What does it mean to like someone? I suddenly became confused. If all my joys, sorrows, anger and happiness are just because of one person, then can I say that I seem to like another person?
——Xia Zimu

On a cool morning, Xiaole and I walked towards school side by side.
The rising sun has soft light, like gentle hands gently caressing every inch of this world.
There are still crystal clear dewdrops on the flowers by the roadside, like beautiful crystals, embellishing this beautiful morning.
From time to time on the road, we would meet students wearing the same school uniform as us.
Everything seemed to be no different from usual.
But today something is different .
What exactly is the difference?
I turned my head carefully.
The girl who was staring at me noticed my gaze and hurriedly pretended to play with her phone.
what is going on?
Not knowing the situation, I sighed heavily.
This morning, I have been peeped at by students from the same school countless times!
Thinking of this, I hurriedly checked my clothes to make sure my skirt and clothes were not on backwards. I even asked Xiaole to help me fix my hair carefully, but the strange looks still kept falling on me.
Could it be that everyone here has super powers and can see my innermost thoughts?
But even so, my thoughts are nothing special!
Xiaole obviously noticed these gazes and seemed a little awkward, but he had no way to avoid it, so he could only hold my arm tightly.
We ran all the way to school.
But something bad happened again...
As soon as we stepped into the school gate, everyone's eyes were cast on us.
If those gazes were sharp silver needles, I would have been riddled with holes long ago!
"Xiao Le." I made a bitter face and tried to lower my voice to complain to Xiao Le beside me, "What on earth happened? I really can't stand it anymore..."
"How would I know!" She was obviously in more pain than me. She quickly raised her schoolbag to cover her face and whispered, "I am the victim, okay!"
The sounds of discussion and strange looks kept "attacking" us.
We walked into the corridor of the teaching building with a thorn in our backs. There were fewer people there and we couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief.
Just then, a pretty girl with rosy cheeks stopped me.
She looked up at me timidly, hesitated and didn't say anything.
I quickly sorted out my recent confused memories and confirmed that I didn't know this girl.
"Excuse me, is there anything I can help you with?" I looked at her weakly, hoping that nothing else would happen.
"Excuse me...did you have dinner with Senior Ye Lanluo yesterday?"
Her voice was soft, but clear enough.
I was stunned for a moment, looking at the girl in front of me with some confusion.
Then, it was as if something exploded in my heart, and everything became clear.
So that's how it is!
I frowned in distress and looked at Xiaole helplessly.
Xiaole's eyes wandered between me and the strange girl in front of her, and finally, she showed an expression of sudden enlightenment.
Seeing that I didn't answer, the girl seemed a little anxious and continued to ask: "Then senior sister, can you tell me Ye Lanluo's contact information..."
Before she could finish, Xiaole grabbed my arm impatiently and pulled me towards the classroom.
I turned around and saw the girl looking at us from behind, looking very pitiful.
I followed Xiaole thoughtfully, not knowing what emotion I should use to face everything that happened this morning - it turned out that all the eyes and discussions originated from the fact that Ye Lanluo and I had dinner together!
Thinking of this, I tapped my forehead in annoyance.
Our story was already widely circulated, and then something like that happened yesterday. It's normal for the rumors to escalate!
I sat in my seat somewhat helplessly.
Xiaole seemed to notice that I was in a bad mood and didn't say anything else.
Just as I was about to spend the whole morning in silence, something unexpected happened again.
Amid the already heated discussion, I heard someone shouting my name loudly.
It was an extremely familiar voice.
An ominous premonition gradually enveloped my heart.
I turned my neck stiffly and looked in that direction, then my brows couldn't help but frowned tightly.
It’s Su Xiyu!
I felt a little unhappy when I saw her calling my name and standing at the door of the classroom with an indifferent expression.
The sunlight shone on her rose-like delicate face. She looked at me indifferently with a disdainful smile at the corner of her mouth.
Last time she locked me up in an empty lab, if it weren’t for Ye Lanluo…
Because so many things have happened recently, I don't want to cause any more trouble, so facing this person who is obviously here to cause trouble, I can only keep myself from being too ostentatious.
"Is there anything I can do for you?" I asked briefly. At this time, Su Xiyu had already walked in front of me.
