The human heart is very complicated, and we will never know what kind of secrets are hidden in that little head.
For adolescent girls, the thoughts at that time are even more difficult to understand.
Is it possible to like two people at the same time?
This question was like a thunderclap, exploding in my pounding heart.

In the early morning, large dark clouds hovered in the sky, blocking the sunlight and bringing gloom and darkness, but even so, it could not affect my joyful mood.
I walked quickly on the road. The air was filled with the sweet fragrance of flowers. Occasionally, a sparrow flew by and chirped loudly. Everything was so quiet and beautiful.
Just one more intersection away is Brother Yi Mo’s home!
The strawberry cake in my hand exudes a sweet aroma. This is the breakfast I got up early to buy for Brother Yi Mo. I am always taken care of tenderly by him, so I also want to give him a sweet surprise.
I have never wanted to see him so badly as I do now.
Finally, after walking around a flower bed, Brother Yi Mo’s house appeared in my sight.
My steps became lighter and lighter, and I skipped towards the building. The closer I got, the more confused I became...
There seemed to be a lot of things piled downstairs at Brother Yi Mo's house.
So strange...
I quickened my pace, trying to get a better look, but I vaguely heard a conversation.
"I heard that the child of this family is going abroad."
"Well, it seems his father and his mother have reconciled. They said they want to live abroad together."
Who is it?
Unable to suppress my curiosity, I walked closer and saw several suitcases and bags piled on the ground. One of the bags looked so familiar, as if... it seemed to be Brother Yi Mo’s bag?
Suddenly, I felt uneasy. I asked an old man carefully, "Uncle, who wants to go abroad?"
"It seems to be a family with the surname 'Shan'..."
"boom--"
My brain seemed to be struck by lightning. My vision went dark, my body was shaking, and the strawberry cake in my hand fell to the ground with a bang. But I didn't have time to care about it. I shook my head and rushed upstairs.
impossible!
I must have heard it wrong! Brother Yimo and I watched the stars together yesterday, how could he be going abroad today?
This must be a misunderstanding!
I tried hard to comfort myself and calm my racing heart.
I ran to Brother Yi Mo's house and saw that the door was ajar.
I pushed the door open tremblingly and saw that the room was empty and tidy as new, but there was no trace of Brother Yi Mo.
The uneasiness in my heart became stronger, and the fact that I didn't want to believe seemed to be confirmed.
It can't be true!
It can't be true!
There was hot and humid liquid surging in my eye sockets, my heart was beating rapidly, and it seemed as if something was blocking my throat, making it impossible for me to breathe...
I want to ask him clearly and hear from him in person that this is just a misunderstanding.
I ran downstairs, stumbling several times and nearly falling, but my speed was getting faster and faster, for fear that I would miss it just because of a few seconds of hesitation.
There is still a little hope in my heart, but I am not willing to believe it yet...
When a ray of sunlight shone into my eyes, I hurriedly walked out of the corridor. At the door of the building, a tall and slender figure was standing there, shrouded in a light golden mist, and there seemed to be white wings fluttering quietly behind him.
"Brother Yimo!"
There was a taxi parked next to Brother Yi Mo, and he and the driver were loading the luggage into the taxi one by one.
Hearing my voice, Brother Yi Mo turned around quickly.
"Chinatsu?"
A complex emotion flashed across his face. Was it shock? Was it sadness? Was it...
I couldn't understand it, and I didn't have the extra energy to interpret it. At this moment, I just wanted to get the answer, but... the answer seemed so obvious.
Brother Yi Mo, are you really going abroad?
Brother Yi Mo, just yesterday you gently kissed my forehead.
Brother Yi Mo, do you know that I don’t want to leave your side anymore.
Many words were brewing in my heart, but the words that came out were: "Brother Yimo, are you leaving?"
When the sadness grows infinitely, I can only cowardly choose to deceive myself.
“Qianxia…” Brother Yi Mo’s gaze was as gentle as usual, but a trace of sadness flashed in his eyes, “I’m sorry Qianxia for not telling you. I never thought that they would get back together. We will never understand the feelings of adults…”
Isn't this a misunderstanding?
Is Brother Yi Mo really leaving?
Are you really going to disappear from me?
“Pah—Pah—”
I don't know when the tears started flowing. I shook my head sadly, feeling like my heart would break at any moment.
I don't want to believe it! I don't want to believe it! I can't believe it!
Everything was so sweet and happy yesterday, why did it all become an illusion in just one short night?
"Qianxia, ​​can you forgive me?" Brother Yi Mo put down the luggage in his hands and gently held my shoulders with both hands, as if he wanted to comfort me.
His figure slowly became blurred in my sight, thick layers of fog gathered in front of my eyes, sadness and reluctance enveloped my heart.
"Are you really... leaving?" My voice trembled slightly.
