Chapter 51 Bitter Love (6)
"I know that if you want to do both, you will be under unimaginable pressure, but only in this way can you be qualified to be Yinyin's husband and the king of a country. Now you must think it is very difficult, almost impossible, but I think only at this time will it be easier for you to do it."
Zhou Cheng knew that what Zhang Ren said was absolutely right, but he was not sure that he could do it now. He only knew that if he relaxed a little, he would have no chance to win back Yin Yin's heart. As long as he was thinking about Yin Yin, he could not devote himself to government affairs, and he could not give up or abandon her. For him, the current situation was like forcing him to choose between the country and the beauty. How easy was it to take both into account as Zhang Ren said? Zhang Ren's saying that it was easy was really hard for Zhou Cheng to imagine.
"Your Majesty, please recall how you worked diligently for the people and how you fell in love with Yin Yin."
Recalling? Zhou Cheng recalled that working diligently for the people was his duty as a king, but what about falling in love with Yin Yin? Falling in love with Yin Yin caught him off guard, and when he realized it, it was too late. He could not find any common ground for the country and Yin Yin to coexist. What could he do after recalling it? He could easily govern the country, but he could not easily get what he wanted. When he thought of Yin Yin, he only felt pain and bitterness...
"From the looks of you, you probably can't find a reason to fall in love with Yinyin, right? Governing state affairs is easy for you, but you are confused when dealing with Yinyin's affairs. Will you regret not being sure when Yinyin fell in love with you? You must remember that everything is destined, and what is supposed to happen will still happen. No one knows whether the choice at that time was correct, but when you know it, as long as you make up for it with your heart, you will definitely get a response. I don't know if Yinyin has fallen in love with someone else after you. I started to not understand her as early as the first time she lost her memory. Later, I didn't know what happened during the two years when she disappeared. Although I don't know the details of the Gray Valley, I can tell from King Zhao's words that he and Yinyin have an unusual relationship. According to my inference, Yinyin must have been involved with King Zhao in her memory before she lost her memory for the second time. Regardless of whether what King Zhao said before is true or false, and regardless of the outcome between you and Yinyin, I hope you will accept it resolutely."
Zhang Ren's words mean both advancement and retreat. To put it simply, no matter what the result is, you have to face it and don't force it. Even if Yin Yin does not choose him, he has to accept it. Forcing will only have unexpected results, and it will be too late to regret it then.
"With me now, do you think I can do it?"
“I can’t do it!”
Zhou Cheng was slightly stunned when he heard Zhang Ren's answer. How could he answer so straightforwardly?
"It's indeed impossible, considering your current state..."
Zhang Ren played along with Zhou Cheng's tactics and used Zhou Cheng's words to clearly emphasize that it was only 'now'.
"Do you feel pain? When facing Yin Yin."
"Um."
“Bitter?”
"Um."
"Should I continue to love her even if it hurts?"
"Um."
"When you felt pain, did you ever think about what she was thinking at that time?"
After asking and answering questions all the way, Zhou Cheng finally got stuck and looked at Zhang Ren.
"You know what? You are not the only one who feels pain. Prince Jing, who also loves Yinyin, and Yinyin herself are also in pain. So don't immerse yourself in pain, and don't think that you are the only one who is in pain. The pain you and Prince Jing feel comes from Yinyin, and Yinyin's pain comes from her lost memories. She can't remember the lost memories, and she doesn't know who she loves. The pain she bears may be far greater than yours."
Zhou Cheng had already noticed and known what Zhang Ren said, but he just didn't want to admit it, let alone accept it. When he saw Yin Yin's pain, he would also be in pain and feel suffocated, because he knew that once he accepted and acknowledged it , he would probably lose the confidence to win back Yin Yin. The current situation did not allow him to be negligent in the slightest, so no matter how painful it was, he wanted to fight for it.
"In other words, when Yinyin fell in love with you, you didn't feel the same feeling as when she was hurt by you. Now the situation is completely opposite to that time. Every time you feel uncontrollable pain because of her words and actions, the pain makes you want to kill yourself who rejected her in the past?"
For some reason, every word Zhang Ren said touched Zhou Cheng's heart. He had lost count of how many times he had done this. Whenever he heard or thought of Yin Yin's cold and indifferent attitude towards him, Zhou Cheng felt a heart-wrenching pain. When he compared it with the past when Yin Yin had a special liking for him, Yin Yin at that time should have felt the same as he does now, right? If he had known this would happen, if everything could be repeated, Zhou Cheng would have wanted to kill himself who had rejected Yin Yin in his dreams and memories, because nothing would happen again.
"At that time, I never thought that a cold look or a cold word could make people feel so painful. That kind of pain and bitterness can almost drive people crazy. Yinyin has experienced all this, right? What I gave her is finally repaid by me now. I can't imagine how she endured and endured the pain I gave her at that time. The pain was so severe that even I felt like I was about to collapse. How did such a weak woman endure it?"
While listening to Zhou Cheng's narration, Zhang Ren recalled the pain Yin Yin suffered because of Zhou Cheng. He felt indescribably depressed. First it was Yin Yin, and now it was Zhou Cheng. Their pain was caused by each other. How could Zhang Ren say this? What could say? Should he blame Zhou Cheng for hurting Yin Yin first, and now he was hurt by Yin Yin?