However, in response to my question, Su Xiyu said something shocking.
She didn't care about the looks of so many people around her at all, and just asked casually: "Xia Zimu, you like Gu Yichen, right?"
The noisy classroom suddenly became silent. Everyone was looking at us, their eyes filled with anticipation for a good show.
At this moment, the sunlight suddenly became so hot that it hurt my eyes.
Did she come to me just to ask such a question?
I opened my mouth in confusion, not knowing how to answer such a question.
and……
Even if I really like Gu Yichen, what does it have to do with her?
Just when I was at a loss of what to do , she spoke again impatiently: "No matter what, I warn you--" Her voice became cold, which made me shudder, "If you really like Gu Yichen, don't mess with Ye Lanluo again!"
Night blue network?
What does Ye Lanluo have to do with her?
Looking at Su Xiyu's cold and impatient expression in front of me, my anger rose very high.
Why does she act like she's ordering me around?
I don't have to take orders from her!
I bit my lower lip, looked at Su Xiyu with a funny look, and answered word by word: "What does this have to do with you?"
I looked at her stubbornly, not backing down.
Hearing my rebuttal, Su Xiyu's mouth twitched angrily, and her voice was much louder than before: "Do you have to be so selfish? If you like Gu Yichen, you shouldn't hurt him!"
"What?" Faced with her sudden words, I couldn't help but frown even more tightly.
Are you kidding me? I hurt Gu Yichen? It was obviously her who hurt Gu Yichen!
Su Xiyu stared at me with angry eyes, and even her hands hanging by her side were clenched into fists, trembling slightly.
"You can't do this..." Having said this, I suddenly stopped and stared blankly at Su Xiyu in front of me.
Don’t want me to get close to Ye Lanluo?
Could it be that the person she likes is Ye Lanluo?
I opened my mouth in disbelief, recalling when Su Xiyu rejected Gu Yichen and said that she already had someone she liked.
I took back the question and asked softly, "Do you like Ye Lanluo?"
A hint of surprise flashed across Su Xiyu's eyes, and her cheeks flushed.
it is as expected……
I sighed softly.
However, my sigh seemed to have angered her, and her expression, which had gradually calmed down, became cold again.
"You don't plan to stay away from Ye Lanluo, right?" She looked at me sharply.
"This is a totally unreasonable request!" I was helpless that she always got entangled in such an issue.
Su Xiyu stared at me with disdain for a long while, then said with a complicated expression: "If that's the case... I will definitely make you regret it!"
After saying that, she bumped my shoulder hard, brushed past me, and went back to her seat.
regret?
I turned my head in confusion and looked at Su Xiyu's back.
What else could she do?
During the last math class of the morning, I was absent-minded, staring at a green willow tree outside the window, and didn't notice that the math teacher had been staring at me sternly for a long time.
Just as I was wondering what Su Xiyu would do, a roar brought my thoughts back to the classroom.
"Xia Zimu!" ​​The sound almost shook the ceiling down.
"Here!" I shuddered, stood up trembling, and faced the angry face of my math teacher.
well!
It’s so unlucky!
I lowered my head with a bitter face, pretending to admit my mistake.
"Do you know that this question is very important?" The math teacher waved his teaching stick and scolded me angrily, "How could you be distracted at this time? How could you..."
“Ding Ling Ling——”
The crisp ringing of the bell interrupted my math teacher’s “ideological education”.
I breathed a sigh of relief in my heart, glad that I had escaped this disaster.
The math teacher looked unsatisfied and sternly instructed: "Copy this question thirty times and hand it to me in math class tomorrow!" After that, he walked away waving his teaching stick.
I looked at my math teacher's receding back with a frown on my face. I felt as if there were dark clouds over my head and a heavy rain was about to fall at any time.
"Actually, there's nothing to worry about..." Xiaole held the lunch box and comforted me carefully, "It's just copying math problems. I'll help you!" She said confidently, patted my shoulder and told me not to worry.
I sat in a corner of the cafeteria sighing, looking at the food in my lunch box without any appetite.
Suddenly I remembered that I had dinner with Ye Lanluo at this seat before...
I subconsciously raised my head and looked around.
A lot of people looked over here at that time...