"Yeah." Brother Yi Mo nodded quietly, the warm sunlight sprinkled on his face, and the corners of his mouth were still filled with a slight curve, but it inadvertently cut the air around me, making my breathing so difficult.
It seems that at this moment, all the words that brother Yi Mo said yesterday have turned into clouds in the sky. As the wind blows gently, they will slowly drift away with the wind's footprints.
"Why are you telling me now? What you said yesterday... were all lies to me?" I asked out of control.
"No, Qianxia, ​​I was afraid that you would be sad, so I didn't tell you. I didn't lie to you... no..." Brother Yi Mo raised his hand and gently stroked the hair on my forehead.
This familiar action, however, made me burst into tears at this moment. The big tears seemed like crystals connected into a line, dripping onto the ground one by one. They were so crystal clear but could not change the broken fate, just like those promises, so beautiful but would still be shattered.
"If you disappear without a word, I'll only be more sad!" I said, feeling more and more wronged the more I spoke.
"I'm sorry, Chinatsu. I promise I'll come back to see you later, okay?"
"What about what you said yesterday? Does it not count? You said you would always be with me..."
Tears burned my cheeks, but I didn't care and just let them slide down.
"I will definitely keep my promise. Chinatsu, believe me." Brother Yi Mo stretched out his hand and gently wiped the tears from my cheeks. His warm fingertips seemed to tremble slightly.
My crying stopped temporarily, the mist in my eyes slowly dissipated, and I subconsciously looked up at the sky.
Gray clouds covered the sky, and it seemed that a heavy rain would fall at any time.
"I can't believe it, I'm scared," I whispered.
I looked at him hard, at his eyebrows, his eyes, his nose, his lips, wanting to imprint every little thing about him deeply in my mind.
In this way, if I miss him in the future, I can just close my eyes and remember what he looks like and the days we spent together.
The wind stopped and the world around me became extremely quiet.
"Qianxia, ​​I will come back and keep my promise." Brother Yi Mo smiled gently, and that smile made me want to hold it in my hands and cherish it.
But, in the end, I can't hold it tightly, and my heart still hurts.
How long will it be?
Although I know that no matter how time passes, my feelings will not change, but in such a long future, will Brother Yi Mo remember what I say now like me?
But in order not to embarrass Brother Yi Mo, I temporarily suppressed my sadness: "This time, you are not allowed to lie to me!"
I stretched out my little finger, and Brother Yi Mo watched my movement and slowly relaxed his brows. He hooked his fingers together with mine, and I didn't give up and stamped it with my thumb again.
This agreement was made because of this separation.
My heart feels sour and bitter.
"Can we go now?" The taxi driver, sitting in the car, seemed a little impatient waiting and shouted at us with a frown.
My eyes dimmed again.
"Goodbye, Chinatsu."
The wind started to blow again, the sky became darker and darker, and large, thick clouds blocked out the sunlight.
It looks like it's going to rain soon.
Is the sky also crying for our departure?
"Goodbye, Brother Yimo, you must keep your promise." My voice was very soft, as if all the strength in my body had been drained away.
Unexpectedly...
Brother Yi Mo suddenly lowered his head and slowly approached me. The breath from his mouth rushed towards me, and the fragrance of roses seemed to flow in the air.
His face was just as clean and gentle as when we first met, and it was easy to be moved by him.
The reluctance in my heart continues to spread...
Brother Yimo slowly approached me, his scent becoming stronger and stronger at the tip of my nose. Every time he got closer to me, my heartbeat quickened.
His breath finally stopped on my forehead.
Is he going to kiss me?
My already rosy cheeks suddenly turned like a fiery red sunset cloud.
“Boom—boom—”
I tried to calm my heartbeat, took careful deep breaths, and closed my eyes tightly, looking forward to what would happen next.
But after the breath stayed in front of my forehead for a while, it disappeared, and what followed was a gentle voice ringing in my ears.
"My Chinatsu, you can't just cry easily."
Every syllable that Brother Yi Mo uttered was trembling slightly, and I could sense in his tone the same reluctance that I felt.
The air is filled with a sad atmosphere. These words are so sweet, why do I only feel sad?
When I think that in a few minutes, just a few minutes, I will not be able to see Brother Yi Mo anymore, I will not be able to hear his gentle words anymore, I will not be able to see his warm smile anymore, I will not be able to see his back anymore, I will not be able to...
There are many things that can no longer be done.
Brother Yi Mo is like an angel...
I'm about to lose...
"Brother Yimo, you must remember what you said today! You must abide by the agreement..." At the end, my voice choked up a little.
"Yeah." Brother Yi Mo nodded heavily, then turned around and got into the taxi.
It was not until the taxi disappeared from my sight that I finally dared to face the fact that Brother Yi Mo had left.
My heart is so sad that I can hardly breathe.
It started to rain, and everything around me became blurry, except for that person's face, which became clearer and clearer...
goodbye……
Brother Yimo...
