite you to death..."
When I finished the resignation formalities, it was almost time to get off work. I held my file bag, found a large cardboard box, and returned to my secretary's desk to organize my things. The interpersonal relationships here were completely different from those in the sales department. No one came to ask me what was going on.
I was glad to be quiet. I didn't have much stuff anyway, so it only took me a while to pack. I went to Hua Jingjing 's office and said to her, "Boss Hua! I have completed all the formalities."
Hua Jingjing looked up at me, with a wry smile on her face. She said, "Okay? Well, here are the car keys. Wait for me in the car, I'll be right there."
I agreed, took the key and left. I walked to the elevator with the box in my hand, and was about to free one hand to press the elevator button with difficulty, but someone came quickly behind me and pressed it for me first.
I turned around and saw that person was Cheng Jia. She smiled and said to me, "I just saw you packing your things. What's going on? Have you really decided to quit your job?"
The elevator door opened, and I said, "Yeah, it's not easy to make this decision. I don't know what to do in the future."
Cheng Jia said: "I support you. A man needs to have the courage to fight for himself. If you are unhappy working in the company, it's okay to quit. But I will lose a good colleague who can talk to me."
I sighed and said, "Cheng Jia, I will never forget you. I will always remember the care you gave me and thank you for your help. Really!"
The elevator door behind me closed again. Cheng Jia sneered, reached out to help me press the elevator button, and said, "Come on, stop being sour, and get in the elevator quickly."
I stepped back inside and said, "See you then!"
Cheng Jia smiled and made a phone call gesture, saying, "Keep in touch..." The elevator door closed again.
Standing in the elevator, I hesitated for a while and pressed the button for the second floor. At this time, I remembered the countless days and nights I had worked in the business department on the second floor, and the good colleagues who worked with me and got to know each other. There was also the manager Gu Ruoyan, who had spent a lot of time on my job transfer and took good care of me. Now I have resigned quietly, and I always feel sorry for her.
No matter what, I have to tell her! Although I know she will be disappointed in me, I will feel guilty if I leave like this.
The elevator stopped at the second floor, and I held the box and walked into my familiar work environment. Most of the people in the sales department were not there, and the rest were preparing to leave. I walked through the office lobby, and several old colleagues saw me walking with the box and looked at me with incomprehensible eyes.
My colleague Xiao Zhai greeted me: "Hey! Brother Tang, what's wrong? You haven't been sent back to the sales department by the planning department, have you? How long have you been there?"
Another person asked, "Xiao Tang, what happened? What are you doing?"
I smiled bitterly, put the things on my old desk, and said, "Alas! It's hard to say anything! I'm afraid I have to say goodbye to you, so I came here specially to say hello."
My colleagues came to me and asked me the reason. I only told them that I was resigning and didn’t say anything else.
Li Xiaoling came out of the statistics office and asked me with concern, "What's wrong with you? You're doing well and doing a good job, why do you want to quit?"
But how could I tell the truth? I smiled and said, "These are all personal reasons. I want to go out and develop myself. It's better to work for myself than for others, haha!"
As I said that, I walked straight to the door of Gu Ruoyan's office and knocked on it.
Gu Ruoyan still spoke in that cold tone: "Come in!" I pushed the door open and saw the sales manager who was busy in front of the computer.
After not seeing each other for a few days, Gu Ruoyan looked much thinner and more haggard. His hair was a little messy, and his eye sockets under his glasses seemed to be much darker.
I felt a little sad and called her, "Manager!"
Gu Ruoyan poked her head out from behind the computer screen. Seeing that it was me, a smile appeared on her cold face. She said, "I was wondering why there was so much noise outside just now. It turns out you're here! Is there anything wrong?"