Thinking of this, I shook my head helplessly and ate the food reluctantly, but I found that Xiaole, who was originally eating happily, was looking straight in one direction.
So many things have happened these days, and a bad feeling has once again enveloped me.
I turned my neck stiffly and looked in that direction...
When I saw the two figures clearly, I was stunned.
Su Xiyu and Gu Yichen actually appeared intimately in the cafeteria?
Why the two of them?
Didn’t Su Xiyu just tell me this morning that she likes Ye Lanluo…
The fingers holding the chopsticks gradually tightened.
Xiaole noticed the change in my expression, put down the chopsticks in his hand and moved closer to me.
Although the cafeteria was noisy, she still lowered her voice and said to me carefully: "Zi Mu, you know, I heard a piece of news this morning, and now it seems to be true..."
I looked at Xiaole anxiously, already having a vague answer in my mind.
As expected, Xiaole continued, "I heard that Su Xiyu and Gu Yichen are together..." She paused and looked in that direction again, "I didn't believe it at first, but now I see them together... But didn't you tell me that Su Xiyu likes Ye Lanluo... I really don't know what she is thinking."
My heart aches violently.
I turned my head and looked in the direction of Su Xiyu. She was sitting alone. Gu Yichen should have gone to get food.
I don't know when her eyes fell on me, and we just looked at each other from a distance.
Suddenly, she raised the corners of her mouth and smiled provocatively.
I stood up suddenly from my chair.
Xiaole looked at me in doubt and asked in a low voice: "Zimu, what's wrong with you..."
"Wait for me!" I turned around and hurriedly said, "I'll be back soon!"
After saying that, I ran quickly towards Su Xiyu.
The cafeteria was noisy, but I felt as if the whole world had stopped. The only thing in front of me was Su Xiyu's face with a provocative smile.
She must have done it on purpose!
I clenched my fists and carefully recalled the conversation I had with her this morning.
I came in front of Su Xiyu and stared at her. She stared at me without showing any weakness. We just looked at each other in silence.
There was still that familiar hatred in her eyes, which seemed to drown me completely.
"Are you and Gu Yichen together?" I tried to lower my voice as much as possible so as not to attract other people's attention.
If new gossip were to come out at this time, my life would become even more restless.
Su Xiyu glanced at Gu Yichen's direction and replied nonchalantly, "That's right!" After that, she raised her voice and asked, "What does it have to do with you?"
"Why do you do this? You clearly..." I was a little overwhelmed when I heard this answer with my own ears.
She smiled, but still with a strong sense of disdain.
I didn't care about that look and just waited anxiously for her to give me an answer.
She just said casually, as if she was talking about something that had nothing to do with her: "Because of you."
Her voice was so soft that no one else could hear it.
I found it deafening.
because I?
Su Xiyu saw my shocked expression and seemed very satisfied. She continued slowly, "Don't you like Gu Yichen? Are you sad to see me with him?" Then, her expression suddenly became sad, "I just want to make you sad! I just want to see you sad!"
Her words were like a spell, echoing in my ears for a long time and refusing to fade away.
I looked into Su Xiyu's eyes , which were filled with undisguised hatred.
I stood there, suddenly unable to utter a word.
When I first met this girl, I knew she was hostile to me, but I didn't care.
But now...
I looked at her in front of me, feeling mixed emotions.
I didn't expect her hatred for me to be so deep.
Is it just because of Ye Lanluo?
I calmed myself down and felt a little confused.
Su Xiyu didn't seem to want to continue talking to me and stood up to leave.
I asked anxiously, "Why do you hate me so much?"
If it was just because I was with Ye Lanluo, it was totally unreasonable. Because from the first time we met, she showed her dissatisfaction with me, and at that time, Ye Lanluo and I had no intersection...
Su Xiyu paused slightly, and finally, she turned back.
Her voice suddenly became somewhat ethereal and unreal, completely different from the disdain and resentment just now.
She asked, "Do you remember the first time we met?"
First meeting...
Wasn’t it the time when I met Gu Yichen?
I looked at Su Xiyu in confusion, completely puzzled by her words.
She said that as if we had known each other for a long time.
"Xia Zimu, do you know how much I hate you!" Su Xiyu suddenly became very excited and she pushed me to the ground.
Suddenly, it was as if a bolt of lightning struck me directly, waking me up instantly.