I didn't go to school with sadness. I called Su Mengmeng and told her that Brother Yi Mo had passed away, and asked her to ask for leave for me. In my current state, I really don't know how to concentrate on class.
Brother Yi Mo occupies every corner of my brain. Whether it is his smile or his fragrance, I am reluctant to leave him.
The house was very quiet. I lay on the bed and cried loudly.
The memories between me and brother Yi Mo kept playing in my mind.
…
"Marshmallows will melt in the sun!"
"Don't be afraid, Chinatsu is also cute with braces..."
"The wind is so strong that it made our Chixia's eyes red?"
"Chinatsu, being loved and protected by someone silently is a blessing, so cherish it!"
"Chinatsu, you...you're just a child."
"Even if I understand, I will always protect Chinatsu until she finds her true happiness. Regardless of whether I can always be with her, I will protect her silently."
…
Big tears fell down my face, and I didn’t know when this sadness would stop. I fell asleep when I was tired of crying, and continued crying when I woke up.
I don’t know how long it took, but suddenly, the familiar little light spot began to flash again.
Is it time to go home from school?
Has Xiao Yusen gone home?
I stared at the small spot of light with my hazy eyes open.
Want to give him a response?
But I'm in a really bad mood...
Thinking of this, I covered myself with the quilt again and let myself continue to indulge in the sadness of parting.
After a while, there seemed to be some small noises coming from the living room, followed by an angry roar: "Yin Qianxia, ​​what do you want? Are you going to hide at home all your life?"
It’s that guy Xiao Yusen!
I crawled out from under the quilt and looked at Xiao Yusen who was walking in with a face full of grievance.
"You don't have to go to class, right?" Seeing my aggrieved look, Xiao Yusen did not comfort me, but instead scolded me.
I lowered my head and said nothing more.
The next moment, a pain came from the roots of my hair. I touched my numb scalp and felt more and more aggrieved.
There was a thick fog in front of my eyes.
The scene when Brother Yi Mo left, the love letters that were lying in the cabinet without being sent out, the feelings that could not be expressed...
“Pah—Pah—”
Tears fell in big drops.
Damn Xiao Yusen, didn’t he see that I was sad?
With all my sadness, I slowly crawled back into the quilt.
I am such a coward. When I am covered in bruises, can't I lick my wounds carefully or escape for a while?
Tears blurred my vision.
After a while, a corner of the quilt was gently lifted. I squinted my hazy eyes and Xiao Yusen's face appeared in my sight.
Does this guy want to attack and blame me again?
"Silly, are you really sad? Su Mengmeng told me everything." At this moment, Xiao Yusen's expression suddenly changed. He frowned slightly and stared at me with worried eyes.
Just a few words made my tears well up again, and the wave of grievances came over me again.
“Pah—Pah—”
Tears fell uncontrollably. Looking at Xiao Yusen's concerned look, the grievance in her heart seemed to have been intensified, becoming stronger than ever.
"Idiot..." Seeing me crying, Xiao Yusen gently wiped away my tears, and his tone was as gentle as melted honey.
"Brother Yi Mo is gone, and I can't see him anymore..." Thinking of the scene of Brother Yi Mo leaving, my heart began to ache again.
"Silly Qianxia, ​​he's not never coming back. Don't worry, he will come back to see you. No one in this world is willing to abandon Yin Qianxia." Xiao Yusen continued to wipe my tears. His black eyes were filled with an addictive love.
Is there really no one in this world who is willing to abandon me?
Doesn't Xiao Yusen like to tease me? How could he say such gentle words?
I raised my head and looked straight at Xiao Yusen.
This guy looked at me and stopped crying. A sly smile appeared on his face, and he added, "Because there aren't many people as stupid as Yin Qianxia!"
What! Are you bullying me again?
Xiao Yusen is the dumbest idiot in the world, okay?
Seeing how sad I was, this guy actually wanted to make fun of me!
Thinking of this, I buried my head back into the quilt and stopped listening to Xiao Yusen's ridicule. But this guy kept lifting the quilt again and again, and I finally gave up because my hands were sore.
"What do you want to do? Don't I even have the right to cry? I want to be alone, please go away." I rolled my eyes at Xiao Yusen and said unhappily.
"Your eyes are so swollen that they look like fish eyes. I'm afraid if you keep crying, you'll really turn into a fish." Xiao Yusen raised his head slightly, looking like he deserved a beating.
Humph! You actually said I look like a fish?
"You are the fish! The ugliest octopus!" I said angrily, and then covered my eyes with my hands, not wanting him to see my ugly swollen eyes again.
But through the gaps between my fingers, I saw...
Xiao Yusen shaped his hands into fists and twisted them beside his cheeks, and said coquettishly: "Okay, I'm the ugliest octopus, Sister Qianxia, ​​don't cry anymore, or you'll become an ugly monster!" His flushed face and nervous and awkward smile made him look even more weird and funny at this moment.
