Chapter 51 Bitter Love (4)
Xue Han was not the only one who knew that Zhou Yan was reluctant to leave. Yin Yin also knew it, but she just didn't want to think too much about it. She knew that thinking too much about it would only make her feel depressed.
"Don't you plan to go back, Princess?"
After Zhou Yan left, Xue Han suddenly asked about it. Even though he didn't explain in detail, Yin Yin knew the reason.
"Well, I don't know when I want to go back, but I don't want to go back now."
Xue Han could understand Yin Yin's feelings. Being over-protected by Zhou Cheng all day long made her feel suffocated. Although she knew that was a manifestation of Zhou Cheng's love for her, it was this feeling that made Yin Yin feel resistant and depressed. Over time, it was like putting an invisible shackle on her. The more she didn't want to lose, the easier it was to lose, and the faster she would lose. Xue Han understood that the deeper the feelings accumulated in Zhou Cheng's heart, the more lost he would be. Perhaps, Yin Yin's choice was not necessarily correct. Leaving Zhou Cheng at this time might help him calm down and think about what to do next.
"Even so, will you still avoid Prince Jing?"
Xue Han's sudden words startled Yin Yin, but what he said was true. Xue Han knew very well that this kind of thing was not something he could interfere with, and he had no intention of saying it, but for some reason it just came out of his mouth.
"…… sorry ."
Seeing Yin Yin's heavy expression, Xue Han immediately apologized. He had never thought of seeing Yin Yin showing such an expression.
"You... are absolutely right."
Yin Yin didn't know what was wrong. She had always kept this matter suppressed in her heart. However, at this moment, when Xue Han asked her about it, she answered uncontrollably and naturally?
"Although I have forgotten the past and know more or less what happened, it is already the past after all, and I don't want to pursue it. I know Cheng is very good to me and cherishes me, but I just can't accept his feelings. I know that even if I forget, there is still an irreplaceable existence in my heart. That person is not Cheng or Yan. Although I don't know who he is, I think I must be deeply in love with him. I want to know who he is, where he is now, and why he is not by my side when I need him most? I want to rely on my own ability to remember that person. I want to ask him face to face why he was not by my side when I needed him most, why he didn't come to me. Before I find these, I don't want to show any feelings to anyone. I'm afraid that after I know everything, these people will be hurt. I don't want to hurt them, but, but I still hurt them..."
For a moment, Yin Yin was unable to suppress her inner impulse and blurted out all the words that had been suppressed in her heart for a long time. Until she heard these words, Xue Han suddenly realized. He finally knew why Yin Yin had been acting abnormally and cold to Zhou Cheng and Zhou Yan but very friendly to other people. He had never thought about what that forgotten memory meant to a person with amnesia. How could it cause such great pain to a person?
She clearly didn't want to hurt anyone, but she hurt them more seriously unintentionally. Although this situation is very common, Yinyin had no choice in her heart. If she could choose, she would never do so. But even if she hurt others, Yinyin herself also suffered great pain. Even if Yinyin didn't want to hurt others and tried her best to avoid everything, she still couldn't avoid hurting others and herself.
Seeing Yin Yin covering her face and crying, Xue Han really wanted to hold her in his arms to comfort her, but he was very clear about his position and knew what to do and what not to do. Even though he loved her deeply, he still suppressed his emotions and could only watch like an outsider.
Not long after, when Xiuying came back with meals and medicine, Yinyin had already wiped away her tears and smiled to welcome her return. Xue Han really wanted to know what was supporting Yinyin, why could she still smile in endless pain? Her innocent smile was so pure without a trace of falsehood. If Xue Han had not known the pain in Yinyin's heart, he would have been deceived by her smile. However, when he knew her pain, Yinyin's smile made him feel bitter and his heart ached. I believe that many people would be deceived by her smile and ignore her inner pain. Maybe that's why so many people fall in love with her? She doesn't have to do anything, and she doesn't have to do anything. The reason why she is so lovable is that she herself is not false , but her essence is so fascinating.
Annex study room.
"Your Majesty, please forgive me for being so nosy. If you are worried about the princess, why don't you take her with you?"
Zuo Yu was reporting the situation in the royal city to Zhou Yan, and also reported about Han Ji. After reporting about Han Ji, Zuo Yu couldn't help but ask Zhou Yan.
"Taking her away will only make her situation difficult. It is better to leave her here. The emperor is not a fool. He should know the things between the prince and the princess, so he will not do anything to the princess."
Zuo Yu couldn't fully understand Zhou Yan's words, but he always felt that Zhou Yan seemed to be infatuated with Yin Yin, but he couldn't give up Han Ji, or was it because he felt guilty towards Han Ji that he couldn't let go? Zuo Yu couldn't guess what Zhou Yan was thinking. He only knew that Zhou Yan was his master, and he just had to do his best to help his master get what he wanted. Moreover, he sincerely admired Zhou Yan's feelings for Yin Yin. Outsiders said that Zhou Yan was cold-blooded, but how many people knew that Zhou Yan was only in love with one woman? Would he be desperate for a woman, regardless of life and death?