I stared at Su Xiyu's eyes in shock. The past came to me wave after wave. Everything, like a beach after the tide receded, appeared clearly in front of me.
Su Xiyu's beautiful face intertwined with the face of the little girl who pushed me down when I was a child, and finally overlapped.
"You are..." I choked and my voice was a little unclear.
Su Xiyu raised the corner of her mouth: " Do you remember?"
The arc of Su Xiyu's mouth corners was getting bigger and bigger. She took a few steps closer to me and continued, "You know, I have liked Ye Lanluo for a long time."
long, long ago?
The memory was once again regressing at an overwhelming speed.
That noisy and cool evening.
The two boys and I played hide-and-seek in the garden filled with the scent of flowers and plants.
I noticed the pretty girl who was looking at us quietly but didn't dare to come over and talk.
The beautiful girl who pushed me to the ground when I invited her.
What was she secretly looking at at that time?
Could it be that...
I recall .
"But, not only did Ye Lanluo ignore me, he also pushed me to the ground and even said some cruel words!" The smile on Su Xiyu's lips gradually turned bitter. "You can actually talk to him so calmly, why can't I!"
Her words lingered in my ears for a long time and could hardly be dispelled.
but……
Even if she finds it hard to forget these things, after all, so much time has passed and our appearances have changed dramatically. Why can she still recognize me easily?
I didn't tell her my name...
After she pushed me down and ran away that day, I never saw her again.
Even when I recognized Gu Yichen, I had to use the necklace on his neck as a basis. Why could Su Xiyu recognize me so accurately?
Thinking of this, I couldn't help but ask: "Why did you recognize me?"
Su Xiyu smiled slightly, and the mockery in her eyes became stronger: "I remember your name." She seemed to be lost in memory, "At that time, I was not far behind you and heard your name, so when you said your name in the coffee shop that day, I recognized you almost at first sight."
Wait a minute...Su Xiyu can recognize , why can't Gu Yichen?
I clearly told him my name!
I don’t know why what happened at that time caused such great harm to Su Xiyu, but no matter what, she shouldn’t have deceived Gu Yichen’s feelings.
I grabbed Su Xiyu's arm and looked at her sincerely.
"Even if you hate me, you shouldn't hurt Gu Yichen. He likes you very much. You should treat him well."
Su Xiyu shook off my hand and sneered, "I have never been the one he likes. No matter how hard I try, their world can't accommodate me; no matter what I do, I can't attract their attention! So, Xia Zimu, you know how much I hate you!"
After saying that, Su Xiyu turned and left with tears in her eyes.
Is this the second time I’ve seen Su Xiyu cry?
I stood there and felt that not only my feet but my whole body became extremely heavy.
After learning about this series of events, my mind was completely confused. I thought hard and finally thought of a key question.
If Gu Yichen is the handsome boy and Ye Lanluo is the other boy who plays with us... then Ye Lanluo must be the handsome boy in a suit!
No wonder I have such a familiar yet strange feeling about him.
But……
Although I had this idea, I still felt something was wrong.
Sudden--
The arm was held tightly by a slender hand.
I turned around in surprise, and Gu Yichen's face came into view.
I have never seen him like this before. He frowned tightly, completely losing his usual unruly look. His dark eyes stared at me tightly, wanting to say something but stopping himself, as if he wanted to see through me completely.
Shouldn't he have left with Su Xiyu? Why was he here at this moment?
I didn't know what to say to greet him, so I could only remain silent and lower my head in embarrassment.
However, Gu Yichen actually spoke first.
His voice was noticeably hoarse: "I have something to ask you."
Such a voice seemed to carry magic. I nodded woodenly and followed him out of the cafeteria.
The midday sun shines lazily above our heads, warming our hearts.
Gu Yichen and I sat next to the garden, breathing the fresh air.
"I heard everything you and Xiyu said just now." He was the first to break the silence and said this.
I stood there in a daze.
My heart started beating violently at this moment.
He said he heard it?
Doesn't that mean he already knows who I am?
I turned my head expectantly and met Gu Yichen's dark eyes, but there was a confusion in his eyes that I couldn't understand, and this confusion made me feel inexplicably uneasy.
Time passes by little by little.