“Puff——”
Looking at Xiao Yusen's funny look, I couldn't help but burst into laughter: "Brother Xiao, you are so stupid!"
"Yin Qianxia, ​​you'd better keep smiling! Isn't that how the male protagonists in Korean dramas make others happy? Don't you like those brainless dramas the most? Although it's a bit disgusting, it seems to be quite useful!" Seeing me smile, Xiao Yusen stopped his weird behavior.
When will this idiot watch Korean dramas? Doesn't he despise that kind of TV series? It seems that this guy has become abnormal since he started dating Jian Meng...
Seeing that I didn't respond, Xiao Yusen stretched out two fingers and slowly wiped away the tears that remained on my cheeks: "A fool who sheds tears is not cute."
"If it's not good to look at, then don't look at it." Fortunately, I still had the energy to fight back.
"I saw you crying at home alone and it was so miserable, so I came all the way to accompany you. It's really a pity that kindness doesn't get rewarded."
"So are you going to cry with me?"
“No way!”
The sadness and melancholy just now seemed to be washed away by the sunlight that peeked out again.
Although Xiao Yusen didn't say a word of comfort, I knew that his actions were meant to comfort me.
"How are you and your girlfriend?" Jian Meng's appearance suddenly flashed through my mind, and I asked, looking into Xiao Yusen's eyes.
Xiao Yusen raised a faint smile at the corner of his mouth, but didn't say much.
The clouds in the sky turned the color of roses, and a few late-returning birds flapped their wings and flew across the sky.
With Xiao Yusen's company, I spent this sad afternoon.
The days pass quietly, sometimes noisy, sometimes quiet.
Everyone seems to be immersed in the joy of the upcoming holiday, but I am the only one who feels listless every day, like a lonely ghost.
Every corner of the school, every path home, even just a leaf or a cloud, will remind me of everything about Brother Yi Mo.
…
"Chinatsu, shall we go home together?"
"Chinatsu, look at that cloud. Does it look like a naughty little rabbit?"
"Chinatsu, I heard that the speed of falling leaves is ten centimeters per second."
…
These gentle words always ring in my ears without warning, but when I look back, I realize that everything was just my fantasy.
Brother Yi Mo is gone, really gone.
I want to live happily, continue writing love letters, accumulate courage, and wait for Brother Yi Mo to come back.
I keep reminding myself, but my longing for you doesn't diminish in the slightest because of these warnings.
Fortunately, Xiao Yusen has always been by my side. We go to school together, go home together, and have dinner together, just like we did in the past.
These companionships are things I have always been familiar with, but what makes me feel strange is that Xiao Yusen and his girlfriend Jian Meng seemed to have had a quarrel, and I never saw any interaction between them again.
But such doubts were soon diluted by the busyness brought by the final exams, and Dad also finished his flight mission and returned home.
That night, my father, Xiao Yusen and I sat at the table to eat dinner together. This scene had not happened for a long time. Because Xiao Yusen and I had always been at odds, every time my father invited him to come, he would find all kinds of excuses to prevaricate.
"Yu Sen, what were you busy with during that time?" Dad asked.
"I'm busy... with some club stuff."
Everyone knows that Xiao Yusen has never joined any club, but I didn't expose his lie. After all, he has been nice to me recently.
"Chinatsu, Yumori, time flies. It's only been a few years and you have grown into big kids." Dad looked at me lovingly and said softly.
Over the years, my father has worked several times harder than other parents to take care of me. Although he is always busy with work, he treats me doubly well every time he comes back.
"But Dad is still so young." I said with a smile. Although there are a few fine wrinkles on Dad's face and a little bit of gray in his hair, in my heart, Dad has always been young.
The warm light enveloped each of our faces.
"Yusen, you're grown up now. Do you have someone you like?" Dad looked at Xiao Yusen with a mischievous smile.
Listening to my father's question, my eyes stayed on Xiao Yusen's face. I saw that his cheeks were suddenly flushed with a light blush. He did not answer but lowered his head and ate white rice in big mouthfuls.
Is this guy shy?
He obviously has someone he likes, so that's why he's too shy to admit it, right?
Thinking of this, I immediately blurted out: "He already has a girlfriend."
Hearing what I said, my father put down his chopsticks in surprise and asked quickly: "Yu Sen has a girlfriend? Oh my God, I didn't expect it. What does that girl look like? Is she very beautiful?"
"Of course she is beautiful, Dad. Let me tell you, his girlfriend is the most beautiful girl in our class..."
My father and I had completely forgotten about Xiao Yusen's existence and started chattering about him.
"The person I like is an idiot."
At this moment, Xiao Yusen suddenly said something coldly.
Idiot? Jian Meng is not stupid at all, and her grades are excellent, so why is she an idiot?
