Chapter 5: Hug When You Are Sad 03
Even though the campus is brightly lit at night, it is still sparsely populated, especially after 10 o'clock. Even with the lights on, it is still quiet, not to mention those small corners without lights.
But Lin Mobai, who was running forward aimlessly, happened to run into a small park near the back mountain.
This small park is rarely visited during the day, and is often used by nosy seniors as material for horror rumors.
Lin Mobai had never thought that in her four years at F University, she would come here alone one night. Therefore, when she realized that she had entered a forbidden place, her heart was immediately gnawed by the beast called fear.
In this empty space and time, there are no lights, no starlight, and the air is filled with only coldness and darkness.
Standing in the darkness, Lin Mobai couldn't help but tremble all over. At this moment, his mind was full of turbid paste, and it seemed that even the thought of escaping could not break free of the turbidity and connect with his consciousness.
And just when she was panicking, the boy who was following her finally caught up with her, grabbed her wrist, and pulled her into his arms.
Then, Lin Mobai came back to his senses and heard a light panting sound in the air, which belonged to He Qingkong.
But when she realized that the person behind her was He Qingkong, her panicked heart instantly calmed down.
However, a second later, she remembered the scene a moment ago, and then she struggled hard as if she had lost control.
"He Qingkong, let go!"
Fear was like a cloud of thick smoke, blocking her world into darkness without letting in a single ray of light. Panicked, Lin Mobai trembled and for the first time, he roared loudly at He Qingkong.
The emptiness and darkness here made her feel uneasy and frightened, but knowing that Ding Zhiyou had passed away, He Qingkong terrified.
"Xiaobai, calm down and listen to me!"
"Are you here to scold me too? I don't want to hear it! You tell me to leave, I don't want to hear it!"
"Xiaobai, calm down and listen to me, okay? If I were the same as them, I wouldn't be here today! Xiaobai, calm down and listen to my explanation, okay?"
The almost pleading words quickly rushed into Lin Mobai's ears, making the exhausted her finally give up the futile struggle and close her eyes without saying a word.
However, the faint panting and the rhythmic heartbeats coming from above soothed her, but still made her wonder and fear: Was her ugliness and unbearableness about to be revealed? Was her only remaining trace of ordinary happiness about to disappear?
As she thought about it, she couldn't help but hold her breath.
"Xiaobai, I'm sorry, I did hide something from you, but I didn't do it on purpose, and I didn't mean to do it." He Qingkong took a deep breath and said, "To be exact, I found out about Youyou's death on Yanqi's birthday. I admit that it was my plan to approach you, and I also deliberately pretended to know nothing about Youyou, but I just didn't want you to feel pressured. My purpose at that time was really to become friends Just like what Yanqi and I said just now, I have always believed that Youyou's death was an accident and cannot be blamed on you. I hope you can rely on me. We can't change other people's ideas, but I promise you that I, He Qingkong, will always stand by you, support you, accompany you, and be your strength! Xiaobai, I am sure and very sure that Youyou also hopes that you can be happy!"
"No! Youyou wouldn't want me to be happy. Youyou hates me so much!"
He Qingkong's words did indeed move her, but the last sentence reminded her of Ding Zhiyou who came to her like a ghost to take her life, so she suddenly broke free from He Qingkong's arms.
"You don't know, ever since Youyou passed away, I have never been able to forgive myself! It's all my fault! I was too timid, I was too scared to show up, I didn't dare to come out to save her , I could clearly hear her calling for help, I knew she was waiting for me to come out and save her! But...but I didn't...I didn't come out to save her! I didn't!"
Her eyes were filled with a sad white mist, but in an instant, it condensed into water droplets and slowly flowed out.
But when he heard her trembling voice recalling that long-forgotten horror memory, He Qingkong's heart couldn't help but ache: "Xiaobai, stop talking, stop talking..."
He couldn't bear to let her sink into those dark and horrifying memories alone, and he couldn't accept the helplessness of watching her grief-stricken but being unable to do anything.
However, after cruelly revealing his scars, Lin Mobai had fallen into endless sadness and self-blame, and his emotions were on the verge of getting out of control. Even though his whole body was shaking, his voice never stopped: "Yan Qi is right, I am the culprit who killed Youyou! I remember that it was me who dragged my feet and refused to go home. Youyou stayed because...she wanted to accompany me! Why was she the one who died? I am the one who should die. Youyou is so good and kind, wuwu...why? Why wasn't I the one who died? Wuwu..."
Word by word, her heart-wrenching self-reproach fell on his heart, like a sharp knife, cutting it fiercely.
The stinging pain was unbearable, even the eyes were aching slightly. The next second, He Qingkong reached out and hugged the collapsed Lin Mobai in his arms again, comforting him: "Xiaobai, I don't allow you to say that, do you hear me? I don't allow you to say that! Life and death are determined by fate. That is Youyou's fate, not your fault. You can't selfishly think about dying. You have to think about Grandpa Lin, think about Uncle Lin and Aunt Lin, think about all your family and friends, think about me. No one wants to see you like this. If you deny yourself, you are denying all the people who love you! Xiaobai, forget the past, okay? The past should be allowed to pass slowly. Our life is short, and we shouldn't let the past become our shackles. Besides, being alive is a happy thing. It is not a sin. You should be grateful instead of destroying yourself."
"I...I can't do it! I can't do it! I can't forgive myself! Wuwu..."
"You can do it! With me here, you can definitely do it!"
"I can't, I can't do it. I can't forget the desperate look in Youyou's eyes at that time. I will never forget it..."
"Xiaobai, listen to me, you can do it, you can forget it! I will stay with you, I will accompany you to forget the past! With me here, with me by your side, you will definitely be happy..."
After he finished speaking, as if he wanted every word he said to be conveyed to Lin Mobai's heart, He Qingkong hugged her tightly, letting her feel his warmth and listen to his heartbeat. It seemed that in this way, her world that was swallowed by darkness could be illuminated by soft light again.