Gu Yichen's expression became more and more strange.
He hesitated, and finally asked with some difficulty: "Xia Zimu, did we know each other when we were little?"
For a moment, these words seemed to pull us so far apart.
I stared at his eyes in astonishment, trying to see a hint of joking in them, but I saw nothing but confusion.
I turned my head and gave a bitter smile.
After a long while, I answered, "Yes, we used to play together when we were little."
The air froze, leaving only the faint fragrance of flowers and plants.
Gu Yichen's expression became more and more weird. He kept staring at me, but in the end he didn't say anything.
The feeling of loss grew stronger and stronger, almost making it difficult for me to breathe.
It turned out that after knowing who I was, he reacted so calmly.
Maybe Gu Yichen has never taken his childhood events to heart?
Did he forget the promise to take me to see the sunflowers?
The sounds of students playing around me were extremely harsh to my ears.
I couldn't stand this kind of atmosphere, so I got up quickly, said "I have something else to do" in a hurry, and left the place.
Every step is difficult.
Although I know that Gu Yichen likes Su Xiyu, Gu Yichen’s reaction at this time really makes me uncomfortable.
But I seemed to be able to feel that Gu Yichen's eyes were following me for a long time, without moving away, until I walked very far away.
The dust in the air danced and fluttered, and finally disappeared in the sunlight, as if burned to ashes by the sunlight.
When I walked back to the classroom, I found it was empty. Someone had left their phone behind, and it was vibrating in loneliness.
I sat in my seat blankly, carefully recalling what happened today, when Ye Lanluo's face suddenly appeared before my eyes.
We actually knew each other when we were kids...
Did Ye Lanluo behave in those strange ways because he already knew that I was that girl from the past?
This thought makes me extremely happy, but...
The smile on the corner of his mouth faded away again.
If he really knew who I was, why didn't he tell me?
These thoughts piled up in my mind.
I sorted it out carefully bit by bit, and finally felt that no matter what, Ye Lanluo was someone I once knew, and meeting him again now was indeed a happy thing!
I suddenly wanted to see him quickly.
This feeling became stronger and stronger, and finally I couldn't hold it in any longer and ran out of the classroom.
Where would Ye Lanluo be at this time?
The scene of him sitting at the piano and playing solo in the music classroom that day flashed through my mind.
Could he be there now?
A smile crept onto my cheek unconsciously.
I quickened my pace and ran towards the music classroom.
The sound of hurried footsteps echoed in my ears.
When I arrived at the music classroom, there was no pleasant piano sound coming from inside.
I stood in front of the closed door, and the expectations in my heart gradually faded away.
Could it be that... he is not playing the piano at this moment, but just sitting there?
With such expectation, I took a deep breath, slowly reached out and touched the door handle.
The door opened, and the sunlight filled the entire music classroom, and the clean floor also took on a warm color.
But I didn't see that familiar figure.
I walked in slowly and looked at the empty music classroom. My heart felt like it was being pressed down by a huge stone and I couldn't breathe.
He is not here.
I pursed my lips, walked slowly to the piano, and sat on the piano stool with a lost feeling.
Stretch out your fingers and gently touch the black and white keys, and clear sounds flow out.
I kept touching the keys absentmindedly.
The arrangement of fate is really magical. We thought we would never have the chance to meet again, but we actually met in the same school.
But to my disappointment, the first person to recognize me was Su Xiyu...
Why can she remember my name for a long time, but Ye Lanluo and Gu Yichen can't? Do they not care about me at all?
Lost, sad, helpless...many emotions enveloped me.
After sitting in the quiet music classroom for a long time and still not seeing Ye Lanluo, I left reluctantly.
When I returned to the classroom, I saw Xiaole sitting in her seat.
She looked at me worriedly and waved.
Looking at her concerned expression, all my emotions came up in an instant. I walked over quietly and sat next to her.
"Xiao Le." My voice trembled slightly, "Ye Lanluo was also someone I once knew."
Xiaole opened his mouth in surprise.
I turned my head and looked at the still bright sunshine outside, and a feeling of joy unconsciously welled up in my heart.
On my way home, I stopped for a while in the school corridor.
When I passed by the music classroom, I couldn't help but look there again, but found that the door was open and there were two people standing inside.