I turned my head to observe Xiao Yusen's expression, trying to find the answer from his eyes, but he pulled my father to change the subject and hurriedly concealed the look that flashed in his eyes.
This guy with a bad mouth actually said that Jian Meng was stupid behind her back? Jian Meng must be sneezing at this moment!
Haha! Thinking of this, I couldn't help but want to laugh, but the corners of my mouth that had just risen turned into an O shape because my nose itched for no reason.
"A-choo..."
I sneezed violently...
The day passed quickly. Although the daytime in this season seemed very long, because I was busy reviewing, time seemed to much faster than usual.
At this time...what is Brother Yi Mo doing? When will he call me?
Ever since Brother Yi Mo passed away, he calls me two or three times a week, and every day I look forward to Brother Yi Mo's call.
I looked at the blue sky outside the window, and my thoughts drifted away to a very far place unconsciously.
"Qianxia, ​​let's go home together." Su Mengmeng's voice interrupted my thoughts.
"Oh! Okay!" Then I realized that school was over.
Walking on the way home with Su Mengmeng, I was obviously a little distracted because I was lost in thoughts.
I have written nearly ten love letters. Whenever I think of Brother Yi Mo, I will pick up a pen and write down my thoughts...
When he writes the 99th letter, what kind of expression will Brother Yi Mo have when he looks at so many love letters?
Is it a surprise or a panic?
"Yin Qianxia! I'm talking to you!" Su Mengmeng's roar came to my ears.
I came back to my senses in a daze, but I only saw Su Mengmeng frowning slightly, staring, and roaring again: "Yin Qianxia, ​​have you lost your soul these days?"
Seeing Su Mengmeng's furious look, I gently stuck out my tongue, then took her hand and said affectionately: "Okay, I was wrong, I will listen to whatever you say, I will listen carefully."
"Humph! I'm going to break off my friendship with a soulless guy like you for one night!"
Su Mengmeng gave me a look of disdain and resentment, said a few words, and left without looking back.
Looking at Su Mengmeng's back getting farther and farther away, I shook my head and continued walking towards home.
This girl will never be angry with me for more than two hours. I believe I will receive a text message from her making peace with her in the evening.
But should I also reflect on this?
I can continue to think about Brother Yi Mo, but I can’t let this longing take over my entire life…
If this continues, not only will Su Mengmeng be angry with me, but Xiao Yusen will also definitely attack me...
Before I knew it, I had arrived at the door of my home. The scattered sunlight shone through the gaps between the leaves, casting a golden glow on the ground. I shook my hair.
Yes, Yin Qianxia, ​​you have to be brave and not let longing take over your entire life!
After making this decision, I took a deep breath, took out the key and prepared to open the door, but found that the door was not locked!
There is no possibility...
I remember I locked the door when I went out in the morning!
Could it be that guy Xiao Yusen?
No, he has a high fever so he asked for leave and is staying at home. He should be sleeping soundly under the covers right now...
Confused, I cautiously pushed open the door. As soon as I opened the door, I saw a messy living room. The pillows and magazines on the sofa were all thrown on the ground, the vase was overturned, and the storage cabinet next to the coffee table was also turned into a mess.
Is there a thief?
This thought made every hair on my body stand up!
what do I do?
Shout for help?
But will this alert the enemy?
That’s right!
Call the police!
Thinking of this, I picked up my phone and prepared to call the police.
“Bang—bang—”
Just then, heavy footsteps sounded in my ears.
Discovered?
Thinking of this, my hands softened and the phone fell under the sofa. As if hearing something, the figure quickened his pace and approached me. I hurriedly moved to the sofa next to me and squatted down.
“Boom—boom.”
My heart began to beat wildly without a rhythm, and beads of cold sweat broke out on my forehead. I bit my lower lip tightly with my teeth to prevent myself from losing control and screaming in fear.
After hiding behind the sofa for half a minute, I felt the footsteps circle around the coffee table and then stopped in front of the sofa.
Was he discovered?
Time passed by minute by minute, and it was so quiet around me that I seemed to be able to hear my own slight breathing.
“Bang—bang—”
After standing in front of the sofa for a while, I felt that the footsteps seemed to go to the other side of the sofa. I slowly leaned my head out and saw a burly stranger in black clothes picking up the cushions on the sofa one by one, as if looking for something.
Seeing this scene, my mind went blank.
If he catches me, I'll be dead...
The phone fell under the sofa, so it was impossible to call the police...
By the way, Xiao Yusen!
Thinking of this, I rushed to the bedroom balcony as fast as I could while the man was rummaging through the sofa, then squatted down and hurriedly took out the mirror from my schoolbag. Spots of light were running around on the wall. Could Xiao Yusen see it?
"Xiao Yusen..." In order to prevent the thief from noticing my presence, I shouted in a low voice.
But the balcony opposite is still empty...
The mirror was shaking wildly in the sunlight, and those restless little spots of light were just like my mood at the moment, extremely uneasy!
If I am discovered by that person, will I be silenced?
Thinking of this, my eyes immediately filled with tears...
I haven't finished writing my love letter yet, and I still have so many delicious foods to eat, I can't die...
Just as I was silently praying to God, a huge black shadow appeared in the corner of my eye...
He has a thick beard, big round eyes, rough dark skin and a sturdy figure...
He actually came to my bedroom!
I threw my schoolbag aside, afraid of being discovered by him, and huddled beside the sofa chair on the windowsill, still waving the mirror with my hand.
After rummaging through my bedroom, the burly man suddenly stopped in front of my bookcase.
Oh my God! Although there is no money in the bookcase, there are all my love letters!
Should I go out and fight him?
Just when I was about to muster up the courage to rush out, Xiao Yusen appeared on the balcony. He ruffled his messy hair and asked vaguely, "What are you doing?"
When I saw that guy, I felt like I had found a life-saving straw. I put my index finger next to my mouth, made a gesture to keep quiet, and then pointed in the direction of my room.
Xiao Yusen looked at my actions, frowned slightly, and then left the windowsill.
I was hiding beside the sofa chair. When I saw Xiao Yusen leave, I was about to put away the mirror, but my hand slipped.
“Pah—”
The mirror fell to the ground and broke into pieces, shining the sunlight all over the ground.
Looking at the light reflected in the mirror, I squatted there, not knowing what to do. But within two seconds, I felt a pain in my neck.
"Ah!" I screamed. The burly man was lifting me up with force, and his expression was extremely ferocious and terrifying.
"Still want to hide! Do you want to call the police?" The rough man's voice sounded particularly deep and terrifying.
I shook my head vigorously, afraid that I would annoy him.
"Hmph! You're still trying to lie to me? I think you just want to call the police!" He pulled my collar with more force.
I couldn't help shaking all over because of the pain and fear...
This seems to be the scariest time I have ever had in my life. I have never been this scared of thunder before...
Just as I was trying to break free from the grip, another powerful force pulled me over, and that tall, familiar, and reassuring figure appeared before me...
Xiao Yusen...
"Bang--"
A heavy punch hit the rough man in the face.
I was just about to cheer for my small victory, but unexpectedly the man stood up and walked straight towards us. Xiao Yusen pushed me into the bedroom and used his body to block the door to the balcony.
"Bang--"
A heavy punch hit Xiao Yusen in the face.
"Wow--"
Seeing Xiao Yusen being beaten, tears immediately welled up in my eyes.
"Why are you crying? Stay here and don't come out." Xiao Yusen turned around and said something to me impatiently. He threw something in my direction and rushed over to fight with the man again.
Looking at the blood at the corner of his mouth and his struggling figure, my heart became even more panicked.
"Xiao Yusen, Xiao Yusen." I kept murmuring, but my eyes kept searching the ground.
Cell phone? What Xiao Yusen just threw to me was a cell phone!
Thinking of this, I picked up my phone and tremblingly dialed the police number.
"Hello, there's a thief in my house." I said hurriedly as soon as the phone was connected.
"Excuse me, miss, where is your home?" A gentle female voice came from the other end of the phone.
"In--" I was about to say the address of my home when I felt a gust of wind in my ears. Then, I saw Xiao Yusen fall down in front of me, and the burly man waved his fist and looked at me viciously.
Just now...was it Xiao Yusen who helped me block that guy's fist?
I glared at the man, my eyes filled with tears, and yelled into the phone, "No. 135 Garden Street!"
The man was about to snatch the phone, but after hearing what I said, he gave me a resentful look and quickly left.
I hugged Xiao Yusen who was lying on the ground, and I couldn't stop crying. Did Xiao Yusen faint? Why didn't he speak? Why didn't he pay attention to me?
"Hello, miss, could you please confirm your home address again?" The gentle female voice on the other end of the phone continued.
I hung up the phone and hugged Xiao Yusen again and cried: "Xiao Yusen, Xiao Yusen... Xiao Yusen..."
It felt like thousands of ants were gnawing at my heart, and my throat was hurting terribly...
Xiao Yusen won’t never wake up, right?
It's all my fault...
It's all my fault...
My tears turned into an ocean, my heart tightened little by little, and I was surrounded by anxiety, fear, and a dull and painful feeling...
"Xiao Yusen, wake up quickly. As long as you wake up, I will never quarrel with you again. I let you pull my hair, you can pull it however you like. I will never make you angry again!" I murmured while hugging Xiao Yusen.
"Okay, you said it!" At this moment, Xiao Yusen suddenly woke up and pulled my hair hard.
"Xiao Yusen!" Looking at the suddenly "resurrected" Xiao Yusen, I gritted my teeth in anger. After a roar, I punched that guy hard on the back.
