Chapter 56 Self-Sacrifice

There was flying white snow everywhere.

In a world that looks like the heavy snowfall in Hokkaido, Kagura Mio is walking there.

She didn't say a word, but just took one step at a time and walked forward little by little.

She was wearing the uniform of the technical college. Even though the clothes were so thin, she didn't feel cold at all in such heavy snow. She stood silently in the snow, looking at the vast world full of light because of reflection, and couldn't help wondering if she would be snow-blind.

She smiled and walked towards the distance step by step -

there was a brown wooden door standing in the snow.

It seemed to be there naturally, without any restraints, and there was nothing even behind the door. It just stood there quietly, like the wardrobe in The Chronicles of Narnia -

open the door, walk in, and you will enter another world.

She stood in front of the door, motionless.

The vast expanse of white snow seemed to sense that she was about to leave, and suddenly became like a torrential rain, blowing in her face. The cold wind blew on her face, as if it wanted to swallow her whole. Kagura Mio heard a voice coming from the wind and snow, it was -

"Mio, don't go."

It was Satoru.

Kagura Mio had no expression on her face. Her hand was on the door handle of the wooden door, her fingertips gently stroking the handle. She lowered her head, not knowing what she was thinking.

"Mio Mio!"

"It's dangerous there! Come here!"

He seems very anxious, Wu.

Kagura Mio sensed someone behind her.

Is it Gojo Satoru? He seemed to want to stop her, but he didn't dare to touch her - or he couldn't touch her at all, just called her back.

She stood in the snow, blinked gently, without saying a word to the person behind her, then opened the door calmly as if she was drinking boiled water, and silently walked into the illusory hole in the doorway amid the other person's anxious voice -

what kind of world was that?

The feeling of oppression was as strong as that of an interrogation room, and it was also like a black hole in the rain. It was pitch black everywhere and nothing could be seen. Kagura Mio allowed herself to stand in such a dark and terrifying world, feeling her own existence.

A series of subtitles flashed through my mind.

[You are not alone]

"No, I am." Kagura Mio said softly.

She felt that her voice was no longer in the form of sound - she herself couldn't tell what it was now, but in short, she felt like she was speaking. Or rather, she hoped she was talking.

[You are never alone. You still have Gojo Satoru, Geto Suguru, and Ieichiro Nozomi. Aren't they considered your companions? 】

"No, that's not it." Kagura Mio said, "No matter how powerful a person is, he is alone when he dies. Even the ritual is the same."

【Really? So, why don't you choose to give up? Choose to sleep, choose to give up the sovereignty of this body, and voluntarily be killed by Gojo Satoru——】

Kagura Mio's expression relaxed a little.

She felt something in her mind continue to speak to her.

[You are timid, cowardly, and repressed.] You say that you should restrain yourself, suppress yourself, say you are in pain, say you are empty, say you are tired, but you are just a combination of self-sacrifice and savior syndrome. 】

【What do you want to be? A warrior of reason, a rebel against fate, a martyr of love? In fact, you are no one. You are just a person who has never figured out what you want, but insists on using world-class pain to prove your existence. 】

"······"

Kagura Mio stared blankly at the beam of light that suddenly dropped down -

just like a human fossil that had been squatting at the bottom of a well for millions of years and saw a beam of light hanging down. She stood in the center of the beam of light, forcing herself to look directly at it, and did not stop until her eyes hurt so much that tears came out.

She stared at the light in a way that could almost be called self-abuse, watching it shine on her and feeling the subtitles in her mind.

[You said you loved Gojo Satoru, but you never really treated him as a human being. You regard him as a pillar, a beacon, and the only god who can possibly catch you. You never thought that he would also be afraid, feel pain, and feel tired. What you want is not a lover, but a martyred comrade, someone to be buried with you. 】

【Your biggest lie is: "Please kill me."】

She raised her head and saw countless versions of herself standing in front of her, some with only the head, some with the whole body. They stared at her with malicious, threatening and cold eyes, as if they were mocking and ridiculing her existence and hypocrisy.

She blinked, and an unprecedented emptiness arose from the bottom of her heart. She didn't know what was wrong with her or what she was thinking. She just listened calmly to the subtitles in her mind.

【You simply don’t dare to live to face all the love and choices. You only dare to die at the hands of someone stronger than you, and then call it "fate". 】

【Someone is desperate to keep you here and not let you kill yourself. 】

【It’s a pity that the person you are waiting for will never be Gojo Satoru—he can save you a hundred times, but he can never save you who has decided to sacrifice yourself. 】

【You are not a flame. You are ash. 】

The moment the warm liquid dripped from the corners of her eyes, Kagura Mio realized that she was crying.

But what if I cry, and what if I don’t cry?

Because -

"You're right."

Kagura Mio said calmly as if she was making a report, "You are right."

"This is the inferior nature of human beings, and of course it is also my shortcoming."