The figure looks familiar.
I quietly hid outside the door and looked inside carefully, only to find that the people inside were Ye Lanluo and Su Xiyu!
How did they get together?
My instinct told me that I should leave, but my feet wouldn't listen.
"Ye Lanluo, you know I like you, right?" Su Xiyu's voice came, "The person I like has always been you."
Su Xiyu actually confessed her love to Ye Lanluo...
I opened my mouth in surprise and almost made a sound.
I tried my best to suppress my emotions, but my heart was in my throat.
How would Ye Lanluo answer?
After a long silence, Ye Lanluo's cold voice rang out: "I don't like you, and the person you like is not me."
Just this short sentence made me fully imagine how desperate Su Xiyu was.
But I don’t know why, I was actually happy about Ye Lanluo’s rejection.
This means...the person Ye Lanluo likes is not Su Xiyu, right?
But why did Ye Lanluo say that the person Su Xiyu liked was not him?
What strange people they are!
Su Xiyu panted heavily. She said to Ye Lanluo calmly, "Ye Lanluo, the person you like is Xia Zimu, right?"
The person Ye Lanluo likes is me?
My heartbeat suddenly quickened.
Ye Lanluo pursed her lips, looking slightly annoyed, but didn't say anything.
"It doesn't matter...it doesn't matter..." Su Xiyu smiled bitterly and repeated, "Although you didn't admit it, I know that the person you like is Xia Zimu, and it has always been like that."
Ye Lanluo's silence seemed to make Su Xiyu very angry. She suddenly changed her expression and looked at Ye Lanluo with a gloating look: "But she doesn't like you, right?"
Ye Lanluo's expression suddenly became extremely sad.
But Su Xiyu still didn't let Ye Lanluo go.
"Ye Lanluo, do you know that you are really pathetic? You don't even have the courage to admit it."
Looking at the sad Ye Lanluo, I suddenly felt extremely heartbroken.
Ye Lanluo is not a pathetic person...
I couldn't bear it any longer, so I quickly walked out from behind the door and loudly accused Su Xiyu: "Su Xiyu, is this how you show that you like someone? You don't know what love is, you only like yourself!"
The air seemed to freeze at that moment.
Su Xiyu was surprised at first, then looked at me angrily, with the corner of her mouth curled up more and more. She glanced cruelly at the silent Ye Lanluo, and then asked loudly: "Xia Zimu, do you like Ye Lanluo?"
"Crackle", it was as if a bolt of lightning struck my head.
I froze there for a moment, not knowing how to answer such a question.
Do I like Yelanluo?
I turned my head stiffly like a robot and looked at Ye Lanluo.
There seemed to be a hint of expectation in Ye Lanluo's originally gloomy eyes.
Su Xiyu continued to smile cruelly, as if she was watching some ridiculous play.
I didn't answer, just stood there blankly.
Suddenly, Ye Lanluo came to my side.
He didn't look at me, but just glanced at Su Xiyu coldly: "Su Xiyu, there are some things you will never understand."
After saying that, he took my hand and left the music classroom.
His palms were cold, but I missed them so much.
I turned back quietly and found that Su Xiyu was looking at us with a pale face. Then she stomped her feet angrily and left alone.
Silent corridor.
Ye Lanluo and I held hands and walked slowly towards the school gate.
Turning my head to look at Ye Lanluo's indifferent expression, I still felt very uncomfortable, but I didn't know how to comfort him...
Su Xiyu said before that Ye Lanluo liked me. Isn’t that simply impossible?
Just when I was about to ask for clarification, Ye Lanluo suddenly stopped and let go of the hand that was holding mine.
I didn't know what he was going to do, so I could only stare at him.
Ye Lanluo looked at me, took two steps back and said softly, "Don't comfort me. Su Xiyu's words mean nothing to me. You don't have to feel troubled."
After saying that, he looked at me deeply and left alone.
Looking at his back, I originally wanted to chase him, but reason stopped me.
If I really catch up, what should I say?
For some reason, I lowered my head feeling a little disappointed.
Su Xiyu was indeed talking nonsense...
How could it be possible that the person Ye Lanluo likes is me?
The sun shines on my face.
I stood there quietly, looking lonely.
The corridor was so long that it seemed to have no end.