"Ouch!" Xiao Yusen covered the place where I hit him and shouted, "Yin Qianxia, ​​I came to help you fight off the thieves with a high fever, and you still treat me like this!?"
"Who told you to lie to me!"
I stood up and glanced at Xiao Yusen who was lying on the ground. His face was covered with bruises from the fight.
Since when did this guy who always likes to bully me become able to protect me?
Thinking of this, my cheeks felt hot unconsciously...
What's going on?
how so?
"Hey, why are you standing there? Why don't you help me up?" Xiao Yusen, who was lying on the ground, shouted at me unhappily.
In order to hide my emotions, I turned around and said, "Get up by yourself, I'll go buy you some medicine." Then I walked away.
After leaving home, thinking back to what just happened, the temperature of my cheeks and my heartbeat seemed to have changed a little bit...
Ahhh! Yin Qianxia, ​​stop imagining this!
Write the love letter carefully and give it to Brother Yi Mo!
After making up my mind, I frantically looked for a nearby pharmacy. When I passed by the tree-lined path, a figure came into my sight. I was slightly stunned and looked at it intently.
Is it...Jane Meng?
I rubbed my eyes vigorously to make sure once again whether I saw it wrongly.
There was a boy whom I had never seen before standing next to Jian Meng, and they were actually walking together hand in hand!
There was still a beautiful smile on Jian Meng's lips, and her eyes were focused on the boy next to her. She looked very happy and contented.
I covered my mouth in surprise, unable to believe what I saw.
That guy Xiao Yusen will definitely be very sad!
When I thought about my dear brother Xiao being abandoned by this stinky girl, anger suddenly rose up in my head for no reason.
Thinking of this, I ran towards Jian Meng.
As Xiao Yusen's sister, I have the right, obligation and responsibility to get to the bottom of it!
Maybe I was so angry that I ran to Jian Meng without thinking. I looked up and down at the boy next to her. He was tall and good-looking, but he lacked masculinity and was not comparable to Xiao Yusen at all!
"Jane Meng!" I shouted loudly.
"Yin Qianxia?" Jian Meng looked at me in confusion, as if she didn't realize that she was in great danger.
"Who is she?" The boy next to Jian Meng seemed to have sensed my anger and asked in confusion.
"I'm her boyfriend's sister!" I didn't show any fear, but walked up to the boy and said angrily.
I'm not afraid of you. I'm not the one doing bad things now!
I won't let you bully my dearest brother Xiao!
"What? My boyfriend?" Jian Meng frowned, and after trying hard to figure out what I said, she continued lightly, "Are you talking about Xiao Yusen? We broke up a long time ago, and he didn't tell you?"
They broke up for good?
I was slightly stunned, and all the anger just now turned into doubt at this moment. I thought Xiao Yusen would tell me everything, but he broke up with Jian Meng, and I didn't know anything about it.
Why... did they separate?
Wasn't it fine before?
"I don't know." I shook my head and asked in confusion, "Why did you break up?"
Although I know this question is presumptuous, I still want to ask it for clarification.
"Haha, you really don't know?" A hint of annoyance flashed in Jian Meng's eyes, and then she said, "This is all because of you. You didn't come to class that day, and Xiao Yusen skipped class to find you, but at that time, I happened to sprain my foot. I asked him to choose between looking for you or staying with me, and he chose you, so we broke up." After Jian Meng finished speaking, she took the arm of the boy next to her and left.
The leaves rustled, and the world around me suddenly became restless. Many sounds intertwined together, and my heart beat erratically.
Is it because of me that you broke up?
I walked forward quietly, but memories quietly floated into my mind, and the events of those years emerged bit by bit.
On that warm afternoon, the sun shone into the room, just like now, the sky was blue and the clouds were as soft as marshmallows.
"Hi." Xiao Yusen winked at me.
I raised my head and stared at him blankly, wondering what this guy was going to do next.
"I'm also planning to repeat a grade." His expression was indifferent, as if he was talking about something that had nothing to do with him.
But just such a simple sentence was like a small bomb dropped into my heart, which suddenly exploded.
"Xiao Yusen, are you crazy? Why do you want to repeat a grade for no reason?" I yelled at Xiao Yusen in frustration.
Xiao Yusen ignored my roar and said slowly, "I just like to repeat a grade." Then he walked into his room, leaving me standing there alone.
Later, much later...
My father was always on business trips, so Xiao Yusen was the only one with me. It was at that time that I told him that the spare key of our house was under the carpet at the door.
I remember one time when I was making lunch, a cockroach suddenly ran out into the kitchen!
I clearly remember that I was dodging everywhere in a panic, and finally I could only stand on the chair and "struggle to my death".
It was Xiao Yusen who rushed over quickly when he heard my shout. I couldn't see his expression, but I could feel from his back that he was not cowardly at all. Instead, he "bravely" stood in front of me and killed the annoying cockroach.
What’s strange is that when he turned sideways, I could vaguely see a look of pride on his face.
like……
I feel proud that he, who is always called my younger brother, can actually protect me.
As I thought about it, memories were like a spider web, easily binding my heart.
It turns out that he has always been by my side protecting me, but I never noticed it...
Xiao Yusen was inexplicably angry before...
Xiao Yusen left inexplicably before...
Xiao Yusen ignored me for some unknown reason before...
seem……
The answer was obvious. A tear slid down my face without warning. I hurriedly reached out to wipe it away, afraid that others would find out.
What should I do if he really likes me?
I don't want to lose this best friend, but now in my heart, the person I like is Brother Yi Mo...
what do I do?
“Ding Ling Ling——”
Until the bell rang to end the second class the next afternoon, Jian Meng's words were still in my mind.
Should I have a good talk with Xiao Yusen?
After buying medicine for Xiao Yusen yesterday, I locked myself in the bedroom and ignored him on the pretext of concentrating on writing a love letter.
Just when I was struggling with this, my cell phone suddenly rang. I glanced at the screen in confusion and was surprised to find out - it was Brother Yi Mo!
I rushed out of the classroom with my cell phone and ran to the school's lotus pond.
"Brother Yimo!" Although I was a little out of breath, I still couldn't hide my excitement.
"Qianxia, ​​are you in class?" Although there were thousands of miles between them, Brother Yi Mo's voice was still so gentle.
Hearing this gentle and familiar voice, tears fell unconsciously.
If Brother Yi Mo was by my side now, he would definitely pat my shoulder to comfort me and would definitely try his best to help me answer my questions.
I miss brother Yimo so much...
"Qianxia, ​​what's wrong? Are you unhappy?" Brother Yi Mo asked anxiously when he heard my sobbing.
"Brother Yimo, I'm so scared, so scared..." My voice was choked and gradually became unclear.
"Chinatsu, what happened? What are you afraid of?"
"I'm so scared... Xiao Yusen will fall in love with me. If... if he really likes me, I will feel that I will lose him one day." After hesitating for a while, I told Brother Yi Mo about these things. If I don't find someone to talk to, I think I will go crazy.
"Qianxia, ​​being liked by someone is a very beautiful and happy thing. Why should you be so afraid? Just let it go." Brother Yimo's voice was like a soft feather, gently soothing the uneasiness in my heart.
"But...but, I'm really confused. I don't know why. When I think that Xiao Yusen might like me, I get so scared and so uncomfortable. I don't want to lose him. He is a very, very important person to me." The voice was a little intermittent because of sobbing...
"Qianxia, ​​don't cry. This fear comes from caring for him... This shows that Xiao Yusen is a very important person to you..."
Brother Yimo said a lot of words to comfort me. Finally, I hung up the phone reluctantly and turned around to go back to the classroom, but I saw...
Xiao Yusen was standing behind me.
The sunlight was like a grand and gorgeous piece of silk, wrapping Xiao Yusen. His hair hung down quietly, covering his eyes, and his angular face was covered with a layer of sadness that I could not understand.
"Xiao Yusen..." I called his name with a slightly trembling voice.
Could it be that he heard the conversation between me and Brother Yi Mo just now? Could it be that he already knew all the thoughts in my mind?
The awkward atmosphere was spreading bit by bit, with a faint floral scent floating in the air. Occasionally, a few fallen leaves would silently rest on Xiao Yusen's shoulders.
He didn't say anything, but a faint, barely perceptible smile appeared on his lips. He walked closer to me step by step, and stopped half a meter away from me.
Xiao Yusen raised one hand, which carried the breath of wind, and slowly approached my cheek. He gently wiped away the remaining tear marks on my face, as if he was wiping away a precious work of art.
“Boom boom—”
My heart was beating erratically.
I looked into Xiao Yusen's eyes. In those beautiful eyes, a hint of barely perceptible sadness occasionally flashed across them.
"Xiao Yusen, do you like me?" I asked impulsively, as if my brain had lost its rationality.
At that moment, my mind was blank and I didn't think about anything. Only if I could verify it quickly and get the answer quickly, the heavy stone weighing on my heart would disappear.
These days of speculation and confusion are almost driving me crazy!
Perhaps, only by speaking frankly and clearly can Xiao Yusen and I go back to the past... or become strangers?
Xiao Yusen stopped what he was doing. He looked at me with a faint smile on his face, but... there was a hint of bitterness in that smile: "No, I don't like you, and I will never like you."
After hearing what Xiao Yusen said, the stone in my heart fell to the ground, but a trace of sourness was spreading little by little.
It turned out that I guessed wrong, he didn't like me...
It turns out that he will never like me...
Why does the answer I want to hear make me feel sad?