"I am cowardly, fragile, and selfish. I gave the pain to Gojo Satoru, and I let him kill me. It is called love, but in essence it is escape, because I have no way to face my true self, let alone bravely take that step, bravely choose self-liberation, and stand in a higher dimension to walk towards a new world."

"I don't have the courage, so I said I can't do it."

"So, I think you are right."

[······]

Kagura Mio stood quietly among a group of her own faces, casting her eyes on this small corner of the chaotic and dark space.

That's a door.

She walked towards the door step by step, even passing through countless broken walls of herself - it was not different, but the soul level was icy and cold, and there was a strange feeling of being touched.

"I admit that you are right."

The vast snow seemed to blind her eyes, but Kagura Mio unexpectedly felt extremely calm in her heart.

"What is a human? What is human nature? I don't know."

Kagura Mio said expressionlessly: "But I have escaped many times, like a self-pitying drama queen, struggling with myself, suppressing myself, and suffering from myself."

"In fact, it's useless at all."

"The key to solving everything lies in myself."

"Gojo Satoru, Jushiki, Geto Suguru or Sukuna... None of them can help me."

"So, this time I choose to end my life."

She looked at the countless selves, and at the beam of light shining on the spot. She turned her head slightly mechanically and stiffly, her tone as flat as a robot. "Nietzsche said, 'You must sacrifice your past self in order to break through to a higher level of existence.' I don't think there is anything to break through here - in essence, it doesn't matter to me. I don't care whether I can break through higher or whether I can reach the so-called repression ritual. I don't care at all." "

You are right, so you awakened me."

"The so-called 'individuals are sacrificed to history and achieve a higher spirit' These things, I don't care."

"Because, for me, it's just a process of integration."

"The past me was sacrificed in history and achieved the ritual itself, and now, I choose to let go-"

"I don't want to suppress myself anymore, I want to sacrifice myself, I want to accept, I want to integrate, I want to let myself be myself."

She quietly looked at those faces that were either painful or self-suppressed, then opened the wooden door without hesitation, took a step forward in the countless sounds of wind-and

jumped down.

Under the brilliant and white light like a temple, there is an ethereal melody that is unfathomable. Kagura Mio feels her heart suddenly tighten as if someone is grabbing it tightly, feels her flesh gradually disappearing, feels her spirit and soul gradually merging...

She chose self-destruction in the temple of God.

There's something wrong with the technique.

Gojo Satoru could see it.

She was kneeling on the ground with a look of despair and pain, a crazy smile on her face. It was unknown where she was injured, and the blood she was spitting out had dyed the curse pattern on her chest red. She looked like a completely crazy patient.

But her cursed power was actually surging, and Gojo Satoru could even feel that her adaptability had reached 100% at this moment -

how was this possible? !

He looked at the woman in front of him kneeling on the ground, supporting herself with her right hand on the collapsed ground, and slowly straightened up from the ground, her knees still kneeling, her beautiful eyes full of madness and greed.

She licked her lips, widened her eyes, blinked gently, pursed her lips, then opened her mouth and smiled gently with an innocent and naive look like a child.

"So, so that's how it is..."

She blinked, laughing wildly, her voice filled with air, "Do you know? That guy, she chose to die, this body belongs to me hahahahahahaha!!!" "

Now--"

"I am the perfect body, I am complete!!!"

As she laughed wildly, the air around her suddenly became thin, and a powerful and terrifying pressure descended like a storm. The entire Roppongi area within a radius of 490 meters with the technique as the center was shrouded, like a natural disaster. The moon hanging high in the sky was dyed bloody, and Roppongi in the domain completely turned into a large slaughterhouse. It directly covered the entire area with its own black domain barrier and forcibly pulled Gojo Satoru into its inner domain.

[Field expansion: Void Scarlet Courtyard!] ! ! 】

The powerful pressure made Gojo Satoru close his eyes, and his strongest instinct made him act immediately at the moment when the technique was deployed. The sophisticated six eyes had been providing Gojo Satoru with a steady stream of information, but his intuitive instinct made him abandon this information -

his third layer of restraints had not yet been released, and he was not dead now, which meant that Kagura Mio was not completely dead -

heh.

Good job.

Gojo Satoru chuckled and licked the corner of his mouth gently.

So, what should he do now?

Should I listen to the rational calculations of the Six Eyes, or follow my own instinct and trust Kagura Mio herself?

That’s a really good question.

But -

Gojo Satoru has always been a complete madman.

This feeling of being on the verge of collapse and death at any moment is really... too rare.

Crazy and rare, but enough to make him feel unprecedented excitement.

So he put himself into the realm of the technique without any resistance, risking his life, risking everything, even Gojo Satoru himself.

This feeling of being out of control is really special...

It's like being on a roller coaster and diving rapidly from the highest point without any safety measures - Gojo Satoru, who has never felt this kind of excitement because he is too strong, has all the excitement factors in his body ignited thoroughly. He smiled and let himself fall into the realm of the technique.

Mio Mio.

To be or not to be?

I leave the choice to